Edward POV
"You don't know how much I need you." I whispered into the dark.
She seemed to be asleep but I still made sure I said it very quietly. I starred down at the beautiful girl in my arms, it was like she was my guardian angel, like she had just fallen out of heaven.
I needed to get out of the house earlier on, it was too quiet and I kept receiving looks filled with pity from my family. I had enough so I just got up and left, not telling anyone where I was going or when I was going to come back, to be honest, I didn't even know where I was going myself. I just walked through the rain, letting the few tears I had mix with the rain, until I reached the café I had took Bella too before.
The café was warm and full of noise. It was perfect/
I must of stayed in the café for a couple of hours before Bella found me. I didn't want to look up at her, I knew I would look weak because I would look like I had been crying, and when she told me that my family were worrying about me I felt disgusted with myself. She stayed with me even though I didn't say anything to her, she just sat there and waited for me. I don't know how she puts up with me, one minute I'm happy and laughing and then the next I'm depressed and wont speak to anyone.
The thunder roared outside again but it didn't wake up Bella. I looked at the window and watched the rain drops run down it and connect together, the trees were blowing in the wind and now and then there would be a flash of lightning.
Pictures of my parents had been running through my head all day and I couldn't stop thinking about them.
The last memory I had of them was one of the strongest. I was sat in the back of the car jumping with excitement as my father drove. I can remember my mother looking around and smiling at me and seeing my father glance in the rear-view mirror. As I ran into my friends house and can vaguely remember my father telling me to be good and my mother saying that she loved me and would be back in the morning to take me home.
Maybe it wouldn't hurt as much if I had just turned around and said I loved them back or even said goodbye. At least then I could have the feeling that they didn't just leave me.
I know it was ten years ago but it still hurts when I remember them.
I glanced over at the now frameless photo on my bed side table and frowned. I didn't mean to break it, I guess I just got angry, or frustrated, or upset.
I twirled a piece of Bella's soft, brown hair in my fingers and looked down at her face. I released her hair and brushed my fingers, gently, across her cheek. I smiled to myself at how they seemed to get hot and blush slightly. She moved in closer to me and clung on to my shirt.
There was no doubt about it, I loved Bella Swan. I just wish I had the guts to tell her it to her face.
I hugged her back and gave her one last kiss on her forehead before closing my eyes and trying to get asleep.
I opened my eyes and then scrunched them back up. The light was streaming through the window and my eyes weren't adjusted yet. I stretched my arms above my head and opened my eyes again. I looked down to the place where Bella had been sleeping last night but found it empty, the cover pulled back neatly. Maybe she went back to Alice's room.
I climbed out of bed and walked over to my bathroom, running my hands through my messy bed hair. I walked past me desk and found a tray which had a grilled cheese sandwich on it and what looked like one of Esme's hot chocolates. I touched the mug and found it was cold, Bella must have came up last night to give me it.
I carried on going to the bathroom and got into the shower. I washed my hair and let the hot water wash over my face to try and wake me up. Once I finished I got changed and towel dried my hair as it would only turn out messy again. On my way out of my room I grabbed my jacket and the tray of cold food to take back down to the kitchen.
I walked past Alice's door and could hear her singing along to the music she was playing. The music suddenly stopped and her door swung open. She noticed me and showed me a small smile so I showed her one back.
"Morning Edward." She said and started walking to the stairs. I walked with her as she pulled on her jacket.
"Good morning." I replied, I noticed that Bella wasn't with her, "Where's Bella?" I asked.
"Oh, she went about an hour ago to go get changed and ready for school." Alice informed as we walked into the kitchen.
I nodded slightly and placed the tray on the counter. I started to empty the cold hot chocolate in the sink when Esme walked in.
"Good morning." She said and the kissed mine and Alice's cheek.
"Morning." I replied and so did Alice as she poured herself some cereal.
Alice then walked into the dining room where I could hear Emmett and Carlisle talking.
"How did you sleep Edward?" Esme asked as she threw the grilled cheese sandwich in the bin.
"Fine." I told her, "I really am sorry for scaring you last night, I just needed to get out of the house." I said and looked at her.
She smiled at me and gave me a hug.
