Sextday, Bertzia 2nd 067.M42
I think Maddy lied to me.
I don't know what, but I think that something happened to her while she was off work. I'm honestly not sure if her Mum was sick in the infirmary or not. She says that she was, and she says she's feeling better now and came home with some medication. But when we were talking in the hall, she was standing side-on to me just under the edge of one of the lumens and I realised that she was wearing more makeup than usual. She normally wears a little bit of stuff - some colour on her lips, a bit of powder I think and some eye stuff - I don't know what it's all called, neither of my sisters really wore cosmetics - but today she seemed to have really put on a lot. Her face looked a little… I don't know… puffy?
Once I noticed that, it was hard not to notice other things too. She wasn't really limping as such, but it really seemed like she was favouring one side in particular. She's normally very expressive when she talks, using her hands a lot but today she really didn't. She kind of… kept her arms tucked in close, didn't move around too much.
I tried to ask her if everything was okay - I didn't want to accuse her outright of lying, because I don't know. It could be anything, I could be misreading the situation. But she just brushed me off a bit, said she was a bit tired after being worried about her Mum for a few days. Which makes sense, I just… It feels wrong. Something feels off and I don't know what. I think someone's hurt her.
I know she lives with her Mum and one brother. She's never said anything about her Mum remarrying after her Dad died. In fact that's why she works so hard, she's had to bring money home to help look after the family. And she has mentioned her Mum being sick in the past. Is her mum sick? Or is something else going on there? She's such a sweet thing, and she's… well, she's small. I mean, don't get me wrong, she's tough but… Someone big enough could hurt her badly if they really set their mind to it.
I didn't press it. If she's hiding things, it might be for good reason. I tried to just let her know that if she needed to talk to anyone about anything, I'd always be here for her. She hugged me and said thanks, but everything was okay. I hope it is and I'm just misreading things. I just can't help but feel that I'm not. I don't know what I'd do if someone actually was hurting her. She's so sweet and friendly and caring, I can't even imagine what kind of monster would want to do such a thing.
Thought for the Day: Push yourself forward but never overstep your boundaries, lest you be crushed under the weight of responsibility.
