Promise Me All Your Tomorrows

Bella's POV

Oh my god! What has happened to Jasper? I go to lean down to him and Carlisle stops me. "Wait! Bella we don't know exactly what has happened to Jasper. He would never forgive himself if he hurt you. Let me go to him please." Carlisle had a pleading look on his face. But in his eyes I could see that he was really frightened for all of us especially Jasper.

"Carlisle, please just help him."

"I will do what I can Bella. I have never seen anyone like this before." Carlisle began to get closer to Jasper. He was going towards him slowly with his head down. He was avoiding eye contact with Jasper. He wanted Jasper to see him as not a threat. "Son, let me help you."

Jasper stopped thrashing about but continued to sob. Carlisle inched towards him. He was trying to get closer to him so he could evaluate him. "Son, I am going to make sure you are not hurt." Carlisle went to touch him and Jasper curled up in a ball and just shook. "Son, are you hurt?" Jasper didn't answer. He just continued to sob. "Son, can you tell me what is wrong?" Still no answer came. Carlisle stood back up.

"Dannie can you go back to the house and get one of the four wheelers. We need to get Jasper home so I can do a thorough exam."

"I will be back as fast as I can." Dannie began to run back towards the house.

"Carlisle what do you think is wrong with him?"

"I am not for sure. But it isn't good. I will know more about it when I can examine him."

I looked at the man that I loved and wondered what I could do to help him. I was at a loss. What if Carlisle couldn't figure out what was wrong with him? What if he was broken so severely that he couldn't come back to me? What if I had lost him for good? How would I ever get over it? Please God! I need him. Here with me. Please! I started to cry. I couldn't help it. Suddenly I felt strong arms on me; I looked up at who held me. It was Carlisle. "Bella, listen to me you got to snap out of it. Jasper needs you strong now. Get a hold of yourself." I don't think I had seen Carlisle that upset before. "I am sorry." I put my eyes down to the ground. "Bella, I am sorry. I just need to focus on Jasper now and I need your help." Dannie was back in no time. Carlisle scooped Jasper up and placed him in the wagon behind the four-wheeler.

"I hope this is okay Carlisle. I wasn't for sure if he would snap out of it to actual ride home."

"Thanks Dannie. Are you and Bella okay to walk home?"

"Sure Bella and I are right behind you. Just take care of Jasper." I watched as Carlisle pulled out and headed towards the house.

"Bella, sugar, are you okay?"

"I don't know Dannie. I feel so numb. I don't know what is going on. We had such a good day yesterday and now…" I found that silent tears were rolling down my cheeks again.

Dannie wrapped her arms around my shoulders and just held me for a minute. It felt so good to feel her warmth because I swear my body was totally cold.

"Bella, it will be okay. I swear. I will not leave you. I am here for you my friend. We better go before Carlisle worries about us."

I wiped my eyes and we started the walk home. It didn't take long before we got there. Carlisle had taken Jasper into the downstairs bedroom of his parents. Dannie and I waited in the living room. I looked at the piano there less than 24 hrs earlier Jasper had sung me the most beautiful songs. I reached down and touched the necklace he had given me. I began to pace back and forth. I wanted to go into the bedroom. I needed to see that he was ok. But I knew that I would have to wait until Carlisle was finished.

"Bella, I am going to make some coffee. Do you want any?"

"Not right now Dannie. But thanks." She touched my shoulder and headed off into the kitchen. I sit down on the couch. I was going to wear a path out on the antique rug that Jasper had down. It wasn't long before Dannie returned and sit down next to me. We sit there in silence. We were waiting for Carlisle to come out and tell us what was going on with Jasper. I found myself praying again. That is all that I thought I could do at the moment . So I began to silently to pray for God to bring him back to me.

Carlisle POV

I had just finished a complete exam on Jasper. I couldn't find anything physically wrong with him. It was like I feared. It was something mentally going on with Jasper. God help me I didn't know how to fix this. I could handle anything physically wrong with him. I was a doctor it was my job to fix people when something was wrong with them. But, I didn't know how to fix mental problems. Sometimes the mind could do far more damage to a human than the worst accident. I was afraid that this was going to be one of those times. I was helpless in helping Jasper. I wished I could hear what was going on in his mind. Unfortunately the only one that could help me with that was someone that I would never ask for help again. Edward. No, I was going to have to figure this out on my own. I sit down on the bed next to Jasper. I felt so guilty. If only I had took the time to look in that box and find that death certificate. Then I could have told Jasper the truth in a more controlled environment. But I didn't now here I sit trying to figure a way to fix my son.

