Disclaimer: I do not own these characters. They are J.K.Rowling's creation. I just corrupt them to my fancy.

Rating: M just to be safe and it will go in the M area later on

Summery: A story about Remus' days at Hogwarts starting at day one. It will mostly be about him and Sirius. It will be Slashed in later years. Will contain Slash if you do not like slash do not read.

A/N: I want to thank everyone who read and reviewed

Phases 1.15

Remus sat in the library. He had cast aside his Herbology homework. Instead he watched the other students. It was Valentine's Day and the castle was overrun by love struck students. He smiled as he watched the girls blush at receiving a card. The boys, he was surprised, also blushed like mad when either giving or receiving cards. He thought it was a crazy holiday.

Remus did not see himself ever acting like this. A relationship was not worth the bother. He didn't think he would ever find a girl who would accept his condition. Nah he would live a solitary life. This way he would never have to worry about forgetting important dates or saying the wrong thing about her shoes. He shuddered at the thought.

But he continued to watch as the older students made goofy faces at their valentine's. He looked on as they all got excited about dates to Hogsmeade. Sickening, luckily his train of thought was broken by the arrival of Sirius and James.

"I thought we would be able to escape the love struck in here." James said as he surveyed the library.

"I will never act like that." Sirius gestured to the couples and sat down next to Remus. "Girls would just get in the way of our marauding."

"Absolutely." Remus chuckled; he didn't think Sirius would escape girls. The girls from their class already were eyeing him. They were constantly pointing, giggling and turning beet red when caught.

"Look," Sirius nudged Remus' arm and motioned towards a table occupied by first and second years. "Don't they know that they look ridiculous when the gawk?" Sirius wore a look of pure disgust.

Remus smiled at his friend. He was glad that he forgave Sirius for his stupidity. The prank against Letcher didn't actually get him into trouble. He did miss spending time with Sirius. Since the holidays ended he spent more time in the library and Sirius spent more time with James. He knew that would happen, but he missed it anyway.

He was watching a particularly nauseating couple in the far corner of the library when he heard owls swoop in. He heard a gasp and looked over to see Sirius hold up a pick envelope. Sirius looked like he was about to lose his lunch. Remus bit on his lower lip to keep from laughing. He looked over at James and saw a matching look of revulsion.

Sirius looked at his envelope and slowly opened it. He slid out a Valentine's Day card. It was covered in pink and red hearts of all sizes. He opened it and read 'Be my Valentine'. It was signed Ellen. He scanned the library to find the culprit, a first year Hufflepuff. He spotted her across the room blushing and smiling at him. He quickly looked at James as he opened his.

James received a similar card, but it was signed Heather. She was a first year Hufflepuff as well. James turned scarlet and stared back at Sirius. Remus couldn't hold back any longer, he burst into a fit of laughter.

James and Sirius turned to look at their ex-friend.

"What is so funny Remus?" Sirius asked.

"You two, you should see the looks on your faces! I can't believe you got cards." Remus was starting to tear up from his laughter.

"Hmm I am guessing our looks will be nothing compared to yours." Sirius was grinning from ear to ear. He pointed to the book Remus had been reading.

Remus' eyes widened in shock, he slowly turned his gaze to his book. There on the book was a pink envelope similar to the ones James and Sirius had gotten. He was afraid to open it. Who would send him a card? With a trembling hand he slid out the card. It was different from the ones his friends had gotten. It was truly a homemade card. It had a single heart. It had the pattern of roses outlined in gold. It had raffia tied to the middle of it. Remus could tell that whoever made this spent time on it. It was very nice, much better than the one Sirius and James had received.

He opened it and read the inscription, 'Be my Valentine' and it was signed Jessica. Remus looked up to see if she was in the library. She was sitting with Ellen and Heather. She was not looking at him; rather she had her nose in a book. Remus suppressed a smile; she was a Ravenclaw through and through.

"Remy's got a girl friend." Sirius and James chortled.

"Bugger off you two." Remus huffed as he gingerly placed the card back in its envelope. He put it in his book so it would not get damaged.

He knew his face had to be beet red. He glared at his friends until they left the library. When he was sure they were gone he took out the card. He read it again and wondered why he had received it. He had only spoken to Jessica a few times. What did she see that he did not? Or was this some kind of sick joke?

Remus' so called friends teased him all day. He just did his best to ignore them. He waited for the others to finish using the showers before he went in. When he finished showering he climbed in to bed. He said to good night to them and rested his head on his pillow. James and Peter said good night and closed their bed curtains.

"Good night Remus, sleep well and hope you have great dreams about Jessica." Sirius snickered as he quickly closed his curtains.

The other boys laughed. Remus growled and closed his eyes. He hoped for a quick passage into slumber.

Remus tossed and turned. His sleep was restless. It was strange. He couldn't put a finger on what was different. He woke feeling tired and very snarky. He got up and dressed. He sat on his bed and waited for the others to awaken. He watched them intently.

He turned his gaze to Sirius. He watched as the boy slept. His eyes followed the movement of his chest with every breath. He crept over to Sirius' bed and knelt beside it. He parted the bed curtain and watched. Sirius' eyes move back and forth in tune with his dream. Sirius' lip twitched. He just watched. He heard the others begin to stir and left.

Remus felt strange and decided to go get something to eat. He was still restless. He just picked at his food. He sniffed the air and turned to see his friends enter the great hall. Sirius sat next to him as usual and that seemed to put him at ease.

They got up to go to class and Remus watched Sirius and James walk ahead of him. Remus smiled as Sirius took the seat next to him in Letcher's class. Letcher seemed to be having an off day. He wasn't nearly the bastard he usually was towards Remus. He actually seemed to be nice to him.

Remus entered the dorm room and kicked his trunk. He was furious that Sirius and James took off to plan a prank. Sirius didn't ask him to come along. Sirius was hanging all over James today. He let out a long growl. He wanted to plan pranks with Sirius today.

Remus crawled into bed not even bothering to change. Hopefully a good night's sleep would clear his head. He wanted to shake this mood he was in.

Sirius entered the room and saw Remus sleeping. Well if you could call it sleeping, he was thrashing about. His blankets were on the floor in a heap. Sirius walked over to Remus and sat next to him. He covered him in the blankets and put his hand on his shoulder.

"Shh it's alright Remus." Sirius whispered.

Remus seemed to rest on his side. He stopped tossing and turning. His breathing slowed as well. Sirius stayed where he was and watched Remus. Why had he acted so strangely today? It was very unlike him to be so agitated. He wished he knew what Remus saw when he slept. It pained him to see him tormented by his dreams.

Sirius had talked to James about his concerns. James thought it was nothing to worry about. He didn't think anything was wrong – just that Remus was a private person. He obviously didn't want them to know. James thought that if it was something important Remus would tell them.

Sirius believed it was important.

TBC...