A/N: SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY SORRY! Is that enough apologies? –hopeful smiley face-
This story is almost over just an FYI.
I really enjoyed it as much as you guys have… Well, I hope you've enjoyed it…
CHAPTER 29
SIRIUS' POV
"Has Fayre asked about me?" I asked the redhead, twirling my wand in my hands. She sighed.
"No. Other than her ranting about how much she hates you…"
"She hates me that much? I just… I didn't know where that even CAME from, Lily! I swear!" I pleaded. It had been a week since that disastrous day where I had called the love of my life a 'mudblood freak'. Inside I always knew she was insecure. Especially at home, where she really was a 'freak' like how Lily's sister has always called Lily a freak. I had no idea it was Carley who jumped out in front of me. She still looked like herself… I didn't even notice that the eyes were blue. Until… It was too late.
I guess Carley wasn't the only one who wanted to save my life…
And I didn't think it would hurt her so much. I was just saying it out of anger. I thought she had died. If she had died… I don't know what I would do with myself.
James rolled his eyes and scoffed a little. (He was mad at me. It was like that disastrous day with Snape from last year all over again…)
"Well, Padfoot, it doesn't help that you're sleeping with every available girl in Hogwarts."
"What? That's how I deal with break-ups…" I said slowly… Actually I did it out of anger to show her I moved on like she did. She wasn't wearing my necklace… again. I still wore her pin though. Just inside of my robes where no one could see it. Plus she was dating some older boy…
She keeps denying it… But I just know it.
"THAT'S how you deal with break-ups?" asked Lily, angry, looking from me to James. I held up my hands, defensively. She rolled her eyes and then stomped away, towards her room. Then she stopped before getting to the steps. She quickly turned around and then angrily walked over to James and grabbed his tie, pulling him in for a kiss.
"We still have a date tomorrow," she reminded him before stomping away again. I burst out laughing after she was gone. James shoved me, his face red.
"Shut up."
REMUS' POV
"Katie? Hi, I'm Remus… But you knew that… Uh, can I…? I mean…" I mumbled, blushing furiously. God, Lily was right…I AM like Peter. Katie smiled brilliantly and nodded, walking over to me.
"Yes, Remus?" she asked.
"Have you and your boyfriend-? I mean, are you and your boyfriend still—"
"Dating? Yes…"
"Oh… I just… I um…" Her eyebrows scrunched up together as she tried to figure out what I was just trying to say… But I couldn't say anything. She had a boyfriend.
"Actually, he proposed last night," she said showing me her finger, smiling.
WHAT? THEY'RE ONLY SEVENTEEN!
"Oh! That's…That's GREAT!" I exclaimed, feigning cheerfulness. I guess I did too good of a job because she looked a little scared.
"Remus? Are you—?"
"It's just… Great! Fantastic! I'm just… Yeah. I'm just going to go," I said practically running away. Smooth, Lupin, smooth. I turned the corner and saw Peter snogging Bethany Clearwater…
Even Peter can get girls…
I saw Claudia watching Peter with a disgusted but fascinated look on her face. She caught my eye and widened her eyes and then smiled and pointed over at Peter. I smiled back and snuck over to where Claudia was. We talked about how weird it was watching Peter kiss a real life girl.
Maybe I didn't need love right now. I just need a couple of good friends and I was good. Besides, I couldn't love anyone with my condition…
FAYRE'S POV
"Sirius was asking about you again," said Lily as she opened the door to my room.
"Did you tell him to go die in a hole?" I asked sweetly.
"Uh, no. Because you'd regret that later. Especially if he did it," said Lily sitting down on my bed. I was sitting on the windowsill.
"He wouldn't. He's too busy being shagged by willing desperate girls," I muttered angrily. I turned away as tears pricked at the corners of my violet eyes.
"Wait, you knew about that? I just found out ten seconds ago!" cried Lily. I just was silent. My throat was thick with tears.
"Listen, Fayre. That's just how Sirius' copes. He thinks you and that Lovegood guy are dating…"
"We're not!"
"Then what are you guys doing, Fayre?" asked Lily.
"He just…"
"Writes to you…every day," smiled Lily. I smiled back. Xenophilius was pretty special. Even his name was pretty special. He had beautiful blonde hair and big blue eyes. He was a pureblood and a writer. He currently worked for the Quibbler.
"You wanna see what he wrote to me today?" I asked.
"OH YES!" exclaimed Lily jumping towards me. I squealed as she almost landed on me. And laughed as she blew a lock of red hair out of her face when she landed on her bottom.
I held the letter to my chest and shook my head.
"Nope. You can't look at it," I said. She groaned.
"After all that?"
"Mhmm. Even after all that."
"You suck."
"You love me," I teased. She pursed her lips and then sighed.
"Yeah… I love you," she said getting up, "I have to go. Head Girl stuff. Graduation is coming soon… So, lots of stuff to do."
I watched as she walked out of my room. That's when I looked at the letter again. I had it almost memorized.
Dearest Fayre,
How often I think of you. I'll be working and just the littlest things remind me of you. And we haven't known each other long! This is the weirdest feeling I have ever had. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't do anything right. And when I do something wrong, I can't help but laugh. I feel like a twelve-year-old girl. And trust me, a boy of my age should NOT feel like a twelve-year-old girl… When I do close my eyes, I see your beautiful violet eyes twinkling back at me.
Fayre, I know this is strange for we've only known each other for a week… But I think I'm in love with you.
I wrote a poem for you… It's very short. And it's not my best… But I hope you'll enjoy it all the same.
Love, I hear passion,
Music, I hear words.
Roses, I hear obsession,
Fire, I hear chords.
And I can't get you,
Out of my head.
I don't know you,
Yet my mind is red,
With visions,
Of your violet eyes.
This rose, I've encased with this letter, is a symbol of my love for you. I know, this sounds crazy… But isn't love crazy and stupid? Erratic? Spontaneous?
Fayre, as long as this rose lives, that's how long I will love you. This rose is enchanted to live forever, Fayre. And I'll love you forever and ever and ever and ever…
Okay. I'll just shut up now… Before you think I'm creepy or something…
Love,
Xenophilius Lovegood.
P.S.
Please don't think I'm creepy.
I laughed after I read it for the fiftieth billionth time. I reached for a necklace that was gone from my neck. I put a hand on my bare chest a tear rolling down my cheek.
He's moved on.
So can I.
But my heart couldn't help but whisper with longing: Sirius.
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