"Jasper, I hope you can hear me son. I am so sorry. If I had known what was in that box. I would never have asked you to look into it like that. I am so so sorry. I will fix this son. I will find the answers that your mind needs. I didn't think son. But I swear you will know the answers. I will find them. Just rest son, I am going to go out and let Bella come in." I patted him on the hand and got up and go out to get Bella.

Bella and Dannie ran up to me as soon as I came out.

"Carlisle how is he?" Bella asked.

"Physically he is fine. I am not for sure what is going on with him. I think it is something mentally. I can't reach him. It is like he is broken. That his mind has took him to another place to protect him from something that he can't handle. I am worried Bella. I have never seen a vampire in this much distress. I don't know how to help him. I am sorry."

"Carlisle, you can't help him?"

"No Bella. There is nothing I can do to physically help him. He has got to fight his way back from where he is. I think Jasper best chance to come back lies within you."

"What do I do Carlisle?"

"Just talk to him. You just need to be there for him. If he is going to respond to anything it will be to your voice. "I hugged Bella close and led her to the door.

"I will try." She wiped her tears and went inside quietly. That strong silent strength was pouring off of Bella. I smiled as she disappeared into the bedroom. I turned to face Dannie.

"Carlisle is it that bad?" Dannie asked.

"I don't know sweetheart. But it isn't good. I want to stay here for awhile in case they need me."

"No problem darling. I can't imagine being anywhere else."

"Thanks, but I wonder if you could do something for me."

"Anything, just name it dear."

"Could you go across the street and bring me the box and your family bible. I think the key to what is going on with Jasper lies within them. Something has caused his mind to shut down and I got to figure out what it is exactly."

"Sure sugar I will be right back." With that Dannie was gone. Whatever Jasper read had caused him to shatter. I had to figure out what it was so I could figure out what I could do to help him. I knew that the answers to my questions were in that box.

Bella's POV

I entered the room slowly. I was unsure what I was going to find. I looked at Jasper lying on the bed. He was lying so still. If I didn't know between I would swear I was looking at a corpus. If it wasn't for the quiet sobbing that he was doing I would have thought I had lost him for good. I didn't know how to help him. Carlisle had said to talk to him. Carlisle felt like hearing my voice would sooth him. I crawled up in bed and lay next to him. I started to smooth the hair out of his eyes out of his face. "Jasper I don't know if you can hear me but I am here my love. I am not going anywhere. You are stuck with me. Do you hear me? No matter what has happened we will face it together. Please, come back to me." I lay my head on his chest. Somehow, someway he would come back to me. I knew it. He would find his way back to me.

Jasper POV

Oh god what had I done to Sarah Elizabeth? Why didn't she tell me that she was with child? Our child! Why oh lord? Why did you take them on to you? All this time I thought that she had went on and had a happy life. God, WHY? God please tell me why? That was the last thought I had when I had collapsed on our graves. Why? Things had gotten all black for me then. I didn't feel anything. I didn't think anything. There was nothing but this blackness surrounding me. So this was it, this was death. I should have known God would turn his back on me. I had done so many terrible things. Why would God forgive a man so full of darkness and evil? This nothingness is what I deserved. I had lived a terrible life. God had taken all things good from me. I deserved to suffer for all the pain and suffering I had caused. This was my fate. This is where I will remain. I would lie here in this darkness alone too suffer. I don't know how long I had laid there surrounded by the darkness. Was it minutes, hours, or days? I was not sure. When I finally give over and accepted my fate, a peace had come over me and washed me of all the bad feelings I had inside me. In the distance I could see a light; I could hear my name being called. I rose to go towards the light. I could hear music and singing. It was like the voices of angels. It was like they were calling out to me. It was beautiful. I had never heard anything so beautiful. I was racing towards the singing. I had to see where it was coming from.

The Call by The Celtic Women.

