Disclaimer: I only own Alexandria Noles (Alex) and a few other lesser characters. Any wrestlers mentioned do not belong to me (no matter how much I wish!) the only belong to themselves.

Alex emerged from the bathroom wearing Matt's clothes, and flipped the light off. She bypassed the mirror, fully aware that Matt had been correct in his guess, the outfit was swallowing her whole. She was very thankful that her brother in law had reserved this room for her, it was her favorite in his house. The bed was comfortable, complete with a down comfortor that she was absolutely in love with. Flipping the covers down, Alex climbed in and grabbed one of the four pillows to curl up to. She left the lamp burning while she let her mind try to wind down. Of course deep down she knew it would take alot more time than she was willing to admit to let her thoughts calm themselves. Alex decided that she would break her thoughts down, starting with Shannon.

'He kissed me. Shannon... Kissed me. Why did he kiss me?' When no answer came to mind after a moment, Alex let out a frustrated groan and flipped to her back, slamming her hands down atop the comfortor. She kept turning that question over in her mind, not wanting to think of her own actions and feelings about the incident.


Shannon dropped his empty bottle into the can Matt had designated for the glass. He bypassed the few straglers that were still hanging around outside and went inside to search. Seemingly out of nowhere, Mickie slammed into the blonde man. She, as so many others, had obviously had a little too much to drink.
"Shannon!" She laughed as she threw her arms around his neck in a friendly hug.

"Hey Mickie. Have you seen Matt, by chance?" To his question, Mickie nodded as she leaned up against the wall, giggling. When the diva didn't go on to reveal his friends whereabouts, Shannon raised his eyebrows.

"And where would he be?" Mickie burst out laughing again.

"Oh! I'm sorry! Kitchen, with Ash." Shannon nodded and offered her a smile before stepping around her towards the kitchen. When he entered the room, Ashley greeted him with a smile.

"Hey Shan."
"Hey Ash. Uh, Matt, where is Alex? I kinda need to talk to her." Shannon ran his hand through his hair and hoped Matt wouldn't put up a fight. The dark haired man turned to look at his friend.

"She's already laying down. If you want a room Shan, you better go claim it before everyone else grabs em up." Shannon chuckled, trying to calm his nerves.

"Yeah, okay. Thanks man." The blonde man turned to leave, thankful that Alex hadn't told Matt about what had happened. He knew where she would be, and he intended to talk to her tonight. If he waited until the following morning, he knew he would lose his courage, even if it was only liquid courage running through him.


Alex flipped in the bed yet again. More than anything, she just wanted to shut her mind off and go to sleep. She would deal with everything tomorrow, tonight she just wanted to forget. As she closed her eyes again, a little voice piped up, causing her anger to rise.

'You kissed him back. It felt good to kiss him. Your feelings towards Shannon have been growing, and you know it. Admit it.'

Alex squeezed her eyes tight and willed the voice to disappear. When it did, she settled down again. On the verge of succumbing to sleep, another voice appeared in her head.

'Alex, please... I'm begging you. Do what makes you happy. I'm not going to fault you, blame you, or be mad. I want the best for you. Give it a chance.'

Jeff's voice made Alex's eyes snap open quickly. She looked around the room with her heart beating rapidly in her chest. She was freaked out. When the door creaked open Alex nearly screamed, until she saw the blonde hair of her best friend peeking through.

"You're not asleep yet." Shannon observed as he snuck in and closed the door behind him. Alex shook her head. Had the mood been better, she would have commented on the fact he looked like a teenager sneaking around, but she didn't have the energy. Shannon took a seat on the side of the bed, and Alex sat with her back to the headboard and knees to her chest. The awkwardness settled in and Shannon stared at his hands in his lap.

"Alex, I'm sorry." Shannon said, Alex started to interrupt when he held his hand up to signal her silence.

"Just gimme a second okay? I have to get this out." After waiting on a response, and not getting one, Shannon went on.

"I'm sorry. Maybe I shouldn't have done that, but I can't say I regret it. It's been on my mind alot lately, and I did enjoy it. It was pretty much the best feeling. I know you don't, can't, feel the same, and that's okay. You're still my best friend, and I don't want to lose that. Please tell me we're okay..." Shannon looked up with pleading eyes as he reached the end of his proclomation. Alex dropped her blue eyes to her own wringing hands. This was what she was scared of, and she really didn't feel like dealing with it at the moment. She sighed as she raised her eyes again, taking note of the look of defeat that had rested in her best friends features. She opened her mouth to speak, but closed it again as the thought of Jeff's voice floating through her mind startled her. Alex knew what she had to do, or what she felt she had to do. Taking a deep breath she readied herself for possibly the hardest thing to do since Jeff's death.

A/N: Okay, only took me about 5 tries! My computer kept messing up and erasing the chapter as I was working on it, but I FINALLY got it down! I want to send a BIG thanks out to my reviewers! 68 stones, Inday, BlackSuicideAngel, rory21, KaraAlissa && mltjrbabe, your praises make me a very happy writer! I'll try to have the next chapter up tomorrow or so. As always, please review if you read, it helps me to know if I'm doing a good job, or if there is something I need to work on! Em.