So here is the second half of the chapter. Am sorry for the long rambling notes and the technical problems, I hope by shutting everything down I wont have that problem again as it was incredibly frustrating and I have no clue what caused it. So here goes, what we have all been waiting for? I am super scared about this so please send me some love Tink. XX PS THE TECHNICAL PROBLEMS ARE STILL HERE ANY IDEAS WHATS GOING ON? ANSWERS ON A POSTCARD TOO.........
EPOV
I caught her as we fell backwards on the bed and tucked her in front of me again, her back warm against my naked chest. There was still a lot of talking to do but I took my lead from Bella and if she didn't want to talk then I was happy just to hold her close and keep her near me. Trying to soothe her I stroked up and down her back through my shirt in a comforting manner, prepared to ignore the demands of my body to make her happy. I smiled in the dark when I heard her sigh my name, this time she sounded happier and she relaxed against me.
I hesitated for a few seconds as my blood began to pound through my body as I carried on my gentle stroking but my touched seemed to change from soothing to sensual. Heat prickled in my blood and I shifted back from her, unwilling to subject her to my hormonal battles. I gritted my teeth against the urge to rock against her when she moved backwards, pursuing my body. Her delicious bottom was nestled in my lap and my fingers clenched with the urge to hold her against me.
BPOV
Unconsciously I followed the heat of Edwards body as it moved away from me and the air around us seemed to grow thick, heavy and charged with some thing I couldn't name. Something tight flickered inside me and heat blossomed once more in the pit of my stomach as I gave myself over to the feelings racing through me. The logical voice in my brain warned me I shouldn't be feeling this way after all that had happened tonight but my heart and certain other parts of my anatomy felt very differently indeed.
I felt tiny little prickles of awareness all over my body as Edward carried on the sweep of his hands down my back and over my hips to my stomach. My tummy muscles contracted as I felt the glide of his hands over the soft cotton of his shirt. I felt the little pull on the buttons, which snagged against his fingers before he moved away from them. I heard his breath hitch in his throat as I pressed my bottom back against the cradle of his hips and I came into contact with his erection. It was the first time I had felt it against me so blatantly and it thrilled me even as it should have scared me. He stilled behind me, his hands froze on my body and I knew he was waiting for me to retreat. Surprising us both I sighed, and instead of moving I snuggled closer wanting to take away the pulsing heavy ache that had sprung up between my thighs.
EPOV
My hands shifted as I began to stroke up her body, giving her the chance to move away from me if I was going too far, moving to quickly. I wanted to touch her so badly that my hands were shaking but I was scared of hurting her, reminding her of something Black may have done. So I carried on with the sweet slow torture of my touch, loving the way her breathing became heavier as buttons caught against my fingers. I toyed with one or two idly before moving my fingers to the next one down.
"Stop" she breathed and immediately I retreated, trying to move my hands thinking I had scared her, taken this too far.
"Its okay Bella, it stops now you're safe I promise" I breathed heavily in her ear. Surprising me she twisted and suddenly I found my hand inside her shirt, my hands full of warm, plump flesh. Heat flashed though me and I couldn't help the groan that sounded in the darkness.
BPOV
I had wanted Edward for so long, wanted him to touch me like this so badly, I needed him, needed him to make me feel well again. I could feel his hands shake as he cupped and stroked my breasts through my bra and my breathing grew heavier as need and want warred inside me.
My breath broke on another sigh as he cupped me, sliding a long finger under the lace of my bra to stroke the tip of my breasts. I gasped at the unexpected pleasure, at the splinters of sensation surging inside me. Behind me I felt Edward press a hot, biting kisses against my neck, his own breathing shallow and ragged. His body was tense but I knew he was enjoying this as much as I was, as he eased his other arm under my head and around my shaking body. Edward smiled against my neck as he cradled me, holding me as close as he could whilst still allowing him better access to my body, giving him two hands to stroke with me. Double the fun, I thought with a little smile and pushed back against him, my stomach jumping as he groaned in my ear.
I moaned a little at the sensation of his erection pressing against me, I felt like I couldn't get close enough to him and I stirred in his arms restlessly. In a heated rush I grabbed for his hands with mine and held them to my breasts, rubbing myself this way and that, lost in the sensations spreading through me as his clever fingers teased my nipples.