Lyrics

Sometimes in this life we hear
Calling from somewhere
Sometimes it is loud and clear
Sometimes it's so softly there

Sometimes it is in the sea
Sometimes in the sky
Sometimes it's in you and me
And sometimes it's a cry

Open your heart
I am calling you
Right from the very start
Your wounded heart was calling too
Open your arms
You will find the answer when
You answer to
The Call

(Máiréad)

Sometimes it is in desire
Or in the love we fear
When the call keeps calling us
Till the fear will disappear

When we have no dance to dance
The call is in the song
When we have no voice to sing
And the call is calling strong

Open your heart
I am calling you
Right from the very start
Your wounded heart was calling too
Open your arms
You will find the answer when
You answer to
The Call

(Máiréad)

Open your heart
I am calling you
Right from the very start
Your wounded heart is calling too
Open your arms
You will find the answer when
You answer to
The Call

Open your heart (your heart)
And you will find the answer to
The Call

I stopped dead in my tracks when I saw her. There standing in front of me was an angel that my heart knew immediately. It was my Sarah Elizabeth. She was breathtaking. I rubbed my eyes. I had to be seeing things. Then I heard her musical laugh."Jasper you cannot rub me away my love. I am standing here right in front of you I promise. Open your eyes and take my hand."

"Sarah!" I asked as I reached out to take the extended hand.

"Yes, it is me love." I touched her hand she was warm and whole.

"Oh my god!" I pulled her into my arms. I kissed her. She tasted just like I remembered."I don't understand! How is this possible? Am I died?"

She touched the side of my face. "No darling. I can't explain the whys , the hows or what is that is going on. Just know it is a gift from a higher power that has allowed me to come to you now. Jasper we don't have a lot of time. I have a lot to tell you and you have a lot of questions my love."

"Sarah, oh my sweet Sarah." I was pushing the brown hair behind her ear.

"Jasper, I know you think I left you a long time ago. But in truth I never left your side. I have been with you always."

"You have seen always been with me? Have you seen all the things I have done?"I hung my head in shame.

"Yes Jasper. I was with you even through your dark days."

"What you must think of me?" She turned my face up to hers.

"Jasper, you were lost. You could not help the things you did. You was not really true to who you are. You didn't realize at first what you were. So how could you judge what was right and wrong. I am so sorry you went through that. You listened to others. You let them tell you who you were and what you needed to do. They were wrong and you suffered at their hands. Sometimes as deeply as the people that you hurt. You still care that guilty with you today. It makes me so very sad. It took me awhile. But I was finely able to get you to hear my voice. It was my voice inside your dead beating heart that reminded you who you were before you met that witch. I was always with you when you were with Maria. It was me that encouraged you to let Peter and Charlotte escape. You were beginning to remember who you were and it was the perfect time to show you that you were better than the things that Maria had you doing. It was also me that helped you be brave enough to leave with them when they came back for you. I have been with you every step of the way my love. I have seen it all. Every accomplishment and every misstep, I have been here." She reached out and touched my chest where my heart should be. I reached out and held her hand to my heart.

"My darling can you forgive me?" I asked.

"There is nothing to forgive love. You followed the path that was before you. You overcame a lot of obstacles. You became the stronger man for the missteps you have had in life, I think. You will overcome this one as well."

"I don't understand Sarah why didn't you tell me about the baby?"

"I did Jasper. I sent you a letter a week before you disappeared. I was so excited. The thought of a little you running around my feet had made me so happy. It was like God was going to give me a piece of you to have with me while you were away. Then…" Sarah looked down as a sad look overtook her face.

"What is it?" I asked touching her face as a tear ran down her cheek.

"A man in a uniform came and told me that you were missing in action. They found your horse dead and blood covering the rocks. He told me that you were going to be presumed to be killed in the line of action since they could find a body. They couldn't say for sure but they were going to list you as dying in the line of action. I could wrap my mind around it. You were gone and yet we had no body to grieve over. It was like poof and you were gone. I know it felt like part of me died right then and there. All my hopes and dreams were gone. In an instant, my world had been turned upside down. I knew that the baby I was carrying inside me was never going to know his father. It was too much for me to bear. I wanted the world to suck me up and take me to where you were. I couldn't wrap my mind around what had happened. Family decided that your mother and I both needed a place to grieve. So they decided to bury an empty casket. The day of your funeral was the first day I felt him move. It was like he was sending me a message to get up and go on. I never completely recovered but I tried Jasper. I tried really hard. I took good care of myself for the baby. I started writing to you in a journal. It seem to help. "

"I am so sorry I wasn't there."

