A new girl in town
Chapter 29
J.J./Kane/Kayla/Wade
"Yes." Kane said nonchalantly as if it were like her telling him her hair color.
"Um. okay?" Kayla said in confusion.
"And this doesn't bother you at all? You don't think I'm weird or I don't know. . .this is weird," she added.
"Why would I?" Kane asked. "It's who you are."
Kayla shrugged.
"You're a rare breed," she said.
"To say that Trans people don't get treated well is an understatement. We're always seen as lesser than everyone else. Like we're never going to be quite male or female enough, you know?
"That gets even more complicated for people who identify as genderqueer; they don't think that they're male or female and usually use 'them' and 'they' pronouns instead of 'he' or 'she'.
"Maybe that's why I've kept my distance from other Trans people; I just don't want to deal with the stigma," she said.
"I usually stayed away from people all together until J.J." Kane said. "She wouldn't take no for an answer." Kane added.
Kayla nodded.
"Join the club," she said.
"I was a fucking reclose when I came home. If I hadn't met Cassie, I'd probably still be hiding in Tye's house and only going out when absolutely necessary," she added.
"Me too," Wade said.
"My apartment was my cave, man. The only reasons I left it were psych appointments and to pick up meds. My doc stopped the pharmacy from delivering them because he said that I 'needed to get out of the house'," he added.
"Father made me leave to learn wrestling so I could get my hands on my brother." Kane said. "He said we'd take everything he loved away from him."
"Looks like we were all firmly shoved out of our comfort zones," Wade said.
"I for one am glad he was." J.J. said. "If not I never would have met him."
"J.J. was the first person I met that could understand me even without a voice." Kane said.
Wade and Kayla shared a smile.
"I guess we've all come a long way," she said reflectively.
"But anyway, you probably have questions for me. Shoot; this girl's an open book and there's no such thing as a stupid question," she added.
"Well I did have one question after J.J. explained it." Kane said. "She told me the answer but I'd like to hear it from you." He paused. "Are you happy being who you are?"
"I don't have the easiest answer for that," Kayla replied.
"Sometimes I feel like I almost am, you know? But those times are rare and all of the therapy in the world can't seem to change that.
"Most of the time I'm battling against my own feelings of self-hatred. When it gets bad, like it did the other night, I'd do anything just to make it stop," she added.
"Oh." Kane said. "But why would you hate yourself you are beautiful. Not like me." Kane said. "You understand things."
"You seriously think I'm beautiful?" Kayla asked clearly surprised.
"I don't know exactly how it started or where it comes from but I guess it's always kinda been there. It was bad when I was Mike and worse after the accident. I may understand certain things but I don't feel like most people will ever understand me," she added.
"Yes you are beautiful inside and out. You wouldn't put up with me otherwise." Kane said.
"Hey, there's no 'putting up with you' for either of us," Wade interjected.
Kayla nodded.
"We all think you're 'made of fucking awesome' as Cassie would say. It's a privilege to have you as a friend," Kayla said.
"You don't know me from before J.J." Kane said. "I am not the same person since her."
"Knock it off Kane. You're the same person you just let it out more now." J.J. said slapping him playfully on the arm.
"Does that really matter? I think we all have the right to change and become better. Hell, if you judged Wade on just his teenaged years, you'd think he was the worst person ever," Kayla said.
"Truth!" Wade yelled.
"I was learning wrestling and wanting to kill my brother during my teenaged years." Kane said.
"I was fucking everything with a pulse. Oh wait, fuck. Bad example; I still do that.
"Um. Drugs are bad, kids. . .and I did a shitload of those.
"I also skipped a fuck load of school to get back at my father," Wade said.
"Me too," Kayla said.
"Not the father thing but yeah, I was a skipper too," she added.
"I never went to school. Father brought me books." Kane said.
"Would you ever want to?" Kayla asked.
"I don't know I think I went before the fire. That part of my life is very fuzzy." Kane said.
"Now I am too old." Kane said. "I wouldn't be wanted there."
"Nah, you really aren't," Wade said.
"One of Cassie's friends in Toronto didn't get his high school equivalency until he was nearly 30. Now he owns his own construction company," he added.
"You would never have to sit in a classroom if you didn't want to," Kayla added.
"There are distance learning options; either online or sending work through the male," she said.
