I have been ignoring Jasper for a few weeks now. I can't seem to figure out if I love him or not. Today I woke up and I realized what day it was. It hit me like a ton of bricks. It's been a year already. I didn't want to go to school but I went anyway. I took a shower and went to my closet. I ended up pulling out a black hoodie with dark jeans and black sneakers. I just left my hair straight. I didn't really care today. I drove to school and sat in my car and all i could do was cry. I left my car when the bell rung.

"hey Suri!" I turned and I see Alice waving at me to come here.

"what is it Alice?" I said in a flat tone.

"What's wrong Suri?"

"It's nothing I feel like talking about." I turned around and walked away. Today just seemed to go by in slow motion. I had to play basketball in gym because the girls made a bet with the boys that if we one the game that they had to stop complaining about being skins but if they won that we had to be skins. We won of course. When it came lunch time Blake and Elena pulled me aside.

"Suri what is going on with you today?"

"What's the date?"

"January 28th."

"Exactly." That's when they realized what today was. sadness washed over their faces.

"We're so sorry Suri. We knew how much you loved him." I just nodded my head. I just sat there during lunch not bothering to eat.

"I'm going to class early."

"Okay. Do you need us for anything?"

"No i'm good." I left for history and just sat there in my anger,sadness,depression,and pain. I couldn't even sit in history for that long.

"Mrs. Pendergrass may I go home?"

"Are you okay Suri?"

"No ma'am I am not."

"okay Jasper will you take Suri to the office?" When she said that I sighed loudly. I got up and walked out.

"Suri what's going on. Why won't you talk to me?"

"Jasper this is really not a good time right now."

"You have been saying that for the past few weeks. It's never a good time for you. You are going to talk to me weather you like it or not."

"Do you really want to know how I feel? Fine but I will let you go first because if I start I won't stop."

"The truth is Suri,Is that I love you. I never stopped loving you." After he said that I zoned out. I had no time for this so I just let him finished his rant before I said anything.

"Are you done?"

"Yes I am."

"Good. Do i love you? Yes. Will I always love you? Of course. Even when it hurts. Will we get back together? No so you might want to get use to the idea." Ow my heart! I looked Jasper in the eye and then I side stepped him. As I walked off I cried a little but I kept on walking. Today is not a good day to deal with this. I got my pass for the rest of the day and I went home.


When I got home I went straight to my closet and grab a box on the top shelf. I climbed on my bed and opened the box. I looked at the pictures and it was of me and Mark. It was the day of his deployment. He had his arm around my waist and swing me to the side. The photo was of me laughing while he looked down at me as he swing me to the side. I looked through some more pictures and I found his army portrait. When I saw that I cried my eyes out. I just curled up in fetal position and cried. I ended up crying myself to sleep.


Suri's Dream

"Suri." I looked up at Mark with tears in my eyes.

"Don't worry about me I will be fine."

"But you are going to Afghanistan right now."

"I know but I will always be with you. You know that right?" I nodded.

"Before I go I want to give you something." He put a pair of dog tags around my neck.

"I know how much you wanted one of them. They gave me a good bit of them so I'm letting you have a pair." I reach up and give him a hug.

"I love you so make sure you come back to me safe okay?"

"okay." Mark boarded his bus and I watched as his bus leaves.

A Few Months later...

I hear the phone ringing.

"Hello?"

"Suri?" It's Mrs. Fields Mark's mom. she crying.

"What happened to Mark?"

"He's gone!" When she said those awful word my world came crashing down. I let out a horrible and Bella came running toward me.

"Suri! What's going on?!"

"Mark's gone." I manage to say in between sobs. During the funeral my face held no emotion I just sat there. The next thing I know my dream changed. I'm in the middle of a field and there was a tree right in the middle of it. The sky was blue with whit fluffy clouds.

"Suri." I turn around and I see Mark in his army uniform smiling at me. I run up to him and give him a huge hug. I let go and i'm crying a little bit.

"Why are you crying?" He asked.

"Because I miss you so much."

"I miss you too but you don't have to worry about me. I'm in a better place now."

"But..."

"Sooner or later you are going to have to let me go."

"But it's so hard."

"Suri you need to and I will always be with you." I looked up at him and nodded. We walked to the big tree and started talking.

"What's Heaven like?"

"It's peaceful,quiet. You can finally get the peace you deserve." The next thing I know is that we hear thunder. Mark got up and gave me his hand to help me up.

"Suri I have to go."

"Why?" A few tears start rolling down my cheek.

"this is the hard part. This is the part where you have to let me go."

"Mark i don't think I can do that." He put some hair behind my ear and he gave me a kiss on the forehead.

"Everything will be okay."

"I love you Mark."

"I love you too suri." That's when a bright white light came into view. Mark started heading towards it. Just before he got to the light he turned around and smiled at me one last time. With one more tear going down my cheek I let out a shaky breath and gave Mark a huge smile. He turned around and walked into the light. End of dream


When I woke up I see Bella,Toby,Rose,Alice,Ellie,Blake,and Lena looking at me.

"Are you okay now Suri?" I looked at them and smiled.

"yeah. to be honest i'm more than okay." I sighed and looked at one of my favorite pictures of Mark and i. I laughed a little and then i put all of the stuff back in the box and put them in my closet.

"Who is Mark by the way?" I looked at Rose,Alice,and Ellie.

"I think it's about time you learned about him."