"Oh but to me you were. I heard you voice in my head, I saw you in my dreams. It was those things that got me through. I fought my way back to life for the baby. It was a problem with the delivery that caused my death. The baby was too large for me to have. It made for a rough birth. In the end, I had lost too much blood. But I was able to hold on long enough to know he was a healthy baby boy. I even got to hold him before I passed. I died with a smile on my face Jasper. Don't be sad that I died that way. I am not. When I passed it was gentle and I was in a room filled with love. I knew that our child was proof that our love would go on in our abscense."

"So the baby lived?" I asked with a smile on my face. We had a healthy baby boy. I swear I thought I heard my heart beat in happiness.

"Yes love. We had a healthy baby boy. He was gorgeous. He had my hair color but your eyes. He was the most beautiful thing I had ever seen."

"What happened to him?" I asked. I knew all the Ball family in the last hundred years. I had never met any Whitlock along the way.

"Before I passed, I asked my maw and paw to raise him as their own. I knew that they would take care of him and love him in our absence. And they did. They raised him as their own. They named him Robert Jasper Whitlock Ball. They call him Whit."

I shook my head. "I don't remember there being a Whit in the Ball family tree."

"Love, Whit had died before you made your way back to our home in Tennessee. You knew our grandson through. Robert Lee Ball. They called him Lee." All of sudden I felt like the wind was knocked out of me. "Mr. Lee was my grandson?"

"Yes love."

"That means…."

"That means Dannie is your great, great, great granddaughter."

I couldn't wrap my mind around it. How did I not know it? As I looked at Sarah Elizabeth now, Dannie was the spitting image of her. I had been around my family for nearly 100 yrs and had not known it. They had been good people. Hardworking people that had a love of family, faith and loyalty in their hearts. Those were the things that Sarah Elizabeth and I had passed onto them.

"I don't know what to say Sarah." I shook my head.

"There is nothing to say Jasper. Our love lives on. In the end, all is important is that we were loved and give love. We passed that on to them. You see, no matter the bad things that have happened to you. Your goodness lived on. It still lives on with Dannie."

"Sarah, have you seen her? She looks just like you." I said smiling.

"Yes, Jasper. I have seen her. You know you and her destiny have been intertwined since the moment of her birth. I have always known that we would get to this point."

"I don't understand."

"It isn't my story to tell. The future is off limit in our talk."

"But why?" she took my hands into hers and looked at me.

"Jasper, the future is a big book that needs to be written yet. I cannot tell you of the rumors I have heard. I don't what to influence your decisions. They are yours to make my love."

"How can I have a future now? I am here with you." I asked I didn't want to leave her. I liked it here. It was warm and full of bright light. It was nothing like the dark place I had been. I didn't want to go back to the dark place. Why couldn't I stay here.

"Jasper, love you must go back to Bella. She needs you." Suddenly, I felt my heart skip a beat.

"Bella…."

"Bella is your future love. You have a second chance for happiness. Please don't push that away. You must live it for the both of us." I could see the love and compassion in her eyes."Jasper, it is okay. I love Bella too. She is great beautiful woman with a strong compassionate soul and she loves you. I am so happy for you to find that kind of happiness again."

"But…"

"Jasper, I know you love me. I know a part of me will always remain in your heart. But I am not with you. Bella is there waiting. You got to go back and live this life for the both of us. You got to reach out with both hands and grab it. You got live like you have never lived before. Grab every opportunity out there love. Live for me. Please." She looked at me with tears running down her face.

"Sarah, I will always love you."

"As I will you love."

"Oh Sarah, I have missed you."

"I know my love I have missed you too."

"I don't want to leave. Will I ever see you again?"

"I don't know Jasper. But I will always be right here." She reached down and touched my chest again. The music started playing again. It sounded like the Irish lullabies that I heard as a boy. "Jasper it is time. It is time for me to leave my love." She was beginning to fade. But the music played on.

