Hello hello, it's been a while since the last update. I've been really busy, but finally I have some time to update this.

Also, since it is my birthday today, yes same day as John Paul, aren't I lucky? I figure, I'll throw in another chapter or two. Maybe more...

To whoever is still reading, thank you for taking the time to do that, and those of you who comment, many thanks for doing that.

John Paul

The looks on Kris and Zak's faces when we came out of the room in the afternoon were priceless, as usual when we have sex Craig was loud, really loud and he'd screamed down the place while I fucked him and afterwards when I sucked him off while fingering him, not stopping my blowjob until I'd sucked out two consecutive orgasms out of him, leaving his cock hypersensitive. Then I'd rimmed him before fucking him again, leaving us both utterly satisfied.

While he dozed off in my arms, I fought off the sleep and made some phone calls, booking us a fancy room for two nights in a rather nice hotel. Might as well use the money Warren gave me last night.

I'd had no intentions of having sex with Craig in that room, but seeing Sarah there, her being stubborn, I thought I'd teach her a lesson so I'd just gone for it, and she'd left the room moments after my hand began to grope Craig's arse on the outside of his jeans. I don't know if she'd stayed in the flat to hear him scream down the place, but if she had then she'd have realized that him and her would never happen again.

He'd been slightly embarrassed by the looks the guys gave him once we came out of the room, but had taken their teasing on the chin, telling Kris he was just jealous he didn't have a boyfriend who could satisfy his needs whenever, wherever, which just shut up Kris completely.

We'd left shortly thereafter Craig being all curious and nosy about the destination and me just being secretive like I usually am, not telling him anything. His face when he saw the hotel was priceless, I know he hasn't stayed anywhere fancy like this before, even last year when he went away with Sarah it had been some low budget place, I'd looked it up afterwards and seen that it hadn't exactly been anywhere splendid, and it did somehow make me feel better, even though I had been so angry with him for leaving me like that. But all that's behind us now, and I'm enjoying life with this Craig who just loves me and just wants to be with me.

"Wow" is all he says as I check us in, as we ride the elevator up to our floor and then as we enter our slightly expensive room, it's taken the majority of Warren's money to pay for this, but I still got some left. "This is too much for us JP," he tells me as he takes in the room, but I just shrug and sit down on the bed, watching him as he looks around.

"It's perfect for just us, I figured we might as well have some alone time, since it will be a while before we can have that again, once you go back to Dublin." He looks at me then nods his head before joining me on the bed and kissing me lightly on the cheek.

"We'll make the most of the time we have now, but after you come to Dublin we are never going to be apart for more than a couple of hours ever again.." he says as he cups my face, "I don't ever want to be apart from you again." He kisses me, long, hard, possessive, a kiss filled with love and devotion and I just sigh happily as I let him kiss me like I want to be kissed, like only he is allowed to kiss me, I am his forever and I know this, and with this kiss so does he.

"I like the sound of that sweetheart," I smile as he pulls back from the kiss and just looks at me, really looks into my eyes, leaning in once more he presses the softest of kisses to my lips then smiles as he sits back and grips my hand.

"You're mine," he states simply before pressing a kiss to my hand, "All of you is mine."

"Always Craig, and all of you is mine too," I tell him making him nod. "You wanna do anything?"

Shaking his head he just kicks off his shoes and climbs into bed, holding his hand out to me, I kick of my shoes and lay down next to him as he covers us with the duvet, "I just want to be with you." He tells me as he looks into my eyes making my heart beat that bit faster as he says those words.

I kiss him tenderly on his lips then rest my head on his chest as he wraps his arm around me, holding me close. We stay like this for a while, me feeling safe in his arms and him being my protector as he holds me and loves me and it's perfect. We're not doing anything and yet this, being together like this on my birthday means more to me than anything else in the world.

"Will it be like this in Dublin?" I ask quietly as I grip his hand and give it a squeeze.

"What do you mean?"

"This, us, will we have time to be together like this?"

"We'll always make us time JP, we'll always look after this relationship and after each other, we've messed it up once, we won't do it again."

"Yeah?" I wonder as I lift my head and look at him, making him frown for a moment.

"Of course, I've not asked you to come to Dublin just for us to fall apart after a while…" he tells me as he cups my face, "This is for keeps you know, no regrets no nothing, just you and I in a proper relationship."

Smiling he kisses me lovingly on the lips before letting go and letting me rest my head on his chest again, I sigh happily and give his hand a squeeze.

"I can't wait till I leave this village, I don't want to be here anymore."

