"Has the death of those sixteen soldiers affected you?" Erasa lain back on the chair as she tried to get comfortable. "It has." The psychologist wrote something down she couldn't see. "Would you mind explaining how it has?" Seemingly finding the right spot on the chair Erasa stretched then yawned feeling relaxed enough to sleep. "One of the reasons I decided to become the way I am is because of fear. Ever since I was a kid there would be a threat that would threaten Earth. Someone would defeat it and things we go back to normal as if it was never really all that important. The only exception to this would be the Cell Games.

I have this strange feeling that it'll only be a matter of time before people forget about Majin Buu and I don't know why. I barely remember the attack of the men from out of space who wore strange armor and had tails but no one mentions that either. I didn't become this way to be a soldier; I did it because I want to be able to live without fear. I am a coward, and I can willfully admit that. I'm not a fighter, this is also the truth. I thought that if I could bear being a soldier, go through their training and fight off my overbearing libido then I would fine. But then…"

The psychologist looked up at her. "You witnessed the death of your comrades." Erasa nodded. "Before Majin Buu came along I guess I was happy to be the kind of teen that believed that we were invincible and that every bad thing that could or would happen was for our parents or older people. I was wrong then, and a couple days ago I learned that my invincibility was a farce. When I look back on it all my fear of death has been the deciding factor in almost all the things I do. When I was a kid during that odd invasion no one talks about I didn't leave my room for days. After the Cell Games I decided to adopt a bubbly attitude because I thought I'd been too serious and not fun to be around. Then during the Majin Buu mess I lost my virginity.

It seemed to be the right thing to do. Fearing death, why shouldn't I know of the one thing that brought me into this world? I wanted more than anything to be with Gohan but it was Sharpner instead who I lost it to. In the midst of that I died thinking of him. I was happy, and content with no regrets. There was no more fear and then somehow I'm brought back to life. When I was revived I was still atop Sharpner. He looked angry, disgusted, and disappointed. He was still inside me when we were killed and I could feel him go limp. I got off him and we dressed in silence. You see, right before we died I screamed out Gohan's name.

I didn't do it out of spite; I had just done what I had been doing since the first. I'd close my eyes and think of him." Erasa sighed then continued. "I guess I lost my concentration and gave into my imagination. After we finished dressing it looked like Sharpner had a thousand things that he wanted to say to me. I could see him struggling to put a voice to it all but he couldn't. He turned his back on me and I watched him leave. What could I have said to him? What was done was done. I knew that he was into Videl but it never donned on me that he could possibly fall for me just because we had sex."

The psychologist wrote down a few more things. "Sex is a very powerful thing. Think of your settings. People are dying all around you and it was just you two. Both of you were alone, scared and lonely. It's only natural in those circumstances that one would think more was implied from the acts of intimacy and yet they meant nothing to you at all?" Erasa turned her head and tried to read the psychologists expression and found no judgment in it.

"Yes and no. No because it was with Sharpner and I figured that I was going to die anyway. Yes because I kept picturing Gohan as the one who was sleeping with me. I knew what I was doing to Sharpner and I felt guilty over it but I needed some kind of relief. I continually used him and I'm not proud of that but it happened. The first time I was with Sharpner my guilt over what I was doing hurt me than he did as I lost my virginity. When it was done I felt empty and cold.

The only thing that kept me going ironically was the constant thought that it didn't matter what I did anymore. I'm going to die. No one would know that this happened and how I constantly wondered if I was a whore or not. On some days I felt like I was as all the guilt I carried would seem to co-mingle with that and I'd feel somewhat liberated enough to enjoy what Sharpner and I was doing. On the day I died I felt like I was a whore and died accepting that as a fact.

I'm brought back to life and by that point I don't know what to make of myself. To be honest, I still don't. It took me a while to realize that I destroyed my friendship with Sharpner. I guess I was too immature. I thought that we'd just forget that it ever happened and we'd move on. I was wrong. School started up again and there Gohan was. The Gold Fighter, The Great Saiyaman, and the cute bookworm I sat next to. Just being near him made my panties wet.

I felt myself change. I began looking at him in a way I never had before. I felt confident that I could probably make him mine but then I changed my mind." The psychologist put down his notepad. "What made you change your mind?" Erasa sighed. "My conscience I guess. I figured out that my best friend Videl had fallen for him. Her love for him was genuine, she's perfect and pure. I felt that she deserved him more than I did and in the long run I'm sure that I was definitely right.