"Please don't go." I said

"I must. Give Dannie a hug for me and tell Bella that she is a very lucky lady to have you in her heart. But tell her to give you a swift kick in the ass when you need it from me as well. Bye my love."

"Please don't leave….." I was reaching for her to take my hand once again.

The music grew loud and she vanished.

Celtic Woman - The Voice

I hear your voice on the wind
And I hear you call out my name

"Listen, my child," you say to me
"I am the voice of your history
Be not afraid, come follow me
Answer my call, and I'll set you free"

I am the voice in the wind
and the pouring rain
I am the voice of your hunger and pain
I am the voice that always is calling you
I am the voice, I will remain

I am the voice in the fields
when the summer's gone
The dance of the leaves
when the autumn winds blow
Ne'er do I sleep thoughout
all the cold winter long
I am the force
that in springtime will grow

I am the voice of the past
that will always be
Filled with my sorrow and blood
in my fields
I am the voice of the future,
bring me your peace
Bring me your peace,
and my wounds, they will heal...

I am the voice in the wind
and the pouring rain
I am the voice of your hunger and pain
I am the voice that always is calling you
I am the voice

I am the voice of the past
that will always be
I am the voice of your hunger and pain
I am the voice of the future
I am the voice, I am the voice
I am the voice, I am the voice

I sit there as tears rolled down my face. God it was good to see her. Was all this a dream? Was she really here with me? I listen to the words of the song and weep.

Bella POV

It had been 2 week since Jasper last spoke to me. Carlisle still couldn't help him come back to me. He checked on us a lot but never had any advice but to tell me not to give up. The first couple of days were terrible. I had laid there with him and just held him. He didn't make a sound after awhile. The silence was so loud. It like to have driven me crazy. Then I got angry with him. I challenged him to wake up. To prove to me that he actual had a pair of balls. It was during this time that Alice had called me. She told me that Jasper would come back to me. But I would have to be patient and did I really want the first thing he heard me say was to call him a lying bastard. I didn't want that. But I knew that I would go crazy with the quiet. She suggested that I read to him. So after I got off the phone with her. I went took a shower and then marched myself into his library. Alice said to read. So reading is what I am going to do. I went to the shelf and found one of his beloved civil war book. I took the book into the room and I began to read. So here I sit now reading to him. I was praying and begging for him to give me a sign that he heard me. But I was not getting any kind of response. I had cleared two shelves on his bookcase. If we kept this up, I was going to be an expert at the civil war.

"Shiloh was the bloodiest battle in all the civil war. More lives were lost in those two days of battle than any other battle in the war. Shiloh gets its name for the area around the battle…."

"That isn't right. It got its name from the little white church that was close to early fighting. It is strange Shiloh means place of peace there was no peace there…."

Damn did he just say something to me? Was my ears playing tricks on me? Did they hear what they wanted to hear? Or was he finally coming back to me?

"Jasper?"

"Yes, darling I hear you?" He turned and look at me with a smile on his face. I jumped from the chair and leaped into his arms.

"Oh God, Jasper, how I have missed you." I pressed my lips onto his and kissed him with all the passion that I could feel. I let all my passion pour out of me and onto him.

"I am so sorry baby. I should never have left you like that. Can you forgive me?" he asked with his eyes turned down in shame.

"Jazz there is nothing to forgive. I don't know what happened or why it happened? I am just glad that you are with me again. Just please don't leave me again."

"I won't darling. I promise. You are stuck with my sorry ass. How long have I been out?"

"Almost 2 full weeks. We have been worried sick. Carlisle couldn't figure out what was wrong or how to help you. Alice called and told me to stop yelling at you. She told me to read. So I have read you just about every civil war book I could get my hands on."

"Oh darling, now you and me have something to talk about." He said joking. Just as he smiled, I slapped him with a pillow. I then turned to the table next to the bed and handed him a glass. "Here, drink this Carlisle said to give it to you when you woke up." He began to drink the nice warm blood. Carlisle was worried that his bloodlust would be too much when he first woke up. I got up to call Carlisle. But Jasper stopped me.

"Bella, darling, sit with me for a moment before we call Carlisle."

"Sure, I just want him to come and take another look at you now that you are awake."

