Survival Of The Worst Kind
Kagome sat at the bottom of the well still crying but almost passing out. The pollutions of her time were overwhelming. "I see now why Inuyasha always complained about this place." she whispered to herself. She did not feel like facing her family just yet. So she went to the ancient god tree hopped in it, then opened her windowsill and climbed into her room. Once in her room she locked her door. Although they could not hear her, she could hear them loud and clear. Her ears hurt. She wasn't sure how much more she could take before they began to bleed.
"Now I know how both youkai and hayou feel. No wonder they hardly raise their voices."
"Mom? It has been eight months since Kagome has been home. Do you think she is okay? What if the well sealed? If it did she will be stuck in feudal japan forever." Souta whined.
"Yes Kagome has been gone a long time. But I do not think that she is harmed. And as for the well being sealed, that is just silly. And do not worry Souta, she will return to us. Some day."
"What do you mean someday mom. She hasn't been home in like forever." Souta whined again.
"Call it a mothers intuition. Besides remember Kagome had to stop coming home because of that evil man Naraku. Remember what happened the first few times Kagome had traveled back home without caution? A demon named Yura of the Hair followed her, and then there was the Noh mask that came to life because of a jewel shard. She is simply trying to protect us, and our time."
"What ever you say mom."
"Souta, watch your mouth or there will be no friends to hang out with for the next 2 weeks."
"Y-yes m-mother."
"Now go to your room and get your homework done please."
"Okay."
With that Souta skipped up the stairs happily. He knew his mother was right, Kagome would return...someday. But when he passed by Kagome's room, he stopped. 'Hmmm, something is not right.' he began to try to open the door, it was locked.
Souta ran downstairs and told his mom what he had just discovered, in a whisper. But Kagome heard it. She also heard her mother say something about calling the cops if she knocked on the door and Kagome did not answer. 'Dammit, why did Souta have to sense my presence? I just wanted to be alone. At least for tonight.'
Kagome quickly unlocked the door to her room, her mother came barging in, and looked surprised to see Kagome sitting on the windowsill looking out at the moon.
"KAGOME!" both Souta and their mom yelled.
"Oi, mother, brother please do not yell. Actually do not raise your voice at all. Please."
"Kagome what is wrong? Why do you look different. What happened. Why is your hair longer? Wait don't answer that question. It has been eight months after all. But still for it to grow almost six to twelve inches in eight months is amazing. Kagome why are you not looking at me while I am talking to you. Answer me young lady..."
"Mother."
Every thing went silent at that one word.
"Mother, I am not looking at you because the moon is beautiful. Yes I know it is rude. My hair is longer because...I will tell that story another time. Maybe tomorrow morning. A lot of things are wrong, but right now the moon is helping to sooth the pain. So I do not wish to talk about it right now, please forgive me. You have not seen me for eight months because of the well, after we had defeated Naraku, had only enough magic left to send me back through once. Meaning if I came back here, I would never be able to go back there. I look different because I am pregnant. I did not answer you because you did not give me a chance to. And as for raising your voices, I have a head ache right now. And if you do not mind I would like to get some rest. That is why I locked my door, so no one would find out that I was home."
Her mother looked shocked, then hurt. Kagome did not have to look at her mother to know this, she could sense it. Not to mention smell it. Kagome just simply kept starring at the moon. Her brother left, getting the hint of 'wanting to be alone'. Her mother on the other hand, got the hint, just refused to take it.
"Kagome I know you want to be alone, but if I promise to be quiet, may I sit with you? Its just been so long, and I love you. You're my little girl."
Kagome sighed. She knew how much her mother missed her and loved her. She was just hoping to be alone for a while. But she could not turn her mother away. She could not stand to see her mother in so much pain because she wanted to be alone. "Mom, come here."
Kagome's mother went to her, Kagome wrapped an arm around her mothers medium waist and then jumped out the window and into the ancient shrine tree. Once there, she then took her mother to the roof, on top the house. There Kagome released her shocked and frightened mother. Kagome sat down and her mother did the same. They starred at the moon as long as they could. A couple of hours later, it got to cold for Kagome's mother. So Kagome once again grabbed her mother and took her back into the house. Told her that she loved her, then went back to the roof. She stayed there for the rest of the night, and watched the sun come up. 'Beautiful. Sad. But beautiful.'