"I know Honey. Yesterday was hard for you. " She said and patted my back gently. She released me and then gave me one last smile before walking into the dining room.
I put the tray away and then followed Esme. I sat down next to Emmett how was stuffing a piece of toast in his mouth. He looked at me a swallowed his food.
"Hey, Eddie." He said and thumped my back. Normally I would scowl and tell him to not call me that but today I just smiled as everything seemed to be back to normal.
"Hey, Emmie." I replied and poured myself a cup a coffee.
I saw him in the corner of my eye, smile and go back to eating his toast.
We talked like we always did at breakfast until Carlisle had to go to work and me, Emmett and Alice had to leave for school.
We all said goodbye to each other and left the house. Emmett decided that he wanted to drive his Jeep today so we all got in. I was glad that everyone was going back to normal, it may have been because of how I reacted last night and they didn't want another episode like that but I was still grateful that is was happening.
Emmett was soon pulling into the parking lot and we all got out. As usual, Emmett went to find Rosalie and Alice went to find Jasper so I was left on my own. I walked over to Bella's parking space and waited for her to arrive.
About five minutes to the bell I heard her truck and stood out the way so she could park. She quickly jumped out the truck and locked her door. She then realised she had left her bag in there and had to unlock it again. She was in a rush and her hair was falling out of her messy bun.
"Is everything ok, Bella?" I asked as she mumbled under her breath about how stupid she was.
She spun around and smiled at me.
"Fine, just fine. Oh wait a minute, it's not." She said and slung her bag across her shoulder.
"What's wrong?" I said as I brushed some of her stray pieces of hair from her face.
She sighed and closed her eyes, she then opened them again and looked at me.
"Well first of all, the shower wouldn't work and when it finally did it was freezing. Secondly, I found out that I had put one of my red socks into a white wash so now all of Charlie's work shirts are pale pink. And lastly, when I tried to start my truck it wouldn't so I was sat in the driveway for ten minutes trying to get the stupid thing to start. And now I'm running late." She said and took a swing to kick the door of her truck but I pulled her back and started walking her to class.
"So your day hasn't been going very well so far." I said, looking down at her.
She glared at me which made me chuckle. Her face relaxed when she heard me laugh and she soon had a smile on her face too.
"Sorry, I just didn't start the day off too good." She told me as we stopped outside her classroom. I smiled at her and brushed another piece of hair that was falling near her left eye.
She watched me carefully as I did this and then smiled when I was finished.
"Bella, I'm really sorry." I said and looked down at the floor.
"For what?" She asked.
"For last night. I wouldn't even look at you and you still sat with me. You didn't have to, you could of gone home and left me." I told her as I dug my hands into my jacket pockets.
"Didn't you want me to be there?" She asked, I could here the slightest bit of hurt in her voice.
I snapped my head up and found her starring back at me. I was right, I could tell that she was hurt by just looking at her eyes.
"No, no, no," I said quickly, stepping forward and taking her hand in mine, "I just don't want you to feel like you have to always look out for me, I don't want to be a burden for you." I told her.
She gave my hand a squeeze and smiled slightly.
"I'm your friend Edward. I wasn't going to leave you when you needed me the most, yesterday was hard for you and I wasn't going to make you go through it alone. I told you before, I will always be here for you to come and talk to and I wont ever push you into anything you don't want me to know about." She informed me and then surprisingly pulled me into a hug.
I hugged her back and kissed her forehead gently.
"I don't deserve you, Bella." I said quietly as she released me from her hug.
She smiled once more and glanced at her watch.
"You better go or you're going to be late, I'll see you later." She said and then turned to walk into her class.
"Bye." I called after her and started to make my way to my lesson.
The day went by in a blur. Sometimes my mind would go back to my parents without me even knowing but I would try hard to push the images away.
Soon I was on my way to Lunch. I was walking towards the cafeteria when someone tapped right shoulder, I looked but found no-one. I then heard giggles coming from my left side and I instantly knew who it was. With a smile on my face I turned to look at Bella.
"I can't believe you went for that." She said in between giggles. I rolled my eyes at her and shot her a crooked grin.
"You seem to be in a better mood now." I said as I opened the cafeteria door for her. She smiled at me and we made our way to the line.