When I saw them as a couple I could see that were made for each other. When I think about how I would've fared with a relationship with Gohan I pictured a lot of sweaty sex sessions and him getting bored with me in the end. All I'd have to offer is my lust for him. Videl on the other hand would not only love Gohan but challenge him. Move him to feel something more than physical. It didn't take long for me to realize that and it took everything I had to keep it from showing on my face each time I talked to Videl. It was difficult but I'm glad that I did that.

I got to watch Videl change and become beautiful as a result of their relationship. There were still some things left unresolved though. The friendship we all once had was now splintered and broken. With Sharpner gone things had changed. Gohan and my best friend hooked up and I began to feel like a third wheel while at the same time I still wanted him."

The psychologist picked up his notepad and wrote a few more things in it. "How did that make you feel?" Erasa made a fist and tightened it as her lips curled into a sickening scowl. "How did it make me feel? Frustrated! I felt like I had done enough, and ruined enough things! At one point I even considered moving away for the fear that I might destroy their relationship somehow. That I might become toxic to them. I'd be left alone with no friends because I managed to mess everything up!" The timer went off as it was shut off a moment later.

"Time is up. I want you to come back tomorrow if you're feeling up to it. I'd prefer that you do. We're already making a good amount of progress." Erasa got up from the chair feeling slightly disorientated for a moment as they walked out and into the waiting room where a name was called and another soldier took her place. I guess I feel a little better now that I got some of that off my mind. Now I guess the only thing left to do today is check on Videl. I hope she's holding up well. As she left the building Erasa noticed Mr. Grey entering.

That's strange, I rarely ever see him. She took to the sky and flew over to Gohan's apartment where she knocked on the window and didn't get an answer. A limo pulled up as what looked to be two servants got out where they were greeted silently by Videl. Erasa descended and landed behind her. "Hello Videl." She turned to her. "Erasa, would you mind helping me take a couple bags. I'm feeling kind of weak right now." Erasa noticed Videl's red eyes, how pale her skin was well as her grief. Without a second's hesitation she grabbed as many bags as possible and put them in the trunk of the limo. Videl's servants ushered her into to vehicle.

Erasa turned to her. "Is there anything else I can do for you?" Videl slowly turned to her. "Get in. I want to talk to you; after all it's been a while." Erasa did so as the door was closed as soon as she got in. Alone with Videl in the back of the limo the vehicle took off. Erasa noticed that Videl had her left hand over her stomach as she stared blankly at nothing. "You know…" Videl began. "I was going to be a mother." Was? Erasa was stunned into silence as she continued. "When I first found out about the baby I was shocked. I didn't know how to feel about it.

Gohan knew though. He was happy. We were going to raise this baby of ours together. I was a little scared but with him I was sure that everything was going to be alright. Then Frost came. She took Gohan away from me as well as our baby. I didn't even get to think of a name for our child. She's taken everything away from me except my life. I keep looking at my stomach for proof that I once carried a child but my skin is smooth. It's almost as if I was never pregnant to begin with. My father is going to be back soon if not already.

This is a good thing I guess, because I can't bear to stay in Gohan's apartment anymore. When I take a shower in his bathroom I feel his hands all around me. Caressing and soothing me and yet I can't touch him. When I sleep in his bed I either can't because I keep waiting for his arm to wrap around me or can and my dreams of him are so real I wake up crying because he's not by my side. I miss him…so much that I feel broken on the inside Erasa." Silent tears rolled down her face as she smiled. Erasa placed her hand on Videl's shoulder. "Are you okay?"

Videl laid back into her seat. Her smile didn't falter as her left hand moved from her stomach to her heart. "Somewhat. Talking to you helped me put this pain I feel into perspective now that I had a chance to think about it. I really love him. If I didn't I wouldn't feel the way I do right now. This must be what heartache feels like. It hurts yet it validates how I feel for him." Videl wiped away her tears. I have no idea what to say or do. While I was flying away to save my own life she lost her boyfriend and her baby. "I'm so very sorry for doing nothing to do help you."

Videl shook her head. "There was nothing any of you could've done. I don't blame you for trying to get away. Everything was out of our hands. I'm just glad that you were able to leave unscathed. I will admit however that I was disappointed to find out that the Red Ribbon Army at least in this instance was completely pointless. I remember being surprised that they showed up. For a moment I had hope. Of course it wasn't long before Angela was melting right in front of me."