"He will. I just wanted to talk to you for a moment first."

"Okay Jazz."

"Bella, I need to explain what happened to make me react like that. I feel like I owe you an explanation. I mean it was the morning after such an incredible night. I did the one thing I promise you that I would do. I left."

"It is okay Jazz. You are here now."

"No Bella. It isn't okay. I broke my promise to you. I am so sorry."

"It is okay."

"Bella, I owe you an explanation. I hope you will promise to hear me out till the end of it. No matter how crazy it might sound." I laughed at him then.

"Well, you obviously have forgotten who you are talking too. I do crazy real well. Remember?" He laughed then and took my hand in his hand.

"Bella it started with that box that Carlisle give me. I thought I recognized it. It was a gift that I had given Sarah Elizabeth after we got married. I give her the box to keep the letters I promised to write to her. Inside was things I had given her. Her wedding ring, my letters, and a journal were inside. As I picked them up to touch them, I noticed what looked like a birth certificate but it wasn't. It was actual her death certificate. I knew she had died at some point. But in my heart I had always hoped that she had met someone and lived a full and happy life. In my hands, I held a piece of paper that destroyed that dream. It told me that Sarah had died giving birth."

"Oh my God! Jasper, that is terrible. When did she die?"

"She died about 5 months after my change."

"So the baby was yours?" I was totally shocked. Jasper had a child and he lost both of them. No wonder the grief was too much to bear. No wonder he shut down on me.

"Yes, I had a son."

"Oh Jasper what happened?"

"Well, what I am going to tell you will sound strange but I swear it happened. Sarah Elizabeth came to me as I was shut down. She told me everything that happened. She told me that she got to hold him before she died. That we had a healthy baby boy. Her family raised him as their own."

"Oh Jasper that is so great. I am so happy for you." I reached out and hugged him close to me.

"Okay Bella, you do crazy well. I tell you I talked to my dead wife and you are hugging me and telling me you are happy for me. You don't think I am nuts?"

"No Jazz. Gosh." I picked up a pillow and hit him again.

"You might as well hit me again. Sarah said to hit me for her when I do something stupid." He laughed as he grabbed me and pulled me towards him.

"Sounds like a smart lady."

"She was. She said you are a smart beautiful woman and you are my future."

"She said that?"

"Yes she couldn't give me lots of details about the future but she did tell me that you are in my future."

"I like the sound of that. Did she tell you what happened to the baby?"

"Well, now that is an interesting thing there. Because it seems I have had been in contact with his children and grandchildren."

"Huh?" Okay no he lost me that didn't make sense.

"Bella, my son name was Robert Jasper Whitlock Ball. He had a son who he named Robert Lee Ball who had a son that he named Robert Mason Ball. Mason had a son named Robert Lee Ball. Now Mr. Robert had a daughter named Dannie." He was smiling at me as I processed what he was telling me.

"Does that mean…" I asked while the wheels in my brain turned.

"Yes Dannie is my great, great, great granddaughter."

"Oh my God Jasper that is so cool!"

"I thought so. I should have seen it Dannie is the picture of Sarah Elizabeth. Down to the smart mouth."

"Jasper you got to tell her. She does crazy well too. Jasper you have blood family close to you. That is so incredible. To think you took care of that family all these years and never knew you were truly part of it."

"I thought so too. So you are okay with all of this?"

"Yes Jasper. I think it is wonderful. I can't wait to tell Dannie and Carlisle."

"Me either. So you are okay with me calling them over here now?"

"Yes, as long as you promise you are all mine when they leave."

"I wouldn't have it any other way." He pulled me close and kissed me again.

Jasper POV

Bella got up and went to call them. I finished off another glass of the rich blood that Carlisle had got for me. I was going to have to hunt before I made love to Bella again but for now this glass was helping with my weak feeling. Bella had taken things well. Now if Dannie would take it as well. I decided I needed a shower while I waited for Carlisle and Dannie. I was just coming out of the shower when they came into the room.

"Son, you look well. How are you feeling?" Carlisle asked

Dannie ran towards me and hugged me. This time when I hugged her. I held her a little tighter. It was like I was hugging my child for the first time. I wanted it to last. "Damn Jazz. You scared the shit out of us. Don't do that shit no more. Carlisle has become a hermit. Reading the journal and going over things in that box night and day."

