Chapter 29
I don't own Criminal Minds. I am so sorry if any of you were sad reading the last chapter but please continue reading. My evil part of my brain took over. I am sorry about that!
I was in my hospital bed when Rossi came in. I knew it was bad news. I could just sense it. "I am so sorry Reid. I am so, so sorry." Rossi sobbed. Something must have happened to Morgan, I thought. "Tell me what happened. Please" I said calmly.
He shook his head "I can't. It's just too painful. I just can't explain how sorry I am. Morgan died in the line of fire earlier. Hotch is in a very bad way and Blake is in surgery. JJ and Henry look fine but the hospital is still monitoring them. They are still monitoring you and Garcia but you two should be able to leave in a couple of days. I am so sorry. I didn't know he had gone in alone." Rossi paused for a long time. It was as if he really wanted to avoid anything to do with Morgan's death. It was a horrible awkward silence for at least ten minutes.
He finally started to continue although I could hear his voice wobble as if he was going to cry "He got shot in the head. We believe the person who shot him killed himself soon after because we heard two gunshots but we will have to ask JJ if she saw anyone else up there. But as far as we know there were four people in the basement at the time of Morgan's death; JJ, Henry, Morgan and the man who killed him. I am so sorry Reid. I know this will be hard on you but please don't tell Garcia yet. She doesn't need the stress. I will tell her when we all know what happened. I really hate it. I should have been the one in the basement, I should have been the one dead. I am sure it wouldn't as painful as it will be now Morgan's gone. It's my entire fault. I don't know how I am going to tell Garcia." Both of us started to cry.
This felt worse than when Maeve died. It felt as if part of my heart had been ripped out just after it had started to repair. My mum's death had been particularly hard on me but Morgan's death I knew would be much harder to deal with. He was a college, a friend. He was like a brother to me. I had to see him. I couldn't believe what Rossi was saying. I didn't want to believe what he was saying but I knew that he was right. Why would he lie about something like this? He wasn't like JJ and Hotch with Prentiss's death. He looked really sincere and depressed. He looked like a man who thought that all the woes of the world were his fault. He didn't look like he was lying. He wouldn't lie about this surely? I thought.
"What was Morgan thinking? When he went inside the basement alone?" I sobbed. Rossi just shook his head and said sadly "I really don't know, kid. He was being really stupid but I think he thought he was doing the right thing?"
I shouted "The right thing for who? Penelope is pregnant and his baby will now grow up without a dad, the team are even weaker without him. Can you seriously think he thought he was doing the right thing, Rossi?"
"I understand. I seriously understand kid. I bet he knew all the risks but I reckon he had some reason to go in alone. I just don't know what it is yet…" Rossi sighed. I was still angry but somehow Rossi's voice of reason had calmed me a little. "Ok, when are you going to tell her?" I asked. He just looked to the side and whispered
"Spencer, I really don't know. She is vulnerable and at the moment I just think she just doesn't need this news but I know I will have to tell her before she leaves the hospital. Honestly I don't want to tell her but I think I will have to. I need someone to tell her with me. I can't do it alone. I was going to wait until you, JJ and Henry had all been cleared to leave but she is already asking questions. Personally I don't think JJ is up to talking to anyone about Morgan's death but I don't think Penelope will be too emotional for Henry to see. I think the only one up to coming with me is you. I know both of us are upset but I am sure it would help if you came with me. Please can you come to tell her with me?"
Before I had even had time to process all the stuff Rossi had just said I nodded. I don't really know why but I nodded. Maybe it was because only me and Morgan had a relationship so strong that I knew it had to be me to tell his girlfriend, his pregnant girlfriend. Maybe it was that I had to be there for his mini family in the making. Maybe it was because I hated the fact that Morgan had died and I had to be with someone who was as close if not closer to Morgan. Maybe I just had to be close to someone who understood what I was going through. The only one who would understand would be Garcia. She lost her mum and her step dad in a car accident when she was a teenager. I lost my mum about a week ago and now I had l lost my brother, Morgan. This had been the worst week of my life…
