April 1999
Maddy hurried down the busy Tampa sidewalk. She had just come from a meeting with a software company, who had agreed to pay her a ridiculous amount for her game. Kevin was back at her house waiting on her, he had been in town for a couple of days.
Maddy was hoping, this would be the weekend her and Kevin finally made love. Kevin had been dragging his feet, saying he didn't want to rush a sexual relationship, at first that had been fine, but now she was wondering if there was something else wrong.
Maddy smiled and shrugged the thoughts off. With Kevin she had finally found something she had always wanted.
She didn't have to take a backseat with him, he called everyday, he made her a priority in her life. She could actually see having a future with Kevin, she might still love Scott, but Kevin made her so happy and treated her like a queen, suddenly she was thinking of marriage and children, something she had never even contemplated before, she didn't know if you could be in love with two people, but she knew she loved Kevin. She hated being away from him, she was always happy when he showed up, he truly filled her heart.
She wasn't sure what love was anymore, she knew she loved Scott, hell she even loved Mark all in different ways, Kevin had almost forced her to love him, he was the most romantic man she had ever met.
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Maddy walked in her house and Kevin grabbed her kissing her. "I missed you."
Maddy wrapped her arms around him. "I missed you too."
"Come on I fixed you some lunch." Kevin said pulling her in the kitchen. He held a chair for Maddy and sat down next to her. Maddy looked at the cesaer salad and grilled chicken. "Thanks Kev."
He just smiled and kissed her. Kevin too was falling for Maddy, perhaps thats why he held off on having sex. He wanted to be sure of what he was feeling, he didn't want to hurt her.
They ate and both got up to cleaned up. When they were done Kevin took her hand and they walked out to sit side by side on the deck.
Kevin put his arm around her. "Maddy I been thinking about us..I would like to move in or have you move in with me..I know I'm here a lot anyway, but I feel like its time to make the next move."
Maddy smiled and leaned in his arms. "I would love that Kev."
"I'm going to leave here shortly, I'm going to go home and pack some stuff up to move here..then I'm taking two weeks off from work, so we can spend some real time together..the first time we make love is not going to be rushed."
Maddy had to disagree with that, she was tired of waiting, she wanted him rushed or not,sometimes a girl just had to take charge. Maddy straddled his lap and pressed a searing kiss to his lips. Kevin moaned and tried to pull back, but Maddy was having none of it.
When she felt his erection pushing against her she lost it, she needed him and wasn't waiting. Maddy prolonged the wet kiss and rocked her hips against his throbbing shaft. "Fuck it." She heard him murmur against her lips.
Kevin's hands slid under her skirt cupping her ass, he felt as if he would explode in his pants if he didn't sink in her soon.
Maddy stood and tugged her panties off and then bent to unbutton his jeans, when her hand wrapped around his shaft, Kevin jerked and pulled away, her stood and pressed her forward to lean over the deck railing, he lifted her skirt and the site of her nearly did him in. Kevin pressed his shaft against her wet folds parting her and Maddy graped the railing and whimpered. He was huge and he was filling her slowly inch by inch in a most delicious way. "Maddy, your so fucking tight." he groaned as he filled her tight passage. Kevin sank fully in her and put both hands on her hips as he started moving in a hard rapid rhythm, they both needed this and neither wanted to wait.
Maddy groaned as he thrust rapidly in her wet passage, she moved back against him feeling her release about to boil over.
Kevin threw back his head and growled deep in his chest as he released, fueled by the tremors of her release, she screamed his name as pleasure washed over her.
Kevin continued to thrust riding out the climax, he thought he had never felt anything like this. Maddy finally slumped, her breathing heavy and Kevin caught her turning her to face him, he kissed her sweetly and then picked her up in his arms carrying her back in the house.
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Later the two lay wrapped together on the couch, they had made love two more times, it was slow and sweet the last time and Kevin had brought her to the brink many times, she lay against his chest, her fingers running over his chest. Kevin stroked her smooth skin and placed kisses on her face every few minutes. Maddy felt at peace, Kevin had made her so happy, and she knew it was more than just sex between the. "Kev..I love you."
Kevin was so shocked, he didn't know what to say. Maybe he thought she would never love anyone Scott, hell maybe she loved them both. He bent and kissed her lips, he wasn't going to over analyze it at any rate, he was happy, she was happy, it was enough.
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Kevin pulled up in his driveway and turned the truck off. He got out only to find Scott sitting on his porch. Kevin sighed, this was going to be fun. Scott had been back to work for a couple of months now, and he was glad, it kept Scottout of him and Maddy's hair. "Hey Scotty..what you doing her, a little off the beaten path aren't you."
Scott got up and followed Kevin in the house as he opened the door. Kevin went to the kitchen and pulled two beers out and Scott joined him at the table. "Maddy called me, told me you were moving in with her."