I bought a sandwich and a bottle of water, the same as Bella did and then we walked over to our table . We took our usual seats and started to eat our food. The table was back to its normal self, full of laughter and talking. Today's topic was about going shopping again but no one seemed to want to go.
"I don't have to go, do I?" Bella said to Alice.
Alice starred at her for a moment but then shook her head.
"Fine." Alice sighed and crossed her arms.
Bella sighed beside me, I looked down and smiled at her and she smiled back.
"But I don't want to go on my own." Alice started, "Please." She pleaded, looking up at Jasper, "I want to get some new shoes."
Jasper rolled his eyes but then nodded. Alice screamed, jumped into his lap and gave him a kiss on the cheek. That boy had no backbone.
"We only went shopping about a week ago," Emmett informed her, "You need to go see someone about your addiction, it's not normal." He finished and slung his arm around Rose.
Rose giggled at his remark and leaned into his side. Alice scowled at him but he just ignored her and went back to eating his apple.
I heard Bella laughing too, I looked down at her and showed her a crooked smile. She blushed slightly and went back to her lunch.
Before I knew it the bell was ringing, I must have been day dreaming or something. I walked with Bella to Biology and went with her to collect her book from her locker. We were running a little late for class but when we got there we found that the teacher hadn't even arrived himself. We took our seats and got ready for the lesson.
Bella POV
Edward seemed to be better today. He was talking and laughing like he always did but now and then I would see his eyes glaze over and watch him go into his own world. I looked up at him and found him starring down at me. I smiled and brushed some hair out of my face.
"Are you happy that you don't have to go shopping with Alice?" He asked.
"Yea. I always end up buying something I don't really want when I'm with her." I told him.
He smiled and nodded his head, that must of happened to Edward before too.
Just then the teacher walked in and started the lesson. We were mostly note taking today so we couldn't speak very much. When the bell finally went, I got up and collected my things, Edward waited for me and we walked out of the class together. We stepped outside to find it was raining again, not as heavy as last night, more like a mist that still got you soaking wet and made your hair go frizzy. I didn't bother to put my hood up as it was already a mess from this morning when I was running late. Edward was silent as we walked and looked down at his feet most of the time.
We stopped outside the Gym doors and I turned to say goodbye.
"See you later, Edward." I said and waited for his reply.
He looked up at me and ran a hand through his hair.
"Uh, yea. Ok, bye." He said and put his hand back in his pocket.
I nodded and turned around to walk to the girls changing room. When I was just going to open the door I heard someone call my name. I turned around and found Edward jogging towards me.
"What's wrong?" I asked him.
"I uh…I um…I just wanted to um… I wanted to-" He couldn't stop stuttering.
"Spit it out Edward." I giggled.
"I wanted to a-" He started but was cut off by Alice.
"Hey!" She squealed and pulled me into a hug.
"Hey Alice." I replied as she let go of me.
"You don't have Gym now," Alice said looking at Edward, "Plus you're not a girl. Why are you here?" She asked.
Edward looked at her and then me and then back at her.
"He was just walking me to class." I told her.
She smiled and then winked at me which made me blush and looked down at my feet.
"Well I'm going to get changed, see you in a minute." She announced and then walked into the changing room.
I looked back up at Edward who was now looking down at his feet.
"What were you saying, Edward?"
He looked back up at me and smiled.
"It's ok, it was nothing important. Bye" He said and turned back around.
I but my lip in confusion and watched him walk away. When he was out of sight and opened the changing room door and walked over to Alice who was looking in a mirror and flicking her hair.
"What did Edward want?" She asked as she looked at me.
I shrugged and placed my bag on the bench.
"I don't know, he didn't say." I told her. Alice raised her eyebrows in confusion and then went back to looking in the mirror.
"Was he ok in biology? He seems better today, don't you think?" She asked.
"He was fine, he seems to be back to normal but I did catch him glazing over now and then." I informed her. She nodded and sighed.
"I know, he was a little quiet at lunch. But I expected that." She added and went and sat down next to my bag, waiting for me to get changed.
Once I was ready we walked into the Gym and sat on the bleachers, waiting for our names to be called out and the lesson to start.
