WOW talk about my royal lateness! Haha, sorry I have family visiting so I didn't get a chance to write anything.
WARNING- THERE IS A LEMON UP AHEAD, IF THAT IS SOMETHING THAT MAKES YOU UNCOMFORTABLE YOU MIGHT WANT TO SKIP THIS CHAPTER!!
Okay, just so there is no confusion this chapter is the companion to last chapter, meaning it is from Edward's point of view!
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Last Time-
"Bella?" Edward called quietly, his fingers playing lightly through my hair.
"Yeah?" I answered tiredly, enjoying the feeling he was causing.
"Say it again." He asked vulnerably, seemingly trying to confirm what I had said.
"I love you Edward." I murmured to him, and I couldn't help but smile when I heard him sigh contentedly.
"I love you too love." He whispered, before he leaned for and kissed my shoulder softly.
~~*A Few Hours Earlier*~~
EPOV
The days following my recovery went fairly smooth, but that could have been linked to the fact that Bella tended to any and every need I could have possibly had. Bella insisted on changing the first and only rewrap I needed on the wound on my shoulder, but I stubbornly refused to let her.
It was pretty grotesque, and I didn't want to cause Bella any guilt over the events that led to me acquiring the wound.
So, when the opportunity arose for Carlisle to change my bandages, we quickly did so.
Even after the wound had healed, Bella still fussed over the scar that was left behind. I don't know how many times Carlisle had to tell her that it would fade away soon enough. But I couldn't help but inwardly smile whenever Bella voiced her complaints about my injuries. Because in a sort of sick twisted way, I could almost convince myself that she actually cared about my well-being.
But lately my mind as been preoccupied with Bella's slight confession of her feelings towards me.
I didn't want to get my hopes raised up, if it was just something she said to placate me. I felt like I was perpetually stuck, between joyfully pursuing where this would led us, and having my hopes horribly crushed because she had spoke offhandedly. I really didn't think that Bella would blatantly lie to me, or even lie about falling for someone. That just didn't seem like something she would do, it was not a subject to toss around lightly for her.
At least I didn't- I hoped not anyways.
So I didn't pressure her into talking about it, I figured she would come to me when she was ready. But it sure a hell was hard to have patience about the subject.
I wanted to know.
When she said that she felt guilty about stringing me along, while she figured out her feelings and emotions. I lightly brushed it off telling her that we had plenty of time to talk things through. I noticed that her expression changed minutely, and a slight frown form across her face.
Thinking this way always made me unspeakably sad.
I was in the bathroom getting ready for bed, and I couldn't stop these thoughts as they invaded my head.
I was willing to give up this life that I lead, to be with Bella. But the thing that always nagged at the back of my mind was, would Bella even care if I did or not?
I finished brushing my teeth and as I reached over to put my toothbrush back into the holder, I saw that my hand was shaking. I put the lid down as I sat on the toilet, again thinking to myself.
It wouldn't really matter if I led a human life, if Bella didn't want to be apart of it. I thought miserably to myself.
I held my head in my hands, my breathing shaky and uneven. If I didn't know any better I would have thought I was about to cry.
After another moment, I took a few calming breaths before getting up and heading towards the bedroom. When I exited the bathroom, I saw that Bella was stretched out on her side of the bed. But she didn't even acknowledge my presence, and this didn't help with the mood I was in.
I flopped down heavily onto the bed beside Bella.
To my surprise she giggled, "What in the world is the matter with you?" She asked as she turned and propped herself up on her side.
I let out a mock groan, covering my face with my arm, "After a long day of relaxing, it feels great to lay back and do nothing." I joked lightly back to her.
I saw her roll her eyes at me before saying, "Yeah, it must be so terrible." I watched as Bella tried ducking her head to meet my gaze.
"Hey it's a hard life, but someone has to do it." I snickered, before I quickly hid my face away from her again.
I stretched out my free arm, and to my intense delight Bella scooted closer. Laying her head on my outstretched arm, and placing her hand on my chest. I felt her sweet breath again my neck as she sighed quietly.
