Chapter 29
Avi doesn't question me about why he woke up in a different place than where he fell asleep. But I make a note to mention to him later on that he can sleep in his bed from now on and I'll change up where I sleep depending on my mood. Whether it is on the couch, the floor in Avi's room, in his bed or in his arms, that last one is just starting to sound better and better.
"I think Scott mentioned about wanting to have a catch up with you today Kirst, you up for that?" Avi asks me.
I nod as I take a bite of my toast, "Sure."
"Maybe you could try taking Olaf for a walk too?" Kevin suggests.
I nod again, once more answering "Sure. Is Mitch going to be there too?" I add.
They both shrug, "Why don't you ask Scott?" Avi suggests.
"Just message him," Kevin suggests.
"I'll do that once I finish breakfast," I give them both warm smiles. I was going to be seeing Scott and Mitch today, well hopefully Mitch too, but I'm also going to see Esther tomorrow, that's just Monday and Tuesday, I hope the week doesn't get much busier.
"We have to take you to the doctor tonight though, for a check-up," Kevin tells me.
"Oh I almost forgot about that," Avi says with his eyes going a little wide.
"I don't need any injections right?" I ask quickly and they both turn back to face me.
"Since when have you been afraid of needles?" Kevin asks with a slight laugh before his smile drops and he just turns back to his breakfast with an "Oh right."
"Kirst," Avi starts, "I never got around to asking, but do you remember what you did with my jacket that you took with you to Texas?"
I have to pause for a moment with my piece of toast half in mouth, because I remember all the details of that but one, I don't remember what I did with the jacket. I shove the piece of toast in my mouth then dash off the chair and down the hall to Avi's room. The bag was in here, had I unpacked it? Nope, there it is in the corner.
I drop to my knees in front of it as I hear Avi calling out behind me, "I was just wondering Kirst, it's no major."
"The weather is getting warmer after all," I hear Kevin add on.
But I have to find his jacket, he said it's not important though… damn I'm seeing spots… oops I won't be seeing Scott today. It's almost in slow motion as everything sort of fades out to a complete black.
"Maybe it's when she stresses about something she just passes out."
"Could be, I mean it makes sense, but it was just a jacket, unless something else was on her mind."
"That wouldn't surprise me Avi, she must have a million things on her mind at the moment."
I blink slowly and nod slower, croaking out a "Yeah, jacket. Stupid jacket can't find it."
"See, I know her Kevin, shame," I feel one arm release me as Avi must point at him or something before it's wrapped back around me, pulling me into his chest for a warm hug. "I'm glad you're okay Kirst," he tells me in a whisper next to my ear as he presses a kiss to the side on my head. I'm pretty sure that's the first kiss he's given me since I forgot about him, is it weird that I wish it was on my lips?
"Lucky guess," Kevin comments under his breath, but clearly loud enough for us to hear.
I have to smile slightly as their small banter, they were always like that and I'm glad to hear it, makes me feel normal. "Where's Olaf?" I ask.
"He's just in the kitchen, eating, hopefully just eating. Kirst are you still up for meeting Scott or do you want us to call him for you?"
"Scott? Why Scott?" I furrow my brow as I look up at them.
"You're supposed to be hanging out with him today before we take you to the doctors this afternoon," Kevin kindly explains, so patiently because he must have told me already.
"Oh… do I have to go to the doctors?"
"Kirst, I think the fact that you didn't remember you were meeting Scott after talked about it not ten minutes ago that you need to go more than ever," Avi has a slight laugh in his voice and yet I know that he's still very serious.
With a sigh I nod, "I still want to see him, but I want to see Mitch too… do you thi-"
"You were going to text Scott and ask him about Mitch," Avi tells me.
"Can one of you do it before I just forget?" I ask and frown as it comes out with absolutely no tone in my voice.
"I'll do it," Kevin says before he steps out of the room with his phone in hand that he'd pulled from his pocket.
"I want you to come too," I tell Avi quietly, "In case I forget anything else."
"You won't forget anything else Kirst," he tells me as he tucks some hair behind my ears.
"Do you not want to come with me? Are you not friends with Scott and Mitch? Or do you just not want to be with me?" I start getting louder as I pull myself away from him and go to try and stand up. I realise just how dizzy I am when taking one step almost sends me over, but luckily Avi pulls me back against him. I just hang there, letting him hold me up. "Why does everything have to be so difficult for me Avi?"
"I don't know Kirst," he sighs as he pulls me along backwards to sit on the bed. He keeps his arm around my waist as we sit. "Do you want to ask me something? It might make you feel better if you know something, might make you feel more in control. I know it's not what we're supposed to do, but if it makes you feel better then it's worth it."
I don't even have to think about what I want to ask when he gives me this channel of opportunity. "What happened to the baby?"
I watch him closely as he stiffens and immediately looks away from me. "You remember him?" he asks quietly.
I shake my head, "No, I overheard Scott talking to my mom about… him, he was a him?"
"He was a him," Avi says as he looks back at me. "It's a pretty big answer Kirst, are you sure you want to hear it?"
"Yeah I'm sure, I want to know these things, and what if this memory was the one that brought everything back to me? That's what we want isn't it?" I ask, having to move my head to keep eye contact with Avi as he looks away again, this time down.
"Scott said Mitch will be there if you want him too," Kevin says as he walks back into the room, "Oh am I interrupting something?"
"Kind of," Avi says, looking up at him. "Can you just give us a few minutes Kev?"
"Yeah sure," he nods as he backs out of the room as quickly as he had entered.
With a sigh, Avi brings his gaze back to me, "That is exactly what we want," he nods once and takes a deep breath as he starts. "You were pregnant, and I was the father, but there was a complication. You were engaged to someone else, but we knew he couldn't have been the father because he can't have children, he had cancer and so-"
I don't want to stop him, but I do, I have to correct him, "He didn't have cancer."
Avi frowns, "Yeah he did, or well so he says, he was always so half-assed about it but to say anyt-"
"He didn't have cancer," I say getting a little louder to cut Avi off, "He got a vasectomy because he's an idiot."
"Kirstie what? When did you find that out?"
