Here is the entry for the latest episode where the Gravedigger was put on trial. I hope that you like this set of entries, though to be honest, the emotions coming through are anything but warm and fuzzy. As I said earlier, I am sorry for the delay in updating this story, but I've been having some health issues the last few weeks that have left me unable to really concentrate on the episodes enough to work out the journal entries to my satisfaction. Thanks again for all the continuing support and encouragement on this story. Gregg.

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From the Journal of FBI Special Agent Seeley Booth:

May 18, 2010: I should be happy, but I'm not. The Gravedigger is behind bars where she belongs and won't be getting out thanks to the incredible job the Squints did on this one. Because of them, this nightmare is over. Why is it, though, that I feel like I've just lost? Not lost a case, or a game, or even a trivial contest, but rather the most important thing I have in my life. I feel helpless. Bones is hurting, and struggling hard, but there's nothing I can do. She won't let me. She'll hear the words I say, but she won't listen to what it is I have to tell her. I don't know why, but when I saw her look back at me from that cab, I just knew that something will happen, and I'm going to be wondering how something so right became so wrong. Bones is becoming the woman I fell in love with almost from the beginning, but the woman I have come to love more and more every day is shying away because she fears what she has become is going to hurt her and those around her. I just hope that Bones doesn't end up being the biggest loser in this whole drama that our lives have become. The way I feel right now is enough to make me, for the first time in my life, question the ways of God, and his plan for all of us, in particular me and Bones.

From the Journal of Dr. Temperance Brennan:

May 18, 2010:

Dear Booth. I doubt you'll ever see my journal, but I can't think of anything else to do but write down what I'm feeling right now in a letter to you. I know it's not the usual form of a journal entry, but somehow it feels like the right thing to do. Do you know how terrified I am of hurting you? I know that I am just by seriously looking into taking a long time off from our partnership, but if I don't how I will be able to protect you? I'm broken. I'm damaged and don't see how being so close to me right now can be good for you, or anyone else. Hodgins was so angry with me when I said that Caroline should drop the original cases against the Gravedigger. I could see it in his eyes. Hear it in his tone of voice. But it was the right thing to do. The problem is, I hurt him by having to be so cold. So seemingly uncaring that I was somehow possibly belittling his feelings. But it was the right thing to do, and I know none of us would have been as deeply affected by my words if we weren't all so close to one another. Even though you drew it for different reasons that existed between us, I can now see, to a certain extent, the importance of the line. You deserve someone who can show you the kind of compassion and caring that I don't really understand, and only view right now as a hindrance to keeping you safe. I'm sorry, Booth. I know this may make things impossible between us in the future, if there is a future, but I can't live with the way things are right now. I need to find myself, and hopefully understand what has been happening the last few years, not only between us, but also with our work, and our friends. I hope that when that day comes, you'll let me try and tell you all of this, and be my friend again. Love, Bones.

A/N: As I said this one is quite down, emotionally, but the episode, in terms of Booth and Bones, was very dramatically depressing. I hope that you can all appreciate this one and I am hoping that future episodes will allow the continuing entries to be more upbeat and hopeful. I have decided to continue this story into the sixth season, so I hope that the powers that be don't drag this out too long. Thanks again for all the great responses. Gregg.