Ok, so I have worked out that this is the last chapter I have uploaded to edit :O So I think I might have a few more on the main computer, but after that I will be writting them, so it might be good... Anyways, on with the chapter and everything.

I would like to thank EVERYONE for all the reviews I have got and everything.. I have 143!! Soooo... can we make it to a hundred and fifty?

dani6531 threeeee: Oh my god, three reviews? WOW. I finally took the time to read your fic, although im not finished reading it and everything yet.. But I will get there! I am reading and reviewing more tonight :D And I know what you mean, Harry was acting like a total knobhead, and as for Tom, well it was his little cousin, but it was also one of his best friends. He just didnt know what to do, because if he fell out with Joy, then he would know she would forgive him. If no one had guessed already, thats what he was hinting at in one of the previous chapters where he lay in bed with her? Basically Tom knew something was going on, and he needed to know that no matter what happened she would be there. And so thats why he didnt say anything, because he didnt want anything to mess up with the band and everything.. following so far? Anyways, I know it was sweet about the bit about him and Gio though, I thought I would put something sweet in there about them too :) And Peyton and Roxy will be sad, but we just have to see what happens right? And you just simply have to update your fic, it is amazing!

GroowyBells: I know what you mean, scary and sore but it is only a ruptured blood vessel in the back of my throat and I am getting there now. I have to be up and well for Saturday cause I have a wedding to go to and everything, no matter how much I dont want to go haha. And how does it look strange? The review I mean haha. Anyways I am glad you like it so here is more for you :)

xMcflyxLoverxKatiex: I know what you mean, and it should all turn out good for her right? She did deserve better than what Harry did to her, but to find out what will happen next you just have to keep on reading :D

Roxy.

I sat on the sofa, a glass of milk in hand. I felt a warm salty tear slipping down my face and I realised, I just couldnt believe she had gone. My twin sister and I hadnt even noticed that there was something wrong between her and Harry. Because I had been so up my own arse. I just couldnt get my head around the fact that she was gone for good, that I might not see her again and I hadnt even noticed that she was slowly falling apart with him not being there. I hadnt noticed why he wasnt there. I should have done more to help her, but even now, sitting here, I couldnt work out exactly what it was I should have done. If I didnt notice, then there was nothing I could have done, and if I had noticed, what would I have done? I couldnt tell her, because she either wouldnt believe me, or she would realise I was telling the truth, hate me for ruining it for her and leave anyway. If I confronted Harry about it he would deny it, or persuade me to lie to my flesh and blood for him, and I would feel all the worse anyways, because she would have found out, and blamed me for not telling her.

I had no explanation for myself, for why I had been so selfish and self absorbed. Or for what I should have or could have done. In my mind, there were so many other options, but technically, there was nothing I could have done. I just didnt want her to turn out like me and Dougie had, because I knew Harry would come back to haunt her in the future anyway.

Peyton sat down beside me. She read over the piece of paper I had scrunched up and thrown at the floor in anger and in hurt. I couldnt bare it, and I certainly couldnt look at it, it was something that hurt me, the whole thought of her being out there alone and not able to fight for her own life. I had always been the one who would fight for us, keep us safe, while she had the brains. I couldnt believe I had been so involved in my own life, I totally ignored one of the most important people in it. What if she got hurt? If something happened to her and it would be all my fault?

I did hope that the floor would just open up and swallow it, that small piece of paper that had hurt me so much more than anything, spitting Joy back out on its way. Hoping that god existed for one second just so he could bring her back, just so I could appologise. I knew what had hurt me most about her leaving. 1 - her leaving. 2 - she hadnt felt she was able to talk to me while she was here, and so she left nothing but a poxy note to break the news to me.

But no matter how much I tried to use my mind and its powers. Or god and his powers, nothing was working. She was just simply not going to appear in front of me.

I thought about everything she had said in the note, and it didnt make sense. If we were so close, why could she not have woken me and told me what was going on, why she was going, where she was going. I could keep it a secret. But maybe she thought I would tell Danny, who in turn would tell Harry, and then everything would be blown out the water again. Maybe she thought this way was easiest for her, so that she wouldnt have to keep disappearing, this way she would only have to hurt us all once.

I'm so sorry Rox. I just have to leave because I know that if I stay I will either do something stupid, or forgive the one person I hate to think about, just simply because I love him.

I know I probably should have told you about this whole plan, but it wasnt really a plan. I was just lying there, thinking of how hard it would be when everyone got up, and I didnt want to be there when he did come sauntering into the livingroom, probably with another girl hanging off his arm. It was more of a spur of the moment type of thing.

I feel that I can trust you, but I dont want you to come after me, because I know I will just want to go home with you. But I can't knowing they will be there. I cant help but think that he will just hurt me all over again by being with someone else. Because the only thing hurting me more than leaving you, is the thought of that, and the sight might simply destroy me.

I think I have decided to further my education, because you know how much I loved School. I want to be something I can be proud of, and there might be another reason, but im not leaving it in a note. I know that I want to be something I can be respected for. Something people can be amazed by.

I want to appologise, I know for a matter of fact im going to miss you, and everything you have ever done for me. Staying at Tom's was your thing, and even when I went there, you took me under your wing like you normally do, and I love you and appreciate you all the more for those kind of things you did.

I know im going to miss him, but at the same time I know that there is no way I can be with him, because it would only hurt me more and more each day. I will always miss you all, even ToTo.

I love you sis, and please. Dont blame yourself.

