Chapter 29 First Date Pt II

"OH please!"

"It's true! When Cyd Charisse appeared on that screen I ceased to exist."

Fitz laughed.

"Yeah that was so funny." Olivia said sarcastically.

"Hey I could complain too!"

Olivia gave him a look of disbelief.

I'm pretty sure I barely paused for a second to catch the ending to my favorite part of the movie while I was pleasuring him early on.

He has nothing on me.

"Two words...Moses Supposes."

Damn. I forgot about that. But all I did was push his face away from mine and elbow him in the stomach...

"Exactly!" He exclaimed as if reading her mind. "I bet I have a bruise from that elbow you gave me!"

Olivia laughed as Fitz gently rubbed the area.

"I'm sorry. At least now we know each others 'must see' parts of the movie for next time we watch it."

"Well of course you would say that because Donald O'Connor is in 98% of the movie. Cyd only appears in one part. It's safe to say I'm never watching this movie with you again!"

Olivia shrugged her shoulders. "That's fine I'll provide my own fun for the next time I watch it."

Fitz shook his head. "Livvie nothing will ever compare to the fun you have with me."

Olivia turned her attention to outside the window.

Cocky. Though what he said is a fact. My vibrator and other shit is pretty much worthless now.


Ha. I silenced her with that one. She can't ignore the truth anymore. I know how to get to her. Fitz thought before he glanced over at Olivia who's attention was now focused outside.

I couldn't have asked for things to gone any better than what they did. Today was a great first date and I'm hoping I won't have to wait long for a second.

I'd have to say the jazz festival was my favorite part of the day. It was nice to relax in the sunshine listening to music and getting know as much as we could about each other during that time. I would've never guessed she was a champion swimmer. Though she'd probably excel at anything she wanted to...except, according to her, cooking.

That works out fine because I'm an excellent cook and I'm used to having to do all of the cooking in the house.

Whoa, I'm thinking as if we're going to become a family or something. My mind needs to slow down!


"I must've dozed off for a little." Olivia said sleepily.

"I realized you were sleeping about a half hour ago so you were out for at least that amount of time."

I guess when you only have the same looking trees rolling by it's easy to fall asleep.

Olivia thought as she now glanced out of the window. So close to being home. So close to needing to ask Fitz to come up so we can talk.

I think I'm going to be sick.


"About ten minutes from your place if we hit all green lights and dash through ones that have turned yellow."

What if she doesn't ask for me to come up? Do I just let everything go until another time? But will there be another time?

I guess if she doesn't ask then I'll have to ask if I can join her so that we can talk. I want her to know what I'm planning now to ease some doubts she may be having about our chances at a real relationship.

"Here we are..." Fitz said with a hint of nervousness in his voice.

"Um yep we're definitely here." Olivia said.

Do I wait for her to say something else or do I need to say something? Why am I finding this so damn confusing?

Several seconds of silence passed.


"Here we are..." Olivia heard Fitz repeat..

"Yep." She said with a nod of her head.

I guess now's the time to ask. Who knows if I'll get another chance to talk to him about a possible future for the two of us.

"Hey"

"Hey" They both said simultaneously.

"You go-"

"You go-" They both laughed.

Fitz held up is hand to stop Olivia before she said anything and told her "You go first."

"Um alright." She said nervously.

Just ask. The worst that could happen is he says no. Just ask...

"Fitz..."

"Yeah?"

"Would you like to come up for a little awhile?" Olivia asked as she stared down at her hands.

"Sure. As long as you don't feel the need to cook for me"

She laughed and gave him a gentle shove.

"You volunteered those horror cooking stories so don't blame me for not wanting to be a part of the next one."

"Ok. I'm not going to cook anything. I'll only offer you a drink."

"Alright. Then I'd love to come up." He said with a smile.

I love his smiles. Even the mischievous grin.

"I'll park in the garage." He told her as he put the car in gear.


Memories flooded Fitz's head as he followed Olivia into her apartment.

Everything looks pretty much the same.

He looked over at the couch.

That couch started off everything that happened here that Halloween night.

"I give you permission to move around." Olivia said with a comical look on her face.

"Oh yeah. Thank you." He said anxiously.

"Fitz, you've been here before and you somehow seemed more relaxed then than you do now." She told him.

"Would you like a drink?"

"No thank you." He hurriedly said while he took his coat off and hung it up.


I wonder why he's so nervous? Does he sense that I want to talk about something that could end on a good or bad note?

I don't want to ruin our night but I need these answers. I've already put this talk off several times. I have to take the risk.

Olivia grabbed a glass out of a cabinet. He might not want a drink but I do. Just some water. In case I need to clear my throat or randomly do something to ease my nerves.

"Am I going to have to talk you through everything?" She asked with a coy smile as she sat on the couch.

Fitz laughed. "Sorry my mind's not doing a good job of focusing right now." He told her.


I don't know if I should join her on the couch.

Will she be offended if I sit in the chair instead? I guess If she looks offended then I'll simply move next to her. Though in that position the temptation to touch her and more is going to be hard to ignore.

I'll sit in the chair.

"Tonight was the best night I've had in a long time Fitz. Maybe ever!"

He smiled. "I'm thrilled Liv because I had an amazing time too."


For the first time there was an uncomfortable silence between them.

I'm scared of what reaction I'll receive to what I have to say but this silence is not helping anything.

"Uh Fitz we need to talk"

"Uh Liv we need to talk"

They both let out a small laugh.

"Do we have some kind of twin vibe going on tonight?" He asked.

Olivia shrugged her shoulders. "I don't know but it's getting freaky."

"How about you go first again?"

"Alright." She said nervously.

Be honest no matter what.

"Fitz things have been a little crazy for me since I've met you."

