AN- So this is a filler chapter. Someone asked for Callie being something other than straight. So this chapter is of her coming to terms with the fact that she experimented with a girl. Most fics I do Callie isn't with someone but I had this conversation with my daughter before so thought it might be interesting to write. As we're nearing the end she won't be in a relationship for the rest of the fic.

What the hell did she just do? Callie thought to herself as she shut the door to her room as soon as she got home. She told moms she had been with Karah studying for their final. Well, they did go to Karah's house, but they did something more... Recreational than studying. She looked in her mirror and ran her fingers over the red mark on her collarbone that would soon turn into a visible hickey. She pulled a shirt on that would hide it and sat on her bed, her hands shaking. She liked Karah, but... She didn't know.

It was two weeks since she met her brother, Cole. He had a weekend pass and was coming in two days to hang out. She had confided in Cole that she struggled with cutting and he was almost worse than moms about making sure she didn't. She knew she couldn't. But she also knew she couldn't be a lesbian, or bisexual or whatever this meant. Cutting was the only solution to this. She lifted her mattress to find a kitchen knife that she took a couple weeks back and instantly knew it wasn't- wasn't the only solution. What was she doing? She had two parents that knew what she was going through? Ok, Maybe not Mama, she always seemed so confident about her sexuality, but Mom. It's not like other parents. She knew there was no way they would kick her out, right?

Sighing she stood up, dropping the mattress back over the knife. She wasn't ready to get rid of it. But she didn't need it this time. She knocked on the door leading between the two rooms and hoping Mom was already getting ready for bed. She cringed when it was Lena who called for her to come in. "Hey," she said as she walked in to see Lena sitting up reading paperwork, "I can come back later."

"Any excuse to not have to read this," Lena said, setting it aside, "How did studying at Karah's go?"

"We umm, we didn't study," Callie said wide eyed, surprised she already had to talk about this already.

"Callie, Finals are coming up, you have to study," Lena chastised "So then what were you doing? You know me and Mom wouldn't let you out for most of the night before finals."

"We were planning on studying, Mama, I swear," Callie said quickly, "We just..."

Lena watched as Callie unconsciously rubbed a spot right below her collar. She knew Karah was a girl who believed she was lesbian. She had been in a couple times to talk to Lena about what she was feeling, it just wasn't something she ever would have guessed from her eldest daughter "Not to be blunt or anything, Hun, but since you aren't really saying anything. Is that a hickey you happen to be hiding?" She watched as Callie pulled her hand away quickly and looked at the bed. Lena internally chastised herself. Even though she was irritated Callie didn't study they had always said they would not have their kids feeling bad for sexual experiences they had. "Honey," she tried again once she saw Callie had froze on her "I'm not mad that you did something with Karah."

"You-you're not?" she asked carefully.

"I'm a little upset you didn't study but you'll be doing it until it's time to go to bed and be woken up an hour early to make up for it, do you understand?" Callie nodded. "But what I really want to talk to you about is not the lack of studying, Callie. Do you like her?"

"Yeah, she's one of my closest friends," Callie answered carefully.

"I know, Honey, but I mean, do you have feelings for her?"

Callie shrugged, she didn't know really.

"Things just get out of hand?"

"I don't know," Callie sighed, "I like her, and it was fun. And I liked it, I just... I don't know what will happen."

"Well, it's ok to not know, but can I give you some advice, as someone who dated girls who weren't sure."

"You are asking me if you can give me advice?" Callie asked with a raised eyebrow. Lena laughed,

"This is a little different than the normal sex talk," She said as she pulled herself up and sat cross legged in front of her daughter, grabbing her hand and squeezing it, "It hurt a lot when I thought a girl would like me and we did something and I found out it was just a 'lesbian experience' or trying being with a girl because it sounds fun."

"That's not it," Callie said exasperated, "I like her, I just have never liked any other girl."

"Oh, Hun," Lena said with a small smile, "That's ok, and you're not the first one. Sexuality is not always black and white. It's a whole spectrum not just Lesbian/gay, Bisexual, or straight."

"Really?" Callie asked with a raised eyebrow.

"You know, your mom says that as a teenager the idea sex with guys was always repulsive until she met Mike, and the idea with him wasn't as bad. She found herself liking him."

"Ok, that's repulsive," Callie crinkled her nose.

