wARNING


"Love you."

"Love you too," Leon kissed his lips softly. "Goodnight."

"Sweet dreams, honey."


"No… ah-ahh…"

"Shh… you will become a part of me. I'll take you again and again until you surrender. You're my little puppet…"

"S-stop… nng… wait, I… I don't want—Ah! Hah… ahh…" tears were on the brims of his eyes, threatening to overflow. "Sephiroth… please wait… no more…"

A deep, velvety voice spoke in his ear. "This will only hurt enough to make you scream, okay? I promised to be gentle with you, after all…"

"No… NOO! AAAAHHHH!" he shrieked in pain as Sephiroth buried himself deep into Cloud's body and released. He pulled out, blood and semen staining the sheets as he readjusted his clothes and left the room. Cloud curled up in a ball and cried, his mind fading in and out of consciousness as a second figure spoke.

"Wake up, Cloud…"


"No… no…"

"Cloud, love… Wake up, Cloud…"

Blue eyes slipped open. "Oh… Leon…"

Leon frowned. "You were having another nightmare about ShinRa, weren't you?"

"Not exactly… Only about Sephiroth…"

"You had a dream about that bastard?"

"He was my hero, Leon. I guess that deep down I never stopped admiring his power…"

The brunette frowned, pulling Cloud into his arms. "Tell me. What happened in that dream? I want to know."

"Did you know… that Sephiroth was the one who took my virginity?"

"He what?" Leon growled.

"I relived that night in my dream… It wasn't so much sex as it was… rape… I suppose. Sometimes I still curl up and cry when I'm left alone after sex. You've seen it happen. You'll walk into the other room and come back to see me in tears."

"You were raped? Does anyone else know about this?"

"Of course not. No one else would have believed me anyway. But… I figured you should know."

"Why would you wait all this time to tell me something like this?"

"You want to know the reason I'm a masochist? Because Sephiroth hurt me that first time. I associate sex and pleasure with pain and blood. I want to be in pain because that's the only way I know how. I need to feel defiled and dominated. I want to be broken."

"I never want to hurt you, Cloud. I love you so much… I want to protect you from harm, but you don't make it easy when you constantly beg me to hurt you. I never want you to be in pain, Cloud. I want you to need to feel loved and cherished… to want to be caressed gently and feel cared for."

"Leon…" Cloud whispered his lover's name softly under his breath as a gentle kiss was placed between his brows.

"I love you, Cloud. Try to get some rest now, dear."

"I love you too, honey. So much…"

Leon kissed him gingerly, pulling away to smile warmly down at Cloud. "You're too cute. Sweet dreams."

"Goodnight…" Cloud drifted off to sleep.


Cloud's lips gingerly touched those of his lover. "I love you so much right now…" he whispered, getting comfortable in Leon's arms under their bedsheets.

It had been quite some time since they had been together like this, just together, not having sex or getting distracted from each other by the kids. Cloud sighed internally. 'It's usually one or the other… the sex is phenomenal, that's for sure, but is that really all we are to each other? Fuck-buddies?' he shifted uncomfortably, wondering if Leon would take notice.

Strong arms pulled him close.

"Baby, is something wrong?" the velvety, masculine voice said softly, concern in his tone. "You can tell me."

"Do you love me? Really love me, not just for the sex or because of the kids, but do you truly love me, Leon?"

"Of course I do, Cloud. If I were just in it for the sex, baby, I'm not going to lie, I would probably go for a chick with nice big boobs. It feels fantastic when I have sex with you, but I do it because I love you as a person, not as a sex object. And I don't want our relationship to revolve around the kids, but I'll include them in our life together if you want it. Because I love you and I want to be accepting of your life. All of it. I love you, Cloud. Far more than you realize."

"I love you so much, Leon. It's just that I was worried…"

"You thought I didn't love you because all we seem to do is have sex and take care of the kids?"

Cloud nodded sheepishly, feeling Leon kiss his forehead.

"You're too cute. So beautiful…" he kissed along his jawline. "I love you."

"I love you too," he smiled, turning around and lowering himself, looking up to meet his eyes and wordlessly ask if it was alright to pleasure him. Leon shook his head, lifting Cloud back up to kiss his lips, looking at the sad blue eyes of his blond lover. "No?" he said in a breathless whimper.

"Not tonight, baby. We can take in the simpler pleasures this time. I don't want a 'just sex' relationship with you, Cloud. You deserve so much better than that."

Cloud tipped his head, blinking in confusion. "I don't understand… What could be more simple?"

"Just trust me. I want you to really feel every little movement I make, even the slightest touch. Close your eyes, my love."

Cloud wordlessly obeyed, his eyes sliding shut as Leon's lips moved to gently ghost over his neck, moving from the base of his shoulder upwards to his ear, causing a sharp intake of air by the blond as a shiver of pleasure ran down his spine. Leon carefully took Cloud's ear lobe into his mouth and suckled on it, tongue teasing lightly as a soft mewl brewed in Cloud's throat. Cloud was confused at the new sensations in his body. He understood pleasure, but wasn't used to getting it this way. The loving touches and gentle kisses made his stomach pool with heat. "L-leon…" he squeaked out.

"Shh… you don't have to speak if you don't want to. Just let me take care of you."

"Take… care… of me…?" he breathed, feeling a soft kiss teasing one of his nipples now. He moaned, arching into the tender sensation.

Leon watched hungrily as his lover writhed beneath him, his hand gently but firmly stroking Cloud's erection. "That's right. I'll take care of you…"

Cloud was fully aroused now. It hadn't taken long at all. "Leon… Leon, please…" he bucked his hips helplessly in an attempt to get more from his lover's hand. The touches abruptly stopped, and Cloud's eyes snapped open as he whined in protest.

"Hush, love…" Leon removed Cloud's clothes slowly, and his head slowly lowered to place an open-mouthed kiss on the tip of Cloud's arousal, making the older man moan and writhe. "Don't get impatient," Leon scolded as Cloud nearly gagged him with a strong buck.

"I can't… I… I'm so close…"

"That didn't take too long. But this was all very unfamiliar to you, so I understand," he moved up to capture Cloud's lips as a few firm strokes sent him over the edge.

Cloud panted for breath as he wound down slowly, listening to the words "I love you" whispered over and over as he was lulled to sleep.


On a bit of a Cleon roll recently…