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A couple days later Mason was meeting with Charlie's dad about his DUI conviction and filling out the paperwork for a request for an administrative hearing to get his license back while Charlie was accompanying Olivia to the OB/GYN for an ultrasound to find out the sex of her baby. Olivia still hadn't talked to Husky and they were no longer living together. She only gave him the information he needed about the baby and nothing more. Charlie tried to convince her to talk to him but she wouldn't, even Bella tried to talk her into talking to Husky but she wouldn't budge. She was so stubborn it was unbelievable. She told Husky about the appointment but she didn't invite him. Charlie wished she would have so she could be at the meeting with her dad and Mason but instead she was sitting in the waiting room by her best friend's side. "So what do you think it is?" asked Olivia.
"I don't know," said Charlie. "A girl probably."
"That's what I think but I really want a boy. I hope they can tell me today."
"Me too. Why didn't you invite Husky? It's his baby too."
"Because I don't want to see him," she said, "that's why. I will text him the results when I'm done."
"That's a bit harsh, Olivia," said Charlie. "He should be here. He should get to experience this right along with you."
"And he should have thought about that before he cheated on me," she said.
"Stop being so stubborn and selfish and think about your baby. It needs a father and a mother that get along. You're going to need to face Husky some time."
"I know but that day isn't today," she said as the nurse called her back. Charlie and Olivia got up and walked to the back. They took them into a small room and gave Olivia a gown to put on. She was starting to show pretty good but she wasn't really that big. She was pretty normal for the 4-5 month mark. The nurse told her the doctor would be in shortly to check on her as Olivia sat up on the table. "I'm so excited, Charlie. I love this part."
"Me too," said Charlie. She was a bit envious that Olivia was pregnant and she wasn't but she wasn't going to let it get in the way of Olivia's moment. She just wished she was going through the same thing. She wasn't angry or anything she just wanted to be pregnant but her and Mason had both agreed to wait till after they moved to Wales to get pregnant.
"I really hope it cooperates," she said, "Ellie didn't want to cooperate when I was pregnant with her. She would not let the doctor know what she was until I gave birth to her. What about Laney?"
"She had no problem showing us she was a girl," said Charlie.
She must have had some type of tone because Olivia said, "Is something wrong?"
"No," she said as the doctor came in to the room.
The doctor introduced herself to Charlie and went through standard procedure with Olivia before telling her to lay back on the table. She turned the machine on and got everything ready for the ultrasound. As Charlie watched she grew that same pang in her stomach of wanting one. She thought she was over the whole miscarriage but as she watched the doctor perform Olivia's ultrasound she knew she wasn't and she wanted to go back on her promise with Mason. She wanted to try for a baby. She wanted that. She wanted to be the one getting an ultrasound. She wanted to be the one having the baby. She was happy for Olivia but she just wanted to experience it too. "All right," said the doctor as she took the wand over Olivia's growing stomach, "there is the baby. There is its head, there's its arm and its other arm." Charlie could feel the tears in her eyes as she watched the ultrasound. "And it looks like it's a little boy."
"A boy," said Olivia, "I'm having a boy, Charlie."
"I know," said Charlie as she could no longer hold back from crying. "Excuse me," she said as she got up to leave the room. Charlie went to the nearest bathroom and let it all out. She couldn't remember ever crying about losing the baby she was pregnant with but now everything she had built up inside over the last couple months was pouring out. It was a long time coming and just seeing how happy Olivia was and how excited she was made Charlie breakdown. She was happy for her friend but it was still really hard for her to see. She managed to get herself together and went out to the waiting room to wait for Olivia to come out. She couldn't go back into the room it was too painful for her.
She was sitting out in the waiting room for about 10 minutes before Olivia came out. Olivia scheduled her next appointment and then walked over to Charlie. "Are you okay?"
"Liv, I'm fine. I just want to go home. I don't' want to talk about it."
"All right," she said as they left the doctor's office and headed back to Charlie's house.
