Chapter 29: Bring Me to Life

KELSEY POV

That's it. I had decided to let go. And right when I was about to, something stopped me. Again. Frustration flew threw me, and a little bit of anger. Fine. Whoever was deciding to play God with my unconscious and probably gray body was going to get hell from me.

I decided to fight, right then and there. Screw this freaking blackness. Give the bird to this sickness. Kelsey the angry vampire was going to kick ass.

But of course, things are never simple. Getting better took a lot of energy. I was tired. But hey, nothing seems real right now anyway, so who says I'm tired.

Oh yeah, that one shred of reality in my screwed up life. That would do it.

ALICE POV

My insanity will be caused by Kelsey. You just watch. Edward told us that the second dosage we gave her pissed her off so much; she was going to fight the disease now.

Can this girl not make up her mind? And speaking of Edward, he was much better. Much better. In fact, he was out of bed, showered, dressed, and was talking to Bella on the phone, sitting on the couch.

Carlisle wasn't too far behind. He was the one that told Edward he couldn't go hunting until tomorrow. Once a doctor, always a doctor. I sighed and made my way from Esme to Kelsey.

Then I was tackling Jasper with a hug. We had given Kelsey the second dosage 3 hours ago, and already she wasn't as gray. She had gone from the crazy black color to a dark gray.

"I knew she would do it!!" I squeed. Then, what really made my day was that I didn't need Jaspers help giving her blood anymore. Of course, there was a high possibility of her waking up extremely pissed, but hey. She needed it.

KELSEY POV

I rested on the side of the deep black void and looked down. The blackness spun downward only a little ways, and at the bottom was a cold dark pit. Death.

It was still very, VERY close. It mocked my progress with every painful inch I gained. But death can suck it. I have to live. My motivation? My real family. I had to check in with them eventually. See if my mother had changed at all. Or my father for that matter.

And of course there were the Cullens. I owed them MEGA apologies. Like, buying them a country wouldn't be good enough.

Well. Enough jabbering. I had a long way to go. Gritting my teeth, I stood, stretched a little, and kept climbing. Every inch gained took what seemed like forever. Time had no place here, but I felt disconnected. Like I wasn't even climbing at all.

Hmmm. Maybe I was going backward. That would explain why it was so damn hard. Maybe I was actually forcing myself to die. I froze and looked down from where I was on the wall.

Nope. Death was still at the bottom.

Day 12

ALICE POV

I scrubbed harder at my pale skin and frowned at it. Emmett and Rosalie told us to take a break, so Jasper and I did. He went, showered for 5 minutes, dressed and was now relaxing.

But I was cooped up in my thoughts, and was still in the shower. Why wouldn't Kelsey want to live? I know that things really haven't gone her way, but something must be wrong if she wanted to die. Right?

Trying not to be too freaky, I had a vision. Then I relaxed, and smiled. She was going to live. I don't care how miserable and angry she was going to be. Esme is a very good counselor. She can work it out.

But then I had another thought. What would have happened if I didn't give Kelsey the second dose, and respected her wish? I angrily turned off the water. Whenever I thought more about the what if's of the future, it got me all mixed up.

So, hoping that I did the right thing, I stepped out, toweled off, got dressed, and lay down next to Jasper.

KELSEY POV

Panting, I flopped down again. This annoyingly confusing dimension of hell was driving me mad. Progress was almost impossible to tell.

The only sure thing I could rely on was the amount of the disease in side of me. This better be the sort of disease you only get once. It's way to exhausting and mentally demanding.

If I really focused, I could feel the antidote inside of me. It was small, but it had a huge influence on the disease. I grabbed hold of it and heaved.

Bring Me to Life.

Confused? Confusing? Yep. I was even experiencing confusion writing it. And so were Kelsey and Alice. But mostly Kelsey. This was mostly a chapter that gave you something to think about. Thinking about death doesn't have to be depressing. It just usually is most of the time. ANYWAY…review like your life depends on it. Or Kelsey's'. OOO! Isn't that a threat! .

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