I think that will be forever burned into my mind. I didn't think much of her but no one deserves to die the way she did. "She was far more fearless than I was." Videl shrugged. "While I know it's wrong to speak of ill of the dead I'm not exactly in the mood to think of anything positive regarding Angela. What she did was stupid. I'm willing to believe that she would be alive right now if she didn't go off and do something so foolish but I guess not everyone has had the chance to speak to her like I have. Angela should've listened."

"You've talked to Frost before? What's she like?" Videl crossed her arms and looked thoughtful. "She's determined, composed, intelligent, strong and slightly psychotic. She threatened that she would kill me not long after she and Gohan had sex. I believe her. She also said that I was being watched. I don't think that she'll try to kill me anytime soon." She sounds so sure. "What makes you think she won't try to kill you today?" Videl's smile was woeful. "Have you forgotten? Gohan made love to me for half a day. I was tired and couldn't move without wheels.

Since I already that she's compatible with him they might be done right about now for all I know but no matter how strong she is I think she'll be incapacitated. While she could send someone to kill me I think she would prefer to do it herself. I don't expect to die until about five or six days pass." How is she able to keep her cool when it comes to her own death? How is she able to sound so cool and detached when she speaks of Frost and Gohan are probably doing right now? "You know, you don't have to go home. You could stay at the Red Ribbon Army Headquarters. We'd put you on the lowest floors. That way you'd be able to sleep easier and Frost would have to fight her way through to get to you."

Videl looked thoughtful as she hit a button near her. "Driver, take me to the Red Ribbon Army Headquarters. I'll be staying there." The speaker crackled a bit. "Are you sure?" Videl pressed the button again. "I am." They felt the vehicle turn and go the opposite direction. Erasa noticed that Videl was smiling again only this time it looked genuine as she turned to face her. "Frost will have to work to kill me. I don't plan on dying easily. Besides to tell you the truth I don't think I'd be able to tell my father what has happened recently. I will one day if I survive this but I can't do it now. Just to be sure though, do you think your higher ups will allow this?"

Erasa nodded. "I think if it gives them another shot at Frost they'd be willing to house you with no complaints. Silver, Grey and Violet took the news of what happened that day really hard. Now that we know about those weapons I think we'd do better against them." Erasa noticed that Videl seemed to be thinking again as her eyes slowly rose. "Did you ever think to take into consideration that if Frost knew that I was on the lowest floor and that she wouldn't be able to use the same tactic she did before that Frost would more than likely send Gohan in?"

To be completely honest I didn't even think about that. "It sounded like a good idea too. She'd more than likely level the building than to go through the work of fighting her way deep down into the earth to find and kill you." Videl laughed. "I'm almost completely sure that she'd find the challenge worth it somehow. It's as I've said before I'm sure she wants to kill me with her own hands and if she can't verify it Frost probably wouldn't be happy with the end results. I think your plan is a good one. Whether she sends Gohan in or not you still have a decent number of you there right?" Erasa went over the numbers in her head. "There should at least be over four hundred of us."

Videl looked satisfied. "I never thought I'd say this but I'm looking forward to talking to your higher ups." Minutes passed as they finally arrived at the headquarters. The first thing Videl did was set up an appointment with Mr. Silver then ate lunch with Erasa while they waited. Mr. Silver and Ms. Violet appeared as they all sat around the table as she listened to Videl go over her battle plans. Silver and Violet listened and agreed with all her plans as they seemed to be reasonable. Two day had passed as sentry guns were built in several areas of the building.

Around the third day Videl started to look better as she wore the new clothes they gave her. Erasa's jaw nearly dropped as she noticed Videl wearing a black beret, long black coat, and the rest of the Red Ribbon Army attire. "So, what's with the change?" Videl shrugged. "Besides being the odd person out I plan on fighting. While I could do it wearing the Saiyagirl outfit I don't plan on getting blood on that. That costume had good memories. I plan on getting Frost's blood on this. I will kill her for what she's done to me, what she's done to Gohan and above all else what she did to our unborn child. It shouldn't be too hard to goad her into a fair fight. It's just a shame that our last fight will happen indoors otherwise I'd leave her lifeless body hanging from a tree. I'll talk to you later, I've got some training to do." As she left Erasa did her very best to keep herself from shivering.