Meanwhile back at Charlie's and Mason's house Mason and Charles were discussing his DUI conviction. "You do understand this is a serious offense, right, Mason?"
"I know," he said. "It was a mistake on my part. I should have never driven my car while I was intoxicated."
"Well, you did and you could face some time in jail along with losing your license for a year. Is this your first offense?"
"Yes, Sir," he said, "I never drunk and drove in my life until the other night. This was my first offense."
"Well, we might be able to save your license. I'm going to do my best to try and you're probably going to need to go to an alcohol management class. I could do my best to get you out of going to jail. I could get you to pay a fine, court costs, jail costs or even do community service. They are pretty lenient when it comes to first time offenders but as for your driver's license they can suspend it up to a year," said Charles.
"I know," said Mason, "but in a year I won't be here."
"You'll have to wait and see about that. They might not let you move."
"Great," said Mason.
"And you are a citizen correct?"
"Yes," said Mason. "I have my citizenship papers. If I wasn't I would have been deported already."
"Okay," he said, "I just had to make sure. Out of everything what would you like to go for because you are going to be punished in some way."
"I would like a license suspension for 60 days maybe even 90 days. I am even willing to do community service, I will pay fines, pay court costs and jail costs. I will also go to the class. I just don't want to be in jail. How long is the jail time?"
"48 hours up to a year, Mason, but I'm sure you could get off with 48 hours. It's all up to the judge and how he or she sees things. I mean your alcohol level was WAY above the legal limit but it was also your first offense. It all depends on the judge and what they want. You are planning on pleading guilty right?"
"Yes, Sir," said Mason.
"Good because that's the easiest way to go. I'm sure everything will be fine but what possessed you to go out and get behind the wheel of a car while intoxicated? That's just not you, Mason."
"Charlie and me had a fight. She wanted me to leave so I left," he said. "It wasn't a big deal."
"You drove drunk it was a big deal or you wouldn't be facing this. Mississippi takes drinking and driving VERY seriously. What were you two fighting about?"
"I didn't tell her Husky cheated on Olivia. She felt I should have but I was being loyal to my friend. We talked about it and we're okay now."
"That's good. You're a good guy, Mason, and since Charlie has been with you this is the happiest she's ever been. I'm happy about that. You're the best thing to ever happen to her."
"Thanks," said Mason as Charlie stormed into the house and went upstairs to her room. Olivia walked into the dining room where Charles and Mason were. "What was that all about?"
"I have no idea," said Olivia, "we were at the doctor's and I got my ultrasound and she just broke down. She said she won't talk about it."
"Oh boy," said Mason. "I'll go talk to her," he said, "so what are you having a boy or girl?"
"Boy," said Olivia with a smile.
"Congratulations," he said, "sorry to cut you off but I really have to go make sure Charlie is okay."
"That's fine. I have to call Husky anyway to tell him the news and then pick Ellie up. I hope Charlie is okay. Tell her I will call her later."
"I will," he said, "bye."
"Bye," said Olivia as she left and Mason went upstairs to check on Charlie.
He got up to the room and walked in to see her laying on the bed crying. "Are you all right?" he asked as he walked into the room.
"No," she said through her tears.
"What's wrong?" he asked. "Why are you crying?"
"Because I'm upset over the miscarriage and I'm jealous that my best friend is having a baby but I'm not. We should be having a baby, Mason. Why did God take our baby from us?"
"Charlie," he said, wrapping his arm around her, "it just wasn't the time for us to have a baby. We had so much going on it just wasn't the time. We have a wedding in about 8 months and we're moving to Wales. It's just not time for a baby right now. Things happen that we will never understand but you have to trust that God has a plan for you. He may have taken this baby from us but I'm willing to bet we're going to have one eventually."
"I know but it's not fair. I want to have a baby, Mason and just sitting in that doctor's office with Olivia today and seeing how happy she was made me want one more."
"Charlie, we agreed we would wait until we move to Wales before we try for a baby."