Kevin nodded. "Yeah I am."
Scott set the beer down, he really needed to be sober to deal with this." Have you called Tamara back yet?"
"Scott I had my number changed after I started dating Maddy, Tamara was calling me twenty-four seven..I didn't talk to her then, I'm not talking to her now, we're done." Kevin said.
"Kev..shes freaking out, she calls me all the time, asking for your number,shes been calling Dana, you still love her , I know you do, if you don't have feelings for her whats the harm in talking to her?" Scott asked. When Kevin didn't answer Scott nodded. "Yeah, you still love her."
Kevin got up and grabbed another beer. "So I love her, Me and Tamara are toxic to each other, all we do is fight, she cheats on me, then I cheat on her, its a never ending cycle. Maddy is stable, shes sweet, we are compatible, and she told me she loved me." Kevin said throwing his trump card down.
Scott shook his head. "You're in denial, you love Tamara, and you make Maddy sound like used car you're looking to buy, she is a person with feelings, you aren't in love with her, let her go Kev, and go back to Tamara."
"No Scott." Kevin said throwing his empty can in the trash. "I'm not going to go back to Tamara, she needs to accept that, we're done..I'm with Maddy now."
Scott stood and looked at his friend. "Kev, you're by best friend, you know that..but this is going to end badly, I hope you know what you're doing, if you hurt Maddy, friend or not, I will hurt you."
"Scott I'm not trying to hurt Maddy, I'm trying to make her happy."
Scott didn't say another word, he just turned and left. Kevin heard the front door slam and sighed. Scott just couldn't accept him and Maddy together, he was going to have to get used to it.
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Maddy seemed to be floating around in a fog, but it was a good fog. To bad Mark and Scott couldn't be happy for her. She had called both the men to let them know, Kevin was moving in. Scott was upset even though he didn't say much, she could tell. Then Mark, he told her no uncertain terms she was making a big mistake.
She just wanted the two to be happy for her, she finally had a chance at a real life at happiness, and she wished they understood how important that was too her.
Hell even Dana acted weird about it when she had talked to her, she had told Maddy not to rush things with Kevin, to take them slow.
She was beginning to wonder if anyone gave a damn if she was happy or not.
Kevin was back in a couple of days, he and Maddy fell quickly into a routine, they got along great, they liked the same foods, they seemed perfect together, not to mention they both liked sex, and Maddy after going a year without it, was more than willing to have sex as much as possible.
Things seemed to be going great, Kevin gave her space to work, but he was always around if she needed him. Maddy could really get used to this, his two weeks went by to fast and before Maddy knew it , it was time for him to head back to work.
Maddy watched him pack sitting on the bed, it was early about four in the morning. Kevin turned and smiled at her, she looked so damn cute. He set his bag on the floor and sat down beside her pulling her in his arms. "Don't look so sad, I'll be back on my next day off."
Maddy leaned against him, sometimes she hated wrestling, she felt like she was always saying goodbye to the men in her life. "I know.'
Kevin dipped his head and captured her lips with his, Maddy wrapped her arms around his neck pulling him closer. "Come back soon." Kevin lifted his head and kissed her nose. "I will, now go back to bed , its early." he said lifting the covers so she could slide back under, he tucked the covers around her and kissed her forehead, and he was gone. Maddy smiled as she drifted back to sleep, with thoughts of Kevin on her mind.
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Scott walked around Maddy's kitchen as she fixed coffee. Maddy turned to watch him. "You okay?"
Scott nodded and stopped long enough to pull her in his arms hugging her. "Hows things with you and Kev?"
Maddy smiled and wrapped her arms around his waist. "Great..I'm very happy, I want you to stop worrying."
Scott let her go,and she turned to pour them coffee. "I'll never stop worrying about you Sugar."
"Really Scott, things couldn't be better for me right now, theres nothing to worry about. What about you..I know you broke up with Bambi."
Scott laughed and sat down at the table. "Barbara, brat."
Maddy looked at him, he was the most handsome man in her opinion, when he had called and told her he had broke up with Barbara, she had been happy, she couldn't stand the woman. Maddy was ashamed of what she was feeling, ever since she had called Scott and told him about Kevin and he had told her him and Barbara broke up, hope had sparked in her chest, she didn't want to admit it even to herself, that if Scott told her that he wanted her wanted a relationship with her, she would go for it.
It made her feel bad inside, she truly loved Kevin, he was a kind sweet man, he would make a good husband and a good father.
Maddy just couldn't help the feelings she had for Scott, deep inside she was hoping his visit was to tell her he wanted to have a go at a relationship with her.
"So are you dating anyone else?" She asked sipping her coffee and trying her best to sound casual.
Scott shook his head. "I've moved back in with Dana."
