A/N: Thanks for the reviews! :D Poor Lacey and Justin AND LILLY! :(


Justin was gone for nearly an hour picking up the door and felt he was gone for too long that he decided to not go to the dealership to look for a car because he wanted Lacey to be there so they could pick something out together. As they drove down the road he could see that Lacey's car was gone and his heart fell hard into his stomach and he gasped feeling the air being ripped from his lungs, he couldn't even catch his breath. It was almost as if he forgotten how to breathe. Before Heath could even park the car Justin was jumping out of the passenger side and ran toward the house, Heath slammed the breaks as soon as he saw the door open.

"Jus!-" Heath tried calling out his name to stop him but it was too late he was already out and running toward the house

Heath shook his head and parked the truck in front of the house and got out and walked to the passenger side and closed the door since Justin forgot to close it. He could hear Justin calling out Lacey's name repeatedly as he walked toward the house and walked inside. Justin was frantic as he ran through the house looking in rooms and noticed some things were missing from Lilly's room. Justin ran into the living room and saw the note sitting on the table and he began hyperventilating not realizing he was actually doing it. He felt everything around him was now going in slow motion and spinning as he slowly walked to the table and grabbed the note and slowly opened it up.

"Breathe Justin, shit you're going to hurt yourself" Said Heath

Justin didn't hear Heath though his focus was on the letter that was in his hands and he began to read

Paul,

I'm sorry I didn't tell you that I loved you when you told me you loved me before you left. Truth is, I do love you. I love you more than anything I've ever loved before in my entire life. Well that was until Lilly came along, now I love her just as much as I love you. I am leaving for a few days so I can think about everything and figure out where we can go from here, if we can even go anywhere from here. Please understand I am doing this for US (You, me and Lilly). Please dont try to call me, I really need this time to think so I can clear my head about everything. Lilly doesn't need to be in the middle of this mess anymore. She is completely innocent and doesn't need to be around all this drama, she's only a week old and already has heard so much crap from all of us. Even while she was in my stomach she heard so much, its not fair to her! Please understand and respect my decision, I know I said I wouldn't leave but I have to. I'm sorry.

Love,

Lacey

Justin clutched the letter in his fist and held it to his chest as he broke down in tears and ended up collapsing to the floor.

"Shit! Justin!" Heath shouted as he grabbed onto him and held him up

Justin cried harder than he'd ever cried before in his entire life, not since his father died had he cried this hard.

"Justin...you're going to hurt yourself man" Heath whispered as he rubbed his back slowly

"g-g-g-g-g-GOOD!" Justin struggled with his words as he sobbed

Justin ended up crying so hard he ended up vomiting onto the living room floor. Heath let him go in case he wanted to leave for the bathroom instead he leaned forward laying his head onto the coffee table gagging hard and eventually throwing up more. Heath wasn't sure what to do, he walked to the kitchen where he could keep an eye on Justin and he called Wade. After a brief conversation Wade decided that he would come and help Heath try to calm him down and see if they could find something to maybe calm his nerves, Wade had mentioned that they had given him sleeping pills and tranquilizers for his insomnia but he never took them so he would dig through his medicine cabinet and find some to bring him to maybe get him to calm down and go to sleep.

"Jus, you need to breathe" Heath insisted

Heath was growing very worried that Justin was seeming to have a really hard time trying to catch his breath but it even worried him seeing him breaking down like he was. Never in the years he had known him had he seen Justin break down this hard and it scared him to watch his best friend in this much pain. It took around 20 minutes before Wade finally arrived and Justin was still sobbing as hard as before. Heath opened up the door and let Wade in.

"Jesus, I didn't know it was this bad" whispered Wade as he looked at the smaller man slumped over on the coffee table sobbing so hard he was choking and coughing

"Yeah...he was alot worse he calmed down a little but I think he's about to blow up again" said Heath

"Alright man, lets get some of this down so we can get you calm a little bit" said Wade as he walked to Justin

"N-n-n-n-n-no" sobbed Justin

"Please? What if she comes back? Lacey or Lilly isn't going to want to see you like this" said Wade

"She...w-w-w-w-wont...b-be c-c-c-coming...back!" he said as he began to sob harder once again and threw up more

"If you dont take this we're going to force it down your throat" Wade insisted

Heath looked at Wade and was surprised at how hands on he seemed, Heath would never dream of being forceful and mean to Justin right now not in the shape he is in.

