Chapter 29 It hurts, why God does it hurt!

John's POV

You would think that no one had ever heard of two people dating before because for the last hour and a half I was sitting here listening to John Morrison, Sheamus and MVP go on about me dating Jamie.

"She's a child!" Sheamus said yet again "What part of that don't you get?"

"Jamie isn't a child" I said again grabbing my stuff from the locker.

"Just because you stuck your dick in her doesn't make her a woman" Sheamus rolled his eyes "I'm telling you once Shawn finds out your a dead man"

"He already knows and he doesn't mind so ha!" I laughed pulling down the bottom of my eye like Jamie does.

"Oh God now theres two of them"

"I think that's why John and Jamie are meant to be together, they are so much alike its like he's missing half of his brain as well"

"Makes life more enjoyable"

"Are you laughing at me?" Jamie cut in suddenly, she had come into work despite everyone telling her she shouldn't. Despite her infection she still insisted that she could work and she was right, everything that she controlled was still running smoothly.

"Of course not. They are but not me"

"Figures he would he's ginger" She laughed at Sheamus making him giggle. Yes the Celtic Warrior actually giggled like a school-girl.

"I can't help that lass"

"Your right but still it's annoying"

"Sorry lass"

"John are you coming to lunch, me is a hungry Jamie"

I took her hand in mine "Sure Kentucky-fried-mcburger-king?"

"Yes but I feel like ice-cream too"

"Jamie you can't have ice-cream"

"Why?"

"Your allergic to ice-cream"

"Right" Jamie pondered that for a moment. "Oh I have something to show you"

"Ooh kinky" Sheamus grinned at me, his eyes dancing.

"Shut it ginger" Jamie grabbed my hand and pulled me from the room.

We went to a private locker room which was meant to be mine for tonight.

"John it hurts" Jamie looked up at me sadly, it was like the pain was just getting through to her.

"Your kidney? Have you been taking the pills?"

"Yes, but it really hurts. Why does it hurt John?"

"Let me have a look babe" I lifted up her work shirt to look at her kidney. The entire area was bright red and very badly swollen. Fear, panic and shock pounded into my veins. Trying to keep calm I pulled her shirt down.

"We are going back to the doctor and ask why your in pain"

Surprisenly she didn't fight me on this "Ok John."

Her whole face had gone pale and she wasn't focusing on me anymore. She had just gone blank and stared at me like I wasn't even there, her hands reaching up and grabbing at stuff that wasn't there.

"Jamie" I tried to get her attention but she wasn't listening. She just fell to the floor, shaking and muttering jibberish.

"Jamie!" I tried to help her but I had no clue what to do. Quickly I rung an ambulance as she pulled her self up, still speaking jobberish but the shaking had stopped.

"Bluthe blah blah?" Jamie looked at me, to her it made sense but to me it was jibberish. Jamie just looked at me confused wondering why I wasn't answering her question. In a blur the scene catupulted again and for the second time since working here Jamie was rushed to hospital. My heart just kept pounding louder and louder, I had never felt such fear before.

Jamie opened her eyes to the strange room and even stranger smell. Her first thought was Storm was cleaning again using that horrible bleach. The tiny noises around her did nothing to calm her, they only made everything worse. Everything just seemed so foreign to Jamie right now, it was scary which didn't help the pain in her kidneys.

"How are you feeling Jamie?" A young nurse asked, Jamie was instantly attracted to the red streaks in her hair.

"I am sore" Jamie said tiredly, her voice didn't sound like her own but at least the nurse seemed to understand what she was saying. "What happened to me?"

The nurse sighed slightly "I will explain a little later, would you like to see your visitors? They are very worried"

Jamie rested the best she could against the pillows, almost every inch of her body seemed to hurt. "Ok"

The nurse finished checking on her and went away to get her visitors, in a moment her sisters, her father, Storm and John came in. John was the first one to grab her hand in relief, "I am so glad your alright baby"

"I may not be ok, but I'm awake"

"Wanna explain what the fuck happened to her and it better be something that can be fixed in the next thirty seconds" Iziah growled, at first John thought it was Raven due to the fact that they looked so much alike.

"Iziah quiet" Raven looked at her sister before turning to the nurse "Go on Ang"

"Jamie had a slight TIA, it's a brief episode in which the brain gets insufficient blood supply, usually they don't affect people so young but because Jamie only has half of her brain working TIA's are very common."

"Is that why she was speaking jibberish?"

"Yes but the reason she had the TIA was because Jamie has nephrosclerosis"

They all just looked at the nurse, puzzled until Raven spoke up.

"It's kidney failure and because Jamie only has one working kidney anyway..."

Jamie looked at them before looking at Storm "If I'm going to Heaven is there anything you would like me to tell Twiggy?"

"Your not going to die Jamie" Storm said softly, no-one said anything.

"Damn right she ain't, lets go to surgery" Raven looked at Storm "I reckon the right one will be alright Storm. So take that one"

"Are you sure?"

"Yeah the left one will just kill her faster"

"And the right one won't?"

"It will give her a few more years instead of a few months so at least she can experience some life"

"You are not giving her a kidney" Shawn growled suddenly at her.

"Why? I think that it will help her live some more"

"I am not losing two daughters"

"You won't lose two, you'll lose one but Jamie will be alive" Raven countered pulling up shirt slightly so Storm could take a look at it.

"No, Raven you are not giving her a kidney. There has to be another way"

"Dad, Izzy's kidneys are pretty much fucked. Harm and Storm only have one and your not the right blood type so I'm her last option"

"No, your not doing this"

"Yeah because you can stop me" Raven rolled her eyes "Now Storm when you take out the right kidney remember to clean as much blood off as you can, her blood will surround it soon enough"

"Raven!" Jamie suddenly cried making them all stop. "I don't want your kidney. I'm happy to die"

Raven didn't say anything, she just looked at her sister sadly before stalking out of the room. No-one went after her, they knew she needed to be alone.

John's POV

I found Raven some time later furiously punching a coke machine. I wanted to talk to her about something really important and seeing as how she was the doctor she could tell me.

"Are you alright?" She just looked at me "Yeah stupid question I know but someone had to ask it"

Raven half smiled sitting down beside me. "It's like she has accepted that she is going to die. No fight, no tears just acceptance"

I didn't say anything, Jamie had told me (best to her ability) that when she was in her accident it was Raven that gave her blood and bone marrow that she needed to save her life.

"I wonder if she knew five years ago that she would be in an accident that would take half her brain if she would of accepted it this easily." Raven sighed "I really want to give her more life but I know that I can't"

"Don't get me wrong Raven but I think Jamie is being very selfish, your trying to do a nice thing but she is just refusing it"

Raven laughed dryly "She's right to refuse my kidney, it would only give her half a life anyways and Jamie doesn't want that. The half she has is hard enough"

"When Jamie first got out the hospital five years ago the only thing she hated was people treating her differently, she got used to not having a memory or a good attention span. She just hated that people only saw her brain inpediment and if I gave her my kidney it would only bring people back to that state" Raven took a deep breath before going on "I have Hep C John. If I gave her my kidney it would just add to her problems and I would die faster."

"And your happy to die faster?" I was amazed at her. Not only did she have Hep C but she was willing to die if it meant Jamie would live.

"As log as she's breathin, I don't care" Raven shrugged walking away.

I stayed in that plastic chair for what seemed like hours before getting up and going back to Jamie. Everyone else had gone and she was sleeping. The usual medical gadgets attached to her. I just looked at her, sadness and every other meaning of the word crept into my veins. I guess this was the bad news I was waiting on. Well I had a soloution for that. I just hoped it would be enough.