Sauli's POV
I sighed, frowning as I sauntered through the crowded hallways of my school, attempting to make it out alive from all the seniors and whatnot. It was the same as every day. People would keep bumping into one another, not caring just so they could get on with their own social lives. It really didn't matter if they pushed me around or (accidently, I guess) shoved me against a locker. Frankly, though, it didn't matter much to me anymore. Whatever happens at this point couldn't make anything any worse.
Life has been…well, dull and depressing (to sum it up nicely). My mom will not let me leave my room at all and I have resulted to drawing and trying to keep myself entertained so I didn't explode from boredom. It was hard though because I couldn't text Adam, sneak out of the house, or have any communication with him whatsoever. It was so god damn tedious.
There was one particular day, however, when I was lying on my bed, so bored that I might have died. Then my mom came into my room with a pair of scissors and cut off all my hair so I was only left both sides of my head shaved except for the middle, which was a short Mohawk I kept together with gel. It was random, I'll admit. She just came in, chopped it all off without any protest from me because nothing mattered right now. My mother seemed pleased with this and she smiled at my newfound look and skipped off, leaving me alone to wallow in my own depression. I didn't hate my hair, persay, but I preferred having my long hair in a ponytail. Having short hair just made me feel so much more exposed. With my long hair, my bangs could over up my eyes and everything, but now I was just open to the public (plus, long hair is better for sexual things), though I knew I just had to suck it up and deal with it. It's not the worst thing.
No, the worse thing was Adam being gone. For over two weeks. I'm hitting my third Monday without him and it's the hardest thing ever. Getting up in the morning with no motivation was one of the most sorrowful things you can do. We have gone this long before, but that was actually before we loved each other. It's a terrible feeling knowing that you'll wake up every morning without your love besides you. Without him caressing you hand with a tender smile; without his small freckled smile greeting you. I had to wonder if Adam moved on. It's not as if we made any special planned actions subsequent to being caught. Maybe it was too soon and I was just thinking of the worst scenarios possible. However, the thought of Adam with someone else ached at my heartstrings and I tried not to think about it as I turned into the bathroom. No way was I going to think about it. That was just…
I sighed, walking up to the sink and washing my hands, splashing my face. I only had three more classes, then I can go home and just…I'm not even sure. So bleak. What was I going to do when I was out of school? Oh, right…Going home and forced into my room. How fucking fun. I frowned at my reflection and exhaled, trying to compose myself. I hated being so sad.
"Hey, Sauli!" I turned around, and saw Niko was entering the bathroom. I smiled weakly at him, grabbing a paper towel and drying off my hands. It wasn't really awkward between us, but he refused to talk about what went down between him and Adam. I wanted to know, but he wouldn't budge on the subject so I eventually dropped it. He was just as easy going as before and I was happy he didn't hate me as if I thought he did. You think he would because I totally rejected him and my boyfriend blew up at him, but I guess he was just mellow he just blew it off.
"Hi, Niko," I mumbled, holding onto my backpack straps. I glanced up and he walked up to me, leaning against the wall. I felt my face heat up lightly and I looked at the ground, biting my bottom lip. I disliked this close contact with anyone other than Adam. It made me uncomfortable.
"So, ya know school ends in a couple weeks and on the last day of school is prom," he said and I nodded, a frown touching my lips. I had been planning to ask Adam to prom for months, but I just never worked up the courage, and now it was too late because we wouldn't be seeing each other...for…god knew how long…Even if I did ask him, he'd probably think it was so stupid! He's twenty-one; he doesn't want to go to some silly and preppy high school dance.
"Anyway, I was wondering…Do ya, maybe…wanna go with me?" he asked and I blushed looking up at him. Did he really just…? Okay, Sauli, you have to get it through your brain that Niko likes you more than you like him. Just try to comprehend it. And I know I should say yes, but deep in my mind, I knew it still wanted to ask Adam, even though it was futile. So, I was going to take the rough and spiraling road of doom rather than going with the socially acceptable one because I'm so stupid and in love like that.
