As per usual Supernatural is regrettably not mine (or real)
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Feel special my friends, fourth update tonight!
I couldn't get them out my head
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Dear my angel,
I miss you, a lot and I don't think I can ever stop because then I think I'll just be empty inside because aside the sadness I can't feel much else.
I hope you understand why I couldn't go to your funeral, and just in case my dear that you missed it instead, after talking to Balthazar we gave you a hunters funeral no one knew what else to do but the idea of you burning and disappearing into ash. I couldn't see that, I can't actually believe you're gone.
Sam gave me the idea to write a letter, he said he writes one to Jess once a month and just puts it in the mail with her name on it in the hope she'll get it. I don't think I'm going to put this in the mail though. I'm going to put it in a bottle and put it in the sea, in Cuba next to where we got married. I hope you see this. I need you to see how sorry I am.
Because it's all my fault, you came to save me and I was too weak. Although I can take control now I couldn't then? When I had you in my arms and everything was perfect and I ended your life. Although I assume I'll be saying this to you sooner than everyone else things Cas. I just don't think that I can cope like this, not for much longer anyway and I know if you were here, or if anyone else knew what I was thinking that you'd shout at me until you were blue in the face but the reality is I killed you, and without you I don't think that I can keep Gracey quiet forever – or even if I could I don't think that even than could make me smile because you wouldn't be here with me and how can I be happy without that?
I need you.
I never thought I'd say that, I'm always one for being alone and although I love my Winchesters, and Bobby and Joe I know that they could live without me, and after a while the pain would go. But you were the only person I knew – that I loved so much it hurt – that couldn't live without me either and I just. I just don't know.
I don't know if you'll see this, or if someone else reads it and thinks I am crazy, I couldn't give a fuck because I just feel alone.
I watch your favourite movie all the time – I mean horrors who'd have thought it? I still smile when the Demon drops from the ceiling and you made that little high pitched squeak. Hell that bit of Grave Encounters still scares me. I still listen to the first song you knew the words to, I find myself listening to it in my head with you singing the words. I pray to you every night and I wish that you were here.
Maybe you'll get this, and maybe I'll see you before you do see this letter.
But I love you Castiel, and I am really sorry.
All my love, forever and always
Willow Lilly Winchester-Novak
P.s. I'm still wearing the pendant; every single day so you can find me, I won't take it off in case you can't find me around all the people.
I hate myself for hurting you, I'm so sorry Castiel, I should be dead instead. I love you.

Nearing the end, sadly. One or two more chapters still to go though!
However I was thinking of writing a sequel with a whole new load of pazzaz. Anyone read it? ^_^