EPOV
My body felt like it was going to explode, each separate race of my heart sending a fresh surge of blood pounding to my erection.
"Touch me, Edward", she whispered hotly.
"I am Bella, I am" my voice was deep and hoarse with need. It was like all my dreams had come true, I never expected Bella to be this comfortable with me after everything that had gone on tonight.
"No, without-"she panted.
I understood what she wanted and with a deft flick of my fingers I opened the front fastening of her bra, bearing her naked breasts to me. I wanted to weep with the beauty before me, my brave beautiful Bella.
She arched her back as I cupped her bare breasts, my fingers stroking her nipples, before deliberately, slowly, retreating across her body, taking the nightshirt from her, leaving her half naked in my arms. I trembled.
In a sudden twisting motion Bella removed her bra and nightshirt. We moaned together as her naked back come into contact with my chest, finally we were skin to skin.
I released one breast and slid my hand down her body as she shifted restlessly again, I wanted to give her what she needed, what she was asking for unconsciously but I fought to stay in control. I stroked my hands over her hips, enjoying her soft moans of pleasure, unable to help my reaction as I moved myself against her bottom. She whimpered and I felt like the most powerful man in the universe for making her feel this way. I loved her so much.
BPOV
Christ Bella, I want to touch you he breathed in my ear, his voice as unsteady as the hands which held me. He was asking permission as his hand skated further down my body, over my stomach to the material of my underwear.
I nodded, stiffening a little, unable to help myself, suddenly embarrassed as Edwards hand skimmed across my panties. My entire body erupted in flames as he touched me through the barrier of my underwear, and I moved restlessly against him, moaning. I felt a soft kiss on my shoulder and I sighed out his name, half delirious with the pleasure his touch was evoking.
"Edward"
"Yeah Bells?"
"You, sweats, off" I panted, feeling as though I were unraveling from the inside out.
"No Bells I of us has to stay on control" he chuckled humorlessly and kissed me again, his tongue flicking across the skin of my shoulder.
"No fair" I gasped as he teased me again, stroking me through my panties, his clever fingers gliding, and seeking, sending moisture rushing to the juncture between my legs.
"I want to touch you", I said breathing raggedly, wriggling against him, and relishing the feeling of his hard on nestling against my bottom. It only increased the tension inside me, the hot heavy ache.
"Not yet Bella, this is about you all for you" he sighed, his palm moving rhythmically against me, sending sensations shooting through my body and I shifted, wanting, needing him to touch me under my panties where I was hot wet and aching.
"Please" I panted, twisting this way and that, my body shaking and arching.
EPOV
I shuddered as Bella gasped and writhed in my arms, she wanted more and I prayed I had enough self control left to give her what she wanted and not take anymore for myself.
Slowly, torturing us both, I eased a finger under the lace, finding her hot and wet. We both moaned at the touch as she closed her legs around my hand, trapping it there as I rubbed her gently, knowing just where to touch to bring her most pleasure. She was soft and hot and wet and I wanted to explode into her, to release the pleasure building inside me.
BPOV
My breath lodged in the back of my throat as pleasure glittered through me and my eyes closed as I moved helplessly against his touch. Slowly so slowly I almost didn't notice at first, I felt a long finger part me and push deep inside me. I cried out, not in shock or pain but in need. The feel of Edward moving his finger inside me, stretching me, filing me was unbelievable. My body seemed to grow tighter and tighter as he moved his finger in and out of me, gently at first but then with more speed. His other hand spread me open to his touch and he stroked me, teasing, spreading my heat and wetness with his fingers. My hips moved against his hands and even though I was embarrassed I couldn't help myself, as lightning shimmered through me. I was helpless to fight the building tension inside me and I panted heavily
"Edward, I don't know whats happening", I gasped as his finger increased in speed, dipping in and out of me, rubbing, faster and faster.
"Don't think Bells, just feel me", he groaned, spreading my wetness over me gently.
EPOV
I was filled with need but also a primitive urge I didn't recognize at first. As I touched her more deeply it gradually dawned on me, I wanted to be the one to give her first orgasm in the same way I had been her first kiss.
It didn't take long and within seconds, her breathing quickened and she panted and squirmed against me, moving in counter with the touch of my hands. The suddenly Bella cried out in my arms she came, I watched her convulse thinking she was the most perfect thing I had ever seen.