"I am not smart enough. My book learning was hard for me. I am also too stupid to use a computer." Kane said seriously.
"You are not stupid." J.J. said slapping him.
"No," Kane said. "I know how hard learning is for me. I didn't understand half of what father brought me. It is enough that I can read, write and do some math."
"If Wade can get through college, you can too," Kayla said.
I should probably drop this but maybe it's what he needs? Kayla thought.
Wade laughed.
"I only got through it because engineering was actually cool shit," he said.
"Which is why you keep flip flopping about grad school, right?" Kayla said.
"Hey, no decisions yet, miss thang," Wade said.
Kane didn't say anything he just stared out the windshield at the road.
They are trying to make me feel good. But I know I could never do the things they have. I can't even work a phone for god's sake. Kane thought.
"So Wade?" Kayla said.
"Oh no. What do you want this time?" Wade asked.
"When are we taking a shopping trip to get Kane a fucking phone?" Kayla asked.
Wade grinned.
"J.J.?" Wade asked.
"I do not need a phone." Kane growled.
"I've tried guys. He doesn't want one." J.J. said.
"Yes you do," Wade and Kayla said together.
"I have spent my entire life without one. Why do I need one now?" Kane asked.
"Who else am I supposed to send sad cat videos too?" Wade asked in mock sadness.
"The girls have already said that if I send them anymore, they'll turn me in to a sad cat," he added.
Kane laughed. "I don't want sad cat videos."
"You want all of the sad cat videos!" Wade yelled.
"Anyway, how are we supposed to get at you when we leave? Kayla won't give up her phone for Christ or her mother," Wade added.
Kane shrugged. "Call J.J." he said.
"No. I love you, girl but no. I refuse," Wade said.
"Why do you refuse?" Kane asked curiously.
"Because you need a fucking phone!" Wade yelled.
"No seriously, you do. . .because of reasons," he added.
"Who the hell am I supposed to text when I should be working?" Kayla interjected.
"Cassie's usually at work, Vanessa's got a new. . .thing and Wade's usually working then too. It would make my life if you got a phone," Kayla added.
"Because of reasons? So you can text me? I don't know how to text and I don't need a phone for reasons." Kane said shaking his head.
He is literally the stubbornness person I've ever known! Kayla thought.
We should probably drop it for now. But maybe we could buy him one? I guess he could just throw it at me but yeah. . .that's an idea. Wade thought.
"You like your fans, right?" Wade said.
"Yes they are good." Kane said wondering what his fans had to do with him having a phone.
"Ah, I see what you're getting at," Kayla said with a grin.
"Twitter!" Wade and Kayla yelled.
"And Instagram," Kayla added.
"Twitter's a thing. You can post about shit. There's a 150 character limit so they don't have to be lengthy. Anyway, most of the WWE guys have them and the fans fucking love it," Wade said.
"Your brother even has one. I follow him," Wade confessed.
"We have one for the band as well and separate ones for each of us," Kayla added.
"You follow my brother? How does he not see you then?" Kane asked.
Wade shrugged.
"He has tons of followers and probably doesn't look through all of them," Wade said.
"Shit, I can't keep up with mine either," He added.
"It's great," Wade continued.
"Your brother posts tons of random shit. It gives the fans a glimpse at you guys beyond the ring, you know?" Wade said.
"But I am the same in and out of the ring. I would say something stupid and they would not like me anymore." Kane said.
"Mine's mainly band stuff and music but I've done question and answer sessions a few times too. They keep showing up for those so I guess something right," Wade added.
"Oh my god, you would not!" Kayla said.
"Dude, seriously. LOOK at my Twitter or Cassie's. We're stupid all the time. Steven A Smith from ESPN has made stupid in to his fulltime job. You'd be just fine," she added.
"Besides, you'd find that the fans tend to lead the conversation. I post a photo and Twitter blows up," she said.
"I don't know. I wouldn't know what to say." Kane said.
"A quarter of the shit Cassie posts is 'Up late. Can't sleep... again. Entertain me, people of the interwebs; you're my only hope," Wade joked.
"You take pictures, right?" Kayla asked.
"Or maybe you don't - Can I guess I don't know. But those are a good place to start," she said.
"I have a lot of pictures of Kane. Both in and out of the ring." J.J. said. "It's what I do for the company. But I take of lot of him anyway because he's awesome."