The box, I should have known that Carlisle would have been eager to find out its secrets. I wonder where the box is now.

"Son, is it okay if I examine you. I would really like to know that you are 100 percent okay."

"Sure, no problem Doc. I will be your willing patient."

"Ladies if you will wait in the other room for a moment."

"Sure."

"No problem. I will be right out here Jasper. I will let you tell Carlisle all about your experience." Bella winked at me. She was letting me know that she would not tell Dannie anything. It was my story to tell. I smiled back at her as they disappeared out the door. Carlisle began his exam.

"Jasper, what do you remember before you passed out?"

"I remember everything Carlisle. The box you asked me to look at belonged to my human wife, Sarah Elizabeth. I know that she died giving birth to our child."

"I am so sorry Jazz. I haven't said anything to the girls. It was your story to tell. I couldn't find out what happened to the baby though. I am sorry."

"If I told you I know would you believe me Carlisle?"

"How?" He asked with a confused look on his face.

"While I was gone, Sarah came to me. She told me what happened. She told me that we had a son. Her parents raised him. They named him Robert Jasper Whitlock Ball. He went by Whit."

"Oh yes I remember seeing the name Whit in Dannie family bible."

"Yes, it seems that I have been a part of my family's life and didn't know it."

"How so?"

"Well, Whit had a son his name was Robert Lee Ball. I met him. He was an old man when I met him. He went by the name of Mr. Lee. Mr. Lee had a son and he named him Robert Mason Ball. He went by the name of Mason. I knew Mason really well. He was the first to help me get this place started in the right direction. Mason had a son named Robert Lee Ball. Now Robert is a good friend. He is responsible for the way this place turned out. Robert had a daughter Danielle but she goes by the name of Dannie. I do believe you have met her." I smiled as Carlisle caught back up with me. Then it hit him.

"No way. Dannie is your granddaughter!"

"Yes, she is. I should have known. She is the spitting image of her grandmother. She looks just like Sarah Elizabeth."

"Jasper I am at a loss of words."

"I know I felt the same way. I want to tell her. But I am not for sure how to do it."

"You got to tell her Jay. This is too big to keep it a secret. I will tell her with you. This might help." He pulled a picture out of his pocket. "Here, I have kept this hidden for you." I took the picture. It was Sarah Elizabeth and mine wedding picture.

"Where did you get this?"

"It was in the box. I thought you might want it."

"Yes, thank you Carlisle. So you didn't show Dannie?"

"No, I didn't know how to explain it. I figured if you came back around. I would give it to you and let you explain it to whomever you wanted too. Does Bella know?"

"Yea, I told her when I came too. She took everything really well. So when should we tell her?"

"Now I guess if you feel up too it."

"If you are sure, I would love nothing better."

"Let's go"

We walked out of the bedroom and into the living room. Dannie and Bella were drinking coffee.

"So Carlisle, how is my man?" Bella asked as she came over and sit down beside me.

"He is fine. I can't even find any screws loose." Carlisle said as he smirked at Bella.

"Good. I thought he was good. He seems to be doing well handling things now." Bella said as she smiled at me.

Dannie was still drinking her coffee. I took a good long look at her. She was my granddaughter. Granted, she was a great, great, great one. But she was still my family. It was like I hit the lottery. The chances of a vampire having blood family were slim and yet here I had them in my life all this time. I walked over to her and kneed down beside her.

"I am glad you are ok Jazz. You had us all worried. We told dad you had a really bad case of the flu if he asks how you are feeling."

"That is good Dannie. I wouldn't want him to be upset. He might be if he knew the truth." She smiled at me. Then looked up at Carlisle who was standing in front of her.

"Are you ready to go home love?" Dannie asked. For a moment I heard Sarah voice, and I closed my eyes. How I wished she could be here to know Dannie?

"No sweetheart. Jasper has something he would like to share with you."

She looked at me with confusion on her face. "Okay. What is up Jazz?"

That was my queue. Where did I began to explain this too her? I guess the best was to just start.