Suddenly I felt her place several kisses all over my exposed skin. I felt her shifting her body away from me as she continued kissing me. I pouted when Bella skipped over my lips, and explored elsewhere on my face.
Finally I wrapped my arm around her shoulders, bringing her to me so I could kiss her. She quickly responded to my lips on hers, so I lightly ran my tongue over her bottom lip for admittance into her mouth. When she didn't let me in right away I was a little shocked, so I persisted, and she finally relented.
I felt Bella start to move her hand down my chest, as I continued to dominate her mouth. When she snuck her warm little hand under my shirt, caressing my stomach, my muscles clenching and relaxing at the ticklish sensation. I broke away from her mouth, grunting, "Bella, you are seriously testing my control here." As I kissed up and down her slender neck, encouraged by the sounds escaping her.
When Bella moved her hand out from under my shirt, and started making her way down towards my pants, I knew I was in trouble. She slowly dragged the back of her hand across my erection, murmuring, "-Maybe, I want you to lose control." I growled, catching myself by surprise, as I grabbed Bella's wrist and rolled us so I was hovering over her. When Bella started kissing me, I instinctively used my knee to spread her legs wider for myself.
I couldn't help but grind myself into her; my straining cock needed something to relieve the ache.
We continued like so for a bit, and then Bella started taking off my shirt. I could feel the nagging in the back of my mind that I knew I should take heed to, but for now I ignored it. When Bella finally removed my shirt, I quickly did the same for her. I took a moment to admire her beauty, before I leaned down and took one of her nipples into my mouth.
Then Bella made the most beautiful sound I had ever heard, she moaned my name.
"Edward."
"Hmm?" I hummed, knowing that the vibrations would bring a pleasurable response for her.
I continued my ministrations on her pert mounds, but then I felt Bella's hand unthread from my hair, and start sliding down my body. Immediately my thoughts were split in two different directions, should I allow this to continue or should I stop want I have wanted desperately from the moment I saw Bella?
All internal thinking ceased when Bella's warm little hand wrapped around my cock, as she began stroking me. I buried my face in her soft, mahogany, hair, while I relished in the feeling that Bella was coming onto me.
'But she isn't,' My conscience voiced, 'After everything she has been through, she is feeling vulnerable, and you're taking advantage of that.'
I ground my hard on into Bella's hand a few times, like a horny mutt without shame, before my resolve hardened. I reached down with a trembling hand and grabbed Bella's petite wrist, and removed it from my flannel bottoms. When Bella shot me a questioning glance, I decided to voice my concerns about our current situation.
"Bella," I sighed as I looked back and forth between her beautiful doe eyes, "I don't know if I can do this with you, knowing that it doesn't mean to you what it would mean to me." Begging her to understand, I didn't want her to regret this, because she thought I had taken advantage at her moment of weakness.
When she didn't respond, I could feel the sadness quickly eating up my insides, as she continued to stare silently at me. Just when I was getting ready to say something, Bella started kissing along my jaw and cheek before leaning back again.
"Edward, being with you these past couple of weeks has been sort of like an adventure, and served as an eye opener for me. But I think the thing that sealed our fate, was when I saw your reaction to my safety that day in the woods. When I saw the wounds that had been inflicted on you, then I saw how shaken you were and how hard your heart was pounding…" She trailed off for a moment, and I held my breath waiting for her to continue. "I knew…that I was in love with you." She finished in a whisper.
She loves me! My inner voice cheered, and I quickly brought my lip haphazardly to hers. When she instantly responded I released both of her hands, as I let my own travel down to the hemline on her sweat pants. When she silently gave the affirmative, I made quick work of her sweats and panties, and I removed my own remaining articles of clothing.
I felt Bella shiver when I laid myself back down to her, and I lazily rubbed my erection over her wet slit.
With a great deal of control I stopped moving against her, "Bella are you completely sure? Because if we do this, then there will be absolutely no chance in hell that I will ever let you go again. Any sliver of a chance of that happening will be gone, without any other thought." I grumbled deeply, as I stared intently into her eyes.