Craig strokes my hair as I close my eyes, the feeling of his fingers in my hair is somewhat relaxing and I start drifting off.

"Well," he begins and I open my eyes as he continues, "why wait?"

"How'd you mean?" I lift my head off his chest and look at him properly.

"Well, how about you just pack up and come with me when I go back in a couple of days?" I frown as he finishes and undoubtedly look rather skeptical which makes him elaborate, "Look I know you want to finish this year in school, and I don't want you to jeopardize that, but if you are that fed up with Hollyoaks then why stay here longer than you have to?"

I shake my head, we'd agreed I'd finish the year at school then move to Dublin, why change it now. "It's only a month Craig," I tell him as I sit up, "I think I can manage an additional month in this village."

"I know you can, but you don't have to, if you don't want to," he tells me as he takes hold of my hand, "I mean, yeah having a year of school done is good, but if you really don't want to be here, then don't stay just for the school. You could enroll in Dublin from this year or next year and do it all from there, or just work for a while and then go back to school, there's no rush with the education stuff for you at the moment, since you want to become the best DJ there ever has been." He shrugs as he looks at me and smiles, "This way we get to be together all the time, you get to do what you really love, and then maybe study on the side, and you'd be somewhere you're really happy." I look at him for a moment, then lay back down, resting my head on his chest as I pull at the duvet to cover us properly, he's given me something to think about and my brain is working overtime trying to process everything.

Craig just lets me think about it all, I feel him drift off a while after our little conversation and I am left alone with my thoughts. It's tempting to just pack up and leave, it really is, I mean it is basically what I will be doing soon, but this way, it's more romantic, us leaving together, like we were meant to last year. I know school is important, I know it means a lot to mum, and it's good to have some degree to fall back on if my DJ'ing doesn't work out, but I can always go back to school, I can always get an education. I could do distance learning, I could do night school, there are many options, but the DJ'ing, that's been my dream for as long as I can remember, and I really think with this job in Dublin I could make my dream come true.

Craig murmurs my name and tightens his grip on me making me smile and press a kiss to his chest. Living life with him, it's scary but at the same time exciting, us sharing a home together, being together properly, no more being apart. It might not work out, though I don't think either one of us will let this relationship break apart, but the possibility of it not working out is still there, and him having his degree he'd be well off if we broke up, while I'd only have the DJ'ing and no education, but on the other hand, what is life worth if you don't take any chances or risks?

No, I know we won't break apart, I know we'll be together forever so all I have to worry about is doing my best to make all my dreams come true, and being with Craig is one of the main ones and it's come true already, I think I'll go for it, I think I'll chance it and then look at the possibilities for an education later on, there's no rush. Yeah, I'm leaving Hollyoaks with Craig in a couple of days.

Craig

Waking up I just look at the sleeping frame of my boyfriend as he is nestled close to me in the bed and it makes me smile, it just makes me happy to be able to wake up with him next to me in the bed.

Then I think about what I asked him to do earlier and I shake my head that was really stupid, it's only a month then he's done with school and we can be together properly. I don't have to be selfish, but really, I can't help it, I just want him with me all the time. I think he said no anyways though, so yeah, but it is only a month and I'll be busy with my exams so hopefully I won't notice until I am going to pick him up from the airport. Though who am I kidding, I'm pining for him if we've not spoken for an hour, so a month without him near me and not that much contact due to our exams will be hell.

I sigh as I stroke my hand through his blonde hair, pressing a soft kiss to his forehead, he's stunning and he's mine, and I can't believe how I nearly lost him for good because I was so damned scared of being seen as gay. I can't believe what I put him through, and I can't believe he still wanted me after all that. I guess maybe part of the reason I want him in Dublin now is to show him, show him that there is no shame, no fear, I know he's seen it on his visits, but I want to show him all the time. I want him to know that I'm not just putting up a show for him when he's there, and I know I've been very open with him back here in Hollyoaks, but again everyone knows about our past so it couldn't come as a surprise to see us walking around holding hands and kissing.

Sighing again I turn away from him as I try to make sense of my thoughts, cause I want him to come with me now, but I don't want him to leave his school behind when he's that close to finishing his first year. "What's wrong?" I nearly jump as his arm sneaks around my waist and he speaks, I sigh again, and then just shake my head.

"Nothing, just thinking,"

"With the sighs you've been letting out these past minutes Craig, I'd say it was more than just nothing… What's wrong?"

I smile and turn to face him, his concerned blue eyes taking my breath away, even now they are just stunning and they somehow manage to calm me down.

