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"Amanda why don't you give me and your daddy a minute to talk," I say without looking away from Christian's stare.
"You promise you won't leave me?!"She asks Christian.
"I promise little one! I just need to talk to your mommy and then we can have a daddy/daughter day. Does that sound ok?" He asks finally tearing his gaze from me and looking at our daughter.
She nods her head and he puts her down.
"Now, go finish your lunch Amanda." I say as she is standing in front of Christian still unable to leave.
She finally huffs and walks back into the kitchen.
"Ana.." "Christian.." we say at the same time.
"If you don't mind, I would like to say what I want to say first. I don't want what happened last time to happen again." He jokes.
"Okay. Go ahead."
"Ana, I am mad at a lot of people right now. I am mad at my parents for not telling me and my dad for trying to pay you off. I am mad at Jamie and Mia who obviously knew you were pregnant and never told me. I am especially mad at you though. I am mad that you didn't let me choose what I wanted. You chose this for me. I never received your letters because my parents never gave them to me. However, you made this decision before you sent the letters. You decided this before we even broke up. Who won in this scenario Ana? I don't think anybody won, we were both lonely and she has grown up without a father. But you know who I am the maddest at? Myself. I didn't push and I didn't fight. You knocked me down when you broke up with me and I was just recently able to dust myself off. I failed us Ana. I was a young boy that was so head over heels in love that not being with you was never an option for me. I mean, Heck! I was going to propose the night we broke up! How I went from that to dating Elaine and rubbing her in your face, I don't know. I am truly sorry Ana. Please forgive me."
I just stood there processing his apology. Here I was ready for his wrath and prepared to beg for mercy and I find him the one begging. This isn't right. I am the one at fault here. Not him.
"Christian..Christian I am the one who should be apologizing. I should have told you a long time ago. You are right. I didn't give you the options. I chose this and I caused so much unnecessary suffering for all three of us. Please let me explain myself. I was a teenager who was going to have a baby. I had all these people (including myself) telling me that I was holding you back just being with you. I knew I would really hold you back if you found out about the baby. I wanted you to have your life first. I wasn't going to hide her from you forever. After she was born, I wanted you there. I wanted you to experience her growing and all the milestones with me. This is why I wrote you the letters. I know letters are kind of old fashioned now but they seemed appropriate. I guess I always knew you never got them. I want to believe that you benefited (won) in this situation. If that wasn't the case I would have never kept her from you. Trust me, I was punished for everything I did to you the moment she was born. She looks exactly like you Christian. Every time I look into her eyes I see you. I see the pain I caused both of you. I was head over heels in love with you too. I still am. There has never been anyone else. There will never be anyone else! There is nothing to forgive Christian. I wouldn't let you fight..Please forgive me." I choke out as tears are flowing like waterfalls down my face..
"I forgive you Ana. I forgave you the moment our little girl opened the door and called me Daddy." He proclaimed as he pulled me in for an embrace.
We stayed like this, molded together-each other's body matching up perfectly like two puzzle pieces, in complete silence for a while. Neither one of us wanted to let the other go in fear they would disappear into thin air.
"Ana?" Christian asked finally breaking the silence. "Ana…Whose baby is this?" He is looking over my head at Penelope who is sitting in her crib.
"Oh.." I say as I pull away from our embrace and wipe the remaining tears from my face. "She is my mom's. She was left on our doorstep two years ago. That is another thing I lied to you about Christian. I didn't leave my parent's house, they kicked me out. First they tried to kick the baby out of me when your dad told my dad and then they kicked me out of the house."
"My poor Ana. I wish you would have told me when all this was going on. I would have helped you. I would have protected you." He pulls me back in for another embrace.
"Wait!" I exclaim suddenly remembering something. "I have something for you!" I run out of the room and into my bedroom. I grab something from my closet and run back. "Okay close your eyes and hold out your hands." I command.
"Ana..What is it? Just give it to me.." He pouts.
"Close your eyes and hold out your hands!"
"Fine."
When I am positive his eyes are closed I place the object in his hands.
"Open!"
"Ana where did you find this? I have been looking all over for it!" He exclaims as he stares in wonder at his Piglet stuffed animal he left when he went off to college.
"I went to your house the day you left for college, after graduation. I was going to tell you about Amanda then. Heidi (his maid) gave this to me."
"Well I think we have had the worst case of bad luck when it comes to timing haven't we." He laughs and leans down to kiss me. Before his lips are able to meet mine our daughter barges in the room and grabs his hand.
"It seems our streak continues." I call to him as she is trying to pull him down the hall.
As I turn my attention back to Penelope I see she is fast asleep. I turn and quietly exit the room to check on the other girls. When I pass by the mirror in the hallway I see a bright eyed, smiling woman looking back at me. I finally have a complete family. My daughter finally has her father and he finally has his daughter. I look over at them on the couch. She is showing him the scrapbook we made with all of his accomplishments in it. I can't help but laugh as I think about the list Amanda talked about all the time that was filled with things she wanted to do when she met her dad. Showing him her scrapbook was first on the list.
Note to self: Ana and Christian together=good reviews and everyone is happy…lol.. thank you guys so much for all your support and reviews.. Keep reading!
