This is Long Overdue.

Enjoi.


Here I am.

Sitting here, just sitting here.

Not calling Erin. I mean I'm kind of curious as to what to do or what to say. Yes, yes, Ashley's a little frightened. Not of the girl but of the situation that could unfold at any moment.

I texted Spencer after she left and told her to walk safely across the street because, let's face it, she's clumsy as shit. Yeah, she's my girlfriend but I mean she is clumsy. End of story.

She texted me back just now saying "Har Har. Verrry funny. U call Erin, yet? Xoxo"

Nope. I don't plan on getting into a bitch argument again, "about that…um, no. =)" I reply back to her in a cute manner. She can't possibly be mad at me. I mean—Oops, text.

"Call her and get it over w. I don't want u to still b thinkin about it wen I come over in a couple hours. Ash. Now. Or I won't come bak. Not lying. Text or call wen ur done. Byeeee. Xoxo"

Damn. Spencer's leaving me alone for something I did not do. I guess I'd better be doing it then.

"Ugh!" I scream only to myself. Why can't fucking Erin just poof?

"Because that would make life too fucking easy for you, wouldn't it? And we wouldn't want a drama free Ashley." Kyla says standing next to me. I guess she's been in my cranium. I didn't even hear her walk in.

I look at Kyla and narrow my eyes at her, "Stay out of my head unless you're invited."

She sits in the stool next to me, "Fine. But you still have to call her. She's expecting a call from you."

I stare at Kyla with my mouth agape, "How do you know? You still talk to her?"

Kyla shrugs, "She texted me recently. Saying she missed us." That's funny. Same thing she said to me, "I know that's the same thing she said to you. But she didn't mean it that way, I'm hoping she meant it more friendly. I mean, I don't have sex with my friends."

I slant my head slightly, "Funny. And I guess that was a shot at me because I prefer to get the sex out of the way. It's been working." I wiggle my eyebrows.

I can feel a pang of anger coming from her. What's up with that? "Did you do anything with Spencer?"

I nod, "I do tons of things with Spencer. She's my girlfriend. My old ball and chain. My significant other. My old lady. Why wouldn't I?"

I feel a parent moment coming on, "Did you sleep with her, Ash?" she asks. I've never seen her look so serious.

"No. We haven't. Why? What's so wrong with that?" I ask concerned.

Kyla shakes her head, "There's nothing wrong with that."

"Well, why are you freaking out?" Incest is against the law.

"Ew. I'm staying out of your head." She sighs, "I just feel protective over Spencer."

I roll my eyes, "And I'm a horrible person so I'm going to corrupt Spencer." I do believe we've already gone over this. I'm bad, she's not. Simple, I'm over it.

Kyla scoffs, "That's not even what I was getting at. Play the victim much?"

I shrug. Well, that's always the problem.

"I just don't want her to be doing anything she might regret again…" Kyla says searching my eyes to see if I have any idea of what she's talking about.

"You mean…" I stop to make sure I word the next part right, "You mean how she had sex with that guy and regretted it?"

Kyla nods, "Yeah. I don't want her jumping into anything like that so soon. I know you're her girlfriend and she's sure about dating you and I do not doubt that but, I just know how it is."

Yeah, I know Ky. She doesn't have the best luck with good guys. That's why she should date girls. "I know," I say in a whisper looking down at the countertop. I guess right now is confession time. I look up at Kyla, "I don't think that way with Spencer. I mean," I lick my lips before continuing. Whatever I say right now has never left my lips before. Not even when I thought I was so head over heels for Erin. "I don't think about having sex with her. I just think about being with her. Anywhere and everywhere. I find myself wondering if she feels the same or if she's thinking about me as much as I'm thinking about her. I feel kind if pathetic honestly when I think about it but when I'm with her I couldn't be happier." I gulp and stare into Ky's eyes hoping she doesn't think I'm a pussy or nothing like that, "I don't think I can be without her now that she's in my life…"

Kyla stares at me as a smile creeps across her face, "That's really sweet."

I shrug and look away from her. I can't believe that I just spilled my guts out. The odd thing is, though, is that I didn't know I felt that way until just now. None of it was a lie, I'm serious. "Yeah, well…"

"Ashley. I'm sure she feels the exact same way about you. Every time I'm with her she talks about you." Kyla chuckles, "It's cute but sickening, really."