"I know but I want to try for a baby. I really do, Mason. I want one. Every time I see a baby I want one even more. I feel so horrible because I should be happy for Olivia but I'm jealous. I'm jealous of my best friend because she has something I don't. I shouldn't feel this way. I know I shouldn't but I can't help it."
"Charlie, I think you just want a baby because you lost one. It's not a good idea to have a baby to replace a lost one."
"No, Mason, I want a baby because I'm ready to have another baby. I never thought of having another baby until after I miscarried. I'm not trying to replace a baby. I really want one. I know I said we should wait but I don't want to wait. I want to try for a baby. I'm ready for a baby."
"Charlie, I don't know," said Mason. "I think you should think about this."
"I did, Mason, I want to have a baby. Every time I see a baby or am around something dealing with a baby I get that pang, that need, that want.. Mason, I want to try for a baby. I think a baby would be good for us. Please, Mason," she said.
"Charlie, I just think right now is not a good time to try for a baby. I think you just have a case of baby fever and it will all go away eventually. I don't want to try so soon. I want to wait to make sure you're completely over this miscarriage. I want to make sure you're really sure about having a baby and ready to have a baby. Charlie, rushing into this is NOT a good idea. I think we should wait."
"I don't need to wait and I am ready to have a baby," she said.
"No, Charlie, you're not. If you were ready to have a baby you wouldn't be jealous of your best friend because she's having one. You're jealous of her because you lost a baby which means you're not over the miscarriage which means you are no where near ready to try for a baby. I'm sorry but I'm doing the right thing for you here, Charlie. I want you to wait. When you're really ready you will know."
"I am ready and I know I am," she said crying harder. "I want a baby and I'm ready to have a baby."
"No Charlie, you're not. I know you're confused and you don't understand but you think you're ready to have a baby because your jealous of your friend and you want one but you're not ready. Rushing into it is NOT a good idea. Just listen to me," he said. "Please, I don't want to do something that you're not ready for."
"But I am ready," she said crying.
"Charlie, you're not," he said as he pulled her closer. "Please just listen to me."
Charlie couldn't argue anymore and cried harder on Mason's shoulder. She realized she wasn't ready and that she should wait a little longer. She realized she wasn't over the miscarriage since she was just now letting out her feelings about it. "Mason," she said, "you're right. I'm not ready. I want to wait a little bit longer."
"Good," he said, "I know it hurts you seeing people with babies and knowing your best friend is pregnant but you have to remember everything is about timing while it might be time for them to have babies it's not our time. Our time will come when it's time. And just remember the longer you have to wait for something the more you're going to enjoy it in the end."
"I guess you're right but I just don't understand this. I get the time thing but I still don't get it," said Charlie.
"I know it's hard to understand but everything happens for a reason. I promise you that when the timing is right it will happen for us and we will have the most beautiful and perfect baby. Right now you just need time to heal and understand things happen for a reason. You'll be all right, Charlie, we'll be all right. We'll get through this but you can't rush it. It's going to take time and we'll both know when the time is right."
"How will we know?" asked Charlie.
"It won't hurt anymore and it won't feel like we're going to feel better by having a baby to ease that hurt. We'll know because it won't hurt anymore and I am still hurting, Charlie. I am. I try to be strong about it but it still hurts," he said with tears in his eyes.
"I know," said Charlie as she took Mason's hands and intertwined their fingers, "it does hurt. Do you think it will ever go away?"
"Eventually but it's going to take some time," he said, "but right now we have each other to get through this and we will. We're going to be all right," he said as he kissed her hand.
"Good because I need you to help me get through this."
"I'll be here, Charlie, I'm not going anywhere," he said, "I love you."
"I love you too," said Charlie as she rested her head on his chest. Just being in his arms was a comfort to her. Right now they were both hurting but that day would come when they would stop hurting and be ready to try for another baby. They didn't know when but they knew one day everything would be okay again but as long as they were there for one another everything would turn out okay and they would get through it.
*A/N: So what did you think? Please review and thank-you for taking the time to read.
