I'm so sorry I didn't update yesterday, but I was super busy and it's getting harder for me to find the time to write, because of school and my disease. It's not much left to my story, I decided to speed it up a bit and we're slowly nearing the end guys :) I don't know if I should be happy or sad about it though :/
G: Can't promise anything ;) haha
Yan: Thank you for pointing out some mistakes, took care of it already :) And like I said, can't promise anything muahahaha
Have fun :)
Couple of days later I was back home, sitting in my room and turning the camera on.
"It's been a while since I sat here talking to you and a lot happened the past few days. Well, I turned 17 and Chloe planned this awesome party for me. I didn't expect so many people to be there. I have such amazing friends, they actually became my family." I smiled to myself. "On the same day we drove to Lexa's parents' lake house to celebrate spring break as well. We had a lot of fun. We sang sitting by the bonfire, danced and just laughed until our lungs and jaws were hurting. We also swam in the lake and they laughed at me, because Chloe said that I wasn't just her little turtle, but swam like one too. Chloe and I... well... we took the next step in our relationship", I laughed nervously blushing. To be honest Chloe was unstoppable since our first time. She was crazy. I couldn't believe her sex drive. You would think I would be total awkward about having sex, because I wasn't very experienced, but I put my nervousness to the side and became more and more sure about what I was doing. And, besides Chloe's screams, scratches on my back were just an even bigger ego boost. We had a lot of sex since that night and Octavia and the others teased us about it, saying we were like bunnies on viagra. But come on, how could I not want to do it all the time with Chloe? She was a sexgoddes.
"Anyway when we came back, we went to a lot of dates, spend time with the group and also had fun with Jamie." I was deep in thought for a while just smiling to myself.
"Of course I'm still sick, but besides the appointments I don't really feel like I have cancer. I am truly happy again, dad. And I hope it will stay like this. I have an amazing girlfriend, whom I love, awesome friends, who make me laugh and of course a great family, with Chloe's parents and Jamie.
I don't know what I would do if I lost them. I wish you would still be here to meet them all and see yourself how wonderful they are." I felt tears rolling down my cheeks as I spoke.
"I love you dad and I hope you're happy as well wherever you are. One day I'll see you again." I paused again for a minute or so before I spoke up again wiping my tears away: "Tomorrow school starts again and I don't really want to go. This break was just too good to end, but I guess I have to go though. Chloe wouldn't let me stay home anyway, she would come over and kick my ass out of the bed. And besides I know I have to go to school to graduate in a year. Chloe and I planned a little bit what we wanna do after we finished school. We want to stay here to go to college. She wants to major in English lit, seriously dad her writing is amazing. I wanna study music, not just because my dream is to become a music producer, but Chloe actually persuaded me to. She supports me so much and I think she believes even more that I'll make it, than I believe it myself." I heard my phone ringing suddenly.
"Speaking of the devil", I said amused, "I have to get that, but I'll record sometime the next days."
I turned off the camera and answered the call: "Hello?"
"Hey babe", I heard Chloe's weak voice and a cough on the other end.
"Baby are you sick?", I asked worried.
"Yeah, I don't think it was such a good idea to go swimming in the ocean. But I'll be fine. My mom won't let me go to school tomorrow though, so I can't pick you up."
"I told you, you would get sick and Jamie told you too. That's fine, I'll just take my car. What matters is that you get better soon. Do you maybe want me to come over and take care of you?"
"That's so sweet of you, but it's late and you should go to sleep, you have to get up early", she replied with a sniff.
"Ok, babe, but I'll come after school and we'll cuddle to make you feel better."
"I love you."
"I love you too. You should rest now as well."
"Ok, sweet dreams turtle."
"Sweet dreams Red."
We hung up and I got ready for bed. As I bend down to pick up a sock I felt a sharp pain in my back. I felt this pain a few times since a couple of weeks, but I didn't think much of it and didn't mention it to anyone. The pain was gone after a moment and I laid down to get some sleep.
The next morning when I woke up and wanted to get up, I was confused at first, but then panicked. I couldn't move my legs. I threw the cover to the side and looked at my lifeless legs. I touched them to see if I felt anything. Nothing. I tried to move them with all my willpower, but nothing happened.
Was it how the cancer slowly got back at me? Would I end up in a wheelchair? Was it just a beginning and would I die eventually?
Fuck! Just the moment everything gets better and I'm happy, it has to get two times worse, I thought.
I begun to cry and scream.
"Mom! Mom, please! I don't know what is happening!", I shouted as loud as I could. A second later my mom came storming through the door.
"What's wrong?", she asked concerned as she came closer trying to calm me down by stroking my cheek.
"I can't move my legs."
Well...fuck, huh?