"What's repulsive?" Stef asked as she walked through the bedroom door.

"You having sex with Mike," Lena said as she watched Callie become silent, she was hoping the reaction from Stef would stop the walls that she could almost physically see building around Callie.

"And why are we talking about that?" Stef asked as a deep crimson spread across her face.

"I didn't know you could turn that red, Mom," Callie giggled.

"We where talking about how sexuality is fluid," Lena said as Stef sat next to them, making a small circle.

"Did something happen?" Stef asked a little confused.

"When Callie went to Karah's not much studying got done. After we are done here Callie will be studying until it's time to go to sleep and will be getting up an hour early tomorrow morning to do more studying."

"Callie, you know that you wouldn't be allowed out-"

"I've already discussed that, this is not the time," she cut her off.

"Callie, you know me and Mom really don't care, right? We just want you to be happy. Whether that's with a guy, a girl, or even if you were asexual."

"That's a thing?"

Lena sighed, "Yes Stefanie, asexuality is a thing."

"What if people start saying things?" Callie asked quietly.

"People will always say things about you, Callie."

"I don't care what they say about me, what if they say something about you guys?"

"What do you mean, Sweets?" Stef asked.

"What if they say you guys made me a lesbian or something."

"Do you believe we made you into a lesbian?" Stef asked with a raised eyebrow.

"No. But what if other people-"

"When has this family ever cared about what other people thought?" Stef asked gently.

"Never, I just... I don't want to make your lives more difficult than I already have."

"Sweets, what you bring to Mama and me overpower the hiccups a hundred times over." Callie looked at her lap and played with her fingers, "Did you cut, Baby?" Stef asked, rubbing a hand up and down her arm.

"I thought about it, but I didn't," Callie said softly as she gained enough courage to look at Stef, "I decided coming and talking to you would be a better idea."

"I am so proud of you," Stef smiled and wrapping her arms around her, "That's a big step in the right direction. But there is something we need to talk about. Did you use protection?" she asked as she let go of Callie.

"Protection?" Callie asked.

"Was I wrong that this discussion was because you and Karah had sex?"

"Me and Mama didn't exactly get to that question."

"Ok, did you and Karah?" Stef asked.

"I?" Callie said as a question "I don't know?"

Stef looked confused to Lena who just smiled. "It's a little different than with a guy, hu? With a guy you can say you had sex at a certain point. With another girl the line kind of blurs, right? That's why you don't exactly know?" Callie nodded. "Did it feel like sex?" Callie shrugged,

"I don't know, the only sexual experience I try to forget..." she mumbled. Lena's heart broke a little. "Do you think that's why the only time I've done anything was with a girl? What happened with Liam?"

"That's a fair question, Honey, but I think it was just the first time you've felt comfortable enough, not just with someone else, but with yourself. I think you will become comfortable with a guy you love. Or another girl, like I said, whatever makes you happy."

Callie nodded "We... Ummm, we... I think it was sex. But... We're both girls, why do we need protection? And is there even protection for two girls?"

"Yes, you can't get pregnant but there are still risks, STDs. And there are ways to keep yourself protected."

"Why don't they talk about it in sex ed?"

Lena sighed, she didn't understand why it wasn't, "I don't know. But it's important. I will put some dental dams in by the condoms in your bathroom. They are pretty much like a condom for oral sex. You hold it over a person's-"

"Yes, I understand," Callie said, beat red in the face.

"Sorry, Love, but this is important to talk about. Especially since it isn't being taught in school," Stef said.

"You need to make sure that it fully covers her. The point is to keep your mouth from coming in contact with her genitals or any fluid. And if you use any toys you need to put a condom on them and change the condom in between using them with each other."

"Can we stop talking about this now?" Callie asked as she fidgeted.

"One other thing, Love. Protect your heart as much as your body. You've already had one bad experience with sex. Don't do anything you don't want to, and don't make her do anything she doesn't. And please don't make a habit of having sex with people you aren't dating. It's a bad habit to get into."

"Yes, Mom." Callie said with a deep sigh.

"Are you ok, Honey?" Lena asked softly as she patted her knee. Callie nodded, "I know it can be confusing but you can always come talk to me or Mom."

"I know, thanks Mama," Callie smiled.

"Ok, go study, lights off in an hour" Lena smiled as Stef kissed Callie's forehead. Callie went back to her room.