"It's just…" I breathe in deeply as he strokes his fingers through my hair, "What I said earlier," he nods, "I'm just a bit torn, cause I don't want you to not finish your school, I really don't…" he smiles.

"But?"

"But, at the same time I don't want to be without you, I don't want to wake up without you in Dublin again, I don't want to be in Dublin for an entire month without you there by my side, I just want us to be together, and I want us to be together now."

John Paul presses a warm kiss to my lips and brushes his thumb gently over my cheek as he continues to look into my eyes.

"So, you don't want me to come with you on Tuesday then?"

"I don't know JP, I really don't know… I feel like I've asked you to give up so much already and I guess I don't want to ask for more, because it is just a month like you said and I'll be busy with exams and stuff and I know it's me being selfish yet again, but I just…" I sigh as I shake my head, "I suppose I really do want you to come with me on Tuesday, but I think I'll understand if you can't because I do want you to finish your school. I do want you to have an education you know, I just want you to do as well in your life as you possibly can, regardless of being with me or not."

"Hey hey," he stops my little rant by placing his finger on my lips. I look at him and sigh again, making him chuckle, "No matter what Craig, no matter what this is my decision, mine and mine alone, the moving to Dublin, the giving up my school for the time being, all of it, I've thought it through and I've made the decision, I've decided that me living with you is the best thing for me right now okay?"

I nod my head slowly as I look into his eyes.

"Yeah Craig, you are selfish, but then who isn't? Why wouldn't you want your boyfriend living with you, eh? Besides I don't feel like I'm giving up anything, I feel like I'm gaining something, I'm gaining you, I'm going to be living with you, you are who I am meant to be with and we're so lucky to have this second chance now, I'm not letting it go…" he pauses for a moment as he looks into my eyes, "I know you might think I'm giving up too much for you, but I'm not, I'm really not… You know me Craig, you know I don't make decisions without thinking them through, you know that I like the people you live with, otherwise I'd have told you why I didn't like them. You know I like where we're going to work, you know I like Dublin and sweetheart you know, I know you know that I love you more than anything or anyone in the world. Don't think I'm giving things up, because I'm really not. Hollyoaks is right here, it's not going anywhere, I can always come back for a visit, we can always come back and visit, but that's all it will ever be, a visit."

"Yeah?"

"Of course, we belong together and I won't let anyone split us up."

I smile as he says this, I've said something similar and I know we're both dedicated to our relationship.

"Besides, even if we were to break up, which could happen, you never know," I bite my lip, no chance in hell of that ever happening, "But if that ever happens Craig, we'll always be best friends, because that's what we were first, we'll always be in each other's lives from now on, I've lost you as a boyfriend and as a best mate once and I felt like shit for a long time, so no matter what we'll always be best mates, yeah?"

"Nothing will ever break us apart John Paul, I won't let it… But we'll always be best mates." I nod my head as I say that because I know in my heart I won't ever love anyone as much as I love John Paul.

"About me coming to Dublin on Tuesday," I nod again and sigh as I expect him to say he won't come, "I've thought about it and yeah as you say I should finish school, or at least this year," I smile sadly as I look at him and nod my head in understanding. "But you know what, I'd rather be with you." I frown as I look at him as he smiles and bites his lip.

"What?"

He chuckles and pulls me closer to him, "Tuesday… you… me… plane… Dublin… live together, sleep in our own bed together, have loads of hot steaming sex whenever we feel like it." He raises his eyebrow as his hand has a grope on my arse making me groan out my appreciation.

"You'll come?"

"Of course I'll come you idiot, I love you, I want to be with you, you're my world."

"But… What about your school?"

"Who cares?" He chuckles, "I'll do distance learning or night school, or whatever, we'll figure it out, all I know is my place is in Dublin, with you."

"But… You're sure?"

"Yes, I'm sure… Now are you gonna keep asking me if I am sure, or do you want to celebrate this and my birthday, eh?" he asks as he raises his eyebrow, making me giggle as I seek out his mouth and roll on top of him, while his hands wander all over my back and arse.

I don't really know how, as we don't seem to move from this position, but as we make out we end up getting naked, me still on top of him, rubbing off on him, gasping as he breaches me with his fingers then moaning as they align on my prostate. I fully expect him to flip us over and then fuck me, like we always do, so he does surprise me a bit when he asks me to make love to him.

