I was either close to snapping or crying and I can tell you right now I was not doing the latter.

I hadn't seen Hidan in nearly a week; a week of silence and boredom that was nearly suffocating. I thought I would love being left alone, hell I even prayed for him to leave me alone! Now that I had what I wished for, I didn't want any of it. It weighed down on me like an anchor, all of this silence when I was so accustomed to his insults or yelling. When silence envelops the sound, it's akin to drowning.

I didn't understand why he was avoiding me. I shouldn't have assumed something so ludicrous since I knew it was arrogant to think he would go out of his way for anything to do with me, but what else could he have been doing? He wasn't even going in his own room, for fuck's sake! What the hell did I do? If he was mad we always settled it, in a much fucking louder way than this!

I grumbled under my breath as I slammed the door shut to the room I had finished. If I was pissed I tended to get a little violent with things; still, you didn't see me going around and stabbing everything in sight. I pursed my lips as I noticed Hidan's room open. So, he decided to finally go in, did he? I would find out what the hell was wrong with him today. I was fed up with being ignored and treated like I'd committed some heinous act. He was the problem here, not me; and he needed to get over it. I loved when he was pissed off, but lately something about him was off…curiosity killed the cat they say. Well, I'm not a damn cat.

I silently padded down the corridor towards the room and glanced inside, he was staring at a book on the desk with a concentrated look; perfect chance for me unless he threw that book at me. I stepped in and slammed the door shut, he immediately whirled around. "What the fuck are you doing?" He demanded, pointing a finger accusatorily at me. I snorted in disbelief and gave him a bitter look.

"Me? What about you?! You haven't even looked at me in the last week! Are you just being a fucking bitch as always or did I actually do something?" My tongue was probably going to dig me my own grave, but when I was on the end of my rope I couldn't bother with control anymore. Hidan's eyes narrowed into a venomous glare as he stared at me for a moment, as if trying to decide if I had actually just said that.

"You always fucking do something, no one can leave you alone for ten minutes before your annoying ass finds something to destroy!" He shouted; I could tell we were both losing our tempers. I spluttered for a reply to the statement, but he opened his mouth again before I could cut him off. "And I'll fucking do whatever I want. If you need fucking attention why don't you go whore yourself out to someone else!" My eyes widened in shock at the harsh words. I was used to his vitriolic insults, but that still caught me off guard.

"I don't fucking want your attention!" I spat, tempted to throw the nearest object at his head. "If anyone's a whore here, it's you! You took my virginity without any care for what I wanted! I've been here for over a year doing whatever the fuck you told me to because I have no choice! What the fuck is wrong with you, you treat me like complete crap and then you turn around and act nice for an hour! I don't know how to fucking feel about you!" I had tried to stop talking, but my mind kept spitting out words. I felt my eyes were damp; like hell I would cry in front of him. I was panting by the time I'd finished; Hidan stared at me in silence for a second, I was almost going to think I'd finally shut him up. He clenched his hands together tightly and stalked up to me, his teeth were grit into a snarl.

"It's your fucking fault any of this happened, if you'd never shot your stupid mouth off then I never would have had to put up with you! You're a fucking piece of bad luck that's destroyed my damn life!" My mouth fell open in shellshock; how could he actually think that any of this was my fault?!

"I didn't ask for any of this, you bastard! I didn't want to spend my life being a fucking slave! I didn't think I'd end up here! You're the incarnation of everything I hate in this fucking world and yet I still can't get the hell away from you!" I could feel the last shreds of my sanity dissolving into nothing as I glared into his eyes, embers of anger sparking between us both.

He sardonically laughed, as if I were a mere child throwing a tantrum. "A slave is all you would ever be good for anyway. I thought you were going to be a submissive fucking bitch but all you are is a loud, troublesome, fucking destructive mutt!" I snarled furiously at him when he finished. How dare he try to make me out to be the villain in any of this, I had never done anything to deserve this shit.

"You're insane! You and your crazy religion and your fucking sadism! Everything about you is disgusting and violent and horrible! You should have killed me a long time ago before you fucking brainwashed me!" I felt as if my heart were about to explode in anger, it was pounding against my chest in a desperate attempt to escape my body. I was coming completely undone and it was entirely his doing.

"You crazy bitch, what the hell are you-mm!" I reached up to grab his pendant and jerked him down, roughly crushing our lips together. I felt every emotion inside of me combust the second I touched him, as if he were the toxin to destroy it all. Neither of us moved until I pulled back, panting for air as I stared at him in silence. I couldn't believe what I'd just done, had I finally gone off the deep end? Or had I just climbed out of it?

The air around us was thick with tension as the moment wore on; it was shattered in an instant. He violently slammed me backwards into the wall, as my body collided with the rough surface I opened my mouth to cry out, but he silenced me by harshly kissing me again. His body pinned mine against the wall as he bit my lip to force his tongue into my mouth. My hands tangled themselves in his hair while his own ripped open my shirt, throwing the shreds of the material onto the floor.

I nipped his lower lip when I felt his hands roughly massage my breasts, my nipples hardened from the treatment as the pads of his thumbs slid across the sensitive buds. I ground my hips forward against his in an effort to see how far I could push him; obviously it wasn't very far. He growled low in his throat and I felt my pants and underwear being shoved impatiently off of my legs. I unfastened his own clothes to let them drop onto the floor; clothes were nothing but a nuisance here.

I gasped when I was lifted up against the wall, I had to wrap my legs around his waist to avoid falling. His hot member rubbed against my sex as our lips fiercely connected again in an ardent kiss that was more teeth and tongue than actual kissing. I released a high pitched moan when he slid inside of me; it was a vehement combination of pain and pleasure that when mixed caused an almost delirious haze. I raked my nails down his back as he started to thrust, earning a deep groan from him as he bit my lip. The iron taste of blood filled my mouth and it did nothing but fuel the carnal intent we both were caught up in.

I felt him pumping deeper into my body as he held me up against the wall, the rough surface was digging into my back. I tilted my head back against it to let out a drawn out moan of satisfaction; his teeth grazed sharply over my neck as I left it exposed. It was fast, hard, and so fucking incredible. I felt the muscles in my abdomen tightening and the familiar rush of adrenaline shot throughout my veins; I was close, his thrusts were growing more erratic as we both lost all care for any composure.

My orgasm slammed upon me like a wave, ecstasy flooded every nerve as I gave a sharp cry to release some of the energy. It left me completely senseless for a moment as pleasure buzzed in my veins, like the remains of a drug finally being washed out. I felt his teeth sink into my shoulder as a hot splash of liquid spilled into me. A keening sound left my lips as he rocked into me to ride out his climax; I was breathless and unable to form any coherent thought.

He slowly set my legs back onto the ground and our lips brushed together for a moment before he released me. I was gasping for air as I slid onto the ground, staring down at the mess we'd just created. He stood for a moment before he turned and slowly walked into the bathroom, leaving me to my thought. I almost rather he had something to say. I didn't know what to think or how to feel, I was just in a state of paralyzed awe at what we had just done. I wanted to scream and berate myself for these immoral, animalistic emotions I had for such a man. The devil himself.

But as we all know, life never plays fair… And if you fall in love, it's a one way ticket to hell.


AUTHORESS NOTE:

So.

Who's cheering for them and who's yelling at Amaya for her blasphemous feelings?

Also; thank you all so much and Merry Christmas to you all! Hope you all had lovely days whether you celebrated or not, and if you didn't have the best day ever, have a hug from me and Deidara. I can't get Hidan to give you one. Sorry!