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Chapter twenty-nine: Remember
Emmett forced himself to his feet. Bay watched him with worried eyes, that made him want to shake his head. She was the one in the hospital, and here she was worrying for him. God he loved her.
Without realizing it, Emmett had made his way across the room, and was looking down at Bay has if he was seeing for the first time. His breath seemed to catch in his throat, and when a tear fell from Bay's eyes, Emmett took her in his arms, and held her tight.
Lilly watched in shock as Emmett held Lana. All she could think was, Lana is awake. She looked at Shane who shared the same look she did. A mixture of joy, and shock. She was awake.
Lilly went to Lana. "Hey, how are you feeling?" She asked wishing there was a way of asking without it sounding like a stupid question.
"I am sore, and my head is killing me, but I think I am okay." Lana replied. She smiled at Shane, who nodded his head in response.
Bay held onto Emmett, and wished that she could hold onto him forever. She knew she was crying, and she did not care. She knew everything. She was Bay again, and even though she knew she has seen Emmett recently, she feels as though she is seeing him for the first time in years. She remembers.
She both hated, and liked that she remembers. She had truths that needed to come out, and many apologies to give.
She pulled away from Emmett when she heard a familiar cry from the door way. She looked over as all four of her parents went to her. She embraced them. She was angry at herself for what she had done. She ruined a good part of there lives. This was a fact she would have to live with the rest of her life.
She didn't have to wait long to be alone. Shane insisted on her being left to rest. Emmett promised to be back in fifteen minutes. She tried to tell him that he needed rest, but he wouldn't hear of it. He was still the same old Emmett. Bay smiled to herself at the thought. Yeah he was still the Emmett she was in love with, and she didn't question that he would always be the one she loved. She knew that when she left.
It hurt her to know the pain she put her family through. When she couldn't remember much she felt bad, but now that she knows them, now that she knows why she left, she can't help but be mad at herself.
Silent tears escaped her eyes, and ran slowly down her cheeks. She left when she suspected pregnancy. She never found out. Even as Lana she never looked at the reports of her stay here. Fear kept her from doing so. She had thought she was running from her family. She thought she never planned on going back, but that wasn't the truth. She was running from herself. She was running from the way she felt about Emmett, and she was running from the fear of being pregnant. The only thing she wasn't sure is what she thought running would accomplish.
Bay took a deep breath, She needed answers. Not long after pressing the call button Lilly came in. "Hey, you okay?" Lilly asked sitting on the bed next to her.
"I need to look at the reports of the night I first came here seven years ago. I need to know what the doctors found."
Lilly looked down at her hands. She was pretty sure what Lana wanted to know. Does that mean she remembers? Lilly looked into Lana's eyes. "You remember, don't you?"
"Yeah I do. I left because I was scared that I was pregnant." Bay paused when Lilly got a guilty face. "I was, wasn't I?"
Lilly swallowed. "when we were going from paper to computer I had to manually put everyone's information. I was shocked that you had had a miscarriage. It was obvious you had no clue about it. I wanted to tell you, but I never had the heart to." She took a shaky breath. She didn't want Lana mad at her. "I'm so sorry, Lana."
Bay chowed her bottom lip. She wasn't mad at Lilly. Lilly had always had her heart in the right place. "It's okay. I am not mad."
Lilly nodded as a tear escaped her eye. "I thought we were going to loose you. When we found you..you weren't..Emmett he gave you CPR. You scared us." She said unable to hold back the tears as she hugged Lana.
Bay hugged Lilly back. "I am so sorry. I thought you were in trouble."
"I know. God I know. I will be more careful with my phone. I am so sorry Lana."
"It's not your fault. Don't blame yourself." Bay hugged her closer.
"Emmett knows about the pregnancy. You miscarried." Lilly said quietly.
Bay nodded. "I know. I knew when I saw all the blood. Is Emmett?"
"He was shocked. I am not sure exactly how he felt about it." Lilly said. Lana nodded. Yeah she guessed that is was Lilly would say.
Lilly pulled away, wiping away the tears as she did so. "So, I slept with Shane last night." Lilly said needing to tell someone.
"And?" Bay asked pushing her on.
"It was great. He has been so good to me through all of this. I think we might get together."
"I thought you were talking to Ty?" Bay asked unsure she liked the idea of by being led on.
"Well yeah we are talking, but it is nothing serious. We will probably still stay friends."
Bay nodded. "Well, then I would say go for it. I need to see the both of you happy, and if being together get you there, then I am all for it."
"So...what are you going to do now that you remember?" Lilly asked scared to know the answer.
"I have no clue. It's odd to remember." Bay said.
There was a knock on the door before it was opened. Emmett walked into the room. She smiled at Lilly, who smiled back. Well at least these two don't want to kill each other.
"I will go. I will be back later to check on you." Lilly said, then left them alone.
"Do you remember when you I told you that I was seeking Noah, and then you kissed me. I asked what that was, and you said, are you sure you are ready to move on?"
Emmett gave her a confused look, but nodded. Did she remember? He wondered to himself. He walked to her, then sat on the edge of her bed."You remember that?"
"Yeah, I remember it all." Bay said. Emmett looked shocked. "I never answered that question. I didn't answer it, because I was scared about the answer. I was scared because I never got over you. I don't know that I know how to get over you."
Bay watched as he looked like the happiest man on earth. He took her in his arms. She held him too, again wishing they could stay like this forever. But she needed him to know, and she hoped that he would understand.
"Emmett, I have to tell you why I left." Bay said after she pulled away. He waited patiently for her to go on. "I..." Bay tried, but she couldn't hold back the tears. Emmett moved closer to her. He wiped away the tear that was escaping down her cheek. "I missed my period." Bay said quickly before she couldn't do it again.
Emmett back away a little. What did she mean? Was she talking about a few days ago? Or did she mean seven years ago? His heart dropped to his stomach.
"Things were really hard, and then I missed my period. I freaked. I was to scared to take a test, and I wasn't sure where we were, and I was just...I don't know what I was thinking I was scared, and stupid. I ran, And I lost the baby in the accident."
Emmett stood in shock. He didn't know how to feel. He was pissed, and hurt, and he wanted to hold Bay. She remembered. He took a deep breath as the memory of that day hit him. He was right. She had that same look in her eye then as she did the other day.
"Why? Why didn't you come to me? I...Why Bay?"
"I don't know. I was scared how you would react."
"So you thought it better to just leave? I would have taken care of you! Both of you! Did you think I would just ignore you? Make you do it on you own? Did you think that little of me?" Emmett shook his head. Turmoil made him sick to his stomach.
Bay sat up more. She could tell he was hurt. "I am so sorry. I would change it all if I could."
Emmett shook is head at her. He couldn't even think of what to say. He took on last look before he walked from the room.
Bay laid back. She guess it was about time he walked out on her. She had messed up so many times, yet that didn't make her heart hurt any less. She needed Emmett, and now she may never get to have him.
Sorry for the short chapter, and not updating close together. Thing have been a little hectic, and life keeps getting in the way :/ I hope you enjoyed. Please leave reviews, and i will try to update again in a couple days. Thanks