"I…I would love to Niko, but…I-I was planning on asking Adam…" I whispered, watching at the ground and feeling small. "I'm sorry," I mumbled looking up and Niko had his teeth clenched. I shrugged lightly, gulping and attempting to stay strong against his tall stature and demeanor.
"Sauli, I dunno what you see in him! I'm your age; I go to your school! What does he have that I don't? I wanna be with you!" he exclaimed and I gasped, blinking and shaking my head.
"Niko, it's not you, it's me! I'm really sorry, but I'm in love with him and I—" before I could finish his lips were pushed against mine and he pressed me to the wall, his tongue breaking through my lips. I inhaled and he just used that opportunity to dig deeper. I whined, pushing him off. I was starting to get really pissed off that he kept taking advantage of me even though he knew Adam and I were together! "NIKO! I SAID I'M NOT INTERESTED! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE!"
Niko growled, pushing me further into the wall, his eyes boring into mine, "This is your last chance, Sauli! TAKE IT OR LEAVE IT!" he shouted and I squirmed, breaking out of his grasp and frowning.
"Leaving!" I said, rushing out of the bathroom and gulping, wiping my eyes when I felt tears accumulate. I couldn't cry, he wasn't worth it! He kept trying to kiss me and make moves on me! I thought he was straight too! Even though we never really discussed it, but whatever, I knew I shouldn't feel anything right now! I guess it was just because he was my only friend then he went and fucked it up because he…I don't even know! I gave an exasperated sigh as I paced to health. When I finally arrived, I found my seat, throwing my stuff down and sitting, crossing my arms and trying to control my anger. I wasn't normally an angry person, but Niko made me furious! I hated him coming onto me and then he…kissed me! It was just so…UGH. I wanted my lips to only be reserved for one person and one person only! And unfortunately, that person is nowhere to be found because our parents simply don't approve of our relationship. This was SO ridiculous because it shouldn't matter! It wasn't just puppy love and I was going to get over Adam in a couple months! We had been dating for a really long time and I can see myself spending every waking moment with him god damnitt!
I didn't even hear the teacher call my name. I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts and furious rants. Nevertheless, when he shouted it for the third time my ears perked up and I exhaled lightly.
"Yea?" I said. He seemed annoyed and I wanted to roll my eyes. Don't irritate me, god damnitt!
"The office needs you," he said and my eyes widened as I packed all my stuff into my backpack. I nodded, walking out the door and trying to control my breathing. My emotions seemed to be all over the damn place today! First, I was miserable, then surprised, then livid, and now I'm worried. But I had a right to be! Why did the office need me? Did Niko tell or me or something? Did something happen at home and Sara came to get me? I hope nothing terrible occurred because I honestly didn't need this extra-added stress. I bit my bottom lip, rounding the corner and staring at the ground. I didn't know what was to face me ahead…
Then when I eventually looked up I stopped dead cold in my tracks. My breathing took a hitch and my eyes widened and I could feel the wetness already beginning to form in them. Standing about twenty feet in front of me was Adam. He was in a pair of tight black pants and his pair of "medges" over that, making him at least another three inches taller than me. Around his torso were a gray tee and a black leather jacket over that. His make-up was done heavily and his green and ebony hair was in its normal up flame fashion. He turned around completely, facing me with a small and genuine smile. My mouth fell open slightly and I ran up to him, tackling him in a hug and wrapping my arms around his neck and my legs hitching around his waist. I felt him wrap me in a hug, he was warm, and lively, just what I wanted.
"A-Adam," I mumbled into his neck, feeling the tears pool in the corner of my eyes. I didn't even feel or notice him walking out of the school until he had me pressed up against his car and his lips hit mine. I whined, grabbing his face and opening his mouth with my tongue. We bumped tongues and then shut our mouths just kissing until he pulled back, smiling wide at me.
