I don't know how long I was out there for but I ran for as long as my body would let me. Although this time the familiar setting rushing by and the thumps of my feet hitting the pavement didn't calm me down. What was I going to do when I go home? I didn't come home with the rest of them so what would my mum do? What would Ellie do? What will I do?

I stopped running and sat down on the ground with my back against a near by wall. I sat facing the traffic wizzing past and just thought about things. I thought about how Cody had done this to me even though he's knows that I feelings for him and vice versa. I just don't understand it. Well actually I kind of do, Marisa is way prettier than me, she's got a better personality and not as damaged. Who wouldn't go for her anyway?

I thought about Adam. He's grown up a lot in this past week and I haven't been there to see it. In my head he's still the ten year old kid who used to come to me about everything and now he was the one to comfort me when I was down. I need to start doing more things with him or at least including him in what I do. I miss him so now is a great time to get to know the new him.

I thought about how stupid I am. I am over reacting by so much. I don't own Cody so therefore have no control over ho he likes, sees or goes out with. End of story. Although I knew that was the end of it. He wasn't mine but I still wished that he was, I wish that Marisa Payne and her family had never walked into my house this morning. It's going to be so awkward when I go home. Everyone is going to be like what's wrong? Where have you been? Why did you run off? I guess I'm going to have to face the music.

I got up from the spot beside the wall and walked back the way I came. It took me twice as long to get home but I didn't really care. The longer it took the better right now. By the time I had gotten to the bottom of my drive I had stopped crying but I'm sure that my eyes were puffy and red. I walked in through the front door to find all the minors sitting in the living room and all the adults in the dinning room. I walked straight past living room and into the kitchen.

I saw that my granny had called around with one of my uncles which was Ellie and my mums brothers called Robert but we all called him Ned or Rover. I don't know why we called him that though, I think when I was younger I couldn't pronounce Robert right so it came out like Rover and it just stuck. I walked through the kitchen and into the dinning room.

"Hey Granny. Hey Rover." I tried act surprised and happy that they were here but I don;t think I quite made it there.

"Hey sweetheart, How are you?" She smiled and Rover but his thumb up in the air to greet me as he had food or something in his mouth.

"Hey Hun. How was your run?" My my asked. I looked at her and her face said 'I will find out what's wrong later' How did she know that I went for a run?

"It was good, I ran as far as I could which was about from the Park until just before the beach." I smiled at her.

"Well Done Toni, I was just telli-"

"I didn't know that you ran. I didn't know that you would be skinny enough to run that far." Ellie cut my mum off. I wasn't skinny enough?

"Now Ellie, there's nothing wrong with Toni. If she wants to run let her. And I don't see how she's 'Not skinny enough' I mean look at her. The weight is falling off her, she almost looks to too skinny." My Uncle corrected her. I smiled at him as a way of thanking him. He wasn't into big shows of affection and doesn't really voice his opinions so for him to say something like that was not normal.

"Yeah well I didn't expect you to be able to run. Now Marisa can run. She has been part of the cross country team at her school since she started there. Last year she came first place and the year we are hoping that she-" I tuned out. I didn't want to here how Marisa was so much better than me in her snotty voice. I already knew that. I slowly made my way out of the kitchen not wanting to listen to her and decided to at least go into the living room to show everyone that I was alright.

"Hey guys." I plastered a fake smile on my face but it faltered when I saw that Cody and Marisa were both playing with Jack. They didn't even look up when I came in. I sat down beside Alli on the sofa who was sitting beside Adam.

"Hey are you okay?" They both chorused, similar look of worry clouded their features.

"Yeah I'll be fine" I said with no emotion.

"Ahahahaha Oh My God Cody you're so funny" Marisa burst out into fits of laughter at something probably wasn't funny at all.

"I can't take this" I said, got up and made my way to my room. Alli and Adam followed me, I guess they didn't want to be around them either.

"Where are you guys going?" Cody suddenly noticed us and asked.

"Oh No where. It looks to me you're pretty occupied here so we thought we would leave you alone. You know...just being polite." Adam said with sarcasm think in his voice, we were being anything but polite.. He turned on his heel and walked out again. I let out a bubble of giggles.

"See I can defend you too" Adam smiled at me. I gave him a hug.

"You're not my little brother anymore. You're like my big brother." I said looking up to him.

"Glad to be at your service" he smiled once more making me feel better. All three of us piled on my bed landing ontop of each other limbs but we couldn't be bothered to move so we didn't. We talked about random stuff. It made me forget about Cody and for that I was thankful. I noticed that Adam and Alli get on very well, better than I would have expected them too. But no. I wasn't going to let them go out with each other, it would be so awkward.

When they were basically flirting with each other I kicked Adam in the shin. He looked at me funny and gave him a look as if to say 'Stop it'.

"My foot slipped sorry" I laughed trying to cover it up so Alli wouldn't think suspiciously. I heard a knock on the door. Who is it? "Come in?"

In walked Cody with Marisa, they both had smiles plastered on their faces and I looked at Alli and pretending to shove my finger down my throat which made her laugh. Cody looked up and saw what I was doing.

"Toni, can I talk to you for a second. Alone?" he stated.

"What makes you think I want to talk to you?" I said with a dead serious face which made Adam and Alli burst into a fit of giggles.

"Oh I'm going to make you talk to me" he walked out of the room and I followed him not wanting to make a scene in front of Ellie and Brian. I knew what was going to come when I walked into the living room and seen him sit down on the end of the sofa that he always did. I sat down on my end but I didn't put my legs up the way we normally did.

"What do you want?" I asked not wanting to sound rude but that's the way it came out. I knew what was coming but I didn't want to have to face it. I looked up to see his face, he was thinking about something.

"What's up with Adam and Alli?" he asked. Wait? What? I wasn't expecting that. Does he not notice what he's doing to me at all?

"I don't know what you're talking about..." I said but I knew exactly what he was on about.

"No you do though. What is it you're not telling me?" he forced out.

"And so what if I do know. They're kids, let them do what they want." I said and then I realised that I was being selfish by not letting Adam flirt with Alli because if that's what he really wanted why should I stop him. "It's not like you care anyway. You're too busy with Marisa to even notice what has happened in the past hour?"

"Why? What happened?" That was it, I could feel the invisible wire that holds two friends together snap. I felt it break apart in a second as if it wasn't that string to begin with.

"You know what. It doesn't even matter. I'm going to sleep." I said and walked out of the room and into mine. "Marisa, Cody wants you"

I knew that he didn't but if it meant that I wouldn't have to look at her face then happy days.