Elliot's P.O.V

I was restless on Kathy's couch.

All I could think of was apologising to Alex and finding Olivia.

As I was deep in thought I saw the light streaming into the room from the fridge in the next room.

I could hear Eli giggling so I instantly knew it was Kathy.

I got up and took Eli from her before I began to feed him.

We both sat at the table together and Kathy stared at me appreciatively.

"Do you ever miss it?" She asked me suddenly.

I looked up into her eyes and for some reason I felt guilty.

"Of course. I still love you Kathy."

"I...I know but that's not what I meant."

"I mean being able to come home and see your kids every night after a hard day."

I didn't know where she was going with this but she was confusing me.

"I do but I couldn't drag it on any longer. They need a father who could be there for them to help with their homework, teach them things. And you need a husband who'd come home and be ready to talk about his day. With me you couldn't have that."

Kathy just sat.

She knew all this already.

"I'm sorry Elliot. I should have let you be with her sooner."

That remark took me off guard.

"Kathy none of this is your fault."

"I...I know. I also know how much you love her so go go find her." She said as she took a now sleeping Eli from my arms.

I smiled gratefully and kissed her cheek and Eli's head before getting back in my car.

...

When I got to Alex's house it was about 8:30.

I smoothed back what little hair I had and took a few deep breaths before stepping out of my car and walking up Alex's porch steps.

I took my key from the electrical box and quietly opened the door.

As I quietly shut the door and hung my coat on the hook I walked into her living room.

She'd already cleaned up the broken objects but my fist holes were still in the wall.

I can't believe I'd not only kissed her but ruined her house too.

I made a mental note to put money in her freezer sometime this week.

I checked the kitchen before walking upstairs and into her room.

She was standing by her bedside looking at a photo of her and Olivia.

I quietly walked over to her and wrapped my arms around her waist pulling her into a hug.

She tensed at first before realising it was me.

"I'm sorry." I whispered.

"I know. It's o.k. really it is."

"Sure?"

"Yeah. As long as you can help me fix those holes in my wall." She laughed as she turned to face me.

I hugged her tight to my chest afraid that if I let her go she'd be snatched away.

"Sorry." I whispered again.

"It's o.k." she whispered back hugging me tighter.

I kissed the crown of her head lightly before releasing her.

She looked up at me with that classic Alex Cabot smile that said 'everything will be o.k.'

At that point I believed her.