A/N: Here's what you've been waiting for.
CPOV
"There is also one other thing I'd like to speak to you about." I let her know.
"Okay."
"Your past." I say matter-of-factly. She closes her eyes tight. I need to know, baby. "Anastasia. I know something happened to you. I want to know what."
"Christian." She starts, then stops. I can tell this must be difficult for her. Telling my past was for me.
I want to make her comfortable. We've finished eating so I get up, take her hand and we walk to my bedroom and get on the bed.
"Tell me, baby. I only want to make you happy but I need to know. Something has you so guarded. Everyone around you is concerned. I care about you. If you're afraid of someone, tell me. I wont let anything happen to you."
"I know. I care about you too." She takes a deep breath and slowly lets it out. "You're right I am guarded. I don't trust easily and get anxious being alone with men sometimes. I only trust four people completely. Ray. He's been my protector since he married my mother and even after their divorce when he didn't have to. Kate. I've known her since we were five, she's been my best friend every since. José. I met José after my parents divorced. My mom left us. Ray and I moved to Montesano. I met José when I was about thirteen. He's like a brother to me, there's never been any romantic interest. I still talked to Kate and went to her house a lot but José was great."
I don't like hearing about another man, especially a 'great' one, romantic involvement or not.
"And the fourth?" That was three.
"You." That makes me feel like I'm on cloud-fucking-nine.
She stays quiet for awhile. I put her hair behind her ear. "Tell me what happened, baby."
"I was a young naïve girl who thought she found her Prince Charming. I was so in love. Well... I thought it was love. I met him in high school. He was older, popular and made me feel special. After what my mother did to Ray, I knew I only wanted to marry once. My dream was to lose my virginity on my wedding night and he understood that."
Fuck! "I'm so sorry, baby. Why didn't you tell me?"
"I told you. I wanted to have sex with you. And I said, was my dream. It's not anymore. But I didn't want to be a whore and I wanted to lose it to someone I trusted. I trust you." She smiles.
I nod, letting her know to continue.
"He treated me like a queen... at first. It was all so great, until it wasn't. He saw José and I hanging out and he got very angry, forbidding me to see José. I didn't want to lose him but José was my friend and the closest I had since Kate was in Seattle. I told him I wouldn't see José but I did still talked to José. I couldn't cut my friend out. I was at his house one day. We were in his room doing homework. He was going through my phone. I didn't even know he had it. He found all my texts to and from José. He got so angry. He told me not to have contact with José and I did behind his back. I tried explaining José was just a friend, even our texts proved that. He wouldn't listen. He just kept screaming and yelling, calling me horrible names. Then he hit me."
What?! My whole body tenses and I clench my jaw not to interrupt.
"He punched me and I fell to the ground. I couldn't believe what just happened. I got up and ran. His mother was downstairs, she saw me crying and asked what happened. She moved the hair covering my face and saw what he did. She even asked 'What did you do to make him angry, to make him hit you?' Like it was my fault. I couldn't go home because Ray would see my face. So I stayed with Kate in Seattle until it healed and I didn't talk to him the whole time. He tried calling and even found where Kate's parents live. But Kate wouldn't let him in.
When I went back home he apologized and said he overreacted. That he would never hit me again. I know what you're going to think, stupid girl, but I went back. True to his word he never hit me again. José and my friendship no longer a problem. Everything was great again. Then he went off to college. I was still in high school. We still talked but he always made excuses as to why he couldn't come home. Kate came to visit me, she wanted to show me her new car her parents got her. She and Jose convinced me to go on a road trip to surprise him. We drove Kate's car to the college he was attending.
When we got there, I told them to wait in the car. I wanted to surprise him. I knocked and he opened the door. He sure was surprised to see me there. And so was the girl getting dressed behind him. I slapped him then turned to leave, but he grabbed my arm, pulling me back and threw me on the floor of his apartment. The girl left. I tried getting up but he pushed me back down with his foot. He bent down and said 'What are you going to do, honey? I'm a man.' And he started hitting me.
Kate and José got suspicious when they saw the girl leave. He was still beating me when they walked in. José got him off me and Kate ran to me. He told Kate to get the fuck away from me. She obviously didn't listen. José held him away from me while Kate got me out of there. Then the guys started throwing punches. José got hurt too but eventually we left. They took me to a hospital. José even needed to get stitches. Kate called Ray- the hospital staff said if we didn't, they would.
Ray flew there to get us. He showed up with swollen and red knuckles. I could tell they had bled. I knew what he had done. We planned on pressing charges but since both José and Ray hit him, they would be charged as well. I couldn't let that happen so I agreed to dropped the charges, if he didn't press any against Ray or José. We left and never looked back. Ray drove us all home in Kate's car. She held me in the back while I cried my heart out. I vowed that day to never love again. That I wouldn't even date, to protect my heart. What little I had left of it anyway.
Ray forced both, Kate and I to learn self defense. That way if it ever happened again. We could fight back and not get charged since it would be self-defense. Everything was fine until you came in, breaking down my walls I built up. Now I know I'm not broken. That I can love again. That I love you."
I'm holding her as she tells the story of her past. She's unemotional and no tears are shed.
"What the fuck is his name?" Is the only thought I have. I am furious. I will ruin him! He will suffer the wrath of Christian FUCKING Grey!
"Don't. Just leave it, Christian." She tells me calmly. The fuck I will.
"Why are you protecting him?!"
"I'm not. But it's been taken care of. He may not have been legally charged but he got it from both José and Ray. It happened long ago. I don't want to go through that again."
"There was no mention of boyfriends on your background check for GEH." I know because I personally looked.
"Well, I don't imagine every fling or high school romances are on background checks. And I haven't dated since then."
"Tell me his name, Anastasia." Please baby! I internally beg.
"No, Christian. Please, for me, just leave it. It's over." It's not over. I will find out who he is and make him suffer!
A/N: There it is, sorry if her past isn't as dark as you'd like or you don't think that's reason enough, but there it is.
I know, I know. You wanted her to just tell CG who he is so he can go all fifty on him. But that's all part of the story.
Don't worry CG will find out who soon!
