Because of the long wait, this chapter is almost twice as long as normal. It's my first time writing a sex scene, so I hope it doesn't sound to bad.
Chapter 29
Gaara's POV
I entangled my fingers in his hair and pulled him closer. I nibbled on his lower lip before harshly biting into it. He gasped and I pushed my tongue in between his lips. I coaxed his tongue to move with my own. My other hand grabbed his hip and pulled him flush against myself. I was exploring every part of his mouth and it felt heavenly. I pulled his head to the side by the grip on his hair. I began sucking and biting down his neck.
I could still feel him being distant, so I tightened my hold on his hair, pulling to get his attention. I heard him muffle a moan and soon after his hands hesitantly touch my arms. Naruto ran his tongue across my piercing before taking my whole bottom lip into his mouth. I pulled away and our breaths mingled. I kissed down his jaw and began nibbling on his neck.
He wasn't really here with me. I could feel it. I sunk my teeth into his flesh. His breath hitched and he tightened his grip on my arms. I released my hold on his hair and moved my hands down his body. It felt so good to be touching him. To feel his body under my hands. But I wanted more. I wanted skin against skin. Chest against chest. I pulled away to remove our shirts and threw them somewhere on the floor. I ran my fingers over his chest and down his sides.
His skin felt so soft and so… untainted. Some animalistic part of me wanted to mark it. To put my mark all over his body so no one would ever touch him again. I got up and pulled him with me. I gently pushed him onto the bed and straddled him. I began to caress his body. Arms, chest, sides. Just getting lost in the feeling. Suddenly I felt a hand on mine and looked up.
"You can continue… if you want" Naruto's voice seemed to frail and hesitant. I tried to give him a reassuring smile, but I wasn't sure if I managed that. I leaned down and kissed him, hoping I really could manage to help him get his mind off of this. This time I felt his lips move against mine and felt his tongue glide over my lips asking for entrance. I couldn't do anything other than to part my lips and welcome him. The feeling of his tongue moving against mine, touching, seeking, rubbing.
The stiffness in me was slowly melting away and I tried to grind my hips against Naruto's. He seemed to like it from the sounds coming from his throat. My fingers moved over his chest again, brushing against his nipples. I felt his breath hitch and he moved his head to breathe again. My mouth felt empty, so I kissed down his chest and timidly lapped at his nipple. He squeaked and I sucked on it. My hand began to tweak and roll the other nipple.
I could feel all the blood slowly running down between my legs and while my mouth and hands were working on his nipples, I couldn't help but to buck against Naruto. I could feel him slowly move his hips too, and the movement made me aware that he too had a little problem between his legs. I decided his nipples had gotten enough attention and began kissing further down, licking a trail down to his navel. I dipped my tongue into it, feeling him move into my touch. I could feel him burry his hands in my hair.
Naruto's POV
I desperately tried to push him further down. I needed some relief. My pants were so tight it was beginning to hurt. Luckily I could soon feel hands fumbling with unbuttoning my pants. Gaara roughly pulled them off as I tried to lift my hips. He tossed the pants away and I could feel something warm and moist on my thigh. I felt him suck on my skin before he soothingly licks over the mark. His mouth moving up until I felt his teeth scrape against my hipbone.
My body was beginning to heat up from his all the things he did to me. He began to rub against my crotch. He still hadn't removed my boxers, but the feeling still made me arch my back. I reached out for him. Wanting to feel him. I grasped his hair and pulled him closer, clashing our lips together. Our teeth came more and more into play and soon I could feel the metallic taste of blood mixed with our saliva.
I felt myself tensing as I felt his fingers starting to pull at my boxers. This was still so new for me and I was slightly nervous. Gaara quickly distracted me as I felt him suck above my pulse. The cold air reached my sensitive skin as the boxers were now lying on the ground. Gaara loosely gripped my member and spread the pre-cum with his thumb. I couldn't help but hum in appreciation. The pre-cum made the skin more slick, helping him keep a steady, slow pace.
I turned my head to smash my lips against his again. I caught his bottom lip and sucked it into my mouth, gently tugging at it with my teeth. I almost felt the growl more than I heard it. The sound making me shiver with excitement. I released his lip and ran my tongue over the little metal stud under it. He pulled away and his nails scratched down my chest. The feeling made my skin tingle. It wasn't so deep that the skin broke, but just deep enough that I could feel a slight sting.
Gaara's hand picked up the pace and I couldn't do anything but throw my head back and tried to keep my moans in. Suddenly the feeling of his hand was gone and something warm and moist was taking its place. My breathing was beginning to come out in short huffs. His tongue swirled around my member as his head began bobbing up and down. It was overwhelming. Everything stopped working inside my brain for a bit before he pulled away again. I couldn't stop the whine coming out of my mouth at the loss. Gaara heard it and smirked.
"W-why did you stop?" I was having a heard time talking normally from the loss of breath.
"Stop what?" He asked teasingly.
"You know what" I said, trying not to blush.
"No, that's why I'm asking" He said almost innocently. Of course. It's just typical that he was going to be talkative right now.
"S-suck me" I could feel the warmth rush to my cheeks as I tried to not look away.
"That colour suits you well" He chuckled. I leaned up to kiss him, hoping to distract him from this conversation.