He furrowed his eyebrows.

"Not in a bad way." She hurriedly added. "Just completely unexpected."

"When you opened the door for me that first day and I looked up and saw you for the first time I was completely taken aback. And then to find out you were Fitzgerald Grant the Principal. It was like 'Whoa!'"

Fitz laughed.

"Despite your lame jokes I was into everything you said except I felt a tinge of disappointment at finding out you were married and had a kid." Olivia let out a sigh. "But it shouldn't matter right? At the most I'll have a crush on the Principal. Except a lot more than that happened."

"It certainly did..." Fitz said.

"Before I knew it I was overwhelmed by this feeling of wanting to be with you all the time. I couldn't get you off my mind. I tried to push thoughts of you aside. I tried to control myself but found I was weak against you. I never felt feelings this strong in my life before and it was, well is, terrifying."

Olivia paused for a second. I don't want to bring her into this but I have to because she's a major part of the issue.

"When I met Mellie," God her name on my tongue in disgusting, "I should've felt bad about everything. When I think of her I should feel bad about all that has happened between us but I don't. It's fucked up, I know, but I don't. Honestly the two of you together look like the most unhappy people on the planet and the way she is with your son is simply..." I shouldn't go there. "Despite the way things look the fact is you're married and everything about this is truly wrong! No matter how strong my feelings are it doesn't change that you are married."

"Olivia-" Fitz tried to cut in.

Olivia moved her hand as if brushing what he wanted to say aside. "I want nothing more than to be with you. I love every second we're together. I want you but not like this. I don't want to be involved in something where I don't even know if it is a relationship. I don't want to have to sneak around all the time and try to have a quick talk and make out session before you have to go home. It's too much. When you left Halloween night it was too much. I can't deal with that. I'm not going to."

I'm not trying to break up his family or anything but I need him to understand that I'm not going to be some woman on the side. I deserve more and if he wants us to be together then we both deserve more.

"I'm not an ultimatum woman. I'm not sitting here saying you have to choose. What I'm saying is that until I know where I stand in this. Until I have some clear understanding of what plans are in the future than I can't do this anymore. As much as I don't want to I have to end it."

There I said it.

Ugh! I said it.


Fitz watched as Olivia rubbed her eyes as if trying to stop tears before they started.

I wouldn't expect anything less from a woman like Olivia. She's strong-willed and full of confidence in herself when it comes to issues that affect her well-being. Even if I hadn't decided to divorce Mellie I would most definitely adhere to this woman's words because I respect and love her that much.

"Sorry if I ruined our evening but I had to be completely honest with you and most importantly myself."

Fitz nodded his head. "I completely understand and you haven't ruined the evening at all."

Fitz laughed at Olivia's wide-eyed expression of shock.

"Really? You get what I'm saying?" She curiously asked.

"Yeah and I'm glad you said it. You're amazing Livvie and it makes what I have to say not as scary."

At least I know for a fact that she wants us to be together. I know that after telling her about my plans to divorce that there's a pretty good chance when all is said and done that we can give having a normal relationship a try.

Fitz watched as she slowly raised an eyebrow.

"What do you have to say?"

"I don't know what to expect from the process or Mellie but I'm filing for divorce on Monday."

Olivia's mouth dropped and her eyes widened in shock.

"NO! I mean, because of what I just said? I don't want you to make this choice because of me. I don't want to have a whole part in it. I'd be lying of course if I said I wasn't happy you were thinking about it but are you sure. This is your family. Isn't this a little spontaneous?"

Fitz reached out and put his right hand on Olivia's left knee and gently rubbed it.

"You did help to open my eyes to how unhappy I am at home but this goes beyond you Liv. This is something that should've been done a long time ago. I simply got caught in a disturbingly monotonous routine in life with Mellie over the years that I didn't even realize how fucked up we are or how it's been affecting Jerry."

Fitz took a deep breath as he thought over things. Why couldn't I have met Olivia sooner? Or at least had hope that I would...

"Cyrus told me I needed to rid myself of Mellie early on in our marriage but I thought things would work themselves out. And when she told me she was pregnant I naively thought it would bring us together, but lets just say Mellie was not born to be a mother. She loves Jerry but mothering is not in her skill set. She does try sometimes."

Olivia rolled her eyes.

"Despite all of are arguments and dysfunction I felt Jerry needed us together and I got used to our dysfunction. It wasn't until you awakened feelings in me that I never experienced before that I was forced to compare how I feel around you and how I feel around Mellie. The feelings were worlds a part. And even after I recognized that I still wasn't positive about what to do. I mean we are a family but then I had a long talk with Jerry and that's when I was certain it was the right thing to do."

Fitz got down on his knees in front of Olivia and held her hands.

Just say it Fitz. It makes no sense to continue to hold it in. She needs to know I'm serious about everything I've said.

"Olivia I'm filing for divorce on Monday because I'm tired of being unhappy, I'm tired of my son being unhappy and I'm ashamed of the hurt he's experienced because of his mom and I's selfishness."

Fitz lifted his left hand and caressed Olivia's face as he looked her directly in the eyes.

"I'm filing for divorce on Monday because I love myself, my son, and...

Fitz placed both hands on Olivia's face. "And I love you Livvie."


Did he just say he lo-

Before Olivia could process anything her lips were overtaken by Fitz.

He kissed her as if he never had the opportunity before or would again.


Fitz pulled them up to standing. His left hand gently caressed her cheek as he wrapped his right arm around her waist to pull her closer.

Olivia's left hand ran along the side of Fitz's right cheek till her it reached high enough that her fingers could spread through the curls of his hair.

She slightly parted away from Fitz though they were still close enough that their lips brushed each others with their every breath they took. She waited for Fitz to open his eyes and said,

"I love you too..."