She has to be absolutely sure about this; I don't think I could bear it if she turned on me after something so intimate.
"If there was anything on this Earth that I was ever one hundred percent sure about…it's you." She breathed out.
A small smile escaped me with her words, before I pulled her into a searing kiss, aligning myself at her entrance.
"Edward, wait a second." She panted pulling from our kissing. I shot her a questioning look, searching her face for the answer. "I'm, uhh, I'm not on t-the pill…" She trailed off shyly.
What? She let other boy embrace her without anything coming between them right in front of me, and she wants something between us? I will never leave her side, and she wants to put something between us. But, that Jacob won't be here forever and he can make contact skin to skin…I don't think so.
"Bella I'm only going to tell you this once so listen up!" I ground out, "Never and I mean, never, insinuate having something come between you and me. I will not tolerate having any barriers between us!" I was seething; and I saw a glimpse of fear pass through her eyes.
I immediately felt sorry about exploding on her, because she didn't know. So, I pulled her into a searing kiss trying to get out my frustration and remorse.
I leaned away from our kiss and whispered hoarsely to her, "I'm sorry if I hurt you." I could only hope she caught the double meaning to my words.
Bella moaned my name as I slowly entered her, letting her adjust to my size.
"Jesus!" I groaned, and when I was fully inside her, I became still.
She doesn't have a hymen. She had been with someone else before me, I suppose it wasn't fair to assume that Bella was a virgin; she is in college after all. But I still didn't like the thought.
"Bella? From here on out my cock will be the dick to ever be inside you or giving you any sort of pleasure." My voice wavered as my breathing started to pick up, from trying to hold myself steady. "No man shall ever see you this way."
"Only you." She moaned loudly, as she tried to rock her hips against me. With a satisfied nod, I pulled almost all the way out before thrusting deeply into her.
As I continued to pump in and out of Bella, she raised her hips to meet my thrusts, and she once again moaned out my name as our hips hit full on. "Jesus shit Bella, it feels fucking amazing being wrapped up in you." I panted; as I used my free hand to prop myself up, helping me to hit a different angle inside her.
Just as I was starting to pull out again, my nerves went into overdrive, as Bella clenched her inner walls around my cock. I was so caught off guard, that my breathing hitched and the arm I was using to hold myself over Bella, gave out. "Christ." I muttered shakily under my breath.
"Don't stop, Edward please." She whimpered. I pulled her tightly to my chest, before pumping fully into her. As I did so, Bella wrapped her legs around my hips, digging her heels into the back of my taunt calves.
"Do that again." I grunted as I began to suck lightly on her collarbone. As I was getting ready to pull out of her, Bella tightened her inner walls again. Even though I knew it was coming, my breath still caught in my throat, and I lightly bit down on her collarbone.
Suddenly she yelled, "EDWARD!" And her walls clenched around me, and the sensation almost took me to my brink.
"God I'm…so…close." I grunted, as I thrust into her a few more times, pushing me over the edge. With her legs still wrapped around me, heels digging into my calves, I burst deep inside her. I collapsed on top of her, sweating and completely spent.
Bella wrapped her arm around my neck, and I reveled in the feeling of her fingers running through my hair. I didn't want to cause her any discomfort so I pulled out and rolled off of her, but immediately pulled her to my chest.
"Bella?" I called quietly, as I twirled a strand of her hair around my finger.
"Yeah?" She murmured softly.
"Say it again." I begged pathetically.
"I love you Edward." She replied quietly.
I sighed peacefully, "I love you too love." I whispered as I placed a kiss on her shoulder.
And for once in my life I felt completely content.
An: WOW honestly writing the same chapter from someone else's point of view is WAY harder then writing a new chapter from scratch! Haha Weird if you ask me. Again, sorry about the super late update. Okay, I hope this chapter gave a little insight to Edward's though process, in other words he is extremely jealous. But, I think we will delve a little deeper into that in a later chapter.
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