That makes me soar, seriously. Atleast I'm not the only one feeling the love—uh—no, not again. I stand up and stretch, "Alright, I'm gonna go ahead and call Erin and have her plead to me some more."

Kyla smiles and shakes her head, "Good luck," she stands as well, "I'm gonna go do some homework." She starts walking away.

"Nerd." I whisper.

I watch the sun go down as she continues talking on the other end of the phone. Hasn't been a bad conversation, she's just been talking about random things. We've been on the phone for about an hour and I'd hate to jinx myself but I'm kind of enjoying it.

I wonder if Spencer's done with dinner, yet.

"Ashley…" She says my name seriously.

I snap back to the sound of her voice, "Yeah, Erin?"

She sighs before she continues, "Thanks for talking to me. It means a lot. I mean, after everything that I've done to you…"

I shrug, "It's not okay but we can make it okay with time, I guess. As long as you don't revert back to your bitch ways." I smile.

She laughs, "Whatever keeps you in my life…"

Silence.

"I don't mind being in your life if you're nice to me. And my girlfriend." I say a bit harshly but it wasn't like mean, was it? Because I'm really not trying to be. I just want to be up front.

"I got it." She says rather quickly if I might comment. There has to be more to it than just that, "But of course it's going to be hard for me to see you with someone else. Especially when I kind of have to look at her everyday on the cheer squad with me. It's hard knowing someone else makes you happier than I ever did…"

"Erin…" That's not even the way it was, "You gave up that chance you had with me. I never said you didn't make me extremely happy because you did. I had a great time with you. I mean think about it. I was never in a monogamous relationship until you came along. I had to see something in order for me to jump off the buffet and onto a four course meal."

She laughs again and I kind of missed that part of her, "It feels nice to hear that. I know I broke your heart and every second I wish that I could take that back but if I did then you wouldn't have found Spencer. You wouldn't be as happy as you are now."

"True." Is all I can manage to say because, come on, I'm not going to lie. She fucked up and she's dealing with the consequences. I respect her for that decision.

"But if things don't work out and you ever want to give us another try then, call me."

I chuckle a little bit. I know it was meant as a joke but I also know that she was completely serious. I'm glad that we can joke about it, "Right, don't hold your breath, Cheerio's."

"I earned my old nickname back, I must be doing something right." Erin says.

I used to call her that when we were together. I guess it just slipped. Don't think anything of it, I don't.

I have another call.

"Hey, I'll text you, okay?" I probably will.

"Are you sure?" she asks hesitantly.

I nod even though she can't see, "I will. Promise." She knows that I'll never break a promise to her or anyone else for that matter.

"Okay, bye, text me. Really." She says before hanging up.

She's growing on me. Again.

"Hello?" I say into the phone.

"Hi." The voice says sweetly and short.

"Yes?" I say.

She scoffs, "Is that the way to talk to me?"

I smile, "Spence, I'll talk to you anyway you want me to. You like dirty talk?"

"Oh my god, "She says before bursting with laughter, "Shut up, perv."

I shrug and remain smiling, "You love it.

"Uh huh, sure," her laughter calms a bit, "What are you doing?"

"Thinking about a certain blonde hair, blue eyes goddess," that's always.

"Where are you?" she asks with a tad bit of concern in her voice.

I clear my throat, "At the park. Watching the sunset. It's beautiful."

"Just like you." She says quietly and I think I just blushed. She continues, "Do you want to come over later? After you're done? The parental devices are going out of town for doctor stuff and I want you to stay the night with me at my house rather than yours. Bed's so comfortable."

I stand up from off the grass and start to pat myself down to get all the stray pieces of glass off of me, "Spencer Carlin. Are you trying to get me to sleep with you? I mean this isn't the most romantic approach but I'm easy so you know I'm there." I start walking in the direction of Spencer's. Which is not that far from the park.

She giggles, "Yes, Ashley. That's exactly what I'm trying to do. I bought some lingerie just for you, actually."

Holy Shit. Her voice went all seductive on the last part.

"You can bet that I'll be there as soon as possible." And that was no lie.

She laughs, "Hurry up before I change my mind." She hung up.

Spencer Carlin hung up on me.

How dare she?

I'm shocked.

I'm appalled.

I'm gonna go get some.


I more than agree with Ashley. haha.