Edward POV
I mentally kicked myself for not asking Bella to go to the movies with me this Saturday when Alice and Jasper were going shopping. I was so close to saying it when Alice turned up but I lost my nerve. Plus I was scared she would reject me, maybe she would think I was asking her on a date but she would only want to be friends?
I walked towards Emmett's jeep as it was the end of the day, It was still raining slightly and it was staring to get cold.
I pulled my iPod out of my pocket and stuck the earphones in my ears. I randomly chose a song and turned up the volume. I leaned against the jeeps door and tapped my finger along with the beat. I glanced over to the Gym and spotted Alice and Bella walking out the doors. They were both flushed and giggling.
I couldn't stop the small smile appear on my face when I saw Bella laughing, any stranger walking past would think I was a weirdo. I watched them hug and then go there separate ways. Alice skipped off to find Jasper who I had just saw leaving the block where he had History and Bella walked toward her truck which was a few spaces away from where I was standing.
She pulled her bag off her bag and plunged her hand in, she didn't seem to find what she was looking for so she checked her pockets, nothing there too. She knelt down on the floor and opened her bag up wider.
I quickly turned off my ipod and jogged over towards her, she was now pulling out her books and placing them on the damp ground.
I knelt down in front of her and picked up her books. She glanced up at me and then went back to looking in her bag.
"What's wrong?" I asked as I picked up her pens that she had just thrown on the floor.
"I can't find my keys." She said in frustration and not looking up at me.
I picked up her purse as well as another few pens.
"When did you last remember having them?" I asked her, hoping to trigger her memory.
"When I went to my locker before biology." she said as she flipped her bag over in attempt to empty the rest of her bag but there was still no keys.
She sighed and brushed the loose strands of hair away from her face. She checked her jean pockets and then her jackets and then her jean pockets again.
"Could my day get any worse?" She asked.
It was probably a rhetorical question so I didn't answer. I pulled her bag towards me and started to place everything back into it carefully. Bella fell back so she was sitting down and crossed her legs, she placed her elbows on her knees and rested her head in her hands. Once I was finished I zipped up her bag and got up. Bella looked up as I stuck my hand down to help her up. She took it and pulled herself up, I then handed her her bag.
"Thanks." She said as she slipped it back on.
"Come on, maybe you left them in Biology." I said and started walking towards our class.
She caught up with me and shook her head.
"It's ok, you can go home, if I can't find them I'll have to phone Charlie to come and get me or just walk" She said.
"It's fine Bella," I told her as I stopped walking and faced her, "you're my friend and I'm not going to leave you when you need me the most." I said with a smile.
She smiled at how I had said the same thing as she had this morning to me. I shot her a crooked grin and chuckled slightly at how it still made her blush. We carried on walking towards the classroom in silence. The teacher was sat at his desk and placing certain pieces of paper into his briefcase, he looked up at us we walked into the room.
"Good afternoon Mr Cullen and Ms Swan, what can I do for you?" He asked as he clipped his briefcase closed.
"We were wondering if you have found Bella's keys. She lost them and she can last remember having them in this class." I told him.
He looked over at our table and then on his desk.
"I'm sorry, Bella. I haven't saw them. If I do, I'll be sure to give them to you straight away." He told her.
Bella sighed and nodded, "Thanks anyway." She said.
We walked back into the corridor and started to walk out of the building.
"Maybe you dropped them when you were in the changing room. If we hurry they might still be open." I told her as I opened the door for her.
Just then my phone buzzed in my pocket. I pulled it out and saw that Emmett was calling me, I answered it as we started walking to the Gym.
"Where the hell are you?" He asked.
"Hello to you too."
"If you're not here in two minutes we are leaving without you." He warned.
"Go on without me, I'm helping Bella find her keys."
"Why didn't you tell me earlier, I could be half way home by now."
"Sorry, it must of just slipped my mind. See you later."
"Ok, bye Eddie!" He said and then out the phone before I could reply.
I slipped my phone back into my pocket and then looked at Bella who was starring up at me.
"We better find your keys or we're both walking." I told her.
"I did tell you go home earlier." she said knowingly.