"Go...aw-w-w-way" he begged

"We cant go that" said Wade as he opened the pill bottle and pulled out one of the pills and looked at Heath and nodded his head and sat the bottle down

"l-l-leave" Justin choked out

"No" said Wade

Wade moved behind Justin and pulled his body back against his legs tried prying his mouth open but Justin just bit his lips together and fought back. He wasn't in the right frame of mind at the moment to realize what exactly was going on or what he was saying or doing all he knew was he didn't want that pill and he wanted Lacey and his daughter back. After an intense struggle Wade pulled back and walked off as Justin fell back onto the floor and moved to his side. Heath wanted to pull him back because he was so close to laying in his own vomit but by time he started to move Wade was returning and pulled his body to lay on his back again. Wade sat down on Justin's stomach to keep him from moving and shoved a spoon to his mouth, Justin again gave a struggle and Wade moved his body up more and put his weight down onto his chest causing him to have to open his mouth to beg for air and Wade shoved the spoon into his mouth and dropped the pill inside and pulled the spoon out tossing it aside and covered his mouth with his hand.

"You're going to choke him!" said Heath

"He's fine" said Wade as he moved his body off his chest and hoovered over him holding his mouth closed

"Swallow it Jus" said Wade

"Mm!" Justin said as if he was saying no

"Yes! Swallow it! You need to calm down!" said Wade

After a moment the pill was beginning to dissolve and Justin had no choice but to swallow it down. Heath went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water and returned as Wade was standing up off Justin.

"Drink some of this" said Heath as he leaned over to Justin

Justin took the bottle and Heath pulled him to sit up and Justin opened up the bottle and downed the entire thing in seconds then laid back down in a fetal position and sobbed hard not even caring that he was so close to his vomit. Heath and Wade watched Justin cry till he eventually cried himself to sleep thanks to the pill finally kicking in.

"We should get him to bed" said Wade as he stood up and leaned down picking up the smaller man from the floor

"Got him?" asked Heath

"Yeah" said Wade

"I'll start cleaning all this up" said Heath

"okay I'll be back" said Wade as he walked off with Justin over his shoulder

"Lacey.." Justin whined out still asleep

Wade walked into their bedroom and laid him down on the bed and pulled his shoes off tossing them onto the floor and threw a blanket that was sitting at the end of the bed over his body.

"Lacey" whispered Justin

Wade shook his head and patted his shoulder lightly.

"Poor Jus" he whispered

Wade made sure he was going to be alright and walked out of the room leaving the door wide open, not that it would close anyway since it was broken. Wade returned to the living finding Heath was setting up deep cleaning machine. Wade walked into the kitchen grabbing paper towels and walked back and began cleaning up what he could off the floor as soon as he finished Heath began cleaning the floor. After they finished Heath put the machine away and walked back to Wade and checked where he had cleaned to make sure it was up.

"Thanks for coming" said Heath

"No problem. Surprised she hasn't called yet" said Wade

"Yeah. I know" Heath said with a frown

"Maybe she will in a bit" said Wade

"I hope so...you can go if you need to I'll stay here and watch him" said Heath

"You sure? I dont have anything to do I can stay" said Wade

"No its good, I can take care of it" said Heath

"The pills are there if he wakes up and needs another one" said Wade as he pointed to the table

"Okay thanks" said Heath

"Welcome, call me later if she calls, or if something happens with him"

"I will" said Heath

"Bye" said Wade as he walked out the door

Heath flopped down on the couch and flipped through channels and watched some TV for a while.


A few hours had passed and Heath decided to get up to check on Justin and as soon as he walked inside he found that Justin was on his stomach but wasn't asleep and he looked at Heath when he walked in. Heath could tell he was extremely heartbroken not to mention tired as he walked further into the room he even had tears in his eyes except now he was more lifeless, like a zombie. The only movement that came from him was when he would breathe.

"You alright?" asked Heath as he knelt down in front of him

"I miss her" he whispered as tears flooded his eyes again

"I know man" said Heath as he patted his shoulder lightly

"She hasn't called...she hasn't come back. Its over" he again whispered as he closed his eyes

"She wanted time to think. She'll be back" said Heath

"Where could she have gone?" he whispered

"I dunno man, maybe she'll call soon" Heath assured him trying to keep him from giving up hope

"I hope she didn't head back to her moms. I dont want Lilly around that asshole of a step father of hers...I dont want Lacey to go back to that shit either" he said as he started to cry again

"She wont go back there. He was the reason she left in the first place. Him beating on her and telling her she was worthless and her mom just stood back and watched. Yeah...she wont go back to that shit, she would never put Lilly in that sort of danger. He might be sober now but that doesn't mean he wont hit Lace again and she knows it" said Heath

Heath rubbed Justin's back slowly and listened to him sob for a few minutes till he finally fell back to sleep again. He quietly left the room once again and sat down and watched TV but kept the volume low so he could listen for Justin. Something was telling him Justin would try to hurt himself if he wasn't careful so there was no way he was going to allow that to happen.