BPOV
I cried out as wave after wave of pleasure washed over my body, my muscles aching and tight. My vision blurred as I came, my body arching against Edward, a helpless high-pitched cry coming from me as I spiraled out of control. The sensations inside me went on and on as my pleasure reached a crescendo of beauty I hadn't even known was possible and I slowly began to float back to earth.
My eyes fluttered open and I became aware that Edward was watching me with heavy eyes. I was embarrassed; here I was half naked in bed with Edward who had just watched me cum. I wanted to curl up in a little ball and hide myself from him
"Don't Bells, please", he said reading my intention. I took a deep shuddering breath and turned towards him, my eyes staring at a spot in the darkness I couldn't even see.
"OhmyGod! I am so embarrassed" I murmured covering my bare breasts with my arms.
"Don't be Christ Bells, you are so beautiful", he said stroking my cheek, looking down at me with love in his eyes How did I miss it for so long?
I shrugged lazily; still feeling a little shy as I realized I wasn't done yet. As he looked at me, his eyes full of wonder and need I wanted more. I wanted to finish this, I still needed him.
"Can I touch you too?" I asked blurting out my question in a hushed, embarrassed whisper.
EPOV
I chuckled, despite the need still raging in me "Eventually when I've calmed down a little"
"You're doing it again", she complained, touching my chin with her lips, relaxing against me.
My mind went blank for a second with her touch.
"Doing what?"
"Rejecting Me", she pouted, snuggling her naked breasts against me. Heat began to burn inside me, my body throbbed with repressed need as her nipples pebbled against me. This was harder than I thought.
"Bella, I'm not rejecting you, but you've been through so much lately, its alright I don't expect you to" I said, clenching my teeth against the savage need still burning in me when she moved in my arms again. I heard the little whimper she gave and tried to ignore it, I wanted to do the right thing.
"But I want to Edward, I want to make you feel good" she said and placed both her palms on my naked chest, hauling herself closer. Don't you want me?
"Move your hands down a bit and tell me what you think" I said softly, daring her, hoping she didn't and praying she did. I was so desperate for her touch that I knew I wouldn't last long and Id always had such good self-control where sex was concerned. I didn't want to embarrass us both.
Bella scooted closer and placed hot wet kisses along my jaw line, dragging her hands across my chest, making me shudder and shiver.
BPOV
His skin was slightly salty and tasted so good, that I briefly wondered if he would taste that good all over and then found that strange sensation curling in my belly again. My tongue darted out and licked him, thrilled at the way groaned beneath me. He pulled at my head gently, sliding me up to reach my mouth and captured me in a ravenous kiss. I slide my tongue between his lips and threw my arms around his neck, tangling them into the messy bronze hair I loved so much. I poured my heart into the kiss and kissed him with all the love I felt. As we kissed I could feel the delicious friction of his hair roughened chest tickle the bare skin of my breasts, my nipples springing to attention one more.
Feeling daring I slowly slid my hands down his body and over his chest, down to his stomach and the waistband of his sweats, feeling the slight tremor beneath them. I stroked a finger along his sculpted stomach, feeling the muscles contract at my touch, surprising me. I toyed with the material of his sweats wanting him to understand what I wanted, needed.
"Did you like that?" I breathed in wonder, puling my mouth from his unable to believe that I could have such an effect on him.
Edward groaned and nodded, his lips searching for mine in the dark.
I hesitated for a second before I cupped him through the material of his sweats, feeling his power, his hardness. Oh. My. God. He felt so large in my little hand, so thick and powerful. I was a little intimidated by his sheer size.
Edward groaned again, his breathing harsh and ragged as I slipped a hand inside the waistband of the sweats and slowly pushed them down his legs before returning to where I wanted to touch him most.
I was startled to feel he was hard and strong but like steel in velvet, so soft. He was hot, so hot in my hand. Glancing at him I watched as he closed his eyes as my fingers curled around him, sliding and exploring, drawing low hoarse sounds from him as he throbbed and pulsed like life itself in my hand.
Bella he gasped between clenched teeth after only a few minutes "I don't know how much more I can take"
I touched my mouth to his chest, my lips drifting over his taught skin, as I continued to stroke him, loving the harsh ragged sounds he made. I could feel him tremble under my mouth and hear his tortured breathing as I stroked him.