Kagome had taken a shower and ate breakfast like nothing was wrong. She then left again before her mother and brother could get up to interrogate her. 'I need to get out of here. How am I going to explain all of this to mom? I know I am an adult but still. It is my mother. She has always seen me as sweet and innocent. Not any more I guess.' she thought as she walked down the street.
All of the sudden, she ran into some one. She had not been paying attention to where she was going.
"Hey watch where you're going stupid." said a rough voice.
Kagome whirled around on her heals and starred at the rude person who had just interrupted her thoughts. "Who the hell are you calling stupid you jerk. Why don't you watch where the hell you're going!" she said pointing a finger at him. She had to control her temper to keep from lopping off his head. She guessed it was a demon thing, seeing as how she had never felt like lopping off some one's head before.
The guy that had insulted her did not even turn to look at her. He just gave a snide comment about 'fucking off' and then kept walking. Kagome was fuming now. "DO. NOT. TURN. YOUR. BACK. ON. ME." She hissed at him. This caused him to stop dead in his tracks and turn on her.
Kagome went into complete shock. She was seeing things, she knew it. But her mouth betrayed her. "I-inuyasha?"
The rude guy's eyes widened slightly. Then 'feh' came from his mouth and walked away. Kagome tried to follow him to find out who he was, but lost him. 'Dammit. I know it is Inuyasha, his aura is the same. And his sent as well. But I can not use my demon speed or abilities. People will freak. Shit I am losing him.' she saw him turn into an ally and then disappeared around a corner. When Kagome rounded the same corner, she was met with a dead end. "Where did he go. Maybe my mind was playing tricks on me. Maybe that was not Inuyasha. Just my wishful thinking." she said out loud, then began to cry.
She started cursing as she cried. "Sesshomaru, you cock sucking bastard. How could you do this to me? To us? I don't care if I died. I just wanted you to love me. But no, you had to send me away. I hate you. I hate you with every living part of my body." she yelled. Little did she know, that her mate had heard every word.
'Please forgive me my angel. It had to be done.' and he continued to listen to her rant and rave. "Fucking bastard. What am I going to tell MY pups. That's right I said MY pups. They are not yours any more because you threw us away like garbage. What am I going to tell them hu? Send me a sign or something please. Inu no Tashio? What kind of men did you raise. Surly you did not throw your mates away like that. Do me a favor and kick his hell bound ass for me." Kagome continued to yell, and yell, and yell, and yell some more. "I hate you Sesshomaru, I hate you. I hate you. (Sobs) I hate you (falls to the ground and sobs more.) I love you." The last one had been barely audible, to a human. But Sesshomaru had heard it. As did Inuyasha, Shippou, Rin, Koga, Ayame, Sango, Miroku, and Kikyo. The others had died in the war. Not wishing to be revived, Sesshomaru allowed them to die. Leaving Sesshomaru Lord of the Western Lands, Inuyasha Lord of the Norther lands, Shippou Lord of the Eastern lands, and finally Koga Lord of the Southern Lands. Koga and Sesshomaru had quickly taught Inuyasha and Shippou how to be a proper lord. Which, unfortunately for every one, included paper work.
'I love you to my little angel. Soon we will be together again. Very soon.' he thought.
Sesshomaru turned and left. The dead end was no dead end at all. They had used a spell to conceal them, so that they may make sure it was Kagome and not some shadow demon that had been trying to impersonate Kagome. They had all been watching over Kagome since she had been born. They knew that they could not interfere when Yura, and the Noh mask attacked. But they stayed close any ways. " Let us return to our homes. There is no more reason to be here."
They all knew that Sesshomaru was in pain. He had to watch his mate grow, fall in love with his brother and come home angry and crying when ever his brother did something stupid. He had wanted to hold her, comfort her, make sweet love to her all night. But he could not. No, he was not allowed to have her yet. They were not allowed to engage with the miko until told otherwise by the angel Andariale. She was the guardian of time. With haste, all four lords and their mates, had gone their separate ways.
Kagome had gone home, only to find her mother on the phone with her friend Eri. "Yes, thank you. No I have not seen her, that was why I was hoping she was with you. No I do not know when she left. No I do not know what is wrong. Yes, thank you again Eri. I will talk to you later. Bye." her mother hung up the phone and put her hands over her face. She began to cry.
"Do not cry mother. I am fine. I just needed to do a few things. I did not wish to wake you." Kagome said.
Kagome's mother looked up, then ran to her and gave her a huge hug. "Kagome, I love you. Do not do that to me again please."
