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Authors Note: Thanks for the reviews!! All appreciated! Apologies about the delays in posting I just don't get time to myself these days to do anything, but hopefully this will change soon! :D
To answer your questions and comments, there will as far as I know be no more extracts from Edward's point of view, or at least any that I can picture right now; but who knows that could change!
As for the comments about my grammar...could you please elaborate on that, I know that my sentences are long I just have a habit of writing that way for history essays at university! Structure seems to be bothering people and I'm sorry about that, this is how I write everything and I know that some of you want me to divide things up a bit more and I have tried. But no matter what way I divided things I couldn't get it the way I wanted which just left me extremely irritated so sorry again, maybe if I get more time I will get it done but I'm so crazy busy lately that I never seem to have time to write let alone edit!
I really struggled with this chapter, I don't seem to be able to get the right dynamic or something its really bugging me, its probably because Stephenie Meyer really is the person that should be writing Bella's conversion and nothing anyone else writes can compare! :O So despite this could people please review good or bad! :D
Chapter Twenty- Eight
The day went by so quickly, my last day as a human, Edward had taken me into the nearest town which over two hours away, when following the speed limit. Edward had thought that I might like to see where it was that we were going to live, he had joked that there wasn't really anything there for me to miss, the town only boasting a supermarket and a gas station along with two small bars. We had left early in the morning, not wanting to draw too much unwanted attention, the last thing we wanted was for the locals to notice two extra teenagers in the family that never showed themselves in public.
Esme had prepared some lunch for me when we got back, giving it to us in a picnic basket. We had wandered to the gazebo, a place that I was imagining was going to be a source of refuge more often. Somewhere private from the rest of the family possibly, since we wouldn't be able to escape ourselves any other way. Edward had held me in his arms simply leaning down and kissing me occasionally, stroking my cheek and hair nervously I thought. We didn't speak almost the entire time that we sat there, both waiting for the time that twilight would come.
"It's nearly time love..." Edward finally whispered, his voice sounding shaky. I looked up to see that his eyes were wide, nervous, panicked even, I sat up further and kissed him softly, taking his face in mine and like last night stroking it softly. "I love you Edward.." I whispered smiling at him. Edward smiled in response, "I love you too, before leaning down and resting his head against my chest, "Your heart beat...it's so constant...so steady.." he whispered sounding slightly surprised. I smiled again, "That's because I trust you...". Edward sat up at this point and kissed me softly, stroking my face, speaking quietly to himself almost, "So soft...so warm.." he smiled at me reassuringly, letting me know that he was just saying goodbye to these things for one last time before I would become cold and hard like him.
Esme and Carlisle came outside then, Carlisle was carrying his medicine bag, and I knew that it was for the morphine. I knew that the venom would burn through my system, and personally I didn't think that the morphine would help much, even Carlisle seemed to have reservations, but Edward was adamant to at least try and make me comfortable during my change. Edward released me from his arms when Esme came towards me her arms outstretched, taking me into a tight hug. "I'll see you again soon Bella.." she whispered to me, smiling broadly, before turning towards Edward and bringing him into a hug also. I watched her then as she went back into the house, leaving the door open behind her. Carlisle stood to the side, watching me as did Edward who was standing there now looking positively terrified. I wanted to go and comfort him but Carlisle stood before me then.
"Bella as Edward has explained that you would like to see the sunset and be changed here I brought out the morphine here, just so we can give it to you before he bites you alright?..." Carlisle was explaining to me, although I was calm, his voice sounded somehow distant to me, I wanted to get to Edward now he needed me. I knew that as soon as he had bitten me, he would bring me inside the house where it would be more comfortable, but I had wanted to see Twilight for the last time, not just know that it was when I was being changed, a rather illogical yet somehow necessary demand. Carlisle went through his bag pulling out different vials and a rather long needle that frightened me somewhat, until I realised that the idea of being frightened by one was silly, considering what I was about to go through.
Carlisle moved quickly and gently guiding me towards Edward, who was now sitting down his arms outstretched. I quickly moved into his arms and wrapped my own around him, comforting him as best I could, Carlisle leaned over then, "Bella..." he spoke softly. I looked up at him and saw that he was smiling comfortingly at me, I nodded my head in answer to some unspoken question that seemed to be in his face. Carlisle took my arm and in a swift movement injected the morphine, I breathed in sharply as the needle broke the skin, Edward reflexively pulling me tighter against him. "As Esme said before.." Carlisle began, "We will see you soon Bella..." before leaning down and kissing me on the cheek. I nodded in understanding and smiled back at him, "Edward I'll just be inside...Esme and I will be waiting.." Carlisle spoke quickly, patting Edward on the shoulder in an oddly fatherly gesture, before disappearing into the house.
The sun was almost completely set now, the sunset casting an array of colours across the sky, a blend of reds, purples and pinks, one of the last rays of sunshine broke through some of the clouds which had been partially obstructing the sun and Edward's skin began to shine under its contact. I turned to smile up at him, but he took my breath away, he looked so beautiful just then that it was almost unbearable. Edward smiled at me then, "Breathe love..." he whispered, stroking my cheek once more. I took a deep breath careful not to forget again whilst looking at his face, "Are you ready?" he asked quietly his voice sounding oddly husky, nerves, pain and excitement were only some of the things that I could read in his eyes. I nodded, "Yes...I'm ready..." I replied equally as quietly. Edward smiled a sweetly sad smile, leaning his forehead against my own, his eyes searching mine for any trace of doubt, that I knew he wouldn't find.
"I love you..." I whispered, "forever..", Edward stared at me for a moment longer, "I love you too Bella...forever.." a small smile touched his lips, before he looked me over one more time and leaned in to kiss me, one last time.
It was like no kiss that we had ever had before, Edward's usually careful kiss was abandoned and his mouth opened forcing mine open along with his, his tongue moving against my own, I almost stopped breathing in surprise but did my best to keep it under control not wanting to distract Edward. I kissed him back, but I didn't throw myself into the kiss, it was sweet and slow, careful yet not careful at the same time, and then it ended almost as suddenly as it had began, Edward paused for a moment, I noticed that he had stopped breathing now and wondered what his next move would be. Then suddenly without any warning Edward bit down lightly on my lip, I gasped in surprise pulling back to see his face, he looked at me for a moment almost waiting, then I felt it at first a slight stinging sensation that was quickly turning into a burning sensation. Automatically I brought my hand to my lip touching the spot that Edward had bitten, I looked up at him again, his expression unfathomable, before he took my hands in his and looked at me almost apologetically before bringing his lips to both my wrists and biting into both of them.
At this point the burning sensation suddenly heightened, not only in my lip but in both my wrists and I barely noticed as Edward moved and bit both my ankles. The burning was increasing by the second, and I was trying desperately not to scream, afraid of the pain that it would cause Edward. "Bella love..." Edward called to me, his voice sounding panicked now that I had yet to make a sound. Then I heard another voice, it was Carlisle, "I think that the morphine is helping her a little Edward though not much...just enough for her to be able to control herself I think...for now at least.." his voice too sounded worried, or was he curious? I couldn't tell, then again I hadn't noticed coming inside so I was evidently not in the right frame of mind to be trying to understand things. "Bella..." Edward repeated, this time closer to my ear, before it suddenly hit me again. The burning was nothing like the pain that I had endured at the hands of James, my first reaction was to inhale sharply before screaming louder than I had ever done in my life.
I felt Edward's arms around me then he was whispering words against my ear that were completely lost to me, all that I could concentrate on now was the pain.