"Edward, I want you I want this" I murmured clenching my fist around him, feeling the tiny drop of moisture appear at his tip.
"Bella, no we should wait" he groaned, moving against my hand, pulsing, throbbing, unable to help himself.
"Please Edward, I need this", I whispered at his lips, feeling him tremble under me. He froze and then he reached for me, taking my hands in his and drawing them to his mouth, before kissing my palms and tucking them against his chest.
"If we do this Bella, we take it slow and anytime I do anything you don't like, you have to tell me okay?" he said pressing a soft kiss to my forehead as he panted heavily.
"Okay" I breathed, a wobbly grin breaking out across my face.
EPOV
Passion and need coiled tightly within me as I felt myself grow harder still, at her breathy plea . My hands drew hers up my body and I attempted to calm my breathing and my raging lust. Tumbling her beneath me I bent my head and pressed hot kisses across her body, taking the tip of one pouting breast into my mouth, rolling it on my tongue. Beneath me Bella moaned and squirmed our legs tangling, only the barrier of her panties preventing our joining. I felt her swell and tauten under my mouth as I used my hands to skim her panties down over her hips. She was wet and hot as I slid a finger along her heated folds, seeking the nub of her desire.
"Edward" she moaned, shivering with desire, moving her hips against me, urging me to hurry. I gasped at the sensation of her rocking against me and fought the urge to plunge into her, I had to make sure she was ready for this. Moving my mouth from her breasts I placed hot kisses down her body to her belly, feeling it quiver beneath my touch as I moved lower.
BPOV
My eyes fluttered closed only to snap open seconds later as I felt his mouth press a butterfly kiss at the top of each of my thighs, his hands opening me to him, creating sensations I had never felt before. I clutched at the bed sheet beneath me as Edward breathed soft kisses over my hips and thighs.
"Open your legs for me Bella" he commanded gently.
I froze, tense, scared in a way that had nothing to do with fear. Nerves, it was nerves. I felt Edward tense and still too but he said nothing, he simply waited for me to make my choice. Gradually I opened to him, knowing I was exposed to him. I shook as I bent my knees, making room for him their. I felt him groan against my skin as he pressed his mouth to me, inside my thigh working his way higher and higher to the center of my need, which was throbbing and pulsing.
I whimpered as he kissed me gently, just where I needed him and shifted, almost pressing myself onto his lips. Suddenly I felt the stroke of his tongue seeking and finding the hidden bud between my legs and I almost leapt from the bed with a cry. The pleasure, which that simple touch evoked, was like nothing I had ever felt before, and as he licked me gently I gasped and moaned and writhed in his arms. I reached out and grabbed the pillow from behind my head, holding it over my face as Edwards tongue plunged into me. It muffled my screams as I came again, bucking my hips and clawing at Edwards hair, holding him where I wanted him.
When I could open my eyes I could make out Edward lounging beside me, his eyes gentle, his smile wicked. He touched his lips to my forehead and soothed a hand down my heated, clammy body, gathering me close to him again. I was trembling, tiny tremors still rippling through me as I became aware of the hardness of him against my thigh. This wasnt over, not by a long shot.
"Edward" I breathed feeling tears prickle at my eyes, I had never felt so safe, so loved, so cherished.
"Yes Bella?"
"I love you" I murmured, our eyes locked as I pulled him over me. I knew what I needed from him now and I couldn't wait a second longer.
"I Love you too Bells" he said in a shaking voice. I slid my hands down to his behind, and felt his hips flex, the tip of his erection nudging at my moist and swollen core.
I gasped as he pushed slowly into me, his clever fingers holding me open to him to ease his passage as he rocked against me, entering me inch by inch. I felt full, and stretched and couldn't help but stiffen, as there was pain. Brief and burning but it was there. Tears seeped from my eyes, not tears of pain but of wonder and of love. He was part of me. Edward was mine and I was his. He was inside me, part of me.
"Bella" his voice was gruff "Bella please don't cry, its okay. Ill stop baby" he crooned and made to pull away from me. Panicked, I locked my legs around his waist and lifted my hips to his. I couldn't let him go. Edward was still, as far as I could tell he wasn't even breathing.
"don't leave me Edward" I murmured and raised my face for his kiss, shivering as I felt him move a little inside me.
