*Finnick's POV*

Peeta and I had just finished our patrol, and I decided to go see Annie. I was walking by a couple of the bunk houses when I heard a scream. I immediately knew it was Kat so I ran through the door in which the scream came from.

"Kat?!" I yelled

I looked around frantically and found her curled up on the floor. I sat down on the floor by her and pulled her into my lap. She tried to crawl away but I held onto her tight.

"Kat what happened?" I asked her

She responded with a sob that broke my heart, so I just hugged her closer to my chest. I know how she must have felt, I had my own break down a couple weeks after we were transferred. I watched an innocent boy get shot as he was taking his little sister home. I shot the man who shot the boy, the boy wasn't doing anything wrong. When I was relieve from patrol I found Annie and started crying, even though what I had witnessed reminded me why I had enlisted in the first place. So I had a pretty good idea of what Katniss was feeling.

Kat let out another sob, and clutched her chest like as if she was going to literally break into pieces, but then I realize she wasn't. She was digging her nails into her skin and dragging them down from her throat to the neck line of her shirt drawing blood.

"Get it out!" She screamed

"Kat you've got to tell me what happened to I can help you." I pleaded with her as I tried to pry her hands away.

"Monster! Get it out of me!" She screamed/sobbed

She just kept repeating 'get it out, get it out' over and over while she cried.

I just held her, trying to calm her down as I tightly held her hands to her sides.

It had been a couple of hours and Kat had finally calmed down but I stayed with her for a little while longer just to make sure that she was okay. She had screamed, cried and emotionally exhausted herself into a fitful sleep. I still had her hands pinned at her side just in case, I could see where she had drawn the blood and where it had soaked into her shirt. She still hasn't told what was wrong and if she chose not to then I was fine with that I wasn't going to push. I have known her for 5 years and I know if she doesn't want to talk about something then she's not going too. I also know that she never cries, ever. So if she's crying that either something has happened or someone close died. So I wasn't going to push, she would say something when she was ready, or when she felt comfortable.

Kat shifted and broke me out of thoughts.

"Finn?" She whimpered

"I'm right here." I said squeezing her.

"I shot 3 people today. I've never shot that many people in one day." She said her voice heavy with guilt.

"You were doing your job and protecting the ones you love." I told her

"I know." She whispered

"Go back to sleep, I'll be right her when you wake up." I tell her

She takes a deep breath and I know she's already half way asleep.

"Finn?"

"Hmm?" I answer

"Please don't tell anyone." She asks

"Wouldn't even think about it." I promised.

"Thank you" she whispered and fell asleep.

I just leaned against the wall and sighed. This wasn't the first time I've done something like this for Kat. 2 years ago I held her while she screamed and cried when she found out that Gale her best friend back home had join the Army and was on the plane carrying explosives when the plane was shot down and the plane exploded when it hit the ground. Gale was killed on impact. Kat cried for 2 days.

I closed my eyes, I was going to be here for awhile so why not sleep?

. . * . . . * . .

I woke up to whimpering and what sounded like choked back sobs. I start wondering why the hell Peeta or Marvel would be crying. The. I remembered. It wasn't Peeta or Marvel who I roomed with it was Katniss.

"Kat." I said my voice thick with sleep still

"Oh I didn't mean to wake up. I'm sorry." She said softly.

That threw me off for a second.

"What? Your sorry? What happened to the Katniss that wouldn't apologize for anything. Huh?" I asked

"She turned into a monster." She said angrily.

"Kat your not a monster. How many people have you shot before we got here?" I asked

"20." She said bluntly.

"Okay there you go. I've shot 50. So jus shut up. If anyone is the monster it's me." I told her harshly.

"But you had to your life was in danger on all those special trips." She said.

"So was yours. If you hadn't shot those guys we would most like being dead or be soon." I explained to her.

She just nodded, and we sat there for a few minutes in silence. It was a comfortable silence, kind of like the silence after siblings have a deep, emotional talk. Katniss from the first day I met her we've had a relationship as a older brother and little sister.

"What time is it?" She asked after sometime.

"Uhh, it's 7:07am." I told her.

"Okay well you'd better go find Annie, I've got to get ready to go back up." She told me.

"It's only been 8 hours though." I protested.

Why did she have to go back up now? Patrol was ever 10 hours.

"It's because there is only 3 of us who are certified snipers." She told me as if she read my mind.

I just nodded my head, I guess I did t think about how there was only 3 of them and there's more of us.

"Thank you Finn." She whispered

"No problem. What are big brothers for anyway?" I said winking at her.

She smiled, and got up as did I.

"I'll see you later Kat" I told as I left.

As I was walking out I ran into Peeta. Literally.

"Oh damn sorry Peeta." I said helping him up.

"It's fine. Is Katniss awake?" He asked.

"Yeah, she's getting ready for sniper duty." I tell him.

He just nods as he walks up to the door, knocks and walks in. I take that as my cue to leave, I still haven't seen Annie yet.

Okay so I really didn't like how the end of the chapter turned out, but I liked the beginning so I'm just going to leave it alone. The next chapter will be better. Please review it makes it hard to write without the encouraging reviews so please please review it will make me update faster. Until next time

-Cass:-*