His eyes are shining with his desire for me though and I know he wants this for certain so I do what he asks of me. I kiss my way down his body, taking his aching cock deep into my mouth making him cry out my name as I suck him hard, dropping him from my mouth as I feel his orgasm coursing through his beautiful body. He whimpers, but I crawl up to him and kiss him deeply showing him that I will get him off, just in my own time.

I kiss my way down his body, stopping at his left nipple, nibbling gently on it, before making my way back down to his cock. I kiss the length of his shaft, licking the pre-cum from the head making him shudder. Smiling I spread his legs, and push them up as I begin to lick my way from his balls to his hole, slowly, I lick him out, all the time having my eyes on his face, watching his facial expression as I pleasure him. He just looks so hot as he gets flushed and excited and as he looks at me, his eyes connecting with mine I see his lust radiating towards me, he wants me inside of him and he wants me inside of him now.

Sitting back on my heels, I look at him as he's led there in front of me and smile, he's mine, this beautiful man is mine and he's wanting me to pleasure him, gripping my cock I cover it with saliva and then slowly, teasingly I rub the head against his willing hole, making him whimper when I don't begin to push into him. I chuckle for a moment, before slowly, carefully beginning to push inside of him, savoring the feel of him opening up for me. When I am completely inside of him, I stop and just look into his eyes, he cups my face and pulls me down for a kiss, only breaking apart when I begin to move inside of him.

I take my time to begin with, really just making love to him slowly, then gradually I pick up the pace and fuck him faster and harder as he pants for me to fuck him, telling me he loves me and wants me and needs me. All of those things apply for me too, I need him like I've never needed anyone before. He's my life, my lover, my boyfriend and my best mate all rolled into one. I know he's who I want to spend the rest of my life with, and I know it won't be easy. I know people won't approve and I know he knows that I know this, and I know he sometimes is really careful when we're together, letting me set the pace, but I don't care, as long as we're together life makes sense.

"Oh god, Craig, there… right there," he groans as I slow down and brush against his prostate with my cock, so I do it again, and again and again, smiling as his eyes roll to the back of his head and he lets out this low moan that makes me even harder than I currently am. Looking down between us I see his cock is seeping with his pre-cum and the sight alone is enough to nearly make me cum. I consider gripping it and wanking him off so that he comes at the same time as me, but then I get an idea and decide to go with that instead, so I take hold of both his hands and bring them up above his head, as I press warm soft kisses to his face and then picking up the pace I begin to slam into him harder and faster than I've done up until now, making him groan and moan.

I feel my orgasm coursing through me and as I look into his eyes, seeing him all vulnerable like that, seeing all his love for me shining through, I try to hold back, but I can't, and letting out a loud groan I come, fast and deep inside of him, filling him up as I bury my head in his neck, letting go of his hands which he wraps around me holding me tight to him as my orgasm flushes through my body.

As I recover from my orgasm, I lift my head and smile, "You are my everything JP," I tell him gently before kissing him tenderly. I know he is still rock hard, I can feel him against my stomach, so I pull out of him and kiss my way down his body again, taking his hard member into my mouth and smiling as he lets out a gasp and then moans as I lick his sensitive head repeatedly, lapping up all the pre-cum. He groans as I drop him from my mouth and looks pleadingly at me making me chuckle as I sit up properly, his eyes go wide as saucers as I grip his cock then position myself above it and slowly sit down, letting his full member breach me, wincing at the pain since I'm not prepared for it, but not stopping until he's all the way inside of me.

I shuffle about for a bit then grip his hands and put them on my hips as I look into his eyes with a smile on my lips, "I got to do you, now you do me," I tell him simply as he licks his lips, then nods and begins to fuck me, or well I ride him to begin with, but after a bit he flips us over and then fucks me hard and deep as I wrap my arms around him, pulling him down to me, locking our lips together in a hot, warm, spine tingling kiss. The combination of him being so turned on, this kiss and our lovemaking finally brings him over the edge and he comes hard inside of me. I feel him shoot all of his milky essence inside of me and I hold him tightly wincing slightly as he bites down on my shoulder. Once his orgasm passes, he flops down next to me. I wrap my arm around him, pulling him close to me. Somehow we get the duvet over us, we don't say anything, just kiss for a little bit and then I watch him as he tries to fight off his sleep but ends up losing that battle and for a while afterwards I just watch him as he sleeps, thinking to myself I really lucked out with having gotten him back. Finally just as he shuffles closer to me, pressing a kiss to my chest and murmuring my name I close my eyes and allow myself to sleep too.

Hope you enjoyed, next bit will be up in a little bit. :)