Bella's POV
It had been a few weeks since Rosalie had Kaleb and we finally convinced her to see Carlisle, it turned out that she did have postpartum depression, she seems fine now although she does have tough days. The family sat down a couple days ago to talk about Emmett and Rose being vampires again, they didn't want to be vampires they wanted to stay human, that's when we found out that I couldn't wish something on someone if they didn't want it to happen. That's also when we decided to give this human thing a shot again, only we twisted it up a little, we were human we could do everything a human could do, except we were still immortal. I stood in the bathroom of our room in front of the mirror, I bit my lip as I looked down at my hands.
"Bella. It's almost time for dinner are you ready!?" Edward asked knocking on the bathroom door for the fifth time.
"I'm coming!" I yelled back.
I sighed and put the little white stick under some towels in the bottom drawer, I flattened my blue dress and checked my hair and make up before walking out of the room.
"What took you so long?" Edward asked.
"Nothing. Just had to see something." I told him smiling a little.
He took my hand and we walked down the stairs, the rest of the family were waiting at the front door talking to each other, we walked over to them and told them that we were ready to go. Edward, Alice, Jasper and I took the Volvo and the rest of them took Carlisle's Mercedes. Edward reached over and held my hand as we drove, I smiled before turning to look out of the window, I had a lot on my mind and I was distracted by it. I knew I wouldn't have a good time because I kept spacing out and thinking about what was going to happen, what I was going to find out when we returned home. I jumped as my door to the Volvo was opened, I hadn't realized we were here already, I took Edwards hand and stepped out of the car. Once inside we were led to our table by the waitress working at the podium at the door, I slid all the way to the wall in the booth. Edward slid in and then everyone else found a seat, I stared blankly at the menu.
"Bella?" Edward asked.
"Hm?" I said lifting my head up.
"What would you like to drink?" He asked.
I looked up to see the waitress waiting for me her pen ready to write on the pad, "Oh, um water please."
"I'll get those right away." She said walking away.
"Are you okay?" Edward asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I told him.
"Okay..."
The waitress came back with our drinks and set them in front of us, she handed out the straws before taking her pad out of her pocket. One by one she took our orders, Emmett ordered the most food out of the eight of us, the girls face was priceless as she wrote all of it down. I bit my lip as I looked at my lap, I suddenly missed my children they were all invited to a sleepover so Carlisle thought it would be nice to invite everyone to this expensive restaurant. Only I was having a hard time enjoying it, I asked Edward if he could let me out so I could use the rest room and slid out of the booth, I walked towards the bathroom opening the door. I stood in front of the mirror and shot a quick smile at the girl who was just leaving, I let out a deep breath before leaning against the wall. I felt a hand be placed on my arm and jumped as I opened my eyes, I looked to see Alice standing in front of me.
"Alice." I said sighing in relief.
"I came to see if you were okay, are you? Okay?" She asked.
"I'm fine." I told her.
"Bella. That excuse might work on Edward, but I am a little more smarter at times. What is going on?" She asked giving me that concerned look.
"It's nothing, really..." I told her.
"Isabella Marie. Tell me right now!" She scolded.
"You really think using my full name is going to do something? Alice I am not five anymore."
"Will you just tell me, I wont tell anyone! And my visions wont tell me! Please?!"
I bit my bottom lip and walked to the opposite wall, I traced the design on the wall as I listened to an anxious Alice scowl more. Should I tell her? What if what I am thinking is false? I took a deep breath in and let it out, here goes nothing...
"I think... I may be pregnant." I said quietly.
There was a sudden loud squeal and little arms that wrapped around me, I tried to smile but it didn't work. Alice let me go and stood in front of me.
"You're not happy?" She asked confused.
Silence.
"Bella?" She asked. "Are you happy?"
"I... I don't know." I said looking at her.
"Oh Bella." She said hugging me.
"I don't know what I am feeling! I thought I wanted another kid but I have five already! And it's still really hard to keep them in line! And Madison and James are starting to get serious, Matthew just met a girl that he thinks he would like to date! Seth just started football, and Emily and Elizabeth will soon find something big! How can I handle another kid!" I said the tears now flowing from my eyes.
"You are a strong women Bella. You have been through so much so far and there is so much more you are going to go through. But one thing that will never change is that you are not alone, we are all here for you." Alice told me.
There was a knock on the door and Esme and Rose peeked their head in, I let out another sob and wiped my eyes.
"Bella?" Esme asked.
I shook my head, "I'm fine."
I walked to the sink and washed my face with water, everything was happening so fast, I took a couple deep breaths before walking out of the bathroom with Alice, Rosalie, and Esme following.
"I'll be over there in a minute." I told them.
I walked over to his nice little bar they had in the corner of the room, a song slowly came on through the entire restaurant that made me cry.
"It's
gonna be me, baby It's time, I've
been patient for so long It's
gonna be love
It's gonna be you, baby
How can I pretend to be so
strong?
Looking at you, baby
Feeling it too, baby
If I'm
asking you to hold me tight
Then it's gonna be all right
It's gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can
take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change
everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's
gonna be me, baby
It's gonna be you, baby
It's gonna
be.....