"Dannie, I know Carlisle has told you about his change. I think it is time for me to share mine."She just looked at me. "See, I am not as old as the Doc here. But I have been around since the before the civil war. I broke a beautiful woman heart and my mother's by joining the confederacy. I was lucky and had a talent of persuading soldiers to listen to me. So I was promoted rather quickly to the ranks of Major. I got leave one December and I came home. I begged for forgiveness of my mother and of the other woman. It took sometime but I convinced her to marry me. I went back to my unit. Life as I knew it had never been better. Until one day I was on a long lonely road, it should have been an easy mission but it ended up being the beginning of a nightmare. I was rounding up women and child and getting them to shelter before the Union troops moved into town. I thought we had got everyone but I went back to make sure. I came up on 3 of the most breath taking women I had ever seen. But they were not like normal women. They were actually evil vile creatures. The leader's name was Maria. I got off my horse and offered my services. My mother had raised a gentleman after all. I didn't see it coming when they changed me. I burned for days and didn't have a clue what was happening to me. I became Maria's top number one soldier. I was her prized pet. I could control people's emotions plus I had a military background. I was just what she needed. I fought in the southern vampire war for years. I have seen and done things I am not proud of. Two friends helped me to leave that life. They helped me learn a new way to live. But I left them after a while. I felt a pull in another direction. I ended up meeting up with Alice and we joined Carlisle family. You know the rest."

"Okay, that is a sad story I am sorry that you went through so much. Did your past catch up with you is that what upset you?"

"In a way, yes. I found out what happened to my human wife and it broke my heart. I want to show you something. " I handed her the picture. She looked down at the picture. I could feel her confusion grow.

"Jasper is this you?"

"Yea that is my wife Sarah Elizabeth and me on our wedding day."

"That is neat. Wait …..what did you say her name was?" I could see the wheels turning in her head now.

"Sarah Elizabeth Ball."

"No…it can't be. No way." She looked down at the picture again. "Sarah Elizabeth lost her husband in the war. They say she died of a broken heart. It can't be her. " She was shaking her head again.

"She did lose her husband in the war. It was me that she lost. But she didn't die of a broken heart. She died given birth to our child."

"No one ever said anything about a child. This can't be right Jay."

"Sarah, did you ever hear about a family member named Whit?" Carlisle asked.

"I have seen the name in the bible before."

"Well, his full name was Robert Jasper Whitlock Ball. Sarah family raised him as their own son. He lived a good long life and he had a son that he named Robert Lee Ball."

"Wait! I know that name. My father was named after him. He was his grandfather."

"That's right." Then I could see the stunned look on her face.

"Oh Jasper that would mean…." She had tears flowing down her face.

"Yes, I am your great, great, great grandfather."

"No way….Really?"

"Really, no lying about this please. It is too big."

"I swear Dannie. You look just like Sarah Elizabeth. I should have seen it sooner."

"I just can't believe it. Somehow, I got to be dreaming."

"No I swear every word is true. I know that it is going to take you a bit to digest this. But I will be here to answer your questions."

"I got to go Jasper. I am sorry." Dannie got up to leave crying. Carlisle looked at me. "It is okay. I am fine. You must go to her. I hope I haven't upset her too much. Let me know if I can help."

"I will. Call if you need anything."

I sit there on the couch feeling all the emotions that Dannie had sent me before she left. Confusion, fear, scared, love and understanding mixed in there as well. I knew she just had to digest everything I had told her. It was not every day that someone drops a bomb like that on you.

Bella came over and sit beside me. She patted my leg and smiled. "I love you too Bells. I love you too."

A/N: Okay, I couldn't leave you hanging like that. It was just mean. So I wrote sooner. I am so glad that some of you even figured out what happened. I hope I didn't get too weird. But when I started writing this. It was Sarah Elizabeth voice I heard telling Jasper about their kid. It felt right writing it as well. The songs are from the Celtic Women. I love them. I think they sound like Angels. If I get lucky enough to see heaven one day, I think I will be greeted by the most beautiful songs from the angel choir. Yes if you type in the names on to U tube you will get the video that goes with the songs. Well, I hope I didn't go too far off the path. And if you will excuse me I am going to go hide in the corner over there while you all read this. If you would, please send me some love my way that corner gets lonely.

PS Carole get your Kleenex handy. These songs will make you cry as well.