Talking with Sam again, after almost 4 years of silence between them was more than weird, knowing that so many years and experiences lay between them, where there before had been nothing the other didn't know. Even though Dean hated to admit it, he blamed Sam for the silence between them, and even though he missed him dearly, he wasn't sure he could forgive him.
Julip was his sunshine making all the problems feel less heavy to carry, she had not complained one bit on the whole trip to Kansas, and on some level Dean believed she knew something was horrible wrong. She kept close to him at all times, he never needed to tell her to stay beside him. Now they where sitting in a booth in the old familiar diner that Sam had loved as a kid, and that they had always visited on Sam's birthday until he got to cool to eat animal shaped pancakes. Julip was ones more drawing the impala, and she was getting better and better for each day that went, now and then she would stop drawing and take a bite of her dog shaped pancake. Charlie had been placed on the table, and at Julip's insistence a giraffe shaped pancake lay before the toy animal. "Daddy De?" Julip suddenly said, Dean looked up from the local newspaper he had bought before realizing that he didn't have to look for hunt's anymore. "Yeah?" he said " can you braid hair?" she asked, for a moment Dean just blinked, he hadn't expected that question. " ohm no….but I can learn to" Dean answered ignoring the little voice in his head that called him the biggest man-chick that have ever been born. Julip smiled big, and focused again on her drawing. "Daddy?" she said a while later, and Dean almost cursed, hoping to God that she wouldn't ask about more things he needed to learn. "Yeah" he said, proud when his voice was even, and not high pitch " do you think Charlie could learn to drive the car?" she asked with a serious frown on her face " ahhh no?" Dean answered, and hated that it came out like a question. Julip nodded and began drawing again. " Daddy?" Julip said once more, and Dean closed his eyes for a second, asking for patience " what is it Julip?" he asked " when are we going home?" she looked up at him with her big brown trusting eyes. ah shit! " I don't know sweetheart" he admitted
