SPENCER'S P.O.V
I was really hoping I'd bump into Ashley, but she was nowhere to be seen. so I walked down to her room.
I had to know that she was alright.
"Hey"
"Hi"
This is going to be awkward.
"Is Ashley here?"
"Yer..."
Kyla being here complicates everything.
"She's in the bathroom"
"I'll come back later..."
When I turn to walk away she stops me.
"Spencer she'll be out in a second..."
"I don't want to interupt"
When I say that she smiles.
"Spencer you're definately not interupting"
I can't remember the last time I've felt this uncomfortable.
"Welcome"
When she pulls the door back I force a smile.
"Thanks"
"Bonjour"
Great Aiden's here as well.
"Hey Aiden"
I should have known they'd both be here.
I haven't seen either of them since the incident earlier.
"Are you watching Mean Girls?"
When I say that they both start laughing.
"It's Aiden's favourite..."
"Kyla men are allowed to enjoy chick flicks as well"
There's a giant elephant in the room, but noone's acknowledging it.
"Shove over so she can sit douche bag"
This is so awkward.
"Kyla it's okay I don't mind standing..."
"Hey"
When I turn around she's standing in the doorway that leads to the bathroom.
"Hi"
I notice her eye straight away.
"Are you okay?"
Her right eye's really bruised and there's little bandages covering a small cut.
"Yer"
When I look back over at Aiden and Kyla they're both staring.
"We're going to go grab a drink..."
When Kyla nudges him they both move so they're standing.
"Come find us when you're done"
I don't move as they both grab their things and leave.
"Spencer I want to apologise for what I said earlier..."
"Ashley I didn't come here to talk about that"
"I know"
When she walks over to where I'm standing I step back.
"Spencer please?"
She's staring at me.
"Can you not look at me like that?"
When I say that she looks down at her feet.
"Ashley I get it..."
"You really don't"
How could I not get it?
"Ashley you made yourself pretty clear"
"I didn't mean what I said..."
"That's bullshit Ashley"
"It's not"
She's staring again.
"Spencer I should never have said what I said"
"Then why did you?"
"In my own sick and twisted way I thought I was doing you a favour"
How would anything she said help me?
"Ashley you told me I was just some girl you wanted to fuck?"
When I say that she doesn't answer me.
"How does that help me?"
"Spencer I care..."
This time when she steps closer I don't move.
"I wanted you to hate me"
Why would she want me to hate her?
"I thought everything would be easier if I wasn't a consideration"
"Ashley that's ridiculous"
This is a side of her I've never seen before.
"I'm really not good at this Spencer..."
"Ashley I don't want anything from you"
She's so frustrating.
"Look Spencer I sleep with girls like Sarah all the time and I don't care, I don't care what they think of me when I leave and I really don't care what they say about me"
Why's she telling me this?
"But with you I care, I care that I hurt you and I hate that I'm the reason this is all happening"
I'm just as much to blame as she is.
"Spencer there's nothing I can say that will make what I did alright"
I'm more at fault than she is.
I'm the one that had the boyfriend.
"I pursued you when I knew you had a boyfriend and I took advantage of you when I knew you were questioning your sexuality..."
"Ashley I knew what I was doing"
"I know but I kept pushing"
"Ashley I slept with you because I wanted to sleep with you, you didn't trick me or trap me"
I love the way she makes me feel.
"Spencer what happens now?"
I have no idea.
"I honestly don't know"
There's a really long pause before she says anything.
"Look Spencer I should have been honest with you earlier"
That would of helped.
"I like you a lot more than I've been letting on and I know it's not fair that I'm dropping this on you, but it's the truth and after everything that's happened, you deserve the truth"
I really wasn't expecting that.
"Spence I haven't looked or wanted to be with another girl since I slept with you..."
"Ashley we can't"
When I say that she looks down at her feet.
"I'm really sorry Ashley, but we can't"
I tilt her head so she's looking at me.
"I really like you Ash, but he hates me and I can't keep doing this with you..."
I reach out slowly brushing my finger over her eye.
"It's not fair"
When I say that she steps back.
"Okay"'
She looks really upset.
"Ash?"
"Spencer it's fine"
It's not she's upset.
"I should probably go and find the others"
I watch her as she grabs her sweatshirt off her bag.
"Ashley?"
When she pulls the door back she looks back at me.
"Spencer it's honestly fine"
When I get to where she's standing she bites down on her bottom lip.
"Are you going to be alright?"
"It's just a cut Spencer"
I wasn't asking about the cut.
"Okay I guess I'll see you around then"
"Yep"
When I walk past her I don't look back.
Now I've made them both hate me.