"Fuck, I missed you," he mumbled, burying his face into my neck and wrapping his arms around my waist. I held his hand, nuzzling into his hair. I took in a deep breath and absorbed his scent, savoring it. "You cut your hair," he mumbled into me, leaning back and patting my hair. I blushed, shrugging. He grinned, coming down and kissing the side of my head. "I think it's incredibly sexy," he mused and my heart picked up its pace and I kissed his neck, clawing at his shirt. "Come on, we're going to our place," he said, pulling back and ushering me into the car. I grinned, hopping in and waiting for Adam to enter. He turned on the car and began taking the route to our place. I unbuckled my seatbelt, leaning over and kissing his neck, snuggling into him and he laughed, taking one hand off the steering wheel and caressing my cheek. "I love you," he said, taking a turn to the left. I giggled, pushing into his hand.
"I love you more," I purred, crawling up to him and laying my head on his lap, kissing his tummy and trailing my finger over his belt. I glanced up and I saw he was biting his bottom lip, sucking on it. A smirk tugged on my lips and I giggled, snuggling more into him.
"Babe, as much as I would love to fuck your brains out, I wasn't planning on that today," he murmured, cupping my cheek as his eyes were on the road until he pulled to the side, stopping the car. I whined, sitting up and jumping out of the car and racing up to Adam and hugging him, burying my head into his chest. "Sauli…" he said and I looked up with a grin, nuzzling under his jaw. He laughed, taking my hand and leading us through the bushes. He went on first and I followed quickly behind, grasping onto his hand. He then stopped and I ran into his back. I blinked, glancing up at him.
"What, Adam?" I asked, then saw him reach up to a tree and pluck a single white flower from the tree and turning around, handing it to me with a cheesy grin. I rolled my eyes, taking the flower and holding it close to me. "You're such a hopeless romantic," I said and he laughed, leading us to the fork.
"I'm not that hopeless if you fell for my charm," he inquired and I blushed as he sat on the grass near the pond and pulled me onto his lap as I trailed my finger over the pedals of the flower. Then the flower suddenly reminded me of a corsage. Like the one boys give to girls at their prom. Shit. I gulped, gripping onto the flower as I leaned my head against Adam's chest and his arms wrapped loosely around my waist. It was peaceful, it really was. I loved that even though we hadn't seen each other in over fourteen days, we didn't have to immediately catch up on things; instead, we would simply be in one another's arms and call this enough. However, I needed to ask Adam this or else it would gnaw at me forever.
"Um…Adam…" I said quickly, feeling the burn of a blush meet my flesh.
"Yes, baby?" he asked, leaning his chin on my shoulder and glancing to the side at me. I looked to the side and he frowned, rubbing his cheek against mine. "What is it?" he asked.
I sighed, petting the flower gently. "Do…Do you…Wanna…Um…" I was trying to say it, but I just couldn't!
"Wanna what? Come on, Sauli, I won't think it's stupid or anything," he said gently and I gulped again.
"Do you…W-Wanna…go…t-to…um, p-prom with me?" I asked, feeling my face burn and when he didn't respond, I exhaled sharply. "No, it was stupid, gah! I'm sorry, Adam! I…" Then I felt him push me to the ground and he rolled over on top of me with a giant ass grin on his face.
"Aw, baby…" he mused, rubbing my cheek. "Of course, I want to go to prom with you! Duh! Why wouldn't I?" he asked, leaning down and kissing my nose. "I'll make it the best prom in the world and you'll be my prince," he said, my eyes widened, and I squeaked, feeling so embarrassed. He laughed, licking my cheek and pulling back.
"R-Really? You actually wanna go to some silly dance with me?" I asked and he smiled, nodding.
"At my prom, I took some chick. It wasn't right, but I would love to make your prom the best in the world!" he mused and I gasped, wrapping my arms around his neck and taking him into a kiss. He cupped my face and we just kissed. Did it really matter for how long? I didn't think so. We just kissed.
Because I loved him so damn much; other than words, kissing was the only way I could express it.
Because I just fucking love him.