I just rolled my eyes at her and opened the Gym door for her. She walked towards the girls changing rooms and pushed the door open, she sighed in relief as it was still unlocked and walked in. even there wasn't any other girls in there I didn't go in. I waited outside and leaned on the wall next to the door. After about one minute the door swung open again and Bella walked.
"Were they there?" I asked as I pushed myself off the wall.
Bella smirked and pulled her hand from behind her back. She daggled her key ring on her little finger and shook the keys. We both smiled and started to make our way back to the parking lot. Most of the cars had gone by now and a no one else was in the car park. We walked towards her truck and I watched her open her door. I was still looking at her when she had closed the door and started the engine.
"Do you want a lift? Or do you feel like walking." She teased.
I walked round and got in the passenger seat. She pulled out of the parking lot and started to drive in the direction of my house. I leaned over and turned on the radio, it made a buzzing noise on every channel I tried.
"I think you need a new radio." I told Bella as she looked at me pressing buttons.
"I know, but I don't listen to the radio often." She informed me.
I sat back in my seat and starred out the window. Bella had the heaters on too high and I was starting to get hot. I started to roll down the window but it was too stiff and the handle was close to falling off.
"Actually, I think you need a new truck." I admitted.
Bella glared at me and shook her head.
"No way. I love this truck." She said and patted the dash board. "You don't need the windows open anyway, it's too cold." She said knowingly and glanced at me again.
"But wouldn't you like a brand new car. A one where can have the radio on and open windows?" I asked.
"Nope." She said simply, "If I had a new car I would be constantly worrying about getting it scratched or getting a dent. With this truck it doesn't matter, it's already covered in rust and dents." She said looking out towards the road ahead.
We fell back into a comfortable silence and we were close to my house. Maybe I should ask her to the movies now?
Just when I was going to ask her Bella started talking.
"So what are you doing on Saturday, seeing as Alice is going shopping with Jasper and I heard Rose say that her and Emmett are going out for a meal or something." She said, glancing at me.
"I uh, don't know yet." I replied, I mentally kicked myself again for not asking her then.
"We could always do something if you want. I think I need to going food shopping in the morning but we could go out after." She said, not making eye contact with me.
I saw her cheeks become pink and smiled slightly.
"Sure, I'd like that." I told her.
She looked at me with a smile on her face. I shot her a crooked smile and watched the blush deepen. She looked back out to the road and stopped outside my house.
"Thanks for the lift, I'll see you tomorrow." I said and went to open my door.
"Ok. Thanks for helping me find my keys. I would still be knelt on the floor looking through my bag if you didn't." she said and smiled slightly.
"No problem. Bye." I replied and got out of her truck.
Once I was at my door I turned and waved at her. She waved back and then drove off, I watched her until I could no longer see her and walked into the house. I could smell Esme cooking in the kitchen and hear Emmett shouting in the Lounge. I slipped off my shoes and jacket and then walked into the Lounge.
I found Emmett on the edge of the sofa, leaning in the TV's direction and the controller in front of him.
"WHAT THE HELL!" He boomed as the game ended.
"EMMETT!" Esme called from the Kitchen.
"SORRY!" He shouted back.
I picked up the other controller and sat down next to him.
"Did Bella find her keys?" He asked as he started another game for us.
"Yes, she left them in the changing rooms." I told him as the game started.
"Are you two a couple yet?" He said.
I sighed and shook my head. Why was everyone obsessed with me and Bella. We were just friends, but I did want it to be something more.
"No." I sighed.
"But you want to be." He said simply.
I didn't answer, I just carried on playing the game.
"She likes you too." He said.
I starred up at him in shock.
"How do you know? Did she tell you?" I asked him. He chuckled and shook his head.
"She doesn't have to tell me, I can just tell." He paused the game and looked at me. "You must be blind. Haven't you saw the way she looks at you or how she acts around you. She's always smiling when you're with her…or blushing," He chuckled and I smiled, "You're different when you're around her too." He told me, "Be a man and ask her out. Ask her to the movies or something."
"I was going to actually." I informed him. He smirked at me.
"But when?" He asked and went back to playing on the PS3.
That's what I want to know. I thought.
Sorry this is a bit of a boring chapter. I think I had writers block. I would of updated earlier but i was banned from the computer because me and my brother had an argument.
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