I don't want anyone to take this the wrong way but... CINNA'S BLACK! I looked up the actor playing Cinna in the new movie coming next spring and Cinna is black. Now I can understand a tan but this is like Grover being black in Percy Jackson. It just dosn't fit charicter profile. I mean Rue and Thresh ... district 11 yes but Cinna NO! My poor poor Cinna. Also want to say someone threatedned to throw cake made by peeta at me if I don't update... I was wondring if I really should or not update. Also thanks to AvargeWriter now editing my work this is atuatly readable (THANKS A TONS!) so look up her stories. Also if you are into percy jackson the first chapter of neptunes son is on the athors websight now. :D

Katniss:

Johanna seemed really shaken up that Gale wasn't there, and honastly I was too about Peeta and Gale. So we both walked over to my taped off area and sat in silence for a while. She just sat in the corner and chewed on a gronola bar, she was clearly not in the mood for talking.

"I think I'm going to check on some of my friends," I told her. She just shrugged and let me go.

First stop was mom and Prim. Prim told me that mom was helping some of the hospital patients get situated and would be back shortly, then she justed cooed over my swollen stomach. Apperantly she really wanted to be an aunt more then I wanted to be a mother. I'm not sure if I'm even ready despite what Peeta tells me. Peeta... please be safe.

My next stop was Finnick but I happen to pass Madge on the way there. She sat with Delly and Danny. I haven't talked to her much but Peeta said all of Madges' family was gone.

"Hi Katniss," Madge said as I passed.

"Oh," I said realizing I was stopped in my tracks. "Hi."

"How are you newly weds and the baby?" Delly asked.

"The baby and I are fine b-but Peeta didn't make it to the bomb shelter," I said now seeing how true the words were for the first time.

"I'm so sorry," said Madge as she got up and put her arms around me.

I saw right then how selfish I really am. There is Madge Undersee, lost everything near and dear to her heart, and she's more worried about me? I wish I could do something. But it's not like she has any family left. Or does she?

"Madge can I show you someone?" I asked.

"Sure, Katniss. But who?"

Before she could answer I was searching through the faces pulling her behind me. Finally I came to Haymitch and Noel. They lost Allen and I never gave it more then a minute of thought. The dude sacraficed his life for me. How selfish have I even been?

"What are you up to, sweet heart?" Haymitch asked with a glance.

"Have you ever met Madge?" I asked.

"Katniss, what are you doing?" Madge wispred in my ear, but I ignored her.

"Katniss, I try me best not to meet anyone," he answered taking a drink of what ever he had in that bottle -just taking a wild guess... alcohal-.

"Well this, Haymitch," I pause and look glance at Madge," is Madge Undersee."

Haymitch did a spit take at the name Undersee. Poor Noel almost got hit with the vile liguid if it wasn't for her quick reflexes.

"Undersee?" he asked wiping off his mouth.

"Yeah," answered Madge.

"As in the mayor's kid," ha asks, in shock.

"Was," she corrected. "All of my family died in the attack."

"Not all, my dear," Haymitch answered leaving a silly expression on Madges' face.

"I don't get it," said Noel. "Did you know her family well?"

"I should," Haymitch answered, "and so should you."

"Why?" asked Noel just as confused as Madge.

"Because," answered Haymitch. "Your her cousin."

This lead to gasps from both Madge and Noel as well. Haymitch and I on the other hand seem to be on the same level, like most situations.

"That's right," said Noel as she came to her sinces, "You said mother was the mayor's youngest daughter. This must be the other sisters child."

"So your mother was my mom's sister?" asked Madge.

"Yeah," answered Haymitch for his daughter, "and I'm her father."

"I was never told I had cousins," said Madge.

"You have two," answered Noel looking down, "There was also Allen, my twin."

"Where's he?"

Noel took a deep breath, "He died."

Madge suddently did not look so upbeat and happy. But she did manage a smile and said, "Thank you Katniss. I believe I should stay here with the little family I have left."

I nodded and moved on. I soon found Finnick comforting Annie.

"What's wrong?" I asked them.

"Annie is afraid of thunder storms," Finnick said.

"But there's not storm," I pointed out.

There was another explotion. Not deep but it did make a loud clapping noise like thunder. Annie clinged closer to Finnick.

"Shhh. It's ok," he said as if he was the only person in her world. In all honesty he probably was.

"No. No. NO!" she screamed shaking her head. "No don't kill me."

"Shhh. No one's here to hurt you. It's just me," Finnick said. He looked up at me, "You better get back to Peeta."

"They locked the doors and won't let me out," I said.

"What?"

"Peeta didn't make it," I told him.

"You mean he's," he begins to say those dreadful words, but I cut him short.

"No," I snap, "or at least I hope not."

At that point I find it a good time to leave. In the corner of my eye I see Kendra, hovering over a patient. I walked over to her to see how she was. The last time I looked at her she seemed exhausted. As I made my way over to her, I recognized the patient's face. Cinna.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"Nothing major," Kendra answered. "Just some inhaled smoke. He'll be fine in no time."

Cinna looked up at me and gave a weak smile. It was clear he needed rest as much as Kendra. With my wedding last month and the bombing today I guess sleep has been limited to both.

I finally made my way back to Johanna and found her stroking something dirt colored. It was Buttercup, the stupid cat. How many lives did this thing even have?

"How are you?" I asked, sitting next to her.

"How can you be so calm?" she asked me.

"What?"

"How can you sit here and smile when your husband could be dead? I mean you child might not even have a father!" Silent tears streamed down her face. She was past her breaking point.

"I can't. But Peeta has always come home and so has Gale. They're both strong. I know they'll pull through."

"Katniss, am I acting too worried about Gale? Are they..."

I was lost again but just let her ramble on.

"I mean after I healed from what the Capitol called 'persuation', Gale was there as a friend. Then I found I loved him and he loved me too. But then the baby and telling him. Then no baby! It's all so much, and do you know what I said to him?" she looked at me straight in the eye's as if staring into my very soul.

"No," I said slowly shaking my head.

"I told him I wanted another baby. Just like that I told him I wanted to raise a family with him. I don't even know if I'm ready so how can I expect him to be?"

"Johanna," I say sternly.

"What?"

"I don't care if you're not strong," I say as if that had value.

"I know. That's why I trust you, Katniss," she says in a soft voice, "I was never strong not even in the games. I'm usless."

"But that's why you won. Because you always reach your goals."

"Not this time," she says, "The doctor told me I probably would never be able to have kids."

"Does Gale know?" I asked.

"No," she answered. Then she pulled out a simple gold ring, I recognized it as Gales' fathers wedding band. The ring Gale would never take off unless..."But when the war blows over... he does want to marry me," she tries a smile, hardly reaching her cheeks as she watches her sliver of hope