Disclaimer on Chapter one.
Daniels' POV
Jade and I walked back to the shore line, but she collapsed to the sand before she could make it completely out of the water. I kneeled down next to her as she stayed there on her hands and knees. The soft after waves hitting us as we stayed there in silence.
"Why is God punishing me?" she finally asked. I could barely hear her over the sound of the crashing waves.
"He's not" I answered.
"Then why is everything in my life so hard?" she asked
"Jade-"
"No, really, why? And don't give me a bull-shit answer like, God is testing me, or life has to be hard or some crap like that. Why? Why is my life crap?" she barked as she interrupted me.
"I don't know. All I can say is that some of us get the wrong end of the stick and aren't lucky enough to get a life as glamorous as others."
"Then why do we try?" she asked me
"Because we have to fight to make our lives better."
"Well it's going to take me a long time to make mine better" she stated as I helped her to her feet.
"Probably, but what did your father always tell you?" I asked her as I rested my hands on her shoulders.
"If you want to get to a higher place you need to build a ladder that'll get you there"
"That's right, go build Jade."
Jade POV
The talk I had with Daniels really hit me. It was going to be hard for me to stop so I thought that I should start with not drinking at school. This was not going to be easy.
What didn't help was that I was stuck with Tori for Music production. Just me and her in a sound room…together…alone…without my liquid escape… not that I want to drink near her after what happened.
"Hay" was all Tori said as I walked into the sound room that afternoon.
"Uh, hay" I replied brain-dead.
"Can I get you in the sound booth?" she asked
"What?" I asked fast, jumping to conclusions.
"For sound check" she clarified.
"Oh, yeah, sure" I said as I walked into the sound booth. I put the headphones over my ears.
"Can you hear me?" Tori asked over the intercom.
I simply nodded yes.
"Jade I need you to talk into the mic for the sound check." She pointed out.
"Oh, sorry" she just stared at me though the glass sound proof window "so do I just keep talking?" I asked her as she started to fiddle with the controls on the sound board.
"Yeah, you're doing fine."
I looked down at her wrist; I could see through the window that I left a huge mark.
"I'm sorry" I said staring at her innocently and guilt fully.
At my sudden curious words she looked up to meet my eyes. She was confused at first till both our eyes trailed down to her wrist.
"Oh" she sounded as she lifted up her wrist to examine it.
"Does it hurt?" I asked her in a soft tone.
She was silent for a while "no, not really" she answered
"I'm sorry" I repeated
"It's ok; you were in a bad state at the time."
"No, not only for that, for everything. Everything since that day when we were in the closet and I told you how I felt." I looked down at my feet when my sentence ended.
"If anything I should be sorry for running away that day." I heard her say.
"So you and Lexie?" I asked lifting my head back up
"Yeah, well we are just going to the dance together"
I nodded my head showing I understood.
"Oh, well I hope you two have fun" what the fuckin hell am I saying,
"You and me, all alone
It's too late to say we didn't know
We shouldn't be, all alone
One of us might lose control
All these feelings we've been hiding
Deep down, ya they must start to show
Not here, not now
Watching my frustrations grow" I started to sing without Tori really noticing
"I know what I feel and you feel it too
I dream of the first kiss and who'll make the first move
Who's gonna put their heart on the line
It could be me
It could be you, tonight"
Tori's POV
I really do still love Jade, I always will.
I was fiddling with the sound board as I started to sing.
"Show me, who you are
Stop me before I go too far
Cuz it hurts, to hold back
So hold me or I might crack
I'm gasoline, you're the match
I'm not sure if we could handle that
It might explode, could be a mess
I say we take the chance"
I don't think that Jade noticed me singing through the sound proof window.
"I know what I feel and you feel it too
I dream of the first kiss and who'll make the first move
Who's gonna put their heart on the line
It could be me
It could be you, tonight"
Third person POV
"I'm all mixed up, confused
I don't know what to do" Jade sang
"Cuz I want to, I'd love to
If I knew you'd want me to" Tori sang in agony
"If you're getting any closer then I'm gonna have to scream" Jade brought her hands to her head, Tori's presents alone was starting to make her insane.
The two girls started to sing in unison even though neither noticed the other singing. "I know what I feel and you feel it too
I dream of the first kiss and who'll make the first move
Who's gonna put their heart on the line
It could be me
It could be you
I know what I feel and you feel it too
I dream of the first kiss and who make the first move
Who's gonna put their heart on the line
It could be me
It could be you, tonight "
Jade POV
"Ok, are you ready Jade?" Tori asked over the intercom. We had to record and edit a song for class. Yippy
"Um, yeah, when you're ready." I said waiting for the music to come through the headphones.
I looked at Tori though the window. Her beautiful brown hair curving around her face perfectly. If I could be with her I would. But my life is way to hectic right now. I'm protecting her by pushing her away. I chose this song for a reason; maybe she will understand what I'm trying to tell her.
I heard a bass beat start, queuing me to begin singing.
"You are driving me into manic
You can't break me out of my habits
I never will be you, I hate that you're breathing
So leave me alone, I'm an addict" my eyes stared straight at Tori as I sang.
"You never will see it my way
I'm draining the light from your day
You're pushing, you're pushing, I'm pulling you down"
I feel that eventually I will begin to bring her down.
"Baby, spare yourself "I sang into the mic.
"But I'm in love with you" I heard over the intercom
"No I won't, take your help" I sang
If Tori tries to help she could get burned.
"But I will see it through" I heard once again through my headphones.
"I am too far gone for you to bring me back so baby,
Spare yourself" I warned
"You are driving me into panic
I know that you can't understand it
I'm constantly sinking, I'm no longer thinking
So leave me alone when I'm frantic"
I'm a sinking ship with one life boat, for Danni. There isn't enough room for Tori to get out safely.
"You never will feel it my way
I'm draining the light from your day
You're pushing, you're pushing, I'm pulling you down
Baby, spare yourself "
"But I'm in love with you" I heard
"I won't take your help"
"But I will see it through" I looked at Tori as she looked back at me when I heard the voice over the intercom.
"I am too far gone for you to bring me back so baby
Spare yourself
Oh, oh, oh, woah
Oh, oh, oh, woah
Oh, oh, oh, woah
Oh, oh, oh,
Baby, spare yourself from all my trouble cause
I won't take your help; I'm not the girl I was
I am too far gone for you to bring me back
Baby, spare yourself" by this time I was just pleading with Tori to save herself. I just pray she got the message.
End of chapter 28
I gave you the gift of Jori, for this chapter, it won't stay. And to everyone who threatened to kill me, I hired a bodyguard. And a security system so BRING IT ON!