It's gonna be love
I tried to stop crying but I couldn't, the family was watching me, Edward was concerned I could tell by the way he was looking. The song wasn't helping my emotions.
It's gonna be love
Time
in my restless your a fool
How
can you pretend to be so cruel?
Maybe it's me, baby
Maybe it's
true, baby
Maybe it's everything we're dreaming of
We've waited
long enough
It's gonna be great
It's
gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be free
It's gonna be
real
It's gonna change everything I feel
It's gonna be sad
It's
gonna be true
It's gonna be you're the one to do
It's gonna be
me, baby (me, baby)
It's gonna be you, baby
I hugged my knees to my chest trying to calm down, I sat there listening to every word of the song, it was really pretty.
It's gonna be love It's gonna be sad
The
sooner you let two hearts beat together
The sooner you'll know
this love is forever
(It's gonna be love)
Love needs time now
or never
(It's gonna be love)
It's gonna be tough
You gotta
believe
It's gonna be strong enough
It's
gonna be great
It's gonna be more than I can take
It's gonna be
free
It's gonna be real
It's gonna change everything I
feel
It's gonna be sad
It's gonna be true
It's gonna be
you're the one to do
It's gonna be hard
It's gonna be
tough
It's gonna be more than just enough
It's gonna be
love
Oh, it's gonna be love
It's gonna
be true
It's gonna be me, baby (me, baby)
It's gonna be me, baby (me, baby)
It's gonna
be you
It's gonna be....(yeah)
It's gonna be love"
The song ended and I wiped what little tears were in my eyes, I smiled at the bar tender who probably thought I was crazy and got up. I walked over to the table getting into the booth, Edward slid back in and looked at me, the food was here as I took my spoon and started to eat the soup. I looked at Alice who looked back at me concerned, I gave her a little smile. After dinner was over we drove home, Edward's looks of concern were starting to annoy me, but I didn't know if I wanted to tell him, or even how to tell him. He wanted more children there was no question about it, but I didn't even know if I really was, I could just have the normal stomach flu. We got out of the car as soon as Edward parked it in the drive way, I went straight to the upstairs bathroom in out bedroom, I shut the door and locked it behind me. I knelt down and opened the drawer I lifted up the towels to find the white stick still sitting where I had put it, I stood up before I looked at it. My heart dropped, it was Negative. I might sound horrible but I was kind of glad, I put the test in the garbage and walked out of the bathroom. I walked over to Alice's room and knocked on the door, I opened it walking in.
"Alice?" I asked.
"Yeah?" She said walking out if her closet, I didn't know that Edward walked past, he stopped and listened.
"About the restaurant, in the bathroom. I found out the answer." I said.
"Really? Are you pregnant?" She asked, Edwards eyes went wide.
I shook my head, "No, it was negative."
"Oh." She said sadly. "How do you feel about that?"
"I don't know, I mean in a way I am sad and this is going to sound horrible but I think I am more glad. I mean the kids are teenagers and they all have things going on, if I have a baby I might miss out on things or make them feel left out." I told her.
"That's true, am I ever going to get another niece or nephew?" She asked.
I laughed. "Maybe some day."
"I'm going shopping do you want to come?" She asked.
"I don't think so. I should talk to Edward." I told her.
She nodded and smiled as I stood up, I walked out of the room and back to our bedroom. I found Edward sitting on the bed looking at something, I saw that it was the pregnancy test, I bit my lip and stood by the door.
"Why didn't you tell me?" He asked without looking at me.
"I wanted to make sure I was before I said anything." I told him.
"You should have told me Bella! Instead of telling your husband you thought you were pregnant and scared you told Alice!" He snapped making me jump.
"I... I didn't know how to tell you." I said.
"Do you not trust me?" He asked.
"What?! Edward of course-"
"Then you should have told me!"
"Edward. I didn't think you would be mad."
"Of course I am mad Isabella! I am your husband! You should tell me when your scared!"
I looked at him, why was he getting mad at me?
"So all of a sudden it's my fault?!" I asked.
"What?" He asked.
"Edward, I know I can come to you with all my fears yes, but there are certain things I need comfort from a girl and a close friend! I thought you would understand that." I shot.
"I didn't mean-"
"Next time, just say what you mean first, and then maybe you will have a loving wife!" I yelled.
"What is that suppose to mean?!"
"It means if you would think before you speak then you wouldn't be sleeping on the couch tonight!"
"Fine, you want me to think before I speak?!"
"Yeah."
He stood there for a few minutes, "I'm leaving."
"What?!" I asked.
"I want a divorce!" He snapped.
My eyes went wide, how did he go from loving husband to wanting a divorce?! Was he drunk?!
"Edward... I-"
"Save it. I'll call you from the hotel room." He said walking past me.
"Hotel room?" I whispered.
I ran after him down the stairs only to hear the door slam, I stood in the middle of the room unaware at the moment that the whole family heard the fight and watched him leave. Divorce? Hotel room? This couldn't be happening...
Bet you didn't see that coming, did you? =P Sorry for not updating sooner, had problems I had to deal with! Hope you liked it! You should review! I might not give you a new chapter until I get 4 reviews. I don't know depends on how nice I feel xD =]