Kagome's heart sank, and she put on a stoic face. She was not going to cry any more. Not for herself or her dead lover, who happened to be the father of her children. She went up to her room and turned on her cd player, putting Linken Park in.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless just under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Under the pressure of walking in your shoes
I'm tired of the undertow
Just tired of the undetow
Every step that I take
Is another mistake to you
I'm tired of the undertows
Just tired of the undertows
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
So much more aware
By becoming this
All I wanted to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
Can't you see that your smothering me
Holding to tightly
Afraid to loose control
Because every thing that you thought I would be
Is falling apart
Right in front of you
I'm tired of the undertow
Just tired of the undertow
Every step that I take
Is another mistake to you
I'm tired of the undertow
Just tired of the undertow
And every second I waist
Is more than I can take
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
So much more aware
By becoming this
All I wanted to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
And I know
In the end I'm failing to
But I know
That you were just like me
When some one was disappointed in you I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
So much more aware
By becoming this
All I wanted to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
I've become so numb
Tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb
Tired of being what you want me to be
'Geez that is exactly how I feel. All Inuyasha wanted me to be was Kikyo. Sesshomaru wanted me to be a youkai. Why can I not just be what I want to be.'sigh. 'I miss them all. But no more. No more will I cry. No I must move on.'
Kagome got up and went down stairs. She was greeted by a confused look from her mother when she had entered the Kitchen.
"Kagome, how far along are you?"
"A month, maybe two at most. Why?"
"Well hun, you look as if you are around three or four months."
"I am having twin boys."
"Oh. Come sit, so that we may talk."
'Great. Here we go again, now I have to tell her every thing. Why can no one just leave me alone?'
500 years back
"Lord Sesshomaru, they are too great in number. They have already purified Tilket, Bishou, Kouton, Layla, Alula, and General Rico." said Jaken.
"We must retreat back to the Southern lands and regroup. Dammit." 'At least Kagome is safe. My angel I am so sorry for the hurt that I have caused you.'
"Yes milord." said the servant then left.
"Sesshomaru-sama. I have news." said Kikyo.
"Speak miko."
"It is Naraku's son that has pitted this war. It is also Naraku's son that has convinced Lord Shinako to do the experiments on the humans. That is why the humans are after all of the demons. They had found out the a few demons were doing experiments on humans trying to create one pure race."
"This day just gets better by the hour." Sesshomaru said while pinching the bridge of his nose.
"Sesshomaru. We are ready to retreat."
"Let us go then. Shippou, you are the fastest out of all of us. Grab Rin and run for your life to the Wolves den. And Rin do not fear, they will not dare harm you."
"Yes milord." they both chimed.
'This is survival of the worst kind' Inuyasha said in Sesshomaru's head.
'How so little brother?'
'Because most of my friends are human. I am half human. Sango and Miroku feel torn yet they stand with us. To think, a demon slayer would turn against her own kind. I think it has something to do with protecting Kagome. Kagome was once human to. Yet if she were here right now, and could not negociate with them, she would stand with us.'
'Hmm, most intriguing perception. I'm surprised that you were able to figure that out by your self, with that small brain of yours.'
'Go fuck a cow.'
'No I would rather fuck Kagome.'
'I did not need to know that.'
'And I did not need to hear such language, or your fantasies.'
'Touche'.'
Kagome sat next to her mother and explained every thing. The final battle with Naraku, her dreams, her meetings with Medoriko, Sesshomaru, her friends, how she became pregnant and a demon, what her pups...er...children would look like. Every thing. She told her mother why she was back. She also told her mother that there is going to be a change in her attitude. She will be cold, stoic. When her mother asked why, she simply said, "because I will never love another. Nor will I cry any longer. If he does not want me by his side, then I will not stand by his side."
Her mother looked sad. 'Have I really lost my daughter. She has been through so much, yet, she still survives. As do her babies. But she is going to close herself off from the world. That is still surviving, but it is of the worst kind. Oh Kagome please do not do this. I have lost you once, I do not wish to loose you again.' her mother thought as she fought not to cry.
"Mother?" Kagome said coldly. This took Kagome's mother by surprise.
"Kagome, please I am begging you. Do not close your heart to the world. Your babies will need that pure and beautiful heart of yours."
"Mother, my heart is no longer pure. I lost all essence of purity when I became a demon."
"That is not true Kagome. The jewel around your neck is still pink, and not tainted."
"The jewel around my neck is also dead, I just wear it out of habit. I feel naked without it. And what I mean by dead, is that I have already made a wish on it."
"Oh."