"Bella, my very own Bella" he said against my lips, as he began to move against me, rocking his hips in a slow steady rhythm that had me trembling and crying out in seconds.
I felt him shudder as I slid my hands to his hips to hold him to me as his thrusts picked up pace, our mouths mimicking the movements of our lower bodies. I tried to match him thrust for thrust, lifting my hips, helpless to stop the heat flaring in me once more.
EPOV
Oh fuck. She was so hot and tight and beautiful and perfect. I had never felt pleasure like this, knowing I was her first filled me with love and pride and determination to make this good for her. The feel of her legs around me, pulling me closer, her hands biting into my skin all served to send me over the edge and I knew I wouldn't last much longer.
"Don't move", I groaned hoarsely, knowing I was close to cumming.
"Why?" she breathed, staring up at me, moving experimentally making us both moan.
"I cant control-"I gasped my voice breaking, as she rolled her hips upwards again, and I felt her walls milking me.
Fire licked along our skins as I rocked against her slowly in return, making Bella gasp and shiver. I leaned down and captured her mouth with mine, my tongue mimicking the action of my hips. Groaning I pounded into her as her nails slid down my back, pulling me closer still, and I found myself riding the wave towards an orgasm. I stroked down her soft body, across her hip to cup her bottom and hold her still for my thrusts, as we ground against each other, my other hand seeking the nub between her thighs where we were joined. My eyes shut tight, my body sweating as I fought off the pleasure I knew was coming.
BPOV
I wrapped myself around Edward and held him fiercely, feeling the tremors that tugged against his control, kissing him feverishly. My fingers tangled in his hair as I felt my heartbeat building, my breathing coming faster as Edward groaned harshly and moved against me once more. I cried as I gave myself over to the shuddering exquisite sensations, the convulsions wracking my body as I came. I felt Edwards thrusts increase in pace as he too lost control and he threw back his head, to groan low and harsh as he came. Then we convulsed together, blind, deaf and helpless to anything but the pleasure wracking our tangled limbs.
I felt tears on my face as the spasms moved through us both endlessly and Edward spilled his love inside me. As I headed back to earth I could feel his damp skin against mine, his lips trembling as he buried them into my neck and nibbled at me mercilessly. He was shaking in my arms, trembling and shuddering as he fought to catch the breath that was as elusive him as it was to me. My heartbeat seemed to slow by degrees and I touched his hair, loving the feel of it in my fingers as he attempted to breath. I sighed and moved and was shocked to feel that he was still a part of me. He tried to move away from me, but I clasped his hips with trembling hands.
"Don't leave me" I sighed and heard him chuckle.
"Bells, I love you but I need a little time here" he said and rolled to his side, taking me with him. I touched his face in the dark and traced his smile, seeking my lips. He kissed me gently, lazily while we snuggled close.
EPOV
"Are you okay Bella, I didn't hurt you?" I breathed softly, many minutes later when I could manage to form a coherent sentence, looking into the face of the girl I loved more with each passing second.
"No you didn't hurt me...is it always like that?"
I shook my head and smiled "Only with us, especially if I can last longer but it seems like I have very little control around you next time will be better"
"Next time? Can you do it again?" she blushed as she touched my damp hair almost reverently and I looked into her wide and fascinated eyes. I didn't need to see her too clearly to know she must be blushing bright red.
"Oh yeah" I said his voice husky and loaded with meaning, as I kissed her softly, reverently, feeling the tug of tenderness and desire, my blood already pooling.
"Show me?" she invited, her hand sliding down to capture me, stroking me and I felt my eyes roll back in my head.
"I fucking Love you Bella" I managed to gasp out as the delicious friction over took me and I was lost in the heaven that was my Bella.
SO THATS ABOUT IT FOR THIS STORY THERE WILL BE AN EPILOUGUE IF I EVER FIGURE OUT WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON WITH THIS BLOODY THING...IF ANYONE KNOWS ANYTHING ABOUT WHY MY WORD DOCUMENTS ARE SUDDENLY NOT COMING ACROSS PROPERLY I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER, IT TAKES TOO LONG TO HAVE TO RE READ AND ADD THESE THINGS BACK IN..... ANYONE LOVE TO YOU ALL.....XXXXXXXXXXXXXX