"So impatient" He whispered huskily against my lips. He sat up and I felt his hands move over my skin. I felt my flesh heat up under his touch. I felt fingers brush against my cheeks, following the scars and suddenly the warm feeling inside me turned cold. The safe feeling of being under him began to feel suffocating. Bits and pieces from my nightmare began to surface.
Gaara's POV
He was desperately trying to push me away and I could see the rising panic in his eyes. I grabbed both of his wrists and pushed them into the bed.
"Look at me" I growled. He looked in my direction, but his eyes were still unfocused. Fuck. I just messed it up again. I tightened my grip on his hands and kissed him. Nipping, sucking, biting every bit of flesh I could reach, trying to get some kind of reaction.
"It's fine.. I'm fine" a soft voice said after a while. He was still breathing too fast, almost choking on the air as he tried not to cry. I slowly released his hands and wiped the few stray tears away from his face with my thumbs.
"It's alright. It's just me" I gave him a gentle kiss.
"Sshh.." I tried to comfort him in some way, but felt completely at a loss. I hugged him tightly, so he could feel I was still there beside him. He was slowly getting calmer and calmer. He looked up at me, waiting for me to continue. His breathing finally normal, but I could still feel his irregularly beating heart in his chest. The proof that he wasn't fully over it.
"Let's just continue"
"Are you sure?" I was a bit hesitant after this. I didn't want it to get worse. I felt his hands push me down and he straddled me this time. I guess he needed to have a little control now. To know we would only touch if he initiated it. I lied down and relaxed. I didn't like taking the submissive role, but I would bear with it if he would feel a bit better. He began to unbuttoned my pants and removes both them and my boxers.
I felt a bit exposed lying like this. But I soon forgot about my insecurities as I felt a hand on my member. I had gotten limp again from his little relapse, but it was slowly getting hard again from his touch. He stroked me a couple of times before I felt his breath against my sensitive flesh. I felt his tongue glide up and down my member, before he finally took the whole thing into his mouth. I gasped. It was unlike any feeling I had ever felt before. I couldn't help but buck up into his mouth from the feeling. I quickly regretted it when I felt Naruto cough around me.
"Sorry" I tried to say. Everything just felt so unreal, I hadn't really any control over my body anymore. All these new sensations. I have never felt them before. I want more. I always want more when Naruto was involved. He sucked harder, his hand rubbing the bit he couldn't reach with his mouth. There was something building up inside of me. Bigger and bigger. And suddenly it felt like I exploded. It was a weird feeling hearing myself moan. I looked at Naruto with half-lidded eyes. I felt so spend already.
Naruto was panting too. A trail of something white slid down his chin. When my brain finally worked and I realized it was my own cum, I couldn't help but shiver. I sat up and lunged on top of him. I kissed him again and could taste myself on his tongue. I grabbed his almost limp member and began stroking him again. As I watched him moan and squirm underneath me, I could feel myself getting harder. I didn't know much about how to do this, but I was sure I needed lube since it was his first time. I got up and moved to my drawer. Luckily I had bought a bottle the other day. I got back on the bed and dropped it beside us.
"Turn around" I could feel him tense up again.
"It's fine. I won't really hurt you" He nodded and slowly moved to lie on his stomach. I grabbed his hips and moved him upwards.
"Stay like that". I caressed the skin and before I knew it I had smacked one of his buttocks. I heard a whimper and began kneading the flesh. I leaned down, scraping my teeth over the soft skin, before I pushed my teeth into it. I opened the lube and poured some into my hand. I wrapped my arm around him to stroke him. While he was distracted I slowly pushed one finger inside him. I honestly had no idea what I was doing. I tried my best to listen for any sound of him being uncomfortable or in pain. I didn't hear anything and began to slowly push it in and out. After a short while I put the second finger inside. This time I hear a sound, but didn't know if he was hurt. He didn't say anything about stopping, so I cautiously continued. When the third fingers joined the others, I felt his body tense.
"Are you alright?"
"I think so" He didn't sound right. I slowly pushed them inside and felt him relax more and more by each push. After a little while he even began moaning softly. Encouraged by the sound I began picking up the pace.
"M-more.. I want more" I wouldn't deny him that, especially since I was rock-hard and aching to get inside him. I smeared lube onto myself and slowly pushed inside. He groaned in discomfort, so I stayed still. After he had gotten used to the feeling I felt him wiggle and couldn't help but buck into him. He moaned and I began pushing inside him again and again. I grabbed his hips and used them to make my thrusts harder and make them reach deeper inside him.
I felt him tensing around me and my nails dug into his skin. The tightness was becoming almost unbearable and I soon reached climax. I kept stroking Naruto and soon after he came too. I pulled out and collapsed beside him. I pulled the covers over us and snuggled up to him. I wrapped my arms around him and felt him move a bit in my hold. I closed my eyes and breathed in his scent. Even though I was exhausted, my mind wouldn't keep still. I was jumping between feeling euphoric over finally having sex with him. Finally having marked him as mine. But I was also scared. This just showed me that I couldn't do this. I had always believed that somehow I would be enough. That I would magically cure him. I sighed.
"Is something wrong?" Naruto asked worriedly. "Do you regret it?" His voice sounded so frail.
"Of course not" I said quickly. "I could never regret this.. it's just" I didn't know how to say this properly.
"I was thinking… maybe you should see a shrink" I said softly.
Next chapter is an epilogue, so yeah... only one chapter left. It ended up way longer than I imagined. I'm already working on two other stories. So soon I will begin uploading those too. I hope you will like them also
