Chapter 29●Face Your Fears

"Pregnant...?"

"Yes."

"So...two weeks...that-"

"Its Garrus' Cass." She interrupted. "I'm two weeks pregnant with a Turian's child. I dont know how its possible, it just is. I have to tell him."

"Tell who?"

She became irrate. "Who do you think Casius? I have to let him know." That was the first time she ever used his full name.

"And how do you expect to do that?"

Selena ran it through her head in the little time she had to figure out what she was going to say, and how she was going to say it.

"Cass I..."

"You're going to leave again right? Never see me again...never speak of what happened. Never act like you met me."

She didnt want to just say 'Exactly!' He had just explained exactly what she was going to do and had to do.

'Come on Selena! You fought the collectors with no fear, you can do this.' She told herself.

"Im sorry Cass but I have to go. I have to." She said again. "You won't see me again,I can promise that."

Maybe she had been a little harsh on the last sentence but that was the only way she could say it.

Cass hung his head. "So this is the final goodbye?"

"Yes, it is."

He went to hug her but she pushed him back. "No more. Goodbye Cass."

She walked off towards the elevator, never looking behind her. She was trying to keep from crying but she had to do it, she had to do it for the one she truly loved, Garrus.

"Why did I even start this?" She asked the silence.

"Its my fault I'm in this mess. If it wasn't for my stupid idea I wouldn't have a mountain of problems."

The final realization of what she did to Garrus hit her and she let go of the tears she was trying to hold in. She slid down the elevator wall and buried her head in her hands.

"This is my fault." She told herself out loud.

She heard the ping of the elevator and hurried to get up and tried to compose herself a little bit. People watched her as she came out of the elevator. At this point if someone looked at her wrong she would kill them.

"What are you looking at?"

They all backed off, one murmuring something about her being crazy. She tried to ignore that knowing that she had something that she needed to do.

'How am I even supposed to find him?'

"Liara!"

She brought up her omni tool and pinged Liara.

Liara,

Sorry about this but I need your help again. Ill be waiting on the Normandy. Ill need your Shadow Broker skills.

Selena

She started on her way to the Normandy. She still felt like she could puke but this was for a different reason.

Her omni tool pinged. She stopped to read it.

Selena,

Ill be there soon. I have news for you.

Liara

'Oh no.'

She started running towards the Normandy. She had to hurry. She was worried that the news was about Garrus.

'Please God tell me he didn't get killed.'

She prayed that he was still alive. If he was dead, she would most likely kill herself. If he was...it was her fault.

She arrived at the Normandy. Liara was already there.

"Hey."

"Hey Lena."

Selena saw her holding a data pad and she figured that was the news.

"James just gave this to me. He said Garrus gave it to him." Liara handed her the data pad.

'Im leaving to go to Palaven. At least I can die with honor, as a hero.'

"What have I done?"

"Selena its not your fault."

"Yes it is! I drove him away! Now hes going to get himself killed!" Selena broke down and started crying.

"You didn't know that he'd go this far."

"No I didn't. But that doesn't make what I did okay!"

Selena took a breather to calm down her crying.

"We have to go to Palaven. I have to see him, get him back here. Even if he wont take me back he will at least not kill himself. I have to tell him something."

"What do you have to tell him?"

She knew Liara was trying to help but this wasnt 20 questions time.

"Im pregnant with Garrus' child."