Joy x.x

I couldn't believe she would just wake me up and give me an explanation, I mean I totally agree that I probably would have tried to make her stay, but I would have soon realised I was doing it for me, not her. I just didnt understand. I mean, I didnt know what she meant by including ToTo, obviously this meant she loved everyone, including Tom, but it made no sense, why wouldnt she love him? Did she know something I didnt? Or did he? Was something said, or going on that I didnt realise? I mean I knew I hadnt realised a lot of things recently, but what was she on about? And what was it she wouldnt tell me in a letter? Was there someone else on her side? Was she in trouble? Pregnant? What?

But all the same, I knew who was to blame for this. I knew who needed to be the one to leave, and I knew exactly why he wasnt going. My sister left, and he was walking about looking like a miserable git, when he was the one that brought this on himself. He was going to be the one who felt all my pain, who felt like he was sticking out like a sore thumb. Which he would be for the next short time.

I still didnt know why Tom just sat back and drank a beer while everything was going on in that club, it was his cousin for freaks sake, I mean, if it was me? No he wouldnt do anything, because he completely disappeared from the scene when the whole thing happened with me and Danny. He was making a decision which I could relate to. Sure, he grew up with us, we were his flesh and blood, although technically, they were his boys, they were everything to him at the moment, because of the band.

"You!" I screamed as Harry walked into the room, his face was red and his eyes bloodshot, he had obviously just woken up and had clearly been crying the night before. And because he had only just woken up, he didnt know that Joy had left, he didnt know that her leaving was all down to him, or at least thats what I thought. And the thing I didnt understand the most was, why was he crying? He brought this on himself. This was all his fault and if he didnt want to hurt her, he didnt have to do all that with another girl did he? I mean her leaving could be all to do with how she didnt want people to feel sorry for her and everything, or something to do with not wanting everyone knowing her business. Because if no one was there when she seen them, she probably would have pretended it had never happened.

And for all of this that he had caused. I hated him, with a passion. I couldnt stand him and how he feels like he was gods gift, although he was no where near it. My stomach turned as I seen him, I felt so angry I thought my head would fill up with steam until it poured from my ears. And then eventually my head would pop from my shoulders.

"Me?" He asked through a yawn as he raised a hand to catch it at his mouth, looking behind him as if he thought I was talking to Dougie again about something he had done wrong like eating something that didnt belong to him or like leave the toilet seat up in my bathroom. I looked at him dumfounded, I couldnt believe he hadnt realised what he had done, when he clearly knew that we had all seen how he had hurt her, and so he would obviously know that I would be angry with him. I didnt understand why he would know why I was angry at him, I mean, he publically humiliated her. And he didnt know Joy had left? How could he not have realised that? What on earth was she thinking when she liked him, why would she like someone who was that stupid? Infact no, how could she love someone that ignorant.

"Yes, you." I started, tears flowing down my face as I yelled in anger at him, raising a hand and pointing in his stupid big annoying face. He stood there looking confused as I walked towards him. "Everything is your fault. You and your stupidity. Do you not remember Joy even exists?!" I spat in his face as I asked him a question. Harry simply looked to the floor, as if he didnt want to say anything. How could he not have thought I would have a go, and if I didnt, what about if Dougie or Danny did, because Tom clearly wasnt going to.

I couldnt help myself, my arm flew up before my brain could say no to it, my hand grasping his chin, making him look into my eyes. I hated touching him, but I didnt want to be treated like I wasnt there, because I knew he was going to ignore me. I wanted him to know just how hurt I was.

"Look into my eyes and answer my question!" I growled in his face. Thinking about how stupid he was, and how she was amazing, he was lucky to even have her. She should never have even been with him, because he was rediculously arrogant to her.

"Look, Roxy about last night.." He started saying, his eyes welling up in tears just like my own. I knew he was going to spindle a bunch of lies to me, but it wasnt going to work. I wasnt going to believe him like she did, because typically his charm didnt work on me. If you could even call it a charm.

"Are you that ridiculously stupid that you dont even know what I am talking about, that you dont know that last night doesnt have the slightest smidge of significance to what I am going on about, I mean, it does when you look below the surface but you dont know where the fucking surface is do you?" I screamed at him again, causing him to flinch. He actually looked afraid, like I was about to jump on him and smack him until he was hospitalised, but I wouldnt.

"I dont know what you mean" His voice croaked at me, as he was losing his voice through tears. He was crying because he was scared, not because he was sorry, because he didnt know why he would be sorry, because he didnt know what I was going on about. In his mind, I was just some raving freak who was talking a load of bullshit to him.

"Joy's Gone!" I yelled fresh tears pouring from my tear ducts, "And she might never come back, now who's fault is that?" I asked him, tears streaming out of my face.

He didnt speak again, but simply let a tear fall. His face and colour had dropped, like it finally hit him as to what I was talking about, as to this beign all his fault.

I felt someone picking me up, his big strong arms holding me close to him as he walked away up the stairs with me. I didnt want to go, I wanted to hurt him like he hurt my sister, and therefore me. But I gave up trying, I couldnt keep fighting against something when I didnt know how to fight it.

**

"Baby, you're ok" He cradled me into his chest as we sat on the bed with me on his lap. I smiled a little as I smelled his skin around his neck, he always smelled so good. He held me softly as he comforted me, making sure that I knew he was going to be there for me all the way through this.

I knew how much I loved him, and just recently we had gotten back together, Peyton and Dougie were together as well and they were so cute together, constandtly laughing and joking and playing jokes on one another, but all in the same way, Danny was the different one, I mean yeah he made me laugh and everything but at the same time he would be there for me, so caring and loving.

I didnt know what I was going to do without her, I mean, what would I ever do if I had to sit in her position while she lay half dead in hospital?

I must admit, I was scared.

Scared I might lose her.

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