Elliot's P.O.V
I was restless on Kathy's couch.
All I could think of was apologising to Alex and finding Olivia.
As I was deep in thought I saw the light streaming into the room from the fridge in the next room.
I could hear Eli giggling so I instantly knew it was Kathy.
I got up and took Eli from her before I began to feed him.
We both sat at the table together and Kathy stared at me appreciatively.
"Do you ever miss it?" She asked me suddenly.
I looked up into her eyes and for some reason I felt guilty.
"Of course. I still love you Kathy."
"I...I know but that's not what I meant."
"I mean being able to come home and see your kids every night after a hard day."
I didn't know where she was going with this but she was confusing me.
"I do but I couldn't drag it on any longer. They need a father who could be there for them to help with their homework, teach them things. And you need a husband who'd come home and be ready to talk about his day. With me you couldn't have that."
Kathy just sat.
She knew all this already.
"I'm sorry Elliot. I should have let you be with her sooner."
That remark took me off guard.
"Kathy none of this is your fault."
"I...I know. I also know how much you love her so go go find her." She said as she took a now sleeping Eli from my arms.
I smiled gratefully and kissed her cheek and Eli's head before getting back in my car.
...
When I got to Alex's house it was about 8:30.
I smoothed back what little hair I had and took a few deep breaths before stepping out of my car and walking up Alex's porch steps.
I took my key from the electrical box and quietly opened the door.
As I quietly shut the door and hung my coat on the hook I walked into her living room.
She'd already cleaned up the broken objects but my fist holes were still in the wall.
I can't believe I'd not only kissed her but ruined her house too.
I made a mental note to put money in her freezer sometime this week.
I checked the kitchen before walking upstairs and into her room.
She was standing by her bedside looking at a photo of her and Olivia.
I quietly walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her waist pulling her into a hug.
She tensed at first before realising it was me.
"I'm sorry." I whispered.
"I know. It's o.k. really it is."
"Sure?"
"Yeah. As long as you can help me fix those holes in my wall." She laughed as she turned to face me.
I hugged her tight to my chest afraid that if I let her go she'd be snatched away.
"Sorry." I whispered again.
"It's o.k." she whispered back hugging me tighter.
I kissed the crown of her head lightly before releasing her.
She looked up at me with that classic Alex Cabot smile that said 'everything will be o.k.'
At that point I believed her.