Maddy felt like she had just been hit in the face with a brick, she had learned over the years to hide her deep feelings for Scott, she didn't blink, but inside, the disappointment was eating her up. "Thats sudden,"
Scott shrugged. "We got kids together. Dana's changed since we broke up, for the better, and I'm going to try to stop drinking, get my shit together, the kids mean everything to me, and I want them to have their mom and dad, and I hate having to visit them. I just think this is for the best."
Maddy nodded and acted like she wasn't heartbroken. "Yeah, your right, its best for the kids. I'm happy for you Scott, as long as your happy, I'm happy."
Scott smiled at her. "I can always count on you Maddy, everyone else is calling me a idiot for going back to her, but I miss the kids and I want to try to make a family for them, they deserve that."
Maddy got up and bent to kiss his cheek. "You're right, those kids are the most important thing."
Maddy might be hurting but she loved Cassidy and Cody and knew they were better off with their dad around.
Scott hugged her tight. "Thank you Maddy."
"For what?"
"For always supporting me, no matter what, for loving me no matter what." He said pulling her down on his lap.
Maddy leaned against him, playing with his dark locks. "Scott I'm always here for you."
Scott knew that. Maddy was the one thing he could depend on in his life, she would never turn her back on him, although he deserved it sometimes.
Maddy sighed as she leaned on him, this was all she could ever have of him, it had to be enough, maybe if her and Kevin got married, had some kids, she could put all this behind her, quit hoping for something that would never be.
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Maddy tried to work for the rest of the week, but she felt herself falling into that same blue mood, she always did, when she let her hopes get up, and then crushed. She was weepy all the time. She hid it when Kevin or Mark called, and tried her best to act cheerful, but she was becoming depressed.
Dana dropped the kids off to spend one day with her, and truthfully that helped, they always cheered her up. Hell she wasn't even mad at Dana, she was just sick, of being in love with a man, who was so damn clueless about her feelings. Why couldn't Scott see how deeply she loved him, why couldn't he love her back.
Kevin came home Tuesday of the next week and Maddy was happy to see him, she had missed him, and was starting to get lonely without him.
"Hey sweet thing." Kevin said pulling her in his arms. Maddy smiled as he lifted her in his arms and kissed her. Maddy wrapped her arms around his neck deepening the kiss.
Kevin pulled back and smiled at her. "Missed me huh?"
Maddy kissed his lips again. "I sure did." Kevin sat down and pulled her on his lap. "I got you something." He said pulling a box out of his pants pocket. "Kev, you got to stop buying me stuff." She admonished.
Kevin grinned. "No I don't."
Maddy took the small box and opened it and looked at the gold necklace with the small dangling unicorn and burst into to tears. Kevin looked startled and wrapped his arms around her. "Maddy whats wrong."
Maddy felt horrible for mooning over Scott while she had Kevin, who was the sweetest guy in the world. "I don't deserve you." She said burying her face in his chest.
Kevin rubbed her back and just let her cry and get it out of her system. Maddy felt terrible, she didn't deserve to have a guy like Kevin.
Kevin lifted her face and kissed her lips lightly. Maddy hugged him. "I love the necklace Kev." He smiled and helped her put it on. "Now why the meltdown?"
Maddy just shrugged. "Thats not a answer..talk to me." Kevin said sitting back and holding her in his arms. Maddy still didn't say anything. "Okay, let me guess then, you're upset about Scott and Dana."
Maddy turned away from him, ashamed that he had guessed what was wrong. Kevin gently grasped her chin and made her face him. "Are you mad?" Kevin shook his head. "How can I be mad, because you love him, its not like I didn't know that when we started dating."
"I'm sorry Kev, I cant help the way I feel." Maddy said looking miserable. Kevin didn't want her to feel guilty, he knew all about loving someone that was bad for you. After all he loved Tamara,but the two of them together were poison.
Kevin hugged her tighter. "Maddy stop it..the last thing I want is to make you feel bad because of me, its okay sweet thing."
Maddy felt even worse, he should be mad at her, but he was too nice to even get mad at her. Kevin saw the sorrow on her face and wanted to make her happy again. "Please Maddy, don't be upset baby."
Maddy curled tighter in his arms. Kevin was so damn sweet, why couldn't she be satisfied by him. It just wasn't fair.
"Maddy, its okay baby, really...I know you love him, but you have to accept thats over and move on, with me..I hope."
Maddy looked up in his green eyes and saw nothing but warmth and affection. "I will Kev, you just have to be patient, I really am trying to move past him and start a new life with you."
Kevin kissed her gently, he knew she was trying, Kevin was sure eventually she would . "I know Maddy... I'm here for you baby."
Maddy closed her eyes, all she wanted was what everyone else had, a husband , a family, some peace, but the question was, could she let go of Scott so she could have it.
