29) Life in Tears
Bella's P.O.V
"Have you heard Rose?" I asked her when she came into my room to have a chat. She looked confused. Obviously she hadn't.
"Renesmee's leaving us to leave in Forks with Jake" I told her watching her reaction. She screwed up her face in disgust. She muttered something under her breath that didn't sound very nice.
"No offence Bella but I would have thought she would have better taste than Jacob Black" She said in a disgusted tone looking at me. She must have seen the worry in my eyes.
"Don't worry about her Bella. She's clever. She'll be ok" Rosalie said. I looked at her as if she were stupid.
"Rose... Haven't you heard about the vampires there? Why are they there? Are they there for anyone in particular?" I said to her my voice shaking as I tearlessly cried. I sobbed and sobbed. The sound I made sounded like my throat was ripping its way out. It hadn't occurred to me until now how much danger Nessie really was in. The only time I've ever felt like this was when I was human and Edward left me.
"They are gone now Bella. If anything happens there that we hear about Aro will send Alec and Jane to sort it out" Rose said to me, trying to calm me down. It was never going to work.
"Alec is only interested in Deri. Anyway he wants to go with them – for Deri" I said looking at her. She was watching me.
"How do you feel about that?" She asked me curiously. I thought for a moment, trying to organise my thoughts.
"I don't know. He's nice when he's with Deri but I don't really want him to get too involved because of what has happened with Jake and Nessie. I never wanted her to have a child with him at her age. It's not right. But I went along with it for her" I said without breathing.
Rosalie gasped. "So you never wanted Nessie with Jacob?" She asked me. I shook my head.
"Not at her age now. When she's a lot older then maybe but she's too young" I answered. I couldn't be mad at Jake though because he was giving her a life. He was giving her more than I could.
"Don't worry Bella. Look on the up side. In a few months, me and Emmett are getting married. Nessie will be back then, I'm sure" Rosalie said. I nodded. She looked around.
"Where's Edward?" She asked seeing no one next to me for the first time in months.
"He's cooling off. I told him the news and he got angry and now he's upset. He hates the fact his daughter is leaving him so fast after we gave birth to her. He thinks its something he's done wrong. I can't go to help him when im just as bad Rose" I said to her. It was still weird confiding in Rosalie this much. I never have before. When I was human she hated me. I can't say I blame her.
"Want me to go and see him?" She asked. I shook my head. It had better be me. I know what to say to him. No offence Rose" I said. She smiled reassuringly at me. I smiled and turned to open the door. She patted my back and ran out of the open door into her room. She shut the door and unless I was very much mistaken, I heard a very gentle sob. I opened the door to Nessie's room, where he was. I walked over to him and patted his shoulder. He turned and grimaced. I couldn't bear that face so I started to feel the same.
"Its not you Edward" I muttered hugging him. He pulled away to look at me.
"If its not me then who is it? The dog?" He asked. I nodded. I didn't know what he was talking about. Of course this was about Jacob. I picked up Deri from her cot and hugged her to my chest. She looked up with big curious eyes.
"You are going somewhere nice soon. You can see your Great Grandad Charlie. You can't meet him but your mom will take you to see him I'm sure" I told her. Edward looked at me curiously.
"Charlie can't see her. He'll wonder how on earth and 8-year-old can give birth. When Deri reaches full maturity, Nessie can tell him that she was adopted by herself and Jake" I told him. He sifted through that for a minute and nodded understanding.
He hugged me hard trying to cover the pained expression on his face. Like I hadn't seen that before. Edward tries to care about everyone else and not about himself. I guess so do I really but I don't do a very good job. Edward does. He shouldn't though. He deserves better.
I patted his shoulder. He looked at me.
"Bella, Nessie could die if the newborns come back. She can't fight. She's eight years old. I can fight but I'm 116 (A/N: Sorry guys but I can't remember exactly how old Edward is so I had to guess!). How is she going to manage?" He said to me his voice breaking at the end.
I looked at him in horror. He didn't think that as well did he? What was I going to do?
I have two choices: One, let Nessie go and only see her once in a while or Two, Make Nessie stay, bring Jake back and keep them with me.
Although I know about the consequences of this choice, I like choice two.
I wonder what Edward thought. My thoughts soon drifted away as Edwards lips touched mine.
I had one though that stayed.
I was going to force Nessie into two if I could...
Authors Note
Hey Guys,
Thanks for the reviews. Thank you especially to Marykaterox for being my most loyal supporter!
I thought I would let you see Edward and Bella and Rosalie's softer sides. They don't show it often so I thought now would be a good time.
I really need to know what to put in the next chapters and how Bella forces Nessie into choice two so if anyone has idea's – PLEASE TELL ME!
Btw, i can't carry this story on until I have idea's so they can be anything however stupid – I would LOVE to hear them (after all I am really weird!)
Thanks Guys
