Velvet

What Bella and Edward Want You to Know

By Roshandra Simone'

August 22, 2013

For Fan Fiction; Twilight characters belong to Stephanie Myers of Twilight and are owned by her.

Story for Fan Fiction VELVET "What Bella and Edward Want You to Know" owned by Roshandra Simon

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Chapter 29

Bella Changes

Beginning to awaken was the feeling. The video was beautifully made with music pulling on my heart chords. I was immersed in it. Tears were rolling down my cheeks as I felt all the images shared in this fan video held the beauty of Edward's love for Bella. It began with Bella's dream in New Moon Book. The film showed a mirror where Bella sees her grandmother but it is Bella herself older. Edward comes in to stand next to her loving her eternally. I watch realizing that the actors who played us would age but that I saw how the time line of the novel could be played out that way. Bella was young as Edward was more mature in age and never aging in his image. Bella was scared of loosing Edward along with the growing age time difference as she was in reality that moved differently than his vampire existence.

I looked up to Avignon as she was engrossed in this too. I began to feel my own feelings of sadness. This love was so special which I did not want this to ever end. The actress that plays Bella is apart from me but we both are living this dream together not knowing we are connected to each other. We connect like the fans do through this love story and the love this couple embody living it. I wanted my LOVE STORY and EDWARD back.

I began to sob.

Avignon placed her hand on my shoulder.

All my feelings flooded me washing out the anger. The actress 'me' had to grow up in herself. I could not allow her to mess up my love to Edward. I wanted it all back now. I began to cry harder.

Finally the last part of the video played as the music faded off. The screen disappeared like Edward. He was there living in this house with me but not seeing each other. I wiped my eyes, took in a deep sigh, turned to Avignon.

"How do we fix this Avignon? I want this back?"

"Well, Bella, we don't fix it, you do. You have work to do dear and I will stand here aiding you, but this is your inner growth that indirectly will impact and aid the actress. This time apart you both are in now is to benefit both of your growing up to mature emotionally. The fans are all tormented, confused, angry, hurt and upset this has happened just before the final film came out. Now we can talk on your steps if you want?"

"Steps, yes, yes of course, show me what I am to do?"

"Bella, I can aid you but you have to do the steps while figuring out why this actress had this karma that threw this off course. She had it all."

"I know, I know, she had Edward, talented as an actress, everyone in the world wants Edward."

"Bella, your fans love you, granted there are 'haters' there too in the group, but all in all you are just gorgeous while being very talented in your work."

"I want to get this fixed Avignon. I cannot stand being broken up from him."

"Bella, I know, growing pains are like this but the absence you feel is so you work on 'you' dear. Now let's talk about this acting out against authority figures and the rash decisions."

I began to fade in my mind quieting while Avignon began to talk. I felt like I was going somewhere in dimension. I was feeling light while floating off. I listened to Avignon but I was drifting. I felt myself out of my body looking down on the swimming pool. I heard Avignon but it was like the sound was turned down. Everything seemed calmly peaceful as I floated there. I felt I could still hear her but I was feeling finally peacefully placid like the crescent swimming pool.

"Bella, you are out of your body, would you rather we talk in this dimension or back here?"

I jerked around to see that was Avignon and I felt her next to me as a bubble of bright sphere shaped light. I smiled. "I would like that, I feel less emotional out of my body, like I am watching my life."

"Bella, you are very beautiful. Edward loves you. Now let's talk. Your karma took you to England with the actress. You are going to come back with him but then hurt Edward and he will go again for a while. He must meet some other females and figure out why you did not realize how deeply this hurt him. I am speaking of the actor that plays Edward. Are you following me dear?"

"Yes, I am and that part of me is very foolish. Edward is a pure heart. He would never do anything to harm me as Edward in the book was like that way. The actor person I feel is the same integrity."

"Yes, Bella he is. You will learn to settle down and not be destructive. Being independent and rebellious is part of the fire nature you are. Being self destructive is what I want you to look at. That will keep coming up and sabotaging your life. So I need to ask you why you do not love yourself fully enough to believe you deserved this kind of love relationship with Edward."

I snapped into reality and found myself falling into the pull. "What just happened Avignon?"

"Bella, my question impacted you deeply and you went back into body. Let me join you." Avignon dove into the water changing from a sphere bubble of light into this beautiful angel mermaid woman entering into the water. We both were in the pool naked and I was laughing. "Bella swim with me, we can talk more about this."

"Avignon, something is clicking. You mean this actress cheated on her actor boyfriend because she is destructive? She had karma I thought but you mean she is doing this to hurt herself, why?"

Bella, think about this, karma meant she was to meet that older male director and work closely together, it did not mean she was meant to sleep with him. Free will is such she could choose not to. She compounded it with lust. He was infatuated and drawn to her. She is very sexual as you are my dear. That is fine but learning that when you are in an established relationship as she was for four years that she had a mature responsibility to her boyfriend. Her boyfriend is loyal of heart as Edward is and deeply in love with his Bella. He does not abide with cheating. Maybe Bella was not ready to fully commit and maybe she sabotaged this to deny that love as she wrecked it. It is such a high state of love on his part that she maybe was not ready for that. What do you think?"

We swam more over to the over flow of the infinity edge of the pool. I listened to the water lapping over. It felt good to be naked in the pool and I was glad Avignon joined me after I fell into the water. I heard music going as my heart stopped aching. My head still hurt though. I heard the splash behind me with more water washing over the side of the pool edge. We both turned to see Midnight swimming to us.

"Do you think Reggie will join us too?"

"Lions are not like Jaguars or Tigers; they are not into swimming but love reclining on the chaise lounge. Reggie had taken over my chair and lifted his huge head to look our way then back down for more snooze time. He was magnificent. Midnight came in close to give me a big cat lick. She hung out with us with her huge black spotted jaguar paws over the lip of the pool. The three of us all treading water there looking at the view of the City beneath the valley stretching out in front of our eyes.

"Bella is this making sense? Are you connecting the dots dear?"

Close proximity to Avignon lightened my heart and it lifted my spirits. Something about her was healing, motherly and magical. I really liked her. I could easily make her my role model. I would say I loved her. I know she had a job to do but I felt like I could listen to her advise and it was making sense to me. My moods were changing. I realized I need to grow up some now and maybe my part would help the actress me. I did not like hearing I was going to hurt Edward the second time and he would move back with me then out again. I did not like thinking of that. I realized though it all seemed to be a tough way to get lessons about responsibility and growing up in a relationship. Life things are just that way. You can't read a book to get that you go through it.

"Bella you are right on that."

I turned to her as Midnight turned to swim away and I felt Avignon had 'read my thoughts.'

"Did you read my mind Avignon?"

"Yes Bella, in my work I am privy to the thoughts of those I am aiding. Now let's get out of the pool, dressed and get going on how you are going to rectify this with some mature problem solving and ownership to changes."

I knew my 'talk' was done, pep talk too, strategy and love so it was time to make the right next move. I missed Edward and our closeness. I wanted him back so we could have our happy forever after.

I swam across the pool; Avignon was already out with Reggie tagging off behind her. Midnight was there shaking off her water from her coat and now it was my turn. I spun to see the vista here and all the beauty. The tree glistened and the music got louder. Everything here was so crystalline. Maybe this would all work out? I hoped so.

Twilight characters belong to Stephanie Myers of Twilight and are owned by her.

Story for Fan Fiction VELVET "What Bella and Edward Want You to Know" owned by Roshandra Simon