Kane blushed at her comment.
"See? There you go," Kayla said.
"You know you want to," Wade added.
"I don't know." Kane said. "I'll think about it."
Just then they arrived at the hotel. Kane parked and he and J.J. got out collecting bags from the back.
"Home sweet home," Kayla joked. Wade laughed.
"I guess you're leaving us here, huh?" he asked.
"Yeah, unfortunately. I don't need more attention from Vince than I already have," Kayla replied.
"I'll leave tickets for you at the ticket office. You three can take a cab over just before the show." Kane said.
"You, my friend, are made of fucking awesome!" Wade yelled.
"You deserve a Wade Wilson hug for that. Do you mind?" Wade asked.
"Leave them in one of their names." J.J. said. "Wade what is your last name?"
Kane cocked his head as he thought about it for a moment.
"Wilson," Wade replied.
"AKA Renolds or Deadpool," Kayla quipped. Wade rolled his eyes.
"Too late! You took too long!" Wade yelled as he launched himself at Kane and pulled him in to a hug.
Kane stiffened so Wade wouldn't knock him down and initially didn't move then he patted Wade on the back with one hand.
"See? It's not that hard," Wade said with a grin as he pulled away after a bit.
Kane just shook his head blushing slightly.
That's two men that have hugged me in two days. First Taker now Wade. In all my life I've never been hugged by a man, now two in one day. Kane thought feeling somewhat off kilter.
"My turn!" Kayla said.
"But only if it's okay with you. I can totally respect boundaries and shit," she added looking hopeful.
Kane looked at her then at J.J. before raising one arm to her and motioning with his hand.
"Oh my god, yes!" Kayla said as she moved in for a hug.
Kane just smiled behind his mask. Why do people besides my wife feel the need to hug me? He thought felling a unexpected lump in his throat.
"You give the best hugs," Kayla said after she'd pulled away.
"I thought my hugs were the best?" Wade asked in mock offense.
"Fuck off, Deadpool," Kayla said.
"I'm not Deadpool! For reasons!" Wade yelled but he began laughing in spite of himself.
"You don't have to tell me about his hugs. He's a great hugger." J.J. said looking at Kane and smiling.
Kane couldn't help but blush brightly.
Kayla grinned.
"Awesome. When my people leave, I'm going to be extremely hug deprived. Get ready!" Kayla added.
"Oh shit." J.J. said looking at her watch we'd better hurry or else we're never going to be on time. You riding with us Kayla?"
Picking up their bags they rushed inside and checked in the up to their rooms and put their stuff in.
Then they rushed back out to the SUV.
"I guess we better go," Kayla said. She and Wade said their goodbyes to Kane and J.J. and headed in to the hotel.
"Interesting ride," Wade commented once they'd arrived at their room.
"It always seems to be that way with them," Kayla replied.
Just then, Cassie and Vanessa arrived.
"How was your ride?" Cassie asked as soon as she got through the door.
"Aside from my fuck up it was good," Wade replied.
"We even managed to get Kane to say that he'd consider getting a phone," Kayla added as if she'd been waiting all afternoon to share this development.
"Ooo, really? I have a few collecting dust that could work," Cassie said excitedly as she began to dig through her bag.
"He also got us tickets," Wade said.
"Wow, really? That's incredibly nice," Vanessa said.
"Yeah, he and J.J. are good people," Wade said.
"Found it!" Cassie said excitedly as she held up an IPhone.
"Why the fuck are you carrying that around?" Wade asked.
Cassie shrugged.
"I forgot it was in there?" she said.
"Jesus fuck," Wade muttered rolling his eyes.
"It's not the latest model or anything but it should do," Cassie said.
"I should really get going," Kayla said as she glanced at the time on her phone.
"Vince expects everyone there by 5 and I really don't need him pissed at me," she added.
"Kane suggested taking a cab," Kayla said to Cassie before leaving the room.
Kayla climbed back into the SUV with J.J. and Kane and they were on their way.
The rest of them stayed back at the hotel to wait till later to take a cab to the arena.
The ride was uneventful and they were at the arena rather quickly. Kayla quickly located her office which was hidden in the depths of the arena.
Thank god it isn't another closet," she said as she sat down in front of the computer.
Suddenly the door opened unexpectedly.
Who the hell could that be? Kayla wondered as she looked up from the video editer she was working in.
