Skwisgaar read over the text that Toki had sent him, something about it rubbed him the wrong way. He tried to focus on his guitar playing and to not think about it, but it didn't help. He only stopped every three minutes to pick his phone up and read the text over again. Something about it felt off, it didn't feel like a casual "let's hang out" text, it felt like some sort of goodbye. When time was up and he knew he could go to Toki's room he tossed his guitar down onto the couch and made his way to the younger man's room.

He knocked on the door, but nobody answered. He couldn't hear a single sound from inside of the room, when he walked inside he found it empty to his confusion. Skwisgaar looked around the room for signs of the younger man but didn't find anything, though the opened bathroom door might be a sign. When he stepped over the threshold into the bathroom there was this feeling, he couldn't explain it or rationalize it. It was this overwhelming fear and panic, something horrible was about to happen and he didn't know how to prepare himself for it.

"Tokis" he called the other man's name, his voice echoing in the room.

A steady dripping caught his attention. He made his way to the source of the sound arriving at the bath tub.

Now he could place the feeling of fear and panic.

He could practically hear his heart pounding in his ears, every muscle in his body was locked as his eyes tried to figure out if he what he was looking at was real or just some sick fucking joke.

Toki lay in the full tub of red tinged water, one arm out stretched over the side of the tub the skin soaked with blood that ran down his hand dripping from his finger tips. A far too familiar box knife lay bloodied and discarded on the floor. His head was back, eyes closed, his skin looked paler than usual.

It felt like the Earth stopped moving, everything in space and time was on hold while Skwisgaar tried to get past the pounding in his ears and attempted to assess the situation. The steady dripping brought him back into reality, a pain in his chest and a sick feeling in his gut made him remember how to walk. He knew he was moving, but it didn't exactly feel like he was. Skwisgaar found himself by the tub, he reached into the red water wrapping his arms around the younger man's waist and hoisting him up out of the tub and out onto the bathroom floor. Skwisgaar knelt on the floor with Toki in his arms almost cradling him. He caressed his cheek putting out of his mind how cool his skin felt, his shaking fingers pushed through his wet hair getting it out of his face.

"Toki...Tokis come on this isn't funny."

Skwisgaar grabbed hold of his right wrist gripping firmly, there wasn't anymore bleeding it was all over with by this point. Too late, god he was too late.

"No no, no no...This isn't...No" He repeated to himself.

"Baby please wake up, why would you fucking do this? You idiot, you selfish asshole."

He held Toki's body close to him, resting his head against his chest, a hand on the back of his head. Skwisgaar sat hunched over his body as if protecting him from everything he should have protected him from before. His body trembled, tears splashing onto the pale skin of his friend.

"This isn't fair! Come back to me...Come back to me damn it, this isn't fucking fair. I loved you...I loved you"

When he first felt warm air against his skin he didn't think anything of it beyond wishful thinking, but when he placed his fingers on the pulse point in the younger man's neck and could just feel something there he realized he was right. Skwisgaar pulled his phone from his pocket calling in for the staff in the ER to come to the bathroom, just barely telling them the situation. He remained on the floor going between fear and relief as he stroked his fingers through Toki's hair.

"You're going to be okay, don't ever leave me again. I love you"

He allowed the paramedics to take Toki from him even though a new wave of panic came over him at having to release him. He felt lonely and cold now, but Toki wasn't dead. That was the important thing, but under the relief Skwisgaar felt he thought about how he knew Toki had been dead when he had found him.