I'm really sorry for late update, and I always remind that English is not my native language, and I'm sorry for grammatical error.
"Meredith can hear Cristina, William and Shane chatting from outside, she hesitated to disturb them, but she need to meet her now, she can't stand it anymore, she knock her door, all them stop talking and look at her in front of the door, William greet her, "Meredith come in" then he give sign to Shane to walk out from the room, "we'll give you some privacy". While walk together to the next room.
Meredith take a sit beside her bed, "how are you feeling Cristina?" she asked, " I'm feeling better, Mer", Meredith put her hand into her, "I miss you so much Cristina yang, I'm sorry, really sorry for everything I did, my life is miserable without you", she talked while sobbing, at same Cristina also cried, Meredith get closer to hug her, Cristina hug her back, "I'm miss you too, miss you so much, but I'm so afraid to meet you, I'm afraid you will resent me one more times, you are my person Meredith,", they emotional conversation wakes Nathan from his sleep, "mommy" he look terrified and start to get teary, while look at his mom and aunt Meredith cried together.
Cristina wipes her tears while take Nathan closer to her, "it's okay sweetheart, mommy and aunt Meredith so happy meet each other after long time", Cristina tried to comfort Nathan, while rub his back, and result Nathan back to sleep while snuggled to her.
"Nathan is really sweet boy Cristina, you did really good job with William", "I love him so much Mer, Nathan and Jason are my life now"," yes, I can see that, I'm happy for you Cristina", "Mer, I really appreciated for your help during hard times my family going through, can we put the past behind now, I need my twisted sister back", Meredith felt a thousand burden on her heart lift, she grips her hand, both of them smiled, they know everything going to be better in future.
After two weeks treatment Cristina and her family finally allowed back to Los Angeles, this times Cristina leave Seattle with smile from her big family of GSMH, William rent private jet for them, Cristina so happy come back to their house, she sick of the hospital as a patient of course, she know she have to work hard for recover her broken leg, but she didn't give up, because of Nathan and William, besides she miss her scalpel, she miss a surgery, where only happen if she can stand properly.
Since back to LA, William tried to contact Owen through his phone and his email, but he never respond him, so he keep calling Derek to check Owen condition, which always ending with "stop worrying about him, just focus to take care your own family".
After two months full of tortured therapy Cristina finally walk properly, but she still can't stand for long times, at least now William and her start back to work in hospital even though only for consult, and in next month Cristina and William allowed to do a surgery.
At same times Owen already back in OR for two months now, he missed Nathan terribly, Nathan is his reason to live now, deep down of his heart, he have faith someday he'll get chance to be close with him even though not in near future, so now he trying to be better man for his son, knowing he is happy with Cristina and William is enough for him, He really want to hate William, but he can't, he is good guy, Owen understand his position, he just want to protect his family, even if he in same place, Owen will do exactly what he did, and he appreciated what he did for him with send him video of Nathan development every week since they leaved to Seattle, he really grateful for that but he decided not to respond him, can't lie sometimes he taken aback with this whole situation but he know this for the better of Nathan itself and Cristina of course, to cope his despair, he decided to really go to Turkey to help Syria refugee, he need new environment to refresh his mind, with helping people who really need help but with limited resources, he knew he good with that.
Today is William day off, he drive to buy grocery by himself, Cristina is in hospital, and Nathan at home with Nanny, after he finish put the grocery on the trunk, he going to drive back, but then he felt chest pain, he take to deep breath but the pain is get worse, he tried to cough hard, after three minute, the pain is gone, William tried to calm himself, he often to feel the pain in the chest, since he had heart surgery few months ago. But this time is different, he knew something wrong with him.
At night when Cristina back from hospital William surprise her with candle light dinner, "honey, what it is?" she soon kiss her husband lips, William pull her to his embrace, "I prepared this for us, it's almost four month since the accident, and we didn't get romantic dinner like we used to, Nathan already had his dinner and he is sleep now, so we have private time together, Cristina you know that I love so much right?", his voice almost choked because of hold of his tears "I do, and I love you so much too, honey what happen is something wrong?", she caress his jaw, Cristina start feel worry, , "no, everything is fine honey, I just feel so grateful that everything back to normal after the accident" he kisses her hand, then take her to the table.
