Hey there again! Before I type pointless things in here let me write Happy Birthday Evelyn for yesterday hope you have fun in Mexico and Happy Birthday Antonella for today! Hope you enjoy your Naruto book I gave you. XD. Sorry guys I know maybe you guys don't care about that so now on to the story this is like a decision chapter. It's more serious too. So anywho I hope you ENJOY :D
Chapter 20. Come with me
Risa
I wake up at 2:00 in the morning. I had a headache but I actually do remember why? I got wasted yesterday. I look over at Otani who was sleeping like just a little kid. I smiled remembering what he said. That also when I realized tommorow was friday. Tommorow is the day when I go to Hawaii. But I won't. Because I have to stay with Otani. I'll give up everything for him. So it shouldn't matter anyways...but Otani did say that I shouldn't quit. So where does that leave us? If I stay here I might just end up being a regular housewife. Ugh. How boring! I turned to my side.
I slightly poked Otani.
" Hey wake up Otani, wake up," I poked harder. " Ugh-,"he mumbled as he caught my hand even with his eyes still close. " What is it? What do you want?,"he grumbled.
" Today our last day to decide. What are we going to do?," I asked and open his eyes and looked at me.
" Huh?..You wake me up so we could talk? What's wrong with you," he mumbled closing his eyes again. I gave out a long sigh.
" If we don't talk now it'll be too late we have to decide now!," I pull his ear. " Ow!, Okay fine fine we'll talk now let me go!," Otani opened his eyes as I let him go.
" What are we going to do?," I asked him. Otani thought for a moment.
" I think the best thing to do would be to wait one go to Hawaii I'll stay here," he sighed.
" No. That's too hard! It's not worth it!," I say again.
" It's only a year Koizumi, Only a year," he said trying to convince me by saying it nicely.
" A year is still too long a lot can change in a year." you never know what can happen in a year. In one year and 1/2 I graduated from vacational school. In a year I became top stylist. A whole lot can happen in a year.
" Nothing will change only the distance," he layed back on his backside.
" No..minutes will change to hours those hours into days those days into years!," Years!
"I don't know what will happen during the year but I know it's better that way, I'll just wait a year for you," Otani replied in that nonchalant voice that he's so good at. Idiot.
" What about Atchan?," I asked trying to break his oh-it's-no-big-deal attitude. " Are you going to leave him? He barely even realized he had a dad he's going to grow up you know. Are you going to lose another year of his youth? Are you?," I demanded angrily. He didn't reply for what was like the longest time. No reply.
" See that is exactly why I should stay here anyway it's only a job," I replied. " It's the only possible solution."
" That's not a solution, your going to give up your dream which is basically the only career that you are really good at so it's not a solution!," He mumured turning to look at me.
" It doesn't matter there must be something else I'm not completely useless about,"
" Of coarse it matters it's not just about me Koizumi it's also about you what do you want?," he turned his side to me. What do I want? " I only want you," I was close to crying now.
" Don't," Otani warned before a single tear can fall out. " You already have me idiot! That's why you should go everything will be fine just go,"
Crack.
Did-did- I just hear his voice crack? I look close at him. He was trying to hide it but it's obvious he didn't like the idea either. " Do you really want me to go?," I asked him. He looked away.
" I want you to go...and come back," he mumbled.
" Otani..?," I turn his face so he could look at me. He hid his emotion well..but not well enough I could see a sort of pain in his eyes.
" If you want me to go so bad then how come you don't come with me?," I pleaded. Otani looked undecisive.
" Go..with you?," he asked.
" Yes come with me please," I plead.
" I can't," he said moving my hand away. What?
" Why?," I asked stupidly.
" I have to teach here...and I only want to teach in Osaka no other place really. I sighed. So that's how it's going to result. There is no solution.
" So that's it then," I say wishing it was different. Wishing that I was still with Otani 3 years ago in which I missed him...now it will be 4. Four years. I turned aroundmy back to him.
" Okay then..goodnight," I mumbled closing my eyes as two tears fell from my eyes.
" Koizumi," I heard him say. But I didn't reply. I stood awake until the sound of the alarm went off and I was left to going to my work...
So I went to work I told Otani to babysit Atchan since soon he won't be able to see him. He agreed and that's all we spoke in the morning. All I could think was Otani.
" Are you ready Koizumi-san? For tommorows flight," my secretary asked.
" No..wish it were different," I mumbled.
" It'll be fun Koiumi-san Atchan will enjoy it," she said smiling at me. But I won't I thought.
