I laid nervously in the hospital bed. Kakashi sat in the chair next to me reading. Every once and awhile he would look up at me as if to make sure I was still here. Which was funny because where the hell would I go? Though Konaha was starting to sound good especially since I heard that my great aunts were coming out too. Now don't get me wrong I love my family and all but…they are all really headstrong intellectuals who I am more than sure will be able to give Kakashi a run for his money. "I hardly think that I'll be scared of by a few petty words Rachel." Kakashi replied looking up from his book.
"Petty? Hardly they're going to be the last words you hear, before you find yourself six feet under." I said looking him straight in the eye.
He sighed closing his book, and reached out a hand to ruffle my hair, "There hasn't been anyone who can take me on yet."
Yeah you haven't met my grandmother or mother yet. They're tougher than tough. They can make the akatsuki cry that's how tough they are. Kakashi rolled his eyes an indicator that I was thinking out loud once again. I sighed lying back into the bed think of what's to await me. "you're acting as if you're about to meet the grim reaper." Kakashi commented.
"I might as well." I replied throwing an arm over my eyes.
"Do you really not like your family that much?" Kakashi asked, a hint of sadness showed in his eyes.
"No, it's not that I hate them. I love them madly but…I don't sometimes they push their ideas onto me too much. Besides seeing them will only cause me more pain. " my voice cracked as I said this. I begun to think about the past fifteen years of my life…how they were always there for me. Memories of my mom giving my principals an earful about how no one was allowed to bully me filled my head. Then memories of camping with my Dad emerged through my thoughts, along with me wishing for a little sister and finally getting one. This was it. My life was going to end short and they didn't even know it. They still believed I was a healthfully child with a spring full of life. And maybe that's what hurt me the most…knowing that they didn't have a clue what was going on. My family was so out of the loop it wasn't even laughable anymore. It's just sad.
Tears began to brim at the corners of my eyes. I quickly pushed them back making sure Kakashi had no idea what was going on. He had done enough for me. Kakashi has stood by me every step of the way. I could only imagine how tired he must be from all this. Yet no matter how many times I cry or go into hysterics, he stands there valiantly to pick up the broken pieces of the shattered me. And for that I owe him everything, but all I could give him right now is peace. Peace from all the emotions that tormented the depths of my heart and peace from the problems that unceasingly occurred with me. That's why I have decided to remain quiet for here on out. After all there is no cure for this demon who lays inside me. Nor is there prolong my death. I am officially doomed. I have no hope for the future, all I have is Kakashi who doesn't deserve to bare this burden too. "You don't know how lucky you are to have a family," Kakashi said suddenly.
His eyes held sadness to them. Sadness that would not be seen be anyone, but someone who knew him. And I did. I knew why he said that. Kakashi had lost both of his parents as a child, and hearing me talk like this-no act like must give him the wrong impression. I smiled at him, "You have no idea how right you are."
______________________Author's note__________________________________
Okay so I lied, about the confession part-but I don't right these things!!!! Okay so admittedly I'm the one typing it up and coming up with the ideas BUT it just happens!!!! Anyway I cried writing this one. I don't know if it's any good but I like it so nyaaaah!!! Anyway I'm hoping to introduce her family in the next chapter but no promises!!!