Cristina hugged William tightly as both of them finally come together, William lay on her chest, both of them tried to catch their breath, that night William so different, he was so passionate as if he never get enough of her, he make love as if there is no tomorrow, Cristina keep stroking his hair while William still stay on her chest, "that was amazing honey, I don't know if I still have power to wake up tomorrow" Cristina teased him, " I just love you so much, being with you made me feel like I'm in heaven, even if I died now, I'm still grateful because is my dream to die in your arm", William kiss her forehead, then take Cristina sleep in his arm, Cristina is too exhausted so she just respond " I love you so much too" then fall asleep.
At 2.30 AM William wake up, he carefully take his arm from Cristina, he get dress then walk to Nathan crib, he sleep soundly, William look close at his adorable face, "Nathan, dada love you so much, thank you for give me chance become you father, for me you are the most amazing boy in the world, please take care Mommy when dada gone", then he kisses his cheek, and turn out wake him up, "dada" he said, William welcome him with smile, take him to his arm, he walk to his work room, open his laptop "Nathan, let send email to doodah" Nathan smiled while bubbling "Doodah, doodah", William laughing look at his cute expression, then type "Owen,…..
Cristina wake with the alarm sound, she look at William who sleep so soundly, she kiss his cheeks, then walk to bathroom, after finish get dress, she walk to bed to wake her husband, "Jason wake up honey" she shake his body, William didn't respond, soon she check his pulse, but she can't find it, she become terrified, then he touch his body which still warm, she take a deep breath and calm herself, her consciousness back, she called 911.
Izzie stand besides the bed look at Cristina who still do CPR on William, it break her heart look at the scene, she sign the nurse to walk out from the room, she held her shoulder "Cristina it's been 40 minutes, we done everything to bring him back, let him go Cristina", Cristina take her hand from William chest, she so exhausted, "called it Izzie", "time of dead 7:54 AM ", "could you please leave me alone, Izzie" just a second Izzie leaved, she get to his bed, her tears burst while hug him.
Izzie know exactly Cristina feeling, she been there before with Denny, she look to Helen who carried Nathan, then shake her head to her as sign, Helen soon cried while hug Nathan, Saul soon comfort his wife, Izzie tried hard to hold her tears, but she can't hold it anymore, she called Meredith, "Mer, I need you to go LA now", "Izzie what happen? Are you crying?", "William passed away this morning, he get cardiac arrest, Cristina need you Mer".
Cristina can't stop her tears, the feeling when her dad gone, hit her again, same feeling when her hand felt their heart stop beating, the people she loved gone and never come back, she wish she can go with him, but her conciseness return the moment Nathan enter the room, "Mommy", he look confuse all people crying, zizi crying, nana crying and now his mommy, he walk to her, Cristina get down from the bed then hug him, "sweetheart, daddy is gone", then he said "dada slip" while pointed at William in the bed, Cristina tears burst one more time but she tried to resist it, "yeah honey, dada is sleep" then she hug him tightly to ease the pain in her heart.
Cristina sits on her bed in her room, she just back from William funeral, there so many people comes, but she felt lonely, the room suddenly feel roomier without William, the moment when she find William unconscious hit her one more time, she can't take it, the memory too painful, soon she pack her bag, she decided to move in Helen house, she need her family, she afraid she'll have unstable emotion in future, Helen will be there help her with Nathan.
Izzie come to her room, "Cristina, are you okay? There's lot of people asked you outside", then she notice Cristina busy packing, "it's okay, I'm fine Izzie, it just I can't stay in this house", "Cristina we need to talked about this, you've been quite since yesterday, you even shut to Meredith".
"What you want me to say Izzie? You been there before, I know you gonna said all good thing about Jason, and how he gone without pain, and we did everything we could, I get all of that, and you know the irony, I'm the best cardio surgeon in country but I can't save my own husband, or maybe it's karma for me, my attending husband died in my hand, and god want me to feel the same pain she had, and the truth is I feeling numb, I can't feel anything right now".
It's almost a month William gone, Cristina being really strong for first week, but in second weeks, she break down, she crying all the time she remember William, she felt regretful, because for this long it's William who take care of her, she is center of his life, and Cristina didn't do much for him, thankfully Nathan always there to give her strength, to passed day after day she busied herself in surgery and spending time with Nathan.
She get called from William lawyer, Mr Robin, he said he will come to give William wills, "I'm sorry for your loss Dr Yang, I just finish take care paper of relocated all Mr Jason William asset to you, all we need right now is your signature" after she finish sigh all the paper, he give her a letter "Mr. William give me this letter three days before he died, he specifically asked me to give this letter for you a month after he died".
Cristina hold the letter Mr Robin gave her, she courage herself to open it, "Cristina my love, I'm really sorry for leaving you, I want you to know, you and Nathan are my happiness. Every second that I have with you and Nathan are grace, so I hope you never ever blame yourself for everything. My sweetheart I'm sorry for you to wait 30 days to get this letter, because I only deserved 30 days you grave for me. Honey, there is one important thing I need to tell you, and I can't rest in peace until you know the truth, when we got the accident actually Owen is there, and he is the one who give donor to Nathan and save his live.
"Honey, I still remember when Owen knew that Nathan is his son, it break my heart looking at his eyes, and then he knew that you are freak out because of him when you wake from coma, he just leaved for shake of you and Nathan, I always think there is no one can compare my love for you until I met him, my love is nothing, I'm nothing compared to him. his sacrifice everything for you and Nathan, His FAMILY. Then I took it, I took everything from him, his love, his son and his happiness, but I'm too coward to tell you directly, and I'm too selfish to let you go, I'm really sorry for that, I know I'm not deserved your love, but please at lease you remember me as man who really love you with all my heart".
Cristina hand shaking hold the paper in her hand, she really shock for everything she read, Owen knew Nathan is his son, he is the one saved Nathan, then he leaved for her, she can't imagine the pain Owen hold for this time and it all because of her, he don't deserved that, no matter what he did to her before, it can't compare with what she did to him, Cristina crying hard, then call Owen number, but his number is not available anymore.
She then call Meredith in her sob, "Mer, is it true that Owen in Seattle when I'm got accident?", "Cristina what happen with you are you crying?", "Mer, just answer my question, is Owen in hospital when I got accident?", "yes, Cristina, he is", "where he is, Mer?, I try to call his number but not active,", "Cristina I'm sorry, but Owen three months ago volunteered to Turkey, in two month he still keep in contact with April, but it's been a month she can't reach him at all", "what? oh my god, what if something bad happen to him, Mer" Cristina become more shock, and panic, "Cristina take a deep breath, I'm sure he'll be alright, I'll help you to search her, please be calm Cristina, I'll call you as soon I get news about him". it leave Cristina full of regret and despair.
Owen finally get access for internet after two weeks in the field, he check his email, he so exhausted treat the patient, he need boost power from Nathan, his video exactly, but he didn't get new email, the last email is from month ago, so he click it anyway, to watch Nathan singing video, then he read the last message from William, which remind him about Nathan birthday, and he check the date, is next four days, then he called April for help.
"April, it's me, hunt", "oh my god Dr Hunt, I'm so worry about you, are you all right sir?", "yeah I'm fine, sorry I didn't called for a while, I was really busy, and April I need your help, could you please help me to buy glove and bat softball for kid, it's gift for Nathan, his birthday is next four days, I'm afraid I can't send it from here, and just write it from uncle doodah okay!, I'll send you the address later".
"Okay, is fine Dr Hunt, I'll help you, but sir…" April hesitated to tell him something, "what happen April? Are you fine?" he can feel something uneasy, "sir, I think you need to know something, Mr Jason William, Cristina husband is died a month ago".
"what?"