" Are you okay?," she asked. I'm about to lose the person I love for a whole year again and your asking me how I'm feeling?
" It's nothing when does the plane leacve tommorow?," I asked instead.
" 7:15 am,"
" Okay..thank you I'll be ready," I lied an gave her a fake smile. Everything will change now..once again.
Otani
" She didn't say anything to me this morning can you believe your mom?," I murmured to Atchan. Atchan shrug too young to really understand what I'm saying.
" I'm sure going to miss you kid that's for sure," I continue to blabber.
" Me miss shu ( you) too," Atchan smiled. He was just a lively kid.
" So what do you want to do today?,'' I asked him.
" Ish ( is) Daddy leaving?," he asked me.
" I-I'm not leaving Atchan," you are...you and your mom are leaving I kept myself from saying this out loud. Atchan then smiled.
" Good I is happy," he giggled.
" Yeah..," I murmured as I look at him. He was already growing up. Who know next time I see him he will be close to being 4 years old. It's like I'm missing four years of him. " Atchan..," I start to say. Atchan looked up at me with a childlike smile.
" You won't see for a while kid..but please remember me," I tell him.
" Y ( why?)," he asked.
" It's a complicated thing kid don't worry about it- why don't we go out and play basketball instead," I changed the subject.
" 'kay," he smiled and grab a ball. I will miss you kid...my son.
-that night-
"How was work?," I asked Koizumi. She shrugged.
" The same I guess..where's Atchan?," she asked sadly glancing around.
" Actually the kid likes to take naps he's taking his second one right now," I informed. Koizumi sighed. " I wish everything was a nap so I could wake up," she mumble ro herself but I heard.
" It's not that-,"
" Save it," Koizumi mumbled " I'm sleepy too actually I'm going to bed I have an early plane to catch tommorow," she said and walked away.
" Koizumi?,'' I called. She turned around.
" What?," she asked.
" It won't be that long..I promise you," I tell her.
" Sure.," she mumbled out and went to her room. I went after her. " Koizumi," I called again.
Risa
I plucked into bed. Ignoring Otani. It's better this way because then it won't be so hard to leave him. I have to start now and try to get a bit seperated. Otani came and sat on the bed infront of me.
" You idiot why are you holding back? Let it go will you I know you're trying to hide your emotions your too easy to read you completely suck at it! So let it out!," he told me firmly. His eyes gently looking at me. As soon as he said that I burst our crying. Otani sighed.
" It's so unfair! I really is Otani," I cry.
" I know, I know," he said his arms wraping around me. Holding me.
" One year..one year,"
" One year goes away fast let's just enjoy what we have now..every secong counts," he whispered his face close to mine. " I'm going to miss you," I whispered back.
" I'm really going to miss you too and don't you forget about that," he kissed me. I wrap my arms around him and kiss him back. Knowing that this moment won't last forever though I wish it did. That I'm sure going to miss this moment.
" I don't want to leave you behind," I say my hand wraped around him. " Just go to sleep all ready Koizumi you have to leave early right?," he replied. I holded him tighter suddenly remembering back to the party when I was so despreate to see him that I didn't want to let him go. I closed my eyes.
" Don't leave me," I despreatly said as I closed my eyes.
Otani
I sighed watching her fall asleep. Don't leave me is what she had said a couple minutes ago. I don't want to leave you Koizumi. I don't.
I had to go to the school today to have another meeting. The meeting was at 6: 30. Before Koizumi catched her plane. " Do you have everything?," I asked her. Koizumi nodded weakly.
" I-I I have to go," I look down not meething her gaze and Atchan's. They stood quiet. I went to Atchan first. " I'm really going to miss you kid just take care of your mom for me would you and here," I gave him a small basketball keychain. Atchan grab it.
" Thank shu ( you) Otani..daddy," he smiled at me as he got a hold of the basketball keychain. I hugged him. Lingering a little. Atchan hugged back. Then I move to Koizumi not even sure how to say goodbye.
" Do I need to say anything?," I asked. Koizumi wiped away her tears and bend down to hug me while I sat her down. I put my arms aroung her and kissed her. Trying to cherish each kiss. This Kiss.
~~~Oh no! Otani can't leave! Hehheh Sorry I just like writhing random things in here it lightens my spririt. Well...what do you think Otani will do? Only 2 chapters left after this or 3 compared to the fact the next chapter has two parts to it . So please continue to read and please please please review .